Now, Tony was simply left with thoughts. He had wanted to tell Ziva how much he loved her, how much she meant to him. He had wanted to make sure McGee was okay and apologize for making fun of his name all the time. He wanted to at least bowl with Abby one more time and receive one of her massive hugs. Finally, Tony thought of Gibbs. He so badly wanted to tell Gibbs that he felt more like a father to him than his own did. He had practically grown up as Gibbs' son and it made Tony smile slightly, suddenly feeling something vibrate against the top of the hood. He sighed heavily and felt himself beginning to fall asleep. He decided it was fine to fall asleep, since there would soon be more pain. Wouldn't there?
BACK WITH GIBBS...
Gibbs stared at the computer screen and sighed heavily, begining to pace a bit. He walked from the big screen, back to Abby and then back again. Abby looked at him and murmured, "Gibbs...I'm sorry." Gibbs looked at her and opened his mouth to speak, when Ziva rushed into the room and exclaimed, "Gibbs! McGee said that after Tony was hit by the car, he heard Carmen on the phone with someone talking about a construction site!" Abby looked at Gibbs and said, "Yeah, but Gibbs, I need a range! There's thousands of construction sites!" Gibbs heard his phone ring, not bothering to look at the ID, and snapped at Ziva, "Ziva, I need bolos up about his car and I want all of the construction sites blocked off!" Gibbs picked up his phone, answering as he snapped, "Gibbs."
BACK WITH TONY...
Tony's eyes fluttered open, welcoming him once again into the darkness of the trunk of the car. He looked around and whispered, "It stopped moving...Why isn't it moving?" He reached into his pockets and blinked, finding his phone. "Why...?" Tony didn't finish his sentence as he quickly began to open the phone, searching for bars. "Ha! Got one! Come on, come on!" He growled, punching in Gibbs' phone number. He looked at his battery, glad to know it was on full. Tony took a deep breath before realizing that he was short of air in the trunk. He shrugged, muttering something about not getting much air in closed spaces. However, his gut told him it was something much, much worse.
"Gibbs."
Tony smiled as he began to speak, "B-Boss...I...I don't know...Wh-Where I am..."
"DiNozzo?! Track this phone number, Abbs!"
Tony laughed slightly as he heard Abby in the backround exclaim, "On it!" He wiped blood from his nose and tried to breath through his nose, however, his nose was clogged with dry blood and he could only breath through his mouth.
"DiNozzo, hang on, alright! Stay on the phone!"
Tony nodded and looked to the right of him. "Hey, l-lookie here. A...A way to the...The actual...C-Car." He began pounding on the wall and heard Gibbs saying, "DiNozzo, we're checking all the construction sites! Do you have any idea which one you're in?"
Tony blinked and continued pounding, replying, "No...I-I wasn't even...Aware I was....IN a construction site! Dammit!" He heard Gibbs ask what was wrong just as he pounded the wall in. However, what he saw was not what he wanted to see. The car was dimly lit by the lights on in the car and the windows were covered...by dirt. Two corpses sat in the fronts seats staring out the fron window. Tony instantly felt all his determination, his hope drain from his very body.
"B-Boss...I...I uh..." Tony felt tears filling his eyes as he stared at all the dirt surrounding the car. He swallowed hard and began to move into the car, when he stopped, seeing a dead body lying in the back seat. It was staring at Tony with its arms crossed over its chest and its legs perfectly straight. Tony opened his mouth to say something to Gibbs, but only whispered, "C-Carmen's...Sister?!" He lay back down in the trunk and stared at the phone, hearing Gibbs call his name. Tony looked at the top of the trunk and felt fear controlling his mind. He shut the phone, but left it on. He didn't want to talk to Gibbs, didn't want to hear his voice at the moment.
Tony began to pound the top of the trunk and scratch it, screaming at the top of his lungs. He felt hopeless, lost, and trapped. He could barely breath and he could feel sweat dripping down his face. He felt his fingers begin to form blisters and then begin to bleed. He felt the scratches and cuts that were forming on his fingers begin to bleed all over his hands and he felt sick to his stomach. Tony sobbed uncontrollably as he pounded at the trunk and he screamed for help, hoping that someone would hear, that someone would save Tony from his fate. He hadn't eaten in a while nor had he drank in a while. So, all was hopless and Tony could tell by the way Gibbs was calling his name, he though it too.
BACK WITH GIBBS...
"Abby, I need an address, NOW!" Gibbs yelled, rushing over to the computer. Abby quickly wrote something down and looked at Gibbs. "Gibbs, let me come with you!" Gibbs hesitated a brief second before snapping, "Hurry, Abby!" As he rushed from the room, Abby slipped off her lab coat and grabbed her black, leather jacket. She ran after Gibbs and dashed into the elevator with him, looking at him. "Will he be okay?" Gibbs looked at her for a minute before murmuring, "I hope so, Abbs..."
SKIP...
Gibbs swore as he flicked on his flashlight and looked around the construction site along with Ziva, Abby, and twenty others. Policemen, Jenny, and FBI agents. He walked swiftly, quickly over every inch of the site, looking for something out of place, something out of the ordinary. He looked back at the cops and yelled, "Hey! Go that way! Fornell, you and a few others go the opposite way! I'll take the rest!" Gibbs began to walk again and heard Abby say, "Gibbs...I'm scared." Gibbs looked at her and stopped walking for a minute, hugging her with his right arm and kissing her softly on the forhead. "I know Abbs...I know."
BACK TO TONY...
Tony's hands trembled as he continued to pound on the trunk of the car and his throat burned from all the screaming. He sobbed still and looked at his phone, biting his lower lip to try and calm down.
Are you scared of the dark Are you afraid they ll break your heart Are you afraid you ll lose yourself Are you afraid of your own health
Tony picked up the phone and began dialing Gibbs' number again, wincing at the pain it caused his fingers. He placed the phone to his ear and heard Gibbs answer with a sharp, "Tony, hold on! We've almost got you, alright?!" Tony nodded and replied shakily, "B-Boss...I...I'm scared! I'm...I'm really scared, Boss..." He couldn't hold back his sobs as he spoke to Gibbs, his father-like figure, his only hope.
Are you scared to lose Are you afraid to choose Are you afraid you ll win Are you scared of your own sin
Gibbs felt his heart break as he looked around the construction site desperately. "Tony, calm down! We've almost got you, understand? You stay right here with me, got it?!"
Are you scared to forgive Are you afraid to live Are you afraid to die Do you think it's all a lie
Tony swallowed and continued to sob, pounding on the roof, hearing something above him. Something sounding like...Footsteps! "B-Boss! I...S-Someone's walking above me!" He sobbed harshly as he began to yell for help, pounding on the roof again.
Gibbs felt a slight vibration under his feet and he looked over at everyone, screaming, "I FOUND HIM! GET YOUR ASSES OVER HERE! LET'S MOVE!" He began to move away the dirt with his hands, watching as a few others rushed over with shovels and began to unbury the car. One of them stopped and exclaimed, "I hit something!" Gibbs brushed away the dirt and stared down at none other than the trunk of a car. He could still hear Tony sobbing on the phone, begging for help and someone to save him.
Gibbs watched as the rest of the car was unburied and soon, he was able to pry the trunk open. He stared down at his Senior Field Agent, covered in blood, sweat, and tears.
To live When you think you re dying To laugh When you feel like crying To stand When you think you re gonna fall It s just fear after all It s only fear after all
Tony began to sob harder, quickly trying to climb out of the trunk. Gibbs grabbed him quickly and pulled him into a tight hug, sighing heavily and feeling his own tears rush to his eyes. He held onto him, ignoring what others were saying. However, he could hear Abby crying with happiness and Ziva ordering the Paramedics over.
Are you afraid you ll be alone Are you scared to pick up the phone Are you scared of the past Do you think that you might crash Do you think you re in too deep
Tony hung onto Gibbs tightly as he buried his face into Gibbs' shoulder, sobbing heavily. He felt Gibbs' grip tighten as he began to rub the back of Tony's head. "I've got ya, DiNozzo...I'm right here. I've got ya..." Gibbs sighed with a bit of relief as he heard the Paramedics rushing over to them and preparing the stretcher. Tony sniffed a few times, whimpering softly as Gibbs moved him out of the deep hole, helping him come over to the stretcher.
Are you afraid to sleep Are you scared there s no stability Are you afraid of your own fragility
"Attaboy, DiNozzo. Keep walkin'..." Gibbs said softly, still walking with Tony's arm over his shoulder. When he laid him down on the stretcher, with some help from the Paramedics, he heard Tony laugh slightly and look Gibbs in the eyes. "Thank you, Boss...Th-Thank you..." Gibbs smiled gently and grabbed Tony's good shoulder, murmuring, "It's alright...Calm down now. You'll be fine, alright?"
To live When you think you re dying To laugh When you feel like crying To stand When you think you re gonna fall It s just fear after all It s only fear
Tony smiled softly as he lay in the hospital bed, eyes shut and trying to stay calm. Gibbs was standing right next to him, hand on top of Tony's hand and soothing words coming from his mouth. Abby was standing off to the side with Ziva, while Ducky was checking on McGee, trying to see about getting him a wheelchair and bringing him in here.
To mend When you think you re breaking To strength When you know you re shaking To pray When your back s against the wall
Tony opened his eyes softly and looked over at everyone. He frowned slightly, staring at all of their eyes, thinking about what they had saw. They had seen him cry, seen him breakdown, heard him breakdown. It was awful...It was embarrassing. DiNozzo' s don't cry or breakdown. That was one of his many rules even when he was a kid and his father beat him. Maybe they didn't think he could do his job right? Maybe they didn't think he was ever going to come back to work? Tony didn't even think he was coming back to work!
It s only fear after all
Are you scared of the end Are you scared to begin Are you scared of the start Do you think they ll break your heart Do you think they ll break your heart
Gibbs looked Tony in the eyes and said softly, "DiNozzo, you're gonna be fine. Understand me? You'll make it through this. You lived through Hell, DiNozzo, and Ziva killed Carmen, shot him in the head after he tried to shoot her." Ziva smiled slightly and Tony nodded, feeling tears slip out his eyes again. He wiped his eyes off, but began to sob once more.
To live When you think you re dying To laugh When you feel like crying To stand When you think you re gonna fall It s just fear after all It s only fear after all
Gibbs hugged Tony again like before, and Tony hugged back just as tightly, looking at all of his friends, his family, his home. He was finally home and all was going to be okay. He was safe...And he was going to get over this. He was going to live and fight his fear.
It s only fear The only fear is fear itself The only fear is fear itself The only fear is fear itself It s only fear