Chapter 5: January

At school…

This was a 30 days no breaks school kind of deal. You go to class at 0700 and come out around 1800 (6pm). Long days, short breaks, all by myself. In other words, too much to think about during my time off. I went with 5 other guys from my office, I was the only female. The first two weeks, a female from another unit came to take class with us. My friend Derick, fell madly in love with her. I kept their secret for the short time she was there. After class, we all gather on the hotel lobby to watch a basketball game, eat pizza, play cards, or get a cab and go to the mall. Most of the time, that was the case. On my birthday, Derick rented a car and we all went to the mall. There was a moment I will never forget, when "Bohemian Rhapsody" by Queen came on the radio. We all sang the dance with the beat, it was extremely awesome! Since that moment, we all called that particular song Our Song. That song will remind us that no matter what happens, there's always hope.

Sometimes when I had a break or after class, I tried to call Rei. She sometimes picked it up and we talked a bit, but most of the time she didn't. My mind wandered to distant places thinking the worst. It wasn't the lack of trust, it was the knowledge that you're not loved. I knew from the beginning that for her this was just a game. What happens when I get back home and she doesn't want to play anymore? What will happen to my heart?

I placed my focus back in the class, but it was difficult. The day of my birthday, everyone called and congratulate me but she didn't. She was the only one that didn't. And when I asked her why, she answered that she didn't have to say it. That pissed me off and sadden me at the same time. The nerve of that woman!

Days passed and I hardly have word from Rei. She was getting distant, she wasn't picking up my calls, she was ignoring me. What was going on?

One week before graduation…

I just came back from a physically demanding training. I had to jump in a window and accidentally fell on top of my weapon. And since then, I had a terrible pain in my abdomen. All the sudden, I notice I was bleeding really bad. My pants were socked! But, I'm not suppose to be in my period? I went to the bathroom, take my clothes off and hop in a shower to wash the blood away. The female instructor, which happens to be my roommate, enters and sees the blood.

"You ok?", she asked worriedly, "This is not normal, you need to see a doctor"

I silently agreed.

I've been trying to get a hold of Rei, but she's not answering my calls. Then, I decide to call Ami.

"Hey, Mina. Wasup?"

"Ami, have you seen Rei?"

"Not lately, she hasn't been sleeping in the house for the past 3 days"

What the fuck is going on?!?!?!

"Mina, is everything all right?"

"I had an accident Ami and I need to get a hold of Rei"

"Maybe you should try Haruka or Michiru. Those three have been hanging out a lot lately"

"No, I wont call them. I'll wait, if not…I have no choice but to call"

"If you need anything, you know I'm right here"

"Thanks Ami. I'll call you later"

I end the phone call and I try to understand and find reasons for Rei not to be staying at the house. What is she up to?

I'm getting desperate, no call from Rei…no sign of life from her! I've been crying all afternoon, the pain is unbearable. The doctor said that my uterus would be fine, but he still needs to double check. All the sudden, I receive a call from Makoto.

"Hey", I answered whipping my tears away.

"Ami told me what happen, how are you feeling?"

"Better, but it still hurts"

"I told Rei, but she still doesn't want to talk to you"

"What the hell Mako! What's going on!"

"I don't know, but she's been acting weird lately. It's like she's not herself anymore"

That hit me right were it hurts. This was the beginning of the end for us…I could feel it.

3 days before graduation…

Tomorrow was my final exam and then I'll be heading back home. All this exercises and exams had kept me busy, so I had no time to think about Rei. That's something I don't want to think about right now. It was 1900 (7pm) and we were all getting ready to take some rest before the final exams. I decided to try one last time to call Rei…and was surprised when she picked it up.

"Hey Mina, wasup?"

"Hey, how are you?"

"I'm good, here working. How's school?"

"Good, almost done! Tomorrow are my finals and then home"

"Cool. You know, I found this place near the house with three rooms. Very affordable"

"Good, we could go and see it when I get back"

"I'm moving in with Haruka and Michiru"

"Wait. You, Haruka and Michiru? or You, Me, Haruka, and Michiru?"

"Only me, Haruka, and Michiru"

What is she trying to tell me…

"Why aren't you sleeping in the house?"

"Because I don't want to"

Now that's mature of her, thank God she's not in front of me…

"What are you trying to tell me Rei, that you don't want to be with me anymore?"

Silence…

"Answer me!"

"Yeah, that's exactly what it means"

"Why are you doing this Rei?"

"Because I don't love you! You can't love for both of us!"

"I thought that you were starting to feel something, you told me things…"

"Things that I only said because I wanted to at the moment. Didn't mean anything!"

"Rei…"

"I DON'T LOVE YOU! GET THAT IN YOUR HEAD!"

This is not happening, why is she doing this! I started to cry like crazy, I couldn't stop. I walked outside were it was 10 degrees and I was wearing just a T-shirt and some sweatpants.

"How can you do this, how can you play with me like this!"

"It was just sex Mina! There's nothing to loose here"

"For you maybe, but may I remind you that it was with you that I lost my virginity you ass! I did loose something"

"Wow, didn't loose much"

"I did it because I loved you, that was the only reason I slept with you. And you play me like this! You're heartless and ungrateful!"

"So..."

"So? That's very mature of you Rei. Very mature!"

"Well, it looks like someone didn't understand the message, I DON'T LOVE YOU! I DON'T LOVE YOU! I DON'T LOVE YOU!"

"Can you stop throwing the truth at my face! I get it, ok? Go to hell!"

I hang up…I ended the call that broke my heart into tiny pieces. Why does this hurt so much? Why can't this pain just go away!

My final test, and I can't even concentrate. I thought that maybe it was a nightmare, but it was all true. It sucked in so many levels. And the worst part was that I can't stop crying.

"Hey you"

I herd a voice next to me on the vehicle. Wasn't I alone in here?

"Stop crying for that mother fucker! What she did was as low as a rat! She knew very well that you were in training, and you don't do that bullshit while you're in school. Look at me, Aino"

I raised my eyes to her, it was my female instructor. A 40 year old blond with the most awesome attitude, strength, and confidence I have ever seen. She went to war three times and damn, she was still alive.

"There's nothing I can say that will fix this mess. But there's something I could say, you're an amazing woman and human being. You're gorgeous, beautiful, strong, and you have a natural sence of leadership that I haven't seen in years. You're something honey, and don't let this mother fucker destroy who you are. Remember, you have the pussy and you are the boss"

I smiled, she was right. I won't let this destroy me. I see her picking on her pockets.

"Well, I thought I had some candy for you. But what I have is a chapstick, a tampon, and a lighter. That wont make you feel better hun, but at least I got you to smile"

I smiled at her, "Thanks you, ma'am. You did cheer me up"

"You got that right, hun. Now go there and kick some ass!"

I saw her leave the vehicle with a smile. That woman was something, and crazy as hell.

That night…

After the test ended, we all took showers and got in the bus. The instructors took us to a nice place to eat. We had a blast! The food was great and I could finally manage to smile. Then, the waitress came with the most awesome dessert.

"Here Hun, this is the special Strawberry blast cake just for you from your instructors. Forget that mother fucker hun, thank God he's not in front of me or he'll be dead by now"

I could only manage to smile at her and then looked at my instructors. They were all smiling and cheering for me. When you think your life is over, there's always someone that will cheer for you and motivate you to keep going. Life is full of surprises, and today life surprised me with wonderful people I will never forget.

Graduation Day…

Finally this day came. We all received certificates for the completion of our school. We hugged and joked with the instructors and all the sudden, we had all our bags on the bus and we were heading to the airport. Which reminded me that I was talking to Rei last night about picking me up from the airport. All the sudden I was arguing with her cause she didn't take care of my truck while I was gone. Typical "only me" kind of person. But well, let's see what will happen when I arrive at home, what surprises will I have. All I know is, that Ami's birthday was tomorrow and she will be there…

A/N: This one was a hard one cause it reminded me of all the bad times…but it also reminded me of the cake! That was a priceless moment for me. The part were I was bleeding, it was originally a natural abortion…but girl/girl relationships that's a little impossible to happen so I edited. And you guys know what? Until this day he thinks it was a lie, bastard. But well. Life continues no matter what! Review and enjoy…February is coming soon :)