Chapter 8

Selene POV.

I woke up and I looked at the clock it was five ten am. I looked around the room and Stark, Zoey and Jacen were all still asleep. I got out of Jacen's grasp and went to my closet. I put on some sweat pants and and pull over sweater on. I left my room. I walked down the stairs and there were no fledglings in the common room which was expected because it is night time for vampires but day time for humans. The sun didn't bother me at all and I was glad so then I could go out in the day. I found my feet walking and my mind not know where it was that they were taking me. I stopped in front of the East building. I climbed up the ladder and I saw Erik sitting on the roof. "Can't sleep?" I ask him as I walk over and sit in the spot beside him. He looked up at me and his eyes are glassy. "Erik are you okay?" I asked him. My voice was low, soft and caring. He looked genuinely hurt.

"Ye-Yea-Yeah." He said and I saw I tear roll down his face. I brushed it away and let my hand stay on his face for a little while longer. He looked up at me as if I was his goddess whom he worshiped. I let my hands fall because it wasn't right for me to touch his face when I was suppose to be bound in two days. When my hands were away from Erik's face I saw two more tears drop. I didn't wipe them away this time, instead I looked off the roof and at the morning clouds. The sky was bright orange, pink, yellow and red. It was a sailor's sky. "Damn it." Erik said when I looked over and more tears were falling from his eyes. He whipped them away very quickly.

"Your not okay." I tell him. I'm looking right into his eyes.

"Why would I be okay S?" He asked me. I was taken back. I hadn't heard him call me S in over a year. Hell I hadn't even heard Erik's voice in over a year.

"I don't know." I say looking away from his watery gaze and back to the sky. "I'm sorry." I say not looking at him. I don't know why I said it but I did. Maybe I had to say it so he could be happy. Whatever reason I said it for it hurt like hell. He stayed quiet but I could feel his gaze on me. It was so strong. "Say something." I say after about twenty minutes of him staring at me and me staring at the sky.

"Like what Selene?" He said. I heard him getting to his feet. "That I'm sorry that I came back?" He paused. "Because I'm not." He yelled at me. "Do you want me to be sorry for loving you." I shook my head. I got up and faced him. "Do you want me to beg you and tell you how much I love you and how I want to be with you?" He was yelling in my face.

"No." I said my voice was a faint echo of a whisper.

"Then what Selene?" He asked getting closer to me. "What the hell do you want from me?" He yelled and cried at the same time. I looked up into his eyes that were less than five inches away from mine.

"Nothing." I breathed and backed away from him. I was feeling all these emotions flying through me, but all that I could think of was anger. "NOTHING ERIK!" I yelled at him. "I don't want anything from you." I said in a strong voice.

"You must want something from me." He said. His voice was desperate. "Anything." He added. I looked down at my hands for the first time since I had come home. I had scars on them. They were bright red. How could I do this to myself. Was I going to self destruct if Erik was in the same world as me.

"You know what I want Erik?" I said and he looked ready for whatever I said. "You to drop dead." I said and he looked hurt and took steps away from me. I jumped off of the roof. I looked back up and Erik was sitting on the ledge his head buried in his hands weeping. I walked back to the dorms cursing the day that I meant Erik Fucking Douche Bag Night.

Erik POV.

She wanted me to drop dead. That hurt more than anything. I cried and whined for a little while then I whipped my face. I looked down at my hands and they had blood on them. I touched my eye again and I saw more blood. I was crying blood. This was so weird. I ruched back to my apartment on campus to clean it off.

Selene POV.

I opened the door to the girls dorm and as soon as I closed it my feet gave way underneath me. I was in utter pain. I felt bad for what I said to Erik but I was just so damn mad and he was yelling at me. I brought my knees up to my chest hugging them tightly. I cried and cred. "Are you okay." I heard a delicate voice say and I looked up and Lo was standing over me.

"Go away traitor." I said trying to give her a dirty look through my tears. She sat in beside me.

"Nope." She said draping an arm around me and I pulled out of her grasp and walked over to the sofa. "Selene I am sorry." She said.

"Look at what your dumb thinking did to me." I showed her all of my cuts.

"I'm sorry." She whispered. I saw her about to cry so I walked over to her and pulled her into a hug. "I'm sorry." She said into my ear.

"I know." I said letting her go. I sat on the sofa and pulled me knees up again.

"Wants wrong?" She asked me. Erik I thought. "Did you two fight?" Yes. "Oh gosh." She wrapped her arm around me in a supportive friend hug thing. I leaned my head on her shoulder.

"How did everything get do messed up so fast?" I asked her.

"I don't know Sel." She said honestly. "I wish it weren't." She said and I nodded in agreement. I started to cry on her shoulder.

Kaylee POV.

I was in Eros' room. I had spent the night since Lo and Apollo were doing Nyx knows what in our room. It was two more days until the bonding ceremony. We were having a bonderette party and the boys were having a bonder party. "What's on your mind love?" Eros asked me. He put me onto his lap.

"The parties that are happening tomorrow." I told him and he nodded. "Two more days."

"I can't wait until we get bound." He said. I looked back at him and I saw so much love and purity behind what he had just said.

"What are you thinking about?" I asked him.

"That I should go and shower." He said setting me back on the bed.

"Fine." I grumbled. He grabbed his things and went to the bathroom. He stopped at the door and looked back at me.

"You can join me." He said and I smiled. I jumped off of the bed. We went into the bathroom and had a shower together. He scrubbed my back and I scrubbed his. My mind was blank. All I could think about was Eros. My warrior and soul mate. My everything. I couldn't believe that he was all mine and I was never going to let him go. He kissed me from my neck up to my mouth. It was sweet like cherries and as soft and warm like teddy bears. This is a moment that would be imprinted in my mind for all of eternity. We made love in the shower.

Lotus POV.

Selene was still crying when the smell hit me. It was blood. I smelled a little while longer and then I realized that it was Selene's blood. "Sel." I said pushing her out of my friend comfort hug so that she was arms length away from me and that I could also see her face. Blood tears.

"What is it?" She asked me. I rubbed my hand over her cheeks and showed it to her."Oh My NYX!" She said in shock. "I-I-I did that." Her voice was stuttering.

"You cried blood." I told her.

"No that's impossible." She said trying to make the best of what she could."I have to go and clean up its getting late." She said. I looked at the clock and it said eight o'clock pm. Selene had been crying for over ten hours. I nodded. "Lo I am sorry to and thanks for being a great friend." She said and I knew she meant it. "Love you." She hugged me.

"Love you to." I said when we let go. "Now go and shower, get yourself fixed up before Jase has a heart attack." I said and she laughed then hurried up the stairs. While I on the other hand left the girls dorm and walked to the dinning hall to grab some bags of blood.

That's it I know its short sorry but I hope you like it anyway.

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