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As soon as I stepped out from behind the door Mike and Jacob both stopped yelling and looked at me. "Bella I can call the cops you don't have to talk to him." Edward chimed in, "I agree with Mike." I smiled at both of them, "Jacob would you care to join me at that table?" He smiled and waited for me to lead the way. He pulled out a chair and waited for me to sit but I ignored him and took the chair across the table facing Mike and Edward.

He was the first one to speak once he sat down. "You look great. I remember what you said at the trial, but I'm not willing to accept that until you prove to me you've moved on and that it isn't your brother putting those ideas in your head. Also I promise I'm drug free now I'm in a program and…" I had to stop him, "Jacob I'm happy that you're in a program but it doesn't change what I said. I still don't want to be with you."

He banged his fist down on the table causing me to jump. "You're just saying that because of your fucking brother. Come on we can start back where we left off, your brother can't stop us." I closed my eyes and tried hard to not cry but a few tears escaped. "Look I don't want to make you cry but I missed you while I was in prison." I stood up and tried to swallow the lump in my throat, "Jacob, you made your decisions and they can't be changed and now I've made mine."

I started to walk away but he grabbed my shoulders stopping me. I looked over and saw Edward flinch towards me. He leaned down and whispered in my ear, "Please give me a second chance. I promise to prove your brother wrong… Please don't cry over this and don't make the wrong decision." I pushed him away from me.

"You an arrogant, vain, son of a bitch, I'm not crying because of you! Nathaniel is dead! He was here one minute and gone the next because of an idiot criminal like you, and here you stand talking like he's alive and well trashing him. That's just it when you go away to prison shit continues to happen without you. Nathaniel is not impacting my decisions, then or now. The only man that could influence me in this very moment is him." I pointed towards Edward. "I'm happy with him and I don't want you around me at all. So just leave me the fuck alone!"

The next thing I knew Edward was there holding me tight letting me cry into the middle of his shirt. This was probably to keep himself from hurting Jacob. I turned to look at Jacob, "Just leave and don't come back!" He got all the way to the door before he turned around, "Bella this isn't over yet, we aren't over yet and one day you'll see that you need me as much as I need you." Then he left.

Nobody said anything to me but I could feel all the eyes on me as we sat there for ten minutes. "Well even though I'm having a great time being the center of attention I think I need to go and do something, alone." Edward looked concerned, "Are you sure being alone is what you need?" I nodded and kissed his cheek. "I'll call you and Ang when I get home."

I walked out of the café and walked in a direction that I hadn't gone to since Nathaniel's funeral. As I walked slowly until I got to the cemetery gate. I wasn't exactly sure where he was buried but mom tried to explain where to find it.

I reached into my purse and turned my cell phone off. I really didn't want to be bothered while I did this. I walked around in silence trying to find what I was looking for. Then I found the head stone I was looking for. I felt like I couldn't breathe. It hit me that he was really gone. I came here for closure even though I knew it wouldn't matter. Nathaniel was gone even though I stand here where he lays I know he isn't here.

I miss him so much that I don't feel like feeling anything. I sometimes wonder if it weren't for Edward and Ang what I would have done. Mom was so upset that she hasn't called me like she normally did. Lauren still hadn't come back and dad couldn't even come to the funeral.

I sat down on the ground and removed all the yard clippings from the headstone. I read the marker over and over again still unable to believe it was his. Underneath the dates of birth and death was a quote that fit his personality perfectly since he wrote it. "My life was shorter than most but I had more love and joy than any other person. Thank God for video games."

Even with tears running down my face I couldn't help but laugh. I remembered when he wrote that. I was a senior in high school and he was a sophomore in college. He had to write a letter to the world if he knew he was going to die. He let me read it. I remembered he told everybody that he loved them and apologized for all the wrongs he ever had done. After all the emotional crap he had that quote tagged on the end. I smacked him in the chest; "Those would be you're last words to the world "Thank God for video games" are you serious?" He smiled, "Yep, nothing is as good as a video game."

I looked up to the sky admiring the few stars I could actually see in the city. "Nathaniel, I don't really know what I'm doing down here and missing you isn't helping me concentrate. At first I thought Edward could help distract me into not dealing with reality, but then Jacob showed up. Yeah I know what you're thinking 'Jacob what the hell?' you told me he was bad from the beginning. And I agree. However he is why I am here. I love you and miss you and I didn't even realize it until reality hit. I thought you would like to know that Edward got me into the ocean, but I guess you probably saw it. You were right it really was a silly fear."

I sat there on the round talking not really sure if he could hear any of it but it didn't matter. I got it all off my chest, I cried, I laughed at old memories, but mostly I accepted what had happened. After nearly two hours of talking I gathered my stuff and walked home.

As soon as I got home I sent Edward and Ang a text letting them know I was home and safe. I decided to listen to the radio while I took a shower. I felt like the night had a perfect ending because Nathaniel's favorite karaoke song was playing, She Hates Me by Puddle of Mudd. I cried and sang in the shower.

The next morning when I woke up it was earlier than I normally would wake up. I ate a bowl of cereal and checked me cell phone. Edward left me a text see you at the theatre I turned on the TV and watched Good Morning America. The only interesting story was about the wild fire in Southern California.

I looked at the clock and really didn't want to get ready for work so I just curled up on the couch. I don't even remember falling asleep. Until banging on the door woke me up. "I'm coming!" When I opened the door I was almost floored by who was standing there. "Oh my God Lauren." She slightly smiled but still looked to be in pain. "I can't stay but I wanted to drop some of this stuff off and tell you goodbye. I'm moving back home for a little while."

Her voice got caught in her throat as I took the box from her and gave her a hug. She just smiled and waved before she left. Just as I shut the door a foot slid in to stop it. Edward walked in, "What are you doing here?" He pointed at the clock that read 12:30. "Holy shit!" I ran to my room and threw on the first things I saw and put my hair up in a ponytail holder.

When I got back to the living room Edward was holding my purse and we rushed to the theatre. I told Tyler and Eric about Lauren showing up and left out the fact that I fell back asleep. Of course they weren't mad but I felt bad for not telling them the whole truth.

I stayed late at work and Edward wouldn't leave no matter how much I told him to. He sat in the corner of my office watching me type on my computer. "Will you please stop?" "What? I'm not doing anything?" I printed the papers that Tyler would need and left them on his desk, "Ok, now that I'm caught up I can leave."

We walked back to my place where TMZ was waiting outside. "Edward we all heard about your relationship with Bella but what about where you guys disappeared to earlier his week?" Neither of us acknowledged their presence.

Once we got inside and sat on the couch Edward started acting weird. "What are you thinking about?" He wrapped his arm over my shoulder. "I was just wondering where you went last night, but you don't have to tell me." I sat up and straddled him. "I went to the cemetery where Nathaniel is buried. It was the first time since the funeral that I wanted to be there." He pulled me into a hug and I pressed my forehead into his chest, "After Jacob last night I just realized how much I miss him." He held me against his chest until we both fell asleep on the couch.

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