Girl Behind The Red Door Chapter 7: Crazy For This Girl, an one tree hill fanfic

Authors note: I'm sooo grateful for last chapter's reviews. Great that you all liked it and BrucasForeva; I'm glad you liked the "dumping me-comment"! pOoLbEeRtAtToOs; glad i could lighten your day...Lol
I'm not sure what you'll think about this chapter though, so i'm actually a little nervous. Well... here we go...

CHAPTER 7 – Crazy For This Girl

Lucas slowly walks down to the car with Mouth in tow. He's tired and distraught and he doesn't want to talk to anyone, but Mouth had just gotten up from the chair in Rachel's kitchen and followed him. And as little as he wants the company he can't really make himself to tell that to his childhood friend. So instead he pulls open the car door and Mouth gets in on the passenger side. They're both still quiet and Lucas pushes the play-button on the car stereo. It's a song with Evan and Jaron and he raises the volume to escape conversation. But when they reach the down town-exit Mouth speaks;

"So… um… how did it go… your talk with Brooke?"

Lucas sighs and shrugs his shoulders.

"Not that good."

He knows that the answer isn't very informative and that Mouth expects more but he doesn't really know what to say. How did it go? I didn't really go anywhere. Probably just straight to hell… So they go back to the tense silence for a couple of minutes.
He wonders how long Mouth has known that Brooke is pregnant and even more so; why Mouth hadn't told him. Could it be that even Mouth was siding with Team Brooke in this?
Finally the sheer curiosity gets the best of him.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

Mouth looks a bit uneasy. "It wasn't my decision. Brooke asked me not to and she's my friend so…"

"But we've known each other for almost half our lives! Shouldn't your loyalty to me be bigger then your loyalty towards Brooke? I mean, you must know that I would have wanted to know this sooner… I could have been there for her from the beginning!"

He's irritated and it marks the tone of his voice. But he's not really angry with his friend who's sitting there beside him quietly looking guilty. Mouth is a nice person, as nice as they come actually, and he had done the right thing. It just makes Lucas crazy that he can't figure out where in all of this he had taken the wrong turn. Because in the middle of it all he just wants to turn the car around and go back to Brooke. He wants her to listen and to understand that this isn't going to just go away. Neither the love he has for her or the baby she is carrying.

"Did you know she's going to have an abortion?" he asks instead in a lower voice. And in the corner of his eye he can see Mouth flinch.

"No… She said she was thinking of it… I mean, since you didn't really…um…"

There is an awkward silence as Lucas parks in Mouths driveway.

"Since I didn't what?

"Come on Luke… You didn't want to be with her. You were so hung up on Peyton that you didn't really see Brooke. And maybe you still are, I don't know…" He starts to get out of the car. Grabbing his bag and unfastening his seatbelt. "You have this amazing girlfriend Lucas. She's beautiful, she has the greatest personality and a heart of gold. And you continuously pick Peyton over her? I sure as hell don't know why… I told Brooke that a thought she'd make a wonderful mother but she doesn't listen to me. And can you really blame her for not wanting to have a baby at eighteen with a guy that doesn't love her?"

Lucas looks at Mouth disbelievingly.

"Are you crazy? Do you honestly think that I don't love Brooke?"

Mouth shrugs and steps out on the street. "Well do you?"

Before Lucas has any chance to answer Mouth has closed the car door and Lucas is left with the music.

She rolls the window down
and she talks over the sound
of the cars that pass us by
and I don't know why
but she's changed my mind…

The sun is up and the sound of Rachel roaming around in the bathroom makes it impossible for Brooke to sleep any longer. She can't even remember falling to sleep yesterday and suddenly it's already morning. For a moment she feels blissfully unaware but then she remembers last night's events. And she winces.

"Please tell me that yesterday at the game was all just a really really bad dream" she whines and pulls the covers over her head. "And if it wasn't, just get me drunk…"

Rachel comes into the bedroom and lifts the blankets to be able to see Brooke. "Sorry, can't do that. It's the painful reality girl, and I can't get you drunk, not since you pregnant. But I could shoot you…"

"Please do!"

Rachel sits down next to her on the bed and the look on her face is much softer than her usual cocky smirk. She looks at Brooke seriously. "How did it go last night with you two? He didn't say much when he left…"

"You were here when Lucas left?" Brooke whispers. She hadn't heard Rachel come in and she'd thought that the red-head had been home late, after she had already gone to sleep.

Rachel nods. "Yeah, me and Mouth came here shortly after him. We made some coffee and waited and Luke stuck his head into the kitchen just saying 'Bye' before leaving. But he seemed beat… Mouth left with him so I guess he knows more than I do…"

"Well it's not that much to tell. I was puking like a dog when he came over so he tried to take care of me but then he made me so angry with all his righteous crap, so I said I had already decided on the abortion-thing… and then he told me I couldn't do that and I started screaming at him… umm… And then he kind of took me to bed."

Rachel flinches looking shocked. "What!?! You had sex with Lucas last night?"

"No stupid! I was so tired that I almost fell asleep standing. He just carried me to bed and tucked me in. And then I pretended to go to sleep so he'd leave… I couldn't talk to him anymore…"

"Why?" Rachel seems confused. As if she's not really following this Brooke-type of logic.

Brooke falls back on the pillows looking sad. "You saw him last night in the gym Rachel. He was so angry with me…"

"Yeah, duh! He was angry for finding it out the way he did and I would be too if I were him. I'm so going to kill that blond bitch when I see her! But he wasn't angry at you for being pregnant Brookie. He knows he's responsible for that as much as you are. …and Mouth told me that you've kind of been through this before with Lucas."

"Yeah, we had a pregnancy scare last year. He was being supportive and all, saying he would be there for me, but I could tell he was scared and feeling trapped… You know he just wasn't ready. And I mean, it's not that long ago. Why would now be any different?

Rachel shrugs.

"I just think it is… You know, he really seemed to care about you last night when you ran off… He said he loved you, you know… that he's loved you for ages."

Suddenly looking like she's been caught with being a little too emotional Rachel stands up and grabs Brooke's hand.

"Well anyways… Come on sleeping bitchy, we're going to be late for school." But Brooke pulls her hand out of her grip looking panicked.

"I can't go to school today Rachel! Lucas is going to be there and Peyton…"

She looks at Rachel all begging, shocked that her roommate still doesn't understand. Today, for the first time since Brooke had taken that first pregnancy-test, the situation feels real. Scary real. Lucas knows now so there is no way she can pretend like this isn't happening. And even though he had stayed with her last night she has no idea what to either say or do when she meets him.
But Rachel just shrugs her shoulders.

"True, they will both probably be there. But it could be worse, right? At least no one else knows. You could be dealing with having the news all over school…"

"And that would be unusual because? Welcome to my life Rach, I've been the gossip-priority of Tree Hill High for almost four years. Why should today be any different? Don't forget that I've already had to deal with the pregnancy rumors at school thanks to you…"

Rachel gives her a strange look. "Hey, don't place blame okay? It wasn't my fault that you choose to back up Haley by taking the fall for her. And you could have told Lucas from the get go. Now you just have to suck it up. If you don't go to school today, tomorrow will be even worse."

Brooke lays back down hugging her pillow. "Maybe not. And anyways, I was kind of looking forward to just staying in my bed sulking…"

"Yeah? I was kind of looking forward to marrying Cooper, but we all adjust don't we?"

She winks at Brooke who finally seems convinced. "Okay whatever, but you're staying with me the entire day. And if we run into Lucas, you're hiding me…"

But now Rachel is looking at her funny before turning her eyes over to the bed-room door. "It might be a little too late for that…" she says and Brooke follows her gaze.

In the doorway is Lucas. He looks tired and he's wearing the same clothes as he had last night. He simply stands there as if he's not sure if he can enter or not. And then he clears his throat nervously.

"Um… hey Brooke… can I talk to you?"

Rachel has left for school and Lucas and Brooke are sitting in the living room. They've been sitting there for a while; none of them really knowing how to start a conversation but then Lucas takes Brooke chin in his hand and makes her eyes meet his.

"I want you to promise me something pretty girl" he says slowly. "You can't leave this room until we've talked this out. You can't run from this…"

She looks up towards the ceiling rolling her eyes as if he's being annoying. "Don't call me Pretty girl…" she sighs. "I'm not your pretty girl anymore, remember?" But he keeps holding her face and forcing her to look at him and to see that he's being serious.

"Listen to me. You always run Brooke… Instead of asking me about the things you worry about, you make up these stories in your head painting the worst possible picture. And then you run. But right now you have to listen to me. Okay?"

First she just looks back at him but then she nods.

"Okay…"

He takes a deep breath. He finally has her attention and suddenly he's scared shitless. "It's now or never" he thinks. If Brooke doesn't get it now she never will. In the back of his mind he can still hear the song from last night in the car. It's like it's on repeat, trying to tell him something.

Would you look at her? She looks at me.
She's got me thinking about her constantly
but she doesn't know how I feel.
And as she's carrying on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out that I'm crazy for this girl.
Yea, I'm crazy for this girl…

"For a second" he says with a low voice "let's forget that you are pregnant. Let's pretend that we're back in my room the night when you came over and broke up with me… You said that me not missing you enough had made you stop missing me, right?"

Brooke nods silently. Looking at him and waiting for him to continue.

"What made you think that I didn't miss you in the first place? Was it because I didn't call you when I went away with my mom? Because you have to believe me Brooke, I missed you everyday. And even though I was devastated over Keith I thought about you daily… It was just so hard for me then. I felt like I didn't deserve to be in love or even be happy with Keith dead and my mom so broken without him…"

Brooke touches his cheek softly saying; "But Luke, I know…"

He's not letting her finish. "Wait Brooke. You said that this break up between us had absolutely nothing to do with Peyton, but you know what? I don't believe that. I want you to tell me exactly why you felt that you had to end it between us when you did. If you can honestly say that you don't love me anymore, then I will have to deal with that… But if you still have any feelings left for me, I'll do anything I can to fix this…"

…She was the one to hold me
the night the sky fell down
and what was I thinking when, the world didn't end
why didn't I know what I know now?

The begging look in his eyes throws Brooke off for a bit. She hasn't seen him look at her like this since she doesn't even know when. Her heart's already pounding with fear of getting damaged even the slightest, but all of a sudden she feels this urge to try and explain.
She turns a little so that she is sitting on the sofa facing him head on. And then she breathes in deeply.

"Okay, so I wasn't really honest with you that night Luke, it's not all about Peyton… and yet it is. But not so much about the kiss. Actually it's more about something you said shortly after I came back from California…"

He seems confused. "You mean when I said that I was the guy for you?"

"No. I came to your house to try and apologize after that night I spent with Chris…"

She doesn't have to say more. He's over-thrown by memories. He had been so hurt by her and he had just felt angry when she came by all teary-eyed.

"I don't know what to say" she said, "other then that I'm so sorry…"

"You have nothing to apologize for. We weren't together."

"Luke…"

"No, I just didn't think that non-exclusive meant; 'Hell, I'm going to sleep with Chris Keller'… Pretty skanky move Brooke"

"I AM sorry! I'm sorry that I did it and I'm sorry that you had to see it… But you are looking at me right now like I am so much worse than you, and you were with Peyton while we were together..."

"I didn't sleep with Peyton!"

"No, but you slept with Niki…"

"I didn't have feelings for you then… I guess that's my answer?"

"No it's not Lucas! I care about you so much!"

"Well, you have a hell of a way of showing it…"

He shakes the memory off him, not wanting to think back. "Yeah, I remember. But what was it that I said?"

"You said that the answer to why I could have done something like that towards you was because I didn't have feelings for you. Well, that's not true. I've loved you since day one and the shit won't go away, but you keep doing these things to me… like making out with Peyton, sleeping with Niki, not trusting me enough to tell me things, and then I thought; maybe you were talking about yourself…"

"Huh?"

"Maybe it's you who is pretending Luke, and maybe this doesn't really have to do with me… I mean, as I told you that day, I slept with Chris because I was so afraid of the feelings I had for you. I was scared of getting close to you again. And now I'm thinking that I am your Chris Keller…"

She smiles that little crocked Brooke Davis-smile but she looks sad and he wants to understand her so badly.

"What do you mean Brooke? You're not making sense. You are my Chris Keller?"

Her voice is cracking up. "Yeah… See, you love Peyton, but you are so scared of those feelings that you repeatedly keep going back to me. Our relationship has been a long 'one night-stand' to protect your heart from her… That's why I broke up with you. And that's why I'm having the abortion. Because you and Peyton will find your way in the end and I don't want to do this alone…"

Her tears are falling freely without a sound and he reaches out and caresses them away with his thumb. She is so beautiful.

"Oh pretty girl…" he whispers. "When you are wrong you are soo wrong…"

Right now, face to face,
all our fears pushed aside.
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
with her...

He pulls her to him and his lips lightly meet hers. They feel warm and soft against his and when she doesn't pull back it's like the world shifts and every bad thing that has happened these last months disappear in thin air. Then her lips part and the kiss deepen and his whole body literally lets out the breath he's been holding in since she broke up with him.

…And as she's carrying on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out that I'm crazy for this girl.
Yea, I'm crazy for this girl.

"I'm crazy for this girl" he thinks. "Brooke Davis is my oxygen."

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That was it for chapter 7. In the next chapter look out for a twist. ;) Please leave reviews. Thanks /Lynn