set in 'Thanks For The Memories' 2x09

Chapter Ten - You're Always What I Want

Addison woke early on thanks giving morning. Izzie was standing over her bed holding out coffee.

"Stevens?" groaned Addison, "It's my day off."

"Exactly." said Izzie, "You are going to help with dinner."

"Oh." said Addie, "Now?"

"Yes."

"Right." Addison sat up and accepted the cup from Izzie, drinking deeply. When she finished she handed the mug back with a thank you then stood and pulled on a pair of loose sweat pants.

Izzie looked away awkwardly before walking down the attic steps into the main hallway, Addison following behind her.

"Where is Meredith?"

"Having a shower, but she'll-" Izzie's answer was cut off as Addison walked straight into the bathroom, the noise of the shower still going.

In the bathroom Addison opened the shower door and leaned against the wall, smiling at Meredith.

"Hey you." She grinned, "You going into work?"

"I am."

Addie nodded, "So umm, I was thinking we could …have sex tonight."

Meredith laughed, "How long has it been?" She asked,

Addison ignored this, "Look I know it'll be a bit… different. It's the first time..."

"Since Mark."

"And Derek... I have the day off."

"I don't." Said Meredith, "I'm not really-"

"In the mood." smiled Addie, "You've never liked Thanks Giving. But, I know how to make it better."

"Oh?" asked Mere, "How?"

"I was thinking we could have sex tonight." Meredith laughed but Addie took a step forward, closer to the shower, "Or…" she grinned, "we could have sex now."

Meredith stoped the stream of the shower and stepped out of the shower.

"I have to get to work."

Addison nodded, "Yeah."

Meredith wrapped a towel around her dripping wet body and walked Addison back into the wall. Their mouths met, Addison grinned and pulled Meredith as close to her body as possible. The kiss was long, passionate, and left Addison with a hickey.

When Addison fully recovered she headed back to her room in the attic to pull on fresh clothes, careful to make sure the hickey wasn't visible.

She was walking down the stairs to help Izzie when three loud male voices yelled 'O'Malley!' and she had to run back up the stairs so she wouldn't be run over.

Later in the morning Cristina and Burke waited outside Meredith's house.

"Don't mention Shepherd." She said, "Or Montgomery."

"Ok."

"Or the fact that Montgomery seems to have moved in and none of us know why."

"Ok."

"Or anything having to do with syphilis."

Burke laughed lightly, "I've been in social situations before."

"Yeah well not with me."

* * *

"I'm in hell." George said into his phone as he tried to avoid his family,

"I'm the one in hell. Burke's going all Iron Chef in your kitchen with Izzie and Montgomery. Get your ass back here and save me." Cristina told George as she looked through cupboards,

"I'm in the woods with shotguns, and liquor and car talk. It's like deliverance out here."

"Well at least you've got liquor. Where does Meredith keep the booze?"

"Uh, I don't think she has any."

"How's that possible? She's a wasp. Liquor is like oxygen to a wasp."

"Addison seems to be able to control her… waspiness. Listen, can you come and get me?"

"Ok how am I supposed to get through the holidays without liquor George?!" Yelled Cristina and she hung up,

"Just come and get me! Cris- hello?" George realised he was talking to air and hung up, "Selfish!"

* * *

Addison was at the hospital. She wanted to tell Meredith to meet her at a hotel.

"Dr. Yang?" Addison said as she walked out of the elevator, "You're getting liquor here?" She joked lightly,

"Um...yes?"

Addison nodded, "Have you seen Meredith?"

"No, I have not." Cristina said stiffly and awkwardly,

"Do you know where she is?"

"No, I do not."

"Well if you see her…" Addison trailed off and sighed,

"I'm not here."

"Neither am I." Addison said again, pulling out her cell phone and walking away.

* * *

Meredith sat alone at the bar in Joe's thinking about a Thanks Giving years ago when a voice leaned over her shoulder.

"This seat taken?"

The guy was attractive. Meredith was about to open her mouth when another voice said;

"Yea it is." Addie walked paced the guy and sat down, she kissed Meredith softly on the lips then smiled and said, "Hey Mere."

"Hi Addie." Meredith took her hand and they entwined fingers,

"Ready to go?"

"One more drink."

After the one drink Meredith and Addison made their way to a nice hotel Addie had booked for them.

When they came to their room they walked inside, leaving the lights off. Addison pulled Meredith's jacket and shirt off and Mere made work of Addie's pants. Soon enough they were both in just their underwear, stumbling towards the bed.

They fell to the bed, Addison half over Meredith.

Addie smiled and kissed Mere softly, brushing Meredith's hair back with her fingers.

"Happy Thanks Giving."

Meredith burst into tears.

"Mere?"

"I'm sorry Addie. I get it. You like Thanks Giving, I know. So I didn't really think you'd remember but-"

"Oh God." Addison said, rolling over, sitting up and pulling Meredith into her arms. "Oh God."

"It's ok." said Meredith, wiping her eyes. She stoped sobbing, and gave a fake smile, "I'm fine."

"I'm so sorry Mere."

"It's fine Addie." Meredith told her, "How about we just sleep, ok?"

Addison nodded.

She didn't go to sleep straight away. She couldn't. At moment she hated herself. November 24th. How could she have forgotten? Yes it was Thanks Giving, and yes that had taken over her mind while trying to be helpful to Izzie and Burke and romantic to Mere but there was no excuse. November 24th. Nine years today since Meredith's innocence was ripped from her and she was left pregnant and alone and scared.

Addison lay down and pulled Meredith into her arms, breathing in her scent and listening to the steady snores.

"You're who I want to spend the rest of my life with." She whispered into the crook of Meredith's neck, pressing a soft kiss to the exposed skin, "I love you."

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