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Chapter 4
Jasper POV
I sprinted home as fast as I could, getting away from all the tempting humans. My throat was burning like hell, and frankly, I couldn't be bothered with school.
I pelted up the driveway, my feet crunching on the gravel; a hundred thoughts flitting in and out of my head.
I pulled the keys to the front door out of my bag and stuck them in the lock. I let myself in.
I heaved a sigh of relief and chucked my bag into the living room. To my surprise, I heard a faint voice shout from upstairs.
"Hello? Could I maybe have some help please?! Sorry for being a pain...." Who was that? Then it hit me. Bella was here.
After I'd pulled her out of the wreckage of her mangled truck, I'd taken her back here, hoping Carlisle could help her. He seemed to have done a pretty good job. He was pretty angry with me for bringing her back, and impressed that I'd managed not to suck her blood. I was surprised myself. I still thought about how perfect life would be if Bella was vampire; we could be a couple. I grinned at my reflection in the mirror. Yeah, whatever Jasper.
I guessed I should go and see what she wanted. But, I admit, I was a bit scared. What if I couldn't hold back? I shook my head. It wouldn't get to that. I wouldn't let myself. I wouldn't. Even as I thought that, I could smell her. Her scent was so perfect; I couldn't hold back the desire. It spread through my body making me weak.
STOP! I warned myself. I crept up the stairs slowly, hoping I'd be okay. Well, more like hoping she'd be okay.
Going up the stairs at normal speed was tortuous. I was going to have to speed up so I wouldn't smell her as much. If I sped past her, I would be able to work out whether I'd eat her or not.
In a flash, or less than a second, if you'd prefer, I was behind her. I looked at her perfect body, all wrapped up in white bandages, and wondered what she'd look like underneath her clothes...
That was almost too much to bear. I clenched my fists tightly and just stared straight ahead, calming myself. I shut off my air supply just as Bella turned around. She looked at me in surprise then stuttered out,
"Hi! Good day at school? I mean you're back early –"She'd cut off. She looked me up and down, a look of horror on her face.
I'd breathed in, hadn't I. I couldn't resist. I had to smell her. That was the worst thing I could have possibly done.
I wanted her blood. The desire took over my brain. All I could see was Bella. And the vein on her neck that was pulsing with blood. A roaring sound was in my ears.
I stepped forward. She was in my arms. I looked down into those chocolate brown eyes seeing nothing but fear.
She stuttered something. I was crushing her. My arms were wrapped around her fragile body, slowly squeezing. I didn't even notice.
My throat was screaming for her blood. I leant forward. My mouth getting ever closer to her neck.
My lips touched her warm neck. I felt the blood pulse just underneath the skin. One bite and I'd have it.
A twinge of regret stirred in my brain.
I ignored it.
My teeth sank into her neck. Warm blood spurted into my mouth. The animal inside my purred in delight. YES!
It soothed my burning throat and quenched my aching desire.
I gulped and felt it settle in my stomach.
It was so fragrant I couldn't help but carry on.
My mind was blank with pleasure.
*
I heard voices shouting. Arms grabbed at me. I shrugged them off. I needed more blood.
Something sharp stabbed into my back. An arm curled around my neck, pulling me off my prey.
I snarled and whipped around. Crouching on the floor, I stared around the room, ready to pounce.
My whole family was there. I bared my teeth and decided to try and get back to Bella. Edward must have anticipated my move and sprang in and stopped me. He wrestled me to the ground. Carlisle pushed him off and he held me down instead. He looked into my eyes, with a sad expression. He shook his head.
"Jasper. JASPER!" He said sharply, shaking me. I snarled at him and tried to shake him off, but he was too strong for me. I sniffed the air and realised Bella was further away. I couldn't smell her as much anymore. The animal inside me was backing down, and my conscience wrestled with it.
I started to comprehend that what I'd done was very wrong. Very wrong. I growled again but this time not at Carlisle. I was growling at myself.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I HAD BITTEN BELLA! THE BEAUTIFUL BELLA!
I howled and threw Carlisle off me. I sped past everyone, tore open the door, and pelted down the drive way, into the forest.
I ignored the branches that whipped at me and scratched at my face. I growled at a bear that came dangerously close.
I came to a small clearing in the forest, and saw a tiny little lake that was glistening in the sun. I took a deep breath and waded into the water trying to calm myself. I snatched at a silver fish that darted under the water's surface but missed it. Under normal circumstances I would have caught it easily.
But I was shaken. I couldn't believe what I had done. Frankly, I was disgusted with myself.
I sank down into the water and pulled my head under the surface. And just lay there.
*
I arrived back home when it was dark. I sneaked upstairs, just wanting to be alone. I knew that wasn't going to happen.
Carlisle was waiting for me. The way he was looking at me, made me even more disgusted with myself.
"Jasper," he whispered, "Come over here and sit down." I wandered over, all the while shaking my head. I couldn't get the image of Bella out of my head. The look of terror on her face. Those beautiful chocolate brown eyes.
"How is she?" I couldn't help but ask. I had to know.
"She, - well. I tried to suck out the venom but it was too late. It had started to change her. Her human life is over. She's upstairs. Changing." A piercing scream coming from upstairs seemed to prove Carlisle right. I groaned. What had I done? I would never be able to forgive myself. And neither would Bella. Bella, I repeated. What a beautiful girl.
"It's not your fault, Jasper." Carlisle whispered. I didn't answer. Of course it was my fault. Eventually I willed myself to speak.
"What about Charlie? What are you going to tell him? He'll be devastated not to see Bella-" My voice broke at the end. I couldn't finish the sentence. He wouldn't see Bella Ever Again. And it was all my fault – no matter what Carlisle said. He looked at the floor.
"We haven't figured that out yet. I guess we'll have to tell him she .. died..from her injuries. I know Charlie came to see her when she was conscious but there is nothing else we can tell him." He paused. He seemed to be waiting for me to say something. I disappointed him. He carried on.
"Jasper. I know how hard living with this will be for you. But know this. The whole family is behind you. We don't blame you." He insisted. I looked up into his golden eyes. He seemed sincere.
"Can I see her?" I asked. I needed to see her. I wouldn't do anything stupid.
Not this time.
Bella POV
The first thing I was aware of was the pain.
The endless pain that burnt my limbs. And kept on burning. I knew I must be on fire. I wished someone would hurry up and kill me.
It scorched its way through my body endlessly. The pain just wouldn't stop. It felt like I was in a furnace. Except I wasn't hot.
I writhed in agony trying to shake the fire off. It didn't work.
On and on.
I could see nothing but darkness. It seemed to stretch on forever in front of me.
Was I in hell?
If I wasn't, I was close.
Jasper POV
I grimaced as I saw the anguish on Bella's face. She thrashed about constantly; constantly moaning under her breath. I knew what she was going through and it wasn't pleasant. I couldn't believe what I'd done.
There were dark circles under her eyes and her face looked gaunt. Her face was stretched to a point of breaking over her cheekbones. They jutted out making her look ill. She was paler than the last time I'd seen her. And I knew the reason. And it killed me.
Her copper hair was strewn across the white pillow, framing her face. Even in this state she looked stunning.
Then it hit me. I realised I couldn't smell her blood anymore. She was almost there – nearly a vampire.
I howled in despair. Her life was over.
I ran from the room, sped through the front door, and straight into the forest.
Again.
Bella POV
I tossed again and again. I was going crazy. I couldn't think straight. The fire continued.
*
Suddenly it stopped. Just like that. The darkness retreated.
I opened my eyes.
Jasper POV
I stared down at her lifeless form. I couldn't believe it.
She opened her eyes.
They were blood red.
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