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Chapter 4 – You Know I'm Thinking About You
Meredith and Addison were jogging through a park.
"Ugh!" panted Addie, "You're stupid, stupid jogging, God I want to kill you right now." She stoped jogging and Meredith turned around and jogged to her, they both started again and Meredith spoke,
"Endorphins are good. Endorphins are mood elevators. This is supposed to make us feel better."
"Feel better? All I can think about is all the ice-cream and chocolate we ate." Addison stopped again and lent over her knees trying in vain to catch her breath,
"I'm stupid." Meredith agreed as she ran circles around Addie,
"Slutty mistress."
"Adulterous whore."
"Sleeping with Derek was a great idea." Addison said sarcastically,
Meredith stopped jogging now, "You know what's ruined for me?"
"What?"
"Ferry boats! I used to love ferry boats and Derek's got a thing for ferry boats. Now every time I see a fricken ferry boat…" Her voice trailed off,
"You know what's ruined for me? Apples. And Muesli! God I used to love muesli."
They fell to the ground and lay down, "Have you cried?" Asked Meredith,
"Urgh. Yes. I am over crying."
"Do you think I'll feel better if I cry?"
"Probably." shrugged Addison, "Do you wanna cry now?"
"No."
"Then let's… let's jog."
* * *
Later that morning Derek stood in the elevator with Richard discussing when he should be cleared for surgery.
"If you want me to clear you so soon, maybe you should've thought about that before you gave chief to Burke and invited Satan to Seattle." Derek told him,
The elevator doors opened and Addison walked in with Meredith,
"Satan?" Richard asked,
"Good morning." said Addie, "Richard, like the hat."
"Satan speaks."
"Actually," Addison said, "I prefer to be called Ruler-Of-All-That-Is-Evil." Meredith chuckled, "But I will answer to Satan."
Meredith lent over and whispered in Addison's ear, "Your new nick-name."
Addison smiled, "You're no Angel."
"What is she still doing here?" Derek asked Richard,
"I asked her to stay. We have a pediatric surgery attending on maternity leave."
Addison but in, "Actually I could use you on a consult. Will you ah meet me up there Derek?"
"Ah yeah. Fine." The elevator stoped,
"Crap, I'm late for rounds." Said Meredith, she pecked Addie's cheek then ran out, Derek staring after her as Addison walked elegantly past.
Addison was walking through a corridor when she heard Bailey talking to her interns (Meredith not amongst them).
"Hey there's a new surgical case coming up from the pit. Likely direticulitis. Let's go."
The interns all ran after her and Addison heard a very loud and familiar voice yelling, "Watch it! Hands off me! I could report you to the chief and you'd be out on your ass." Addison winced, this would not be good, "Where is the chief?!?" Yelled the voice,
"Patient's name is …ah…" Cristina said,
" Where is the chief?!? You're all amateurs."
"Complaining of intermittent cramping pain and diarrhea." Cristina continued, avoiding the patient name, "Also suffers from …ah…"
Addison watched the patient being rolled out on a gurney still yelling,
"AMATEURS!"
"Alzheimer's." Continued Cristina,
"Patient's name?" Asked Bailey, but the patient had noticed Addison and immediately sobered,
"Addison Montgomery!" She grinned, and Addie walked forward and accepted a hug from her, "How are you dear? It must be so hard for you, maybe even more then her. You do take care of her? You do take care of my little girl?"
Addison smiled and tried not to let too much go, "Yes of course I do Ell."
"And she's okay?"
"As well as she can be."
"And the baby?"
Addison winced, "The baby is perfectly healthy, adopted by a nice couple; both men and they adore her entirely."
"A girl? Meredith never told me her baby was a girl."
Everyone who had been pretending not to watch now stared.
Addison closed her eyes then opened them, "I think she wants to forget the whole thing." She forced herself to say,
"Patient's name?" Bailey asked again softly, as if in a trance,
"Ellis Grey."
"Meredith's mother." Choked out George,
Ellis seemed to be zoning everyone out, "Addison, dear. Do you know where my daughter is?"
Meredith rounded the corner at a small jog and froze.
"Darling!" Called Ellis, "Why didn't you tell me my grandchild is a little girl?"
Meredith stared like a deer in headlights at her mother, and everyone looking at her.
"Oh God." Meredith whispered, she felt so light headed, she felt like she would…
She fell into Addison's arms but didn't faint, "Come on," Murmured Addison, "Come on, it'll all be ok."
"Oh God. Oh God. Oh God."
They walked into the intern locker room and Addison sat Meredith down then closed the door.
"Oh God." Meredith repeated,
"Meredith, Baby, it is going to be fine."
Meredith looked up, "They know. They know and they're going to ask questions and look at me and judge me and-"
"Meredith!"
She stopped and Addie raised a hand to caress Meredith's cheek, "It will be okay."
Meredith nodded, "Can I get in on a-"
"Mere sweetie, you need distraction. Working with me won't distract you; it'll make you think of Mindy." She kissed Meredith softly, "I'm sorry but I have to go to my patient."
Meredith nodded and Addison took her in a hug, whispering in her ear as the door opened and the interns and Bailey stood there.
Addison let go and stroked Meredith's cheek once more before standing from her knees and walking out the doorway past the interns.
* * *
Near the end of the day Addison was chatting to Richard as they made their way to his office, "So I'm leaving tomorrow." Addison told Richard as they walked down a corridor,
"No."
"Excuse me?"
"No. I'm not accepting your resignation."
"It's not a resignation Richard. It's notification. I don't officially work for you."
They entered Richard's office,
"I came here for one case. I can track the twins progress from New York."
"What about the preemie?"
"I'm letting go of the preemie, you know that." Richard looked at her and Addison sighed, "I did not come here to get him back, the man calls Satan for God's sake."
"You don't like to hide from a fight."
"It's not a fight." Said Addie, "And unless Meredith suddenly sprouts wings or collapses, I'm leaving as soon as her mother stops shouting secrets through the hospital."
Addison turned to leave but saw an intern in the doorway to Richard's office,
"What is it O'Malley?"
"It's Dr. Grey, sir." Addie looked at him, "Ellis."
The three walked out and to the stairs talking about Ellis' case, Izzie met them at the bottom.
"Excuse me Dr. Shepard. We need you fast. Um… It's Christina, one of our interns. She's," Izzie paused, weary of George "she's collapsed."
"Christina's collapsed?" Asked George,
"Why do you need me?"
Izzie sighed but didn't say anything. Comprehension dawned on Addison and Richard,
"Christina's pregnant?!" Asked George
"Shut up George." Izzie snapped before turning back to Addison, "Please come."
Addison followed Izzie and turned to call over her shoulder, "This doesn't change anything Richard, as soon as Meredith ok I'm leaving,"
As Izzie and Addison walked Izzie couldn't help but ask, "Was it true?"
"Hmm?"
"What Meredith's mum said; was it true? Did Meredith have a daughter? Were you her doctor?"
"Dr. Stevens I don't think that-"
"'Cause I did." Interrupted Izzie quietly, "I had a daughter and gave her up. And I thought maybe Meredith would talk to me."
Addison went quiet, then lightly murmured, "How old were you?"
"Sixteen."
"Be careful when you approach Mere, it's a difficult subject. More then you can imagine. Right now though, Dr. Stevens, we need to focus on Cristina."
* * *
"Can you do the follow up?" Meredith asked Alex as they scrubbed out of surgery, "I wanna check on Christina." George had told her about the pregnancy,
"Yeah. You know what's wrong with her?"
Derek held her arms trying to be comforting, she glared at him pulling away and Derek held his hands up defensively.
"Don't!" Snapped Meredith,
"Sorry."
"Don't be sorry. I'm so tired it; you being sorry. Don't do it!"
"Dr. Grey-"
"Dr. Grey? Seriously?!" snapped Meredith, "Are you concerned about Alex finding out about us? Is that what matters to you? Do you really think he cares?" She turned to Alex, "Alex do you care that I was the intern stupid enough to screw the married attending?"
"No."
Meredith looked pointedly at Derek.
"It's okay."
"It's not okay!" Meredith almost yelled, "You have a wife! My best friend! My person. You're married to my Addison! And she's impossible to hate, and she's gorgeously flirty and painfully smart and currently saving Cristina's life!"
Derek tried to speak to her softly, "Meredith just-"
"Don't! Stop talking to me like you're my boyfriend! Stop talking to me at all." She'd finished scrubbing out and she stormed from the room,
* * *
When Addison finished Cristina's operation she went and found Meredith.
"Come with me." Was all she said,
Meredith followed Addison without question, they walked into the NICU.
"Talk." Addie told Mere as she checked up on the preemie,
"You saved Cristina's life today. I didn't even know she was pregnant. No one did. And my mother's here. And she might have cancer. And she's talking about my dad. And she blabbed my biggest secret in front of all of my friends."
"They might be more understanding then you think." Murmured Addison,
"How! How could they understand what we went through?!"
"Well," Said Addie, "Cristina had this pregnancy, something she kept secret, even from the father, I bet."
"Cristina wouldn't understand. She'll pity me and underestimate me. She'd judge me. If she isn't already. Like they're not judging me already."
"Izzie would understand."
Meredith walked closer, "Why."
Addison sighed, "She asked me today, if what your mother said was true. She said that when she was sixteen she got pregnant and gave her baby up."
"Oh."
"Look. The way I see it we could deal with this and us in one of three ways."
"Option 1; we could wait out all the drama, get together and be happy as we live our lives like adults. Option 2; we could get together now, suffer the drama as a couple in rebound and eventually break-up."
"What's option three?"
Addison tucked Meredith's hair behind her ear, "You could let me flirt, let me fight for you, but accept I want to wait a little while before doing anything more then this…" She lent forward and kissed her softly, smiling as she pulled back.
"God you're so exhausting." Sighed Meredith, and she fell into Addison's welcome friendly embrace.
tbc..
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LINK- www DOT youtube DOT com /watch?v=h6wnOfB5alE