Broken Moon

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AN: So, what did you think of the triple whammy! I hope that it gives you plenty to read for the weekend. I am going to post this last chapter and then... I will write more on Embry and MOON! Yes, finally!

Recap of Two Lonely Months, Part IV

I stood in Embry's porch. I could hear him pacing around the living room. It was dark outside and the rain was falling profusely. I looked down at my shirt and noticed that I wasn't wearing any bra. I could see the outline of my nipples and I sighed with embarrassment. I didn't want Embry to think that I came here to seduce him. I wanted to see him. Jared Jay and Paul Maximus had been pressuring me to see him. Leah told me that Embry wasn't eating. Romeo Black said that if I didn't he wasn't going to hunt with me anymore. My father also told me that Embry was in bad shape and Daddy Jacob told me to let him suffer for a few more days. I was worried for Embry. I had never stopped caring about him. I couldn't even get him out of my mind.

I had done so much soul searching and I came to the conclusion that I cared for him deeply. It was necessary and urgent that I see him. I didn't want to live without him anymore. I didn't love him, but I needed him. I definitely wanted his friendship. I missed his kind smile and gentle words. I know that we didn't get to interact long enough, but I was his imprint. There was a special bond that connected us. He was my soul mate. Perhaps, that was the reason why I felt so safe and protected. I felt attached to him.

I decided to forget about everything that happened before I met Ruben. I couldn't do a thing about him anymore. He was Addivani's business now. He was a married man and a father. I didn't have the right to loose sleep over that, anyways. I had been given a second chance at life, when Embry came in to my life. I would take that chance and embrace it. I didn't care what the fuck happened in the end. I didn't want to live a life of what if! I wanted to experience every aspect of life. I wanted to love, be loved and be in love. I would only give Embry Call that chance.

Deep down in my heart, I knew that he would be the one to erase my pain. He was the answer to all those silent prayers and wishes. I found my better half and I was going to fight for him. At least, I would try to fight for him. I needed to convince my heart of letting go and starting a new. It's easier said than done!

I could hear Embry's crazy rants, as he trudged up and down his large living room. Was he drunk? Werewolves didn't get drunk with beer!

"Hi, Leah... I came to promote you back to Beta." he said softly. I doubt that! She liked her free time with her mysterious boyfriend (Max).

"Hi, I just wanted to see if you had sugar!" he said in a falsetto voice. Was he really serious? I stood there by the door, petrified to move or speak. His voice sent chills up my spine. It was so deep and husky. He sounded so manly and raspy.

"I came, because someone called me RESTRICTED and I thought it was you!" he said in his normal raspy voice.

I wanted to laugh at the crazy excuses he would come off, just to see me. I needed to make this man happy. He was going insane because of me. I felt guilty as usual.

"I heard Moon screaming and I came to... fuck! Ten thousand and a million times fuck! Nothing would do! I just need to see Moon! "

Ha! That one was so funny! I knew that I should be slamming my fists against the door and demanding him to let me in, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I heard Embry run upstairs and that's when I made up my mind and took an initiative to fight for my happiness. I knocked on his door and waited, hoping patiently that he would open.

To my surprise he did. It took him a while, but he opened it. I froze when I saw his unkempt hair and the smoldering of his eyes.

"Hi," I said shyly, feeling drops of rain running down my face. I gently wiped them off and continued to stare at him. I noticed him staring at my breast and felt the heat on my cheeks grow stronger.

"Mallory." he whispered nervously. His eyes were still fixed on my breast and I wanted to slap him for being a fucking pervert. I ignored his blatant disrespect and continued with my mission.

"I... um, I wanted..." I trailed off, my words failing me. Why did he make me feel so nervous? I wasn't so pretty. I was pasty white and I was too skinny. Why was he staring at me like he wanted to fuck me?

"I wanted to see... you... if you ate." I quickly added. That was the stupidest thing to say! It was too much. I didn't have the willpower to tell him that I wanted to give us a chance. I turned around and began to trudge my way out the door.

"Wait, wait, Mall. Where... where the fuck are you going? Why are you leaving so fast? It's pouring out there! You can get sick!" he said, his voice full of concern, as he grabbed my arm and forced me to look at him.

"It's alright, Em." I said softly, taking a step back. He was making me feel different. I couldn't describe it. "I've never gotten sick."

"Oh, I didn't know! Are you hungry?" he asked, raking his hair with his fingers. Starving!

I shook my head and sighed. I had to leave. I wasn't prepared for the feeling of awkwardness that lingered in my heart. It felt like a shadow following me. I stared in to his eyes and I felt my own world shifting. I ran to him and wrapped my arms around him.

Please, keep me safe!

His body pressed against mine, was what I needed. It was what I have been longing for, for the last two months. All this time, I had felt empty, alone and he was the answer to my life. I needed his arms to feel complete. I had missed him so much. I wish that I could love him with the same intensity that he loved me.

I pressed my body tight against his and hoped that he would never let me go. I inhaled his musky scent and memorized it. I would never want to forget the feeling of being held by him.

I unwrapped my arms from around his waist. "Embry," I said lowly, snaking my arms around his neck. I got on my tiptoes to reach for his mouth, but he started to kiss my cheek.

"Mallory Moon, I've missed you!" he said, planting kisses on my face. His lips were so soft and I needed them. I wanted to taste him. I had to replace the memory of Ruben's and Jared Jay's kisses with his. I needed to forget about everything and just give in to his love. But, I am so scared!

"I have to go." I said, pushing him away from me. "I came to see you. I needed to know that you were alright. I wanted to know that you were still alive."

My hands arms fell to my side and I felt defeated by my self-pity. I felt so empty without him in my arms.

"You gotta be kidding me! You just got here. Stay a little bit longer, please." he said desperately, as he took my hand in his.

I couldn't stay. I had to leave for a minute and collect my thoughts. I feel suffocated. You are screwing up with my mind and heart. "I can't."

He kissed the back of my hand. There were so many things that would not let me give in to his love. I had to overcome all those obstacles.

"Stay, princess." he begged, pressing me tighter to his body. He wouldn't let me go. I didn't want him to let me go. My heart wanted to run, but my body wanted to stay beside him. I was struggling with inexplicable forces.

"Embry, I just came to see you. I know that I... I have to go." Liar, you don't want to go! " I'm hurting without you, Embry." I whispered, letting go of all my inhibition and tasting his soft lips.

"I'm hurting without you, Mall." he whispered against my lips. His eye were closed, and I kissed him again. This time it felt different. I couldn't describe it. I wanted to taste his lips once again. They were magical.

"I missed you so badly. I apologize if I hurt you. It was never my intention to hurt you or break your heart. I had to run and meditate on what was happening. I was mad and I needed to clear my thoughts, Mall. I was upset, but never with you, angel." he said swiftly.

"You weren't!" I said surprised, wrapping my arms around his waist. He shook his head and kissed my forehead gently.

He was apologizing to me! I felt like such a bitch! I hated myself even more, for making him think that I had been away because he hurt me. He was too good for me! I didn't deserve him. How could I face him, when I kissed Jared Jay and thought incessantly of Ruben? He was thinking that he hurt me all this time..

"I want to love you and protect you. I don't want to see you cry anymore. I want to make you smile. I want to take away everything that clouds your smile. You deserve the world." he said, grabbing a strand of hair and wrapping it around his finger.

I couldn't hep it anymore. I felt so guilty and ashamed, tears began to fall down my face. It was too much. He was unknowingly punishing me for my mistakes.

He bent his to kiss my cheek, but I turned my face to his. My lips met his again in a passionate kiss. His kiss was soft and tender. There was no hurry, it was soft. It was amazing. There was so much gentleness in the way he wrapped his arms around me and brought me closer to him. My lips were parted, when his tongue glided over my lips and then inside my mouth. He tasted sweet and our lips molded perfectly together. His mouth was the drug that I needed to forget all my worries. I could die in his arms. His touch was what I had imagined. It was full of tenderness, patience and understanding. I had been so blinded. I decided to give in.

I brought my hips closer to him, my drenched clothes, damping his. I wanted to get closer and just let his kisses erase all my sadness. He placed his hands on each side of my hips and lifted me closer. Our faces were now leveled. He was so closed to me; I could feel his breath on my face, prickling my skin. I wound my arms around his neck, bringing him closer to me. I couldn't get enough of his gentleness and loving arms. I had to keep kissing him, until I had surrender my heart to his. I think I am falling for him.

I felt desire to possess his entire heart. I didn't see him as an excuse to forget Ruben. I had gotten over him. Ok, maybe I had, not completely. I wasn't interested in any one else, in that specific moment. I wanted Embry and I wanted to love him. He was slowly burning all the walls that I had placed around my heart.

I kissed his lips, prodding my tongue inside his warm mouth. He tasted like sweet honey. I was intrigued about how it would feel to...

I brought my hands to his face, wanting to know if I occupied his thoughts. I was wrong. He was thinking of things that truly hurt my feelings. I felt dejected and abandoned. I didn't want him as a cheap distraction to forget my pain and sorrows. Maybe I did, but that was before I tasted his lips!

I didn't want him thinking that I still wanted Ruben. I didn't! Not anymore! I wanted to be with him! I was not an angel that got her wings broken! I was a lost cause. I didn't deserve him, but I wanted to give us a try.

I slowly pulled away from him and looked in to his eyes. "I heard your thoughts..." I trailed off, removing my hands off his face and looked down.

"You... you heard my thoughts?" he asked incredulous.

I nodded, struggling to get out of his arms. I would prove to him, that I was not a fallen angel. I was a confused woman. I just needed time to think. I wanted... "I heard your thoughts and I am so very sorry that I have to put you in that position." I paused, sobbing.

"I can't forget him!" Why did I say that? I could forget him! I had forgotten him, didn't I? "I have tried, but it's not something that you can do over night. It's been five months since it happened and I still can't forget him. I hate him for falling so easily under Addivani's trap. I hate him so much, but I can not seem to get him out of my heart, my mind and soul!" I cried angrily. I still loved him!

He placed me down on the floor and took a step back. I fucked it up! I had to get out of here!

"I don't want to hurt you, Embry. I also don't want to use you. But I need to forget him. I want to erase his kisses and place you in my heart. I want you to erase his touch from my skin and replace him with yours. I want to love YOU!" I sobbed, kneeling on the floor and grabbed his pants in my hands.

"I need to love you! I feel safe with you! I miss you when we aren't together! I know that I can love you! Please, help me learn to love you!" I begged, staring up at him, my tears falling mercilessly. Help, me, please!

He knelt in front of me, placing his hand on my shoulder. "I want you to love me. I will do everything that I can to make you fall in love with me. I won't give up on you, because you have placed all your trust in me, angel." he said gently.

"I know I will fall in love with you. I want to love you, Embry." I said, placing my hands against his face and kissed his lips.

"You will fall in love with me, I have no doubt about it. I know it will eventually happen, but... not like this." he said, standing up to his full height.

"I understand!" I muttered as I stood up."I have to go. I am sorry that I caused you so much trouble." I sobbed. I will forget him, Embry. I will for you! I will do it for you and for me. I want to have a future with you. I will love you!

***

It was still raining when I got back to my Aunt Leah's house. I was tired and hungry. Another day that I didn't go hunting. I took a warm shower and made my way to the kitchen. Leah was no where in sight. She had gone to the twins' apartment again.

It was good to be alone. I didn't want to be interrogated by her. She knew of my inner struggles. In a way, she was very intuitive. She could read me like the palm of her hand. There was so much that I could take in one freaking day. I wanted peace and quiet; a chance to think things through. I needed time to meditate and... fucks! I had fucked everything up, but what else was new. I was good at screwing things up. I was a klutz and just.

I ambled to the kitchen after my shower and prepared a grilled cheese and poured some lemonade in a plastic cup. It was the best that I could do on an empty stomach. I sat alone in the table and practically forced myself to eat. I took a large bite of my grilled cheese and thought of the first time I met Embry.

It was the day, I ran like a fucking idiot. I was afraid to fuck our relationship, but even before it became something... I had already damaged it. Ugh! So many complications. Why couldn't love just be easy and manageable?

I finished my food and threw the plate in the sink. I didn't feel like cleaning. I was in a shitty mood and I just wanted to think. I trudged to my bedroom and flopped on my bed. I grabbed the pillow and wept like an idiot.

I missed him. I missed him so badly. Embry! I miss you so much! I cried for a few hours, when I heard someone outside the house.

"Mallory Moon." my father said, as he knocked on the door of Leah's home. "Open up, baby, it's Daddy." he said. I sighed and marched my way back to the living room, holding my tear-stained pillow in my hands.

"Hi." I said dejectedly, hiding my tears behind my bangs. "What do you need, Papito?"

He shook his head and took one look at me. "Don't cry, baby." he said and wrapped me in his arms. "What is wrong, princess? Why are you crying? Tell me everything, angel." he whispered softly, caressing my hair as he gently rocked me.

"I have done so many bad things." I sobbed, sniffling back my tears. "I hurt Embry. He won't love me ever again..." I sniveled, burying my face in his chest.

"Shh, don't worry, baby girl. He'll love you forever. You can't destroy love so easily." he reassured me. "You are so beautiful Moon. I am so proud of you, my little girl. I want you to know that I love you and I always did."

"Why were you scared when I first touched your hand?" I asked, forgetting about my love problems for a while.

"Because you spoke to me." he said honestly. "You told me you loved her. You told me that you love your mother and I thought that Seth Jacob was the only child I had. I never knew that it was twins." he said against my forehead.

"I love you, Papito." I mumbled, tightening my arms around him. "I missed you so much."

"I did too, pumpkin. I felt so ashamed when I let you go. I want to make it up to you. I am so sorry." he croaked, his voice breaking.

"You have Dad. You have!" I said, smiling up at him, behind a curtain of tears.

"I have? How?" he asked curious.

"By being here. I don't ask for much. I just wanted to know that you loved me. I wanted to feel loved. That was all I wanted from you." I sniveled.

"I adore you, Moon. I love you with all my heart. I love your smile, those radiant green eyes and that left dimple on that hides behind your smiles. I love your voice, your heart, and everything that has to do with you." he said, kissing my cheek.

"I love you too, Papito." I stuttered, holding on to him. "I wish I could love Embry the way I love you." I said dejectedly.

"Baby, imprinting is something that you can't fight it. It's your destiny and it will eventually happen. I promise you that Embry won't be able to be away from you."

We walked into the living room and sat on the couch. I spoke to him telepathically and told him what I had done all this time. I told him about Ruben, about kissing Jared Jay and other things. He didn't once judge me. He accepted me the way I was. There was no gap in between us, any longer. There was nothing that could separate me from him. It was only my father, me and the beat of our two hopeful hearts. It was how it supposed to be all along:a daughter and a father, sharing a tender moment.