Title: Harm and Mac Get Psychoanalyzed
Author: rooster dawn
Classification: Harm/Mac
Spoiler: Death Watch, Bud's wet down
Disclaimers: The characters of JAG are the property of Donald Bellisario and Bellisarius Production, Inc. Used without permission. No copyright infringement intended. May be reproduce if unchanged, author given full credit, and no financial transaction is involved.
Summary: Harm and Mac go undercover as a married couple. Under analysis they are made to face how they feel about each other.
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part two
They all understood that Mac was truly in love with Harm. They looked over to Harm again. They started giggling again. This time Harm had to know what was going on. He walked over to the table to ask them what they were giggling about.
"Why are you all so happy?" asked Harm nervously. He felt like the prized steer at a meat auction.
"It's party Flyboy. It's how you are suppose to behave." smiled Mac with her eyes dancing. Her mind was in a place it hadn't been in a long time, playing with Harm's mind.
"We have been talking about our favorite hunk. We have been telling our favorite war stories about him." giggled Carolyn.
"Who's pray tell may that be? Could it be Bud?" asked Harm afraid that he was that person.
"No! You silly. You're our favorite hunk. You're so adorable when you're flustered." replied Mac as she stroked his arm in a caressing manner without realizing she was doing so. It was an action that didn't go unnoticed by the others.
They all laughed as Harm blushed and smiled. He groaned to himself why me. He was ready to leave and go back to the bar when he turned around and asked.
"Would you like to dance Jordie?" He wanted to ask Mac, but he didn't think it would be appropriate with Jordie sitting there.
"Not right now Harm, I'm having too much fun with Carolyn and Harriet. Why don't you ask Sarah. I'm sure she would enjoy dancing with you." offered Jordan.
Knowing that he wasn't going to win, Harm decided to play along. Besides he loved dancing with Mac. He loved the way she felt in his arms and how her scent intoxicated him.
"Alright Jordie. Sarah, my sweet little ninja girl, would you like to dance with your Flyboy?" asked Harm as he held out his hand to take hers.
"Dance with the all mighty one? Be still my beating heart. I would be honored Flyboy, I would love to dance with you." smiled Mac seductively as she patted her heart.
Again they all laughed as Harm's face turned red again. They loved the bantering between them. Harm felt like he was in high school again and he was asking the most beautiful girl to dance with him in front of all her friends.
Sarah took Harm's arm and they walked over to the dance floor. While Sarah was dancing with Harm, The others decided to see how they could work at getting Harm and Mac together as a couple.
"Don't they make a lovely couple?" cooed Harriet. She was oblivious that Jordan was dating Harm and might not like that Harm and Mac made such a lovely couple.
"Yes they do. Just look at the way they are dancing together. They look so good and they move so well together. Why is it they can't move forward? They look at each other like lovers. They dance as though they are making love." replied Carolyn dreamily. She wish she had someone like Harm in her life.
"They fight like lovers too. Worse than Bud and I ever do." smirked Harriet.
"I don't know about that Harriet. You and Bud have had quite a few doozies." replied Carolyn.
"I don't think they know how to be in a successful relationship. They don't know how to fully commit to loving someone unconditionally. Harm failed with Annie and they aren't friends anymore. Sarah failed with Dalton and he is dead." suggested Jordan.
"They both love being together so much that they don't want to risk losing what they do have, not realizing what they could have is so much more." agreed Carolyn.
"What are we going to do Ma'am?" asked a concerned Harriet.
After dancing with Harm for half an hour, Sarah returned to the to the table a little flushed. It had been wonderful. She loved being in his arms.
"Did you have fun Sarah?" asked Carolyn.
"Yes I did, I always enjoy dancing with Harmon. Why do you ask?" smiled Mac dreamily.
"Just a little curious. With a little work on your part it could happen more often." teased Carolyn.
"What could happen more often?" asked Mac now curious.
"Dinner and dancing with the Commander Ma'am." replied Harriet with glee.
"At least once or twice a week." added Jordan.
"How's that better than what I have now Jordie? You know Harm and I work late on cases together at night. We often have dinner together at least three nights a week when we are working on an important case.
Though I can't say we always go dancing every week, we do go out often to dance." smiled Mac. She loved it when she could surprise her friends. They thought they knew everything about Harm and her, when in reality they knew very little.
"Hmmmm ..... that's something that I wasn't aware of. Does the Admiral know about this? Does he know that you are seeing Harm often without doing work related activities." quizzed Carolyn.
"What are you talking about Carolyn?" asked Mac.
"Even though you say you aren't dating or together, it sure sounds like you are." laughed Carolyn.
"Yeah, It sounds like when you are going steady in high school. You're always together but not having any sex." laughed Harriet.
Everyone laughed but Mac. She wasn't very amused by the comment or the turn in the conversation, especially where it concerned her. But everyone else thought Harriet had come up with a good one to describe a relationship between Harm and Mac, two people who were in deep denial. But Mac wasn't laughing. She wanted to squeeze Harriet's little brain.
"That wasn't very funny Harriet." replied Mac with a touch of anger and a look that could kill.
"Yes it was Sarah. Harriet has finally hit it on the nail what type of relationship you and Harm have. I have never thought about it in that manner before. I have always tried to figure out your relationship with Harm on an adult level.
But that's not the type of relationship that the two of you have. It hasn't reach that level yet. Your relationship is based on the last time you both were in a happy relationship. When you both were in high school." smiled Jordan as she finally understood the dynamics.
"That's not true Jordie. I got married after high school. I was married until last year when I killed my husband. I don't think I like this conversation anymore. Let's talk about something else." pouted Mac.
"Okay then, what are some of the little things that Harm has done for you Sarah?" asked Carolyn with a gleam in her eye. Everyone leaned in to hear what she had to say. Harm, they all knew would do anything for Mac.
"Why are we still talking about Harm and me?" wailed Mac feeling picked on.
"Because it's fun Sarah. You spend so much more time with him then we do. You have done so many more things with him. We want to know more about him. What he is really like? And besides we like talking about him. Which means we want to talk about you two." ginned Carolyn.
"Okay then, since you put it that way. He did have a nasty habit of smoking cigars when I met him. He gave them up later after he had been working with me a for while. He had asked me if I mind that he drank alcohol in my presence.
I told him I didn't mind his drinking, but I did mind his smoking those nasty cigars. I think it was his way of trying to understand my alcoholism." smiled Mac.
"I had always wondered why he all of a sudden stopped smoking." replied Carolyn. She always loved the aroma of a good cigar.
"I think you are right about that. He would want to understand having something you crave, but knowing you can never have it again. It would be a way for him to better understand you Sarah." explained Jordan.
"What else has he done or hasn't done for you Ma'am?" asked Harriet wanting to know more.
"He seems to seek my approval whenever he is given permission to fly jets by the CAG's of the aircraft carriers that we have investigations aboard." replied Mac.
"Have you ever denied him Sarah." asked Jordan searching for insight on Mac's feelings.
"No, I know how much he misses flying tomcats. You can see how excited he gets when he's around them." replied Mac quickly understanding the not so innocence of the question.
"How's that Sarah?" asked a puzzled Carolyn.
"He's like a little boy in a candy store. He just stands there looking at all the planes in awe." smiled Mac.
"Have you ever denied him anything else Sarah?" asked Jordan digging deeper.
"What do you mean Jordie?" responded Mac feigning ignorance.
"Would you deny him if he wanted you?" asked Jordan becoming more explicit that even Harriet understood the question.
"What kind of question is that? He dating you Jordie." replied Mac feigning shock that Jordan would even imply such a scenario.
"But he doesn't want me Sarah. He wants you." replied Jordan as she tried to get Mac to admit that she wanted Harm.
Mac turned a deep shade of red. How did this conversation deviate into what she would do if the man of her dreams finally woke up and wanted her? She knew she would be quite nervous, but she would welcome him into her arms without even thinking twice. She could never deny Harm anything.
"Well Sarah, would you?" asked Carolyn liking the direction this conversation had gone.
"I don't know. Considering that he's not dating me, he's dating Jordie ..... it really doesn't matter. Let's move on to something else." replied Mac not wanting to admit anything to her friends.
"You have flown in jets with him before haven't you Sarah?" asked Carolyn changing the topic for now.
"Yeah twice. The first time he took me up in one I almost threw up. I swore I would never fly in a jet again." replied Mac remembering how unsettled her stomach felt afterwards. It took a few hours before it had finally settled down so she could eat.
"But you did go up in a jet with him again Ma'am?" asked Harriet.
"Yeah, when we went to Russia to look for his dad. He was MIA during the Vietnam War. We had information that he had been moved to Russia. Since there weren't any commercial flights going to where we needed to go we stole a MIG." smiled Mac.
"What?" asked a shocked Harriet.
"I was feeling very uneasy about doing so. But I had to cover Harm's six. I couldn't let him go off looking for his father by himself. He always seems to get into trouble whenever he does. If something were to happen to him I don't know what I would have done.
After we reach the proper altitude they started to fire missiles at us. I wasn't scared at first because I believed Harm would keep us safe, but he didn't have any weapons. So we had to eject right before the plane exploded." sighed Mac as she told the story.
It had been quite scary, but it had led to the happiest time of her life. Two weeks with Harm and no one else.
"So you had to eject and parachute down Ma'am?" asked Harriet as she was getting caught up in the story.
"It was kind of scary at first, but when you begin to relax, you can enjoy the ride down. Harm was right about the landing though. It was hard and it hurt. I had a bruise on my six for four weeks." continued Mac.
"Anything else Sarah?" asked Jordan.
There was so much she didn't know. As she sat there listening to the stories she knew she had come to the right decision. Harm and Mac belonged together. She would help her new friends get Harm and Mac together.
"He has taken me up in his Stearman bi-plane several times. Boy what a difference. It was pure enjoyment to fly in his Stearman. He even let me fly it when we were up there. It was a lot more fun than flying in a jet." smiled Mac.
"Didn't he name his plane after you Sarah?" teased Carolyn.
"What? No, at first I thought he might have. You know how big his ego is. I thought he was trying to impress me by naming his plane after me. But his plane is actually named after his grandmother. She is a wonderful lady." replied Mac deflecting the symbolism of the plane and what Harm was searching for.
She could just picture Jordan analyzing the meaning. Flying is Harm's love. He named his plane Sarah. He's searching for his love. Her name is Sarah. She's Sarah. She's the love of Harm's life.
"So you have met her?" asked Carolyn smiling.
"Yes, Harm has taken me up to visit her several times. We usually go to see her around the holidays. I guess he doesn't like me to be alone at that time of year." wailed Mac.
"I guess he must really love you Sarah." sighed Carolyn.
"I don't know about that. I think he is just trying to be nice." moaned Mac.