Dead.

Four little letters that have the power to destroy someone. Or bring them to their knees in tears.

He's dead, really truly dead, like never coming back. Arizona can't breathe, it hurts and she knows that it shouldn't hurt because she hasn't seen this man in twenty-five years. He didn't care about Arizona not in the least and he abandoned her. She should feel happy that he was gone. But there had always been that part of her that thought maybe he would try to find her. Or that she would have the time to see him and to explain to him how badly he hurt her.

It hurt that she would never get the chance now. She wasn't upset because she was going to miss him because you couldn't miss what you never had. It was about missed opportunities. The Chief was saying something to her but she couldn't really hear him it was like he was speaking to her through a tunnel.

"Arizona." Callie said squeezing Arizona's hip with the arm she had around her waist.

"Hmm?"

"Dr. Robbins I've assigned your cases to other doctors."

Arizona shook her head. "No, I want to stay and work." her voice sounded foreign to her ears.

Chief looked at Meredith and Lexie before saying. "If you won't take the day off for yourself, take off for them."

Arizona looked over at her sisters, Meredith was standing as still as a statue staring ahead of her tears in her green eyes and a few falling down her cheek. She could tell that Meredith was fighting hard to control herself. Lexie was in Mark's arms sobbing hard into his chest. The only reason she was even standing was because of Mark.

"Where is Derek?" She asked.

"He won't be out of surgery for a couple of hours."

Arizona nodded stepped out of Callie's embrace Callie gently kissed her temple before allowing her to pull Meredith to her. Very gently she touched Lexie's arm, the youngest of them looked up at her older sister.

"Come with us." Arizona said.

Lexie nodded, Mark kissed her goodbye and she took Arizona's hand they left the hospital.

XXX

"Tell me about him Ari, I mean what was he like when we were kids?" Meredith's voice was horse from crying. Arizona was sitting on Meredith's bed her back against the headboard with Meredith's head in her lap and Lexie's on her stomach. She was racking her fingers through both of their hair. It was something that had always calmed Meredith down when they were kids after there father left and their mother was working late at the hospital (again).

Arizona told Meredith about the Christmases when Ellis and Thatcher would take the both of them ice skating on Christmas eve every year and how later that night they were allowed to have hot chocolate with two marshmallows as opposed the one they were normally allowed. And then on Christmas day Thatcher would dress up as Santa and come in the house with a big bag of Presents. Lexie said he did the same with her and Molly.

Arizona told Meredith about the times that Thatcher would come and get the two of them out of school early on random days and take them to the park. She told her that Thatcher while he was around was a great father, because he was. He was loving and attentive. Arizona told Meredith about the times when either of them where sick her would set up a tent in their shared bedroom and camp out there with them. And some of the time if they where really lucky Ellis would be there too but only if she wasn't on-call.

Eventually Mark came and took Lexie home not long after he arrived Derek came and took over for Arizona by then Meredith's light snores filled the room.

"Callie is in the living room." Derek whispered.

Arizona nodded picked up her jacket and shoes that she had dumped unceremoniously on the floor and left the room. Callie was indeed in the living room looking around awkwardly. When she heard Arizona's foot steps she looked up at her and smiled.

"I know I shouldn't be here it's probably a family thing right? And I'm intruding on that, so I think I'll go.' Callie moved toward the door but Arizona grabbed her hand to stop her. She pulled her toward her bedroom and closed the door behind her.

"I need you." She said pushing Callie on the bed Arizona climbed on top of her straddling her waist. She kissed her hard sucking Callie's bottom lip in between her own Arizona bit down and pulled it through her teeth. She pulled away and looked down at Callie's bruised lips.

"I need you Calliope." She whispered and she pulled her shirt over her head and unhooked her bra. Callie gasped and quickly switched their positions so that she was on top of Arizona.

"Arizona, do you want to have sex with me because your father just died or is it because you want to?"

Arizona leaned up like she was going to kiss Callie but Callie moved out of reach.

"I want to, I have wanted to since I kissed you in the dirty bar bathroom. No more waiting Calliope I want you. I need you."

That was all the convincing Callie needed. She grinned mischievously at Arizona before she kissed Arizona lightly on the lips and then moving to her jaw and down to her neck she bit sucked and kissed her way down Arizona's toned body being sure to skip over her breast on her way down. She looked up at Arizona who was propped up on her elbows watching her girlfriend with desire burning in her eyes.

Callie just stared at her more pacifically at the swirly looking B that rested on Arizona's right hip, making no movement at all.

"B for Brooklyn I got it a year after she was born." and then Arizona's eyes narrowed into slits and she growled quietly because Callie wasn't doing a damn thing but staring at her tattoo. Taking it upon herself she unbuttoned her own pants pulling them down with the help of Callie. She pulled Callie up by her shirt.

"Your wearing to many clothes." Arizona moaned yanking Callie's shirt over her head. "Much better." She hummed against Callie's lips.

"Now Calliope, If you don't fuck me right now I'm going to have to finish it up myself." Arizona said with a smirk.

"Oh really? I think I would like to see that." Arizona glared at Callie and put her hand over her mouth gently.

"Shut up Calliope." Arizona warned.

"It's kind of sexy how bossy you are." and then she did as she was told many times.

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When Arizona woke up the next morning with warm arms surrounding her waist. She turned as gently as possible so that she could face Callie. With the tips of her fingers she traced the contours of her sleeping face down her arms Arizona pulled the covers back and let her eyes travel over the curvy body that belonged to her girlfriend. When they reached her hips Arizona gasped there where light purple marks on Callie's hips that fit Arizona's hand perfectly.

She had never done that before, never left marks except for maybe a hickey or two on a lover but that's it she had gone that far. But then again her orgasm had never been that intense.

Callie's eyes fluttered opened and smiled softly at Arizona it was in that moment that she realized she was in love with the raven haired women. They may have only been together for a couple of weeks but she had never felt so sure, or so intensely about someone like she felt about Callie. When she thought about never seeing Callie again it sent stabbing pains to her heart.

"Good morning beautiful." Callie whispered her voice was heavy from sleep she raised her head a little indicating that she wanted a kiss. Arizona laughed and gave her a peck on the lips.

"Indeed it is. And I think I might owe you an apology."

"After last night I don't think you have anything to apologize for." Callie smirked.

"Yeah well look at your hips love and you might disagree."

Callie looked down and gasped. "Oh your going to pay." She growled.

"Yeah? Really now how do you plan on doing that?"

Callie laughed softly and flipped Arizona on her back.

"Seriously this is your plan to make me pay? In that case I like paying… In fact I love paying."

And then Callie was tickling her middle section. Arizona squealed kicked and twisted trying to get away from Callie's fingers she was laughing so hard that tears where pouring out of her eyes.

"Please," Arizona gasped, "Please I can't breath."

"MOM!!! I can hear the two of you all the way from my room and I have been hearing you all night. Keep it down!"

Callie immediately ceased her movements and started laughing uncontrollably. "Oh my god your daughter heard us having sex last night."

"That's not funny." Arizona replied seriously but slowly a laugh bubbled up past her lips. "Okay it totally is."

Ten reviews for a speedy update. Sorry it took a little while on this chapter I've had a little trouble with it. (like it getting deleted. =(