Fallen Angels

Alice's point of view

I couldn't actually believe it when I first found out. It was such a shock to the whole of the family even Rosalie was devastated. Rose didn't hate Bella, but she was still angry even now at Bella, the one thing Rose would do anything in the world for is to have her humanity back, she'd love to be human again and be able to have innocence again, to be able to grow and fall in love have children and watch her grandchildren grow. But this was all a past dream now. She would never be able to go back and what caused her the most anger is that Bella took hers own life and threw it down the drain. You'd think this was the worst but over all this the greatest depression that caused Rosalie such heartache was the fact that Bella had to kill herself and her innocent little girl, our niece, due to our family's departure from her life.

It causes me so much grief to even think about the pain Bella must have been feeling at that time in her life and to find out she was pregnant with a vampire baby with no one to turn to, must have been so scary. She couldn't exactly go too a normal doctor and say "Hey, Im pregnant with a vampires baby" they would of committed her to an asylum like where I had to spend the last of my human years. I had no memory of this and was grateful in fact, the kind of things you here about that went on in those places especially back then, I would be scarred for my entire existence. I would have had a niece and Esme has lost a child all over again, I know how lost she is without Bella.

We had all gone to the funeral and said our goodbyes, when I walked into that room I collapsed in sobs on the floor. I couldn't handle it, but I needed to be strong for my family. She looked still elegant even dead; she caused us all to worry about her. She was the key to this family, to all our hearts and now that door can never be locked and kept safe because the key is lost forever and that is how we will always be. Tear filled my eyes, tears that could never fall, tears that I wanted to fall, I wanted all the pain I was given I wanted it because I was partly to blame for this beautiful angels death, she was just a girl. Never selfish Just a girl. A girl that was my best friend and forever will be. I can never forgive myself but even now she proves she is one unique person, as my brothers, father and husband helped carry bellas coffin I couldn't take it in, it still doesn't seem realistic, I want so badly for someone to scream in to my face and wake me up from some sort of horrible dream, even though I couldn't sleep. I wanted this to be a nightmare, but in reality it was a living nightmare and we all dissevered the pain, every single one of us. Time had passed so slowly from the moment Bella had been force out of our lives.

Seeing Renee and Charlie loosing their daughter, is the most heart wrenching thing in the world, it feels like I have lost a daughter. We were so close but it just proves what a cold heartless monster Edward states we all are, I left her to die, we should have knew she wouldn't survive without us or Edward, esphsichally Edward. He is the one most affected and we didn't know if he could go on, but we would support him in all we could. I couldn't even imagine what would happen to me if I lost my mate Jasper.

As I sat in the wake, which was meant to be a celebration of Bellas life, how any one could be sitting here, getting drunk while I was morning my angel's death was beyond me, but it got me thinking. I began listing all my memories of my little Bella.

My first vision of her and me becoming friends.

Meeting in the kitchen for the first time.

Smelling her blood but resisting and her laughing it off.

Dressing her up, my disgust in her clothes

Saving her from James and so many more times with her cute smile, always at us.

I decided overlook a song that I new would make me feel even sadder but every word in it was true, of my feelings to my little human friend, my best friend, my fallen angel.

((A/N when reading the lyrics listen to the song 'ill see you again' cover by westlife))

Always you will be part of me
And I will forever feel your strength
When I need it most

You're gone now, gone but not forgotten
I can't say this to your face
But I know you hear

Chorus:
I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

When I'm lost, when I'm missing you like crazy
I tell myself I'm so blessed
To have had you in my life, my life

Chorus:
I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

When I had the time to tell you
Never thought I'd live to see the day

When the words I should have said
Would come to haunt me
In my darkest hour I tell myself
I'll see you again

Chorus:
I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

Someday I'll see you again

I'll see you again
You never really left
I feel you walk beside me
I know I'll see you again

I'll see you again
I'll see you again

I miss you like crazy

You're gone but not forgotten
I'll never forget you

Someday I'll see you again

I feel you walk beside me
Never leave you, yeah

Gone but not forgotten

I feel you by my side
No this is not goodbye x 3
I'll See You Again

It was true I would see them both again……