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This isn't a new chapter but I would like to just explain how I view the characters in my own mind and then maybe you can understand where my writing is going or understand the story a little better.
*Bella – Bella is the ONLY character loosed basely on myself..I am not saying that I AM Bella by any means because there a few things about her character that I do not possess myself. Bella is extremely mature and that is where I based her on me, I had been through a lot in life by the time I had gotten to 15/16 years old and I thought about things exactly the same way that she does – I was confused about the person I was and spent my time indulging in books and this made me think more deeply about things in life...The same way that Bella does. Bella is finding herself and she is adapting very well at the moment with her new life which I wanted to convey because you can come from the deepest depths of despair in life and find something inside of you that pulls you back up.*
*Edward – My view of Edward is that he is VERY complex due to his confusion about growing up...He is NOT a bad person he just can't find the right way of thinking which is something that contrasts him to Bella..He wants to be a good person and this is what I admire about him but he can go about things completely the wrong way in his own quest for self-discovery. Don't give up on him yet..He may surprise you. *
*Alice and Emmett – Both of these characters live in their own worlds and find it hard to realise the effect it has on people...Alice is much more capable of sentiment as she is a woman but Emmett is the joker, he is used to using humour as a kind of defence mechanism and that is how he lives life. They are both eager to dive into new things but never think it through properly and of course they are completely in love with their spouses...They will both learn a lot through the story and become better people*
Carlisle and Esme – Esme is my MOTHER...in every way..and I love writing her as I feel a closeness to her, I adore my mother and we have been through a lot of tears and hugs together but I would go to the ends of the earth and back again for her if I could. Carlisle is my dad...The relationship with him and Bella is identical to what mine and his were before he left us.
*Rosalie and Jasper- These two are kind of bookends in the story for me but I will develop them further on.
ALSO....Just a quick note to say that when Edward calls Emmett and Alice from Jacob's cell phone in the last chapter, he ACTUALLY called up the phone's belonging to Jasper and Rosalie as A and Em's phones are still being held by Carlisle and his eagle-ears...I am sorry I forgot to disclose that, my mind has a way of completely running away from me at the best and worst of times.
That's it everyone....Hope this helps a little. Thank you for all your support once again.
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