Falling for Brady
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AN: This chapter is in Addivani's POV. I don't know if I did it justice. I tried to think of my older sister, when writing this chapter. But, to be honest with ya, she isn't like this. She is conceited and arrogant, but she is nice to me. We argue, but she has never hurt me physically, emotionally or any other way. In fact, she is a great girl and I am glad that she is my sister.
By the way, I didn't proof read this chapter. I just thought I tell you.
Addivani's Secret
Addivani's POV
I always thought that my older sister was not really related to me. She was always quiet and didn't really interact with us, her younger siblings. Allegra, Alexis, Dieguito and I, were always rambunctious and loud. We loved to run around the house, backyard and the woods, following our Papito in his wolf form.
We loved to laugh and scream, just like normal children, but she never partook in our activities. She watched as we played, always silent and emotionless. I always tried to include her when I played with my identical sisters, but she never wanted to play with us. I know that she's five years older than us, and when I looked like a toddler, she already looked like a teenager. We had different interest and I understood that!
I understand now, that will never be normal. We come from a family of mystical creatures; vampires, damphirs and werewolves. We are human only by appearance. But Mallory Moon was always different. She rarely used her words to communicate. She preferred to converse with us through her special ability.
She would touch my sisters and speak to them telepathically. I would watch them laugh and answer the questions that Moon asked, but when it was my turn to interact with her; I would not see anything. I could not hear her. I felt alone, estrange from my own sister. I wasn't able to see or hear her words. My mind acted as a shield against her powers: it would block any type of communication that she would try to have with me. I had inherited my great-grandmother's special power: I was a shielder.
There were other physical aspects that separated Moon from us. She didn't look like the rest of our sisters and brother. Her hair was a soft shade of brown, with pale skin and the most beautiful green eyes that I have ever seen. Her heart-shaped face was pure perfection. She has the most beautiful dimpled smile: it's rare to see such raw, delicate and ethereal beauty anymore. Mallory Moon Black-Clearwater was beautiful, but behind her beauty was hiding the sadness of the loss of her twin brother that plagued her.
We all knew that our father mourned the death of Seth Jacob. He cried for him, as he held him close in his arms. Moon's smile, often reminded our father of our deceased brother Seth Jacob. He was constantly reminded of his still-born son, whenever he went to tuck Moon at night. I often heard him speak of how her peaceful smile resembled her twin brother's smile. I could sense the pain behind my father's words.
Perhaps, that was the reason why Mallory rarely smiled. She didn't want Papito to see his son in her. She began to build walls around her heart, alienating us from her. She became a ghost and the only time, we saw her beautiful smile, was when she was with our mother. She only seemed happy when she was around our mother. My mother was her sun and when they were together, Moon would shine brightly.
Our mother adored her. She thought that the sun rose and set in Moon's eyes. She forgot about me and my sisters, whenever Moon entered a room. I hated to see our mother's eyes sparkling with adoration and pride at Moon.
I knew that to our mother, Moon was special. She had helped her heal her broken heart after our father left her. He didn't know that Moon was born after SJ. I tried to understand, that without Moon, our mother would have died in pain. Our father's departure left a gaping hole in the center of her chest and Moon, with her love and adoration, slowly filled it. Moon was perfect! She was perfection and I was nothing like her.
I envied the bond my sister shared with my mother. I wanted to be part of their secrecy, of their laughter. I wanted with all my heart to know the secrets of their love. I wanted to be part of their world; but neither Moon nor our mother, ever let me in.
I wanted to know why Moon only used words with our mother, but became quiet as soon as our father entered the room. I wanted to know why her eyes held so much sadness and pain, whenever she saw our father. I always wanted to get closer to her, but she always held me at arm's length. I could never get close to her heart. She hid the key to her heart and gave it to my mother. No one was allowed to know the real Mallory Moon; only mother.
I knew she loved us; her actions spoke louder than her words. But I wanted more from her. I wanted to have an older sister. I didn't like the robotic smiled that reciprocated our smiles. I wanted a breathing, living, and caring sister. I wanted to see the real Mallory Moon!
One night, our Papito and mother, went to a convention, after he was nominated for his astounding work as a doctor. They left Moon in charge of watching over us. She was upstairs with Diego and Alexis, playing 'Guess Who?', while Allegra and I played downstairs.
We quickly grew bored and disobeyed our parents' orders. I was already going down the wrong path. I started to not like being around Moon. She only spoke with her ability and got tired of not being able to hear her. I started hating her, for not including me in her life.
"Let's go outside and play," I said to Allegra Suzanne, my identical sister.
"We can't." Allegra said afraid. "Papito said not to leave the house, Addivani. He left Moon in charge. What if she tells on us? What if we get hurt?"
I stared at Allegra angrily. Why was she so afraid of Moon? Yes, she was our older sister, but who cared? To me, Moon was stupid! I hated her! We didn't need to be taken cared by a girl like her. We were strong and could easily take care of ourselves.
"I am your older sister and you'll come with me, because I say so." I said angrily, grabbing Allegra's hand in mine.
"OK, Addivani." Allegra said softly. Push over!
We wandered far away from our house, when we came across a large figure, emerging from the shadows of the trees. I held my sister's hand and cried. I was afraid. We'd family that were vampires, but this vampire was different. I could see his eyes in the darkness of the night. They were crimson and he was hungry. We were aware that there were evil mystical creatures that survived on human blood, but, it was the first time that we'd one among us.
"Ally, run!" I yelled, as I pushed my sister. She had remained frozen, staring at the vile vampire. We could smell him and his proximity was terrifying. "Run," I screamed at her.
I pushed her, but it was too late. I could feel the cold hands on my warm skin. I was afraid; I could hear Allegra screaming my name, but it was too late. The vampire's teeth were slowly sinking into my flesh and I felt my insides burning.
I struggled to fight and to keep my eyes focused on Allegra. She was screaming and crying. The sadistic vampire was laughing.
"I'll let you watch how I kill your sister." he said in a low freighteing voice.
"No," I muttered. "Kill me! Not my Ally!" I pleaded.
He threw me on the cold grass and slowly made his way to where Allegra stood. She was cemented to the floor. I could see Allegra being cornered into a tree and the vampire laughing sadistically as it lounged towards her. But then I saw a pale figure, pouncing towards the vampire, as it fought him. It was Moon. She leaped at him and attacked. She was clawing his face and biting ferociously at him. She didn't yell or scream. She was strong. The expression on her face was menacingly and I became afraid of her. I could barely keep my eyes focused on her. I could hear screaming and cursing, but they weren't coming from Moon. She was fine. I could hear Allegra softly sobbing, when I cold hands touching me softly. Moon was cradling me in her arms. I could feel her tears falling on my face. I wanted to see her face filled with pain. I wanted her to feel remorse for never including me in her life.
I tried to hate her, but in that instant, she became my sister; my older sister. She was only nine, but she looked like she was fifteen or seventeen years old. She wasn't completely human, but neither was I. But she was normal to me. Her tears were cold, just like her touch and for a brief second, I was the only thing that mattered to her.
"Is she dead, Luna?" Allegra asked sadly.
"She is barely alive, baby," Moon chocked. "Addison, please, open your eyes." she cried, as she slowly shook me. I tried to open my eyes, but I couldn't. My eyelids felt so heavy and the pain that coursed through my body was unbearable. "Ally, turn around, Chiquita" Moon's soft voice ordered. "Please, turn around."
"OK," Allegra sobbed. I heard Allegra's footsteps shifting around us. "Save her, Moon." she pleaded.
I opened my eyes and saw Moon opening her mouth and then I felt her teeth sinking into the same wound the vampire had left. I was afraid of her. She reminded me of what the vampire did to me. She was one of them. The pain that an instant ago was coursing through me vanished. I could move once again, but when I opened my eyes, Moon, was still drinking my blood. I saw her true nature. She was a monster hiding behind an innocent face.
"Ally, she wants to kill me!" I screamed, pushing Moon away from me.
"I don't want to kill you." Moon said softly, her face twisted in pain. "I would never hurt you."
She removed her hands off me and turned to face Allegra. "I would never hurt you. I-I..." she trailed off.
"No, Addi, she was saving you." Allegra shouted. Moon was running towards the woods. "Moon, don't go. Please, don't go!"
She never came back the same. She truly became a ghost. It took my father three months to find her. When they came back to the house, she was the shadow of my older sister. She was cold and barely used her ability around us. She stopped going hunting with my father and mother. Moon became like the dark side of the moon, cold and lonely.
It became hard to acknowledge her. She became my mother's shadow. My father barely spoke to her after the incident. We barely spoke to her and she kept her distance from us. I was afraid of her true nature. She was a vampire. She preferred blood, over human food. I avoided being around her. I took advantage of my father's fear of losing another child and I used that fear against her. I used him and got whatever I wanted. I would lie to him, telling him things that Moon supposedly did. In a way, I wanted her to react, but she just took it quietly. She never complained. All she did was smiled at my mother. If my mother was happy, then she was happy. She would also travel around the world with our grandparents. Even they preferred her over the rest of their grandchildren.
It became a vicious cycle, the one my life entered. I wanted to make Moon react to something. I wanted her to speak to me, but she didn't. All I could get from her was a sad smile. Her eyes always held a glimpse of sadness. She was distant, emotionless and unyielding. I didn't know if she was truly alive!
The years continued to pass and I slowly alienated my identical sisters from her. I told them lies about what I felt when she tried to save me. I told them lies, because I wanted her to feel alone. I wanted her to feel completely alone. If she was alone, she would have to talk to us… but she never did! Our mother was her only friend.
Time slowly passed and she met Ruben one sunny afternoon. He made her smile. When they were together, her eyes would glitter and sparkle. She never smiled like that for me or any of our sisters and brother. I was always in her shadow, lurking, hoping to find a simple gesture that would indicated that she acknowledged me.
I learned of my new ability to use men to my advantage. I used Ruben and before she knew it, I had him wrapped around my fingers. We fucked and while he was fucking me, I began to hate myself. I had taken the only thing that made Moon happy. I had lost every hope of knowing my sister. I began to see my true evil self. But it was too late. For the first time in my life, she saw me. She stared at me and I saw hatred, hurt, pain and suffering.
We fought and for a second there, I saw rage in her eyes. I wanted to stop myself from saying all those vicious words. I wanted to beg for her forgiveness, but I was in too deep. I had become this ice statue. I hurt her even more with my words. I had gotten carried away and now I'd truly lost my sister. I lost the sister that I wanted to get to know. I ran after her, but she was too fast for me to catch. I yelled for her to come back. I saw the void her absence left in my heart. I didn't want to feel that way, but it was too late. She was gone.
I remember crying by the beach the night I found out that I was pregnant. I didn't want the unborn child to live with me. I had condemned an innocent soul before, and now I was going to become the mother of one. I hoped with all my heart that this child would help me redeem myself from all my sins.
A few months passed and we came across her. She was in a small Native American reservation. When I saw her again, I felt envious. She looked different, happy and she looked alive. Her green eyes were alive and I felt bad again. I didn't want her smile to leave her pretty face. I wanted her happiness!
I wanted to ask for her forgiveness. I wanted to try again, for the sake of my daughter, my sister and me. I wanted Moon to be part of Crissy's life. But when I started to apologize, I saw Ruben's face. He was smiling happily at her. He still loved her. He still fell like the same for her. I knew that I was just his wife, because I got pregnant and had his daughter.
I hated my life, because for the first time, I saw the consequences of my mistakes. I had taken the man that my sister adored and loved, from her. I had destroyed any chance of happiness that she might ever had. But I was also jealous, because, I'd accidentally fallen in love with my husband. Seeing the way he looked at her, made my heart sink in my chest. My soul was bleeding with pain. I had created this persona and that was how everyone perceived me: Addivani the Bitch. I could only react like that. It was my way of hiding my pain.
I sat on my bed and felt the tears strolling down my face. I had truly fucked up my relationship with my siblings. I only had myself to blame. I wanted to ask for their forgiveness, but I was too headstrong to even try. I heard a soft knock on the door and I could smell her. I could sense Mallory Moon.
"Addison?" she said softly, as she opened the door to my room.
I quickly wiped the tears from my face and turned around. I didn't want her to see the tears on my face. I was too proud. I didn't want her to see how frail I truly was.
"Addison," she said again, her voice was low and carried so many emotions. I heard her open the door and I could just picture her worried face, as she poked her head inside the room. "I heard you crying." she said worriedly.
"I'm not crying." I said crossly. Why do I have to be such a fucking bitch? "Did you come here to make fun of me?"
"No," Mallory said softly, as she opened the door wider. "I wouldn't do that. I would never do something so horrible."
I knew that she would never do such a thing. Moon was an angel. "Just go, please." I whispered.
Please, don't go! I don't want you to leave me!
I heard her footsteps approaching my bed and she stopped. "I wanted to speak to you." she said, as she walked closer to where I sat. "I don't want to argue with you. I want u-"
"You know me, Moon! I don't think that you and I could ever have a real conversation. I only want to hurt people. That's what I am, a bitch!" I screamed, turning around to face her. "Look at me, Moon! I am so fucking fed up with my life! I want to die! I don't know what else to do… I want to change, but I don't know how!"
"Addivani," she whispered, her porcelain hands reaching for me. "I know how we can start." she cried, as she stared at me with her green eyes, filled with unshed tears.
"How?" I asked dejectedly.
"Will you forgive me?" she said slowly, her voice faltering.
I stared at her surprised and confused. What did I have to forgive her for? I was the one that constantly destroyed her life. I took the only man she loved. I stepped over her feelings a thousand times, without ever looking back at her. Why was she asking my forgiveness?
"Are you fucking kidding me, Moon?" I asked her. She shook her head and wrapped her cool arms around me. "Let me go, Moon!"
I fought and struggled to make her release her hold on me, but she was stronger. She didn't let go. She held on to me and I could hear her sobbing.
"I won't, Addivani! I am tired of letting go. I don't want to let you go. You are my little sister and I want us to be sisters." she whispered, holding me tight against her arms. "I won't let you go! Not until you tell me that you forgive me!"
"I can't, Moon!" I cried desperately. "I just can't do this anymore."
"Why?" she mumbled, her arms holding me firmly against her. "Why can't you forgive me? Please, Addi, tell me." she begged.
I sobbed, as my own arms folded around her small frame. I cried so hard, heaving for air, as she held me close. I could feel the rhythm of her heartbeats. They were fast, just like mine. I could feel her tears falling on my skin. She was not a monster; she was a girl, my sister, asking for forgiveness, for things that she'd never done to me.
"I'm sorry, MOON!" I wailed. "I-I a-am s-s-sorry!"
"It's alright, Addison Vanessa." she whispered, her cool hand stroking my hair. She slowly rocked me and whispered how much she loved me. I couldn't believe my ears.
We cried together, holding on tightly to one another. Hoping that tomorrow brought rains of healing and forgiveness. I have never thought that holding my sister tightly, would feel so right. I never wanted to let go of my older sister. She had been the Moon of my mother's dark night. I understood why. She was light, love, laughter and happiness. I comprehended that night, why my mother treasured her so much. It took me years to understand why Moon was so dear to Papa Jacob, Nessie, Edward, Bella and my mother. She was love and when you find love, everything in life feels perfect. Mallory Moon was truly the light that I needed, to find my path in the darkness.