Title: Harm and Mac Get Psychoanalyzed
Author: rooster dawn
Classification: Harm/Mac
Spoiler: Death Watch, Bud's wet down
Disclaimers: The characters of JAG are the property of Donald Bellisario and Bellisarius Production, Inc. Used without permission. No copyright infringement intended. May be reproduce if unchanged, author given full credit, and no financial transaction is involved.
Summary: Harm and Mac go undercover as a married couple. Under analysis they are made to face how they feel about each other.
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Author's note: I posted the wrong part three of the story earlier today. The correct version of part three has been posted. Sorry for the mistake. Thanks for the heads up that I posted the wrong story.
part five
Harm was interested in hearing her answer. He always wondered if she worried about him. He knew many pilots who had wives that feared for their lives. He knew first hand from Annie Pendry.
"I worry a little especially if it is associated with a combat situation. But I have confidence that he will come back. He is one of the best pilots in the Navy." replied Mac.
"He even has a Stearman he likes to fly." replied Mac.
"A Stearman? Isn't that a biplane from the pre world war two era?" asked an interested Dr. Williams
"Yes, Harm has taken me up in it many times. It's a blast to fly in." smiled Mac.
"I know for many pilots and sailors they name their planes and ships after their women. What is the name of your plane Harm?" asked Dr. Williams.
"You want to know the name of my plane?" asked a puzzled Harm.
"Yes." replied Dr. Williams.
"It's Sarah." responded Harm wondering why it was important to him.
"Hymm ..... " moaned Dr. Williams. "That's interesting to know. I remember something else that was interesting from one of our other sessions.
Sarah mentioned that your father went missing thirty years ago in Vietnam. She said that you were obsessed with finding him. Is that right Harm?" asked Dr. Williams.
"She does think I'm obsessive about a lot of things." agreed Harm reluctantly.
"Interesting! In this case I believe your search for your father was a search for the love that you were denied as a child." commented Dr. Williams.
Realizing where he thought Dr. Williams was going, Harm thought he needed to clear something up first.
"I didn't name the plane after Sarah. I named it for my grandmother more than a few years before I met Sarah." interjected Harm quickly.
"Who was your grandmother to you Harm?" asked Dr. Williams perceptively.
"She's very important me." replied Harm. "She loved me unconditionally."
"Don't you see Harm. When you were a child, the most important thing you needed was love. Your father's love was denied to you. You sought it out from the only other person you knew, your grandmother Sarah.
That's why you name your plane after her. Your love of flying is symbolic of your love for Sarah. You have been searching for that love for the last twenty years. It's why flying became so important to you.
Flying became your love while you were searching for your true love, Sarah. When you found your true love, your love of flying became secondary." explained Dr. Williams.
"You have been searching for that unconditional love all your life. That's probably why you have been in and out of so many relationships. It's probably why you have married Sarah. She loves you unconditionally." continued Dr. Williams.
What is he talking about? I married Mac as part of an assignment. Though I would have to agree I truly enjoy being with her and living with her. We have been fighting a lot less since we've been together. Maybe he's right.
Maybe by being together the stress of not having to deal with being together or not is gone. I have never seen Mac so happy as she has been the last few weeks. And it does feel so good to lie in bed with her snuggling up against me every night.
"Why do you say that Dr. Williams?" asked Harm. "I joined the Navy because my father was in the Navy. I became a pilot because my father was a pilot. I became a lawyer because I had a ramp strike and couldn't fly anymore.
I didn't fly for five years. I became a lawyer because I was interested in how the investigation into my mishap was conducted. It was done fairly because the investigator was looking for the truth and not someone to blame." explained Harm hoping to divert the good doctor.
Dr. Williams made notes about Harm's denial and effort to skirt the issue at hand. He had to agree with Sarah about Harm's inability to stay focus on the topic and communicate effectively what he thought.
"From the stories you have told me. She defended you in court for murder. She followed you to Russia to help you find out about your father. Trusting you with her life in dangerous situations.
You seek out her approval to fly whenever the opportunity presents itself like you did thirty years ago with your grandmother Sarah. Her love for you was unconditional. Sarah has not asked you to change. She accepts you for who you are.
She even accepts your need to fly even though it scares her more than she's willing to admit. She has always been there for you when you needed her. Her love for you must be unconditional Harm." replied Dr. Williams.
"I guess you might be right Doc. There was a time I thought that. We were getting along so well, especially after the trip to Russia, but things changed a few months later. Sarah hurt me pretty bad. It took a long time for me to get over it and we had drifted apart. That was mostly my fault." conceded Harm.
"What happened to bring you back together?" asked Dr. Williams.
"She almost die a couple months ago. We were investigating a case on a submarine. There was a outbreak of salmonella on board that caused the ship to surface in the middle of a sailing regatta. We weren't getting along very well at the time.
It took awhile, but I discovered what had caused the problem. It was the chief medical officer. I found some empty bottles of medicine that were used to induce vomiting. I figured out what he was doing. The chief medical officer was making the sailors sick.
But before I could subdue him, he choke Sarah until she wasn't breathing. I thought I had lost her, but I quickly remember to give her mouth to mouth and she came around. I don't know what I would have done if I lost her Doc, she's my life." answered Harm with tears in his eyes.
"What do you have to say Sarah?" asked Dr. Williams.
"It changed everything between us. It helped to get us back on track. We stopped fighting about the little things and began to appreciate what we were to each other. I'm much happier now then I have been in a long time." replied Mac.