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This chapter is going to be full of both messed up and angry people...I will warn you that nearer to the end there will be talk of a very uneasy issue so if you are a sensitive reader then please don't read on...Just skip.
Songs for this chapter are: I'm Ok – Sarah Bettens
I'm ok – Christina Aguilera --- These songs are for BOTH E/B
*~Carlisle~*
In ordinary circumstances I would have tried to stop Esme from ranting and raving at Jessica for hitting Bella...Bella had been an unstoppable force in our family that we had ALL grown to love in such a short amount of time and one thing was for sure that Bella would always be protected by us. I left Esme to it and if she found it necessary to need or include me in her confrontation with Edward then I would be there in a heartbeat.
I sat on the bed looking at Esme's empty spot...I couldn't help but let my thoughts led toward Bella and how she got her injury...I am not going to lie to myself and say that I wanted her to tell me every detail because I wanted to help her...However she could have been genuine with me by saying that she couldn't remember anything or she could have been telling me a lie...Now, I was never going to be the first person to accuse Bella Swan of lying but as of right now I didn't know what to think.
I grabbed the breakfast tray that Esme had left on the bed and walked out of our bedroom and down the stairs to the kitchen...I hadn't been paged all day which was always strange because I had always received some order or request or job either from my colleagues or people in a higher rank than me...However it looked like today was going to be quiet for a change...I cleaned up all of the cutlery and put it away in the cupboards...Considering that Emmett was with Rosalie and Jasper with Alice (I had seen his car outside through the curtains as I came down the stairs) I decided to go up and see Bella as she would be all by herself for a while.
I tapped on the door softly but heard no noise coming from the inside...I opened the door and walked in on tip-toe closing it behind me...I heard Bella murmur but only slightly...I looked at her she was asleep in bed her eye still blue...Her clothes (excluding her underwear) had been thrown across the floor no doubt she had been in a hurry to go back to sleep earlier...Her eyes have been looking so bad recently...Instead of waking her I did what Esme would have done...I grabbed her top from the floor and folded it over my arm and I did the same with her jeans...I then walked back out of the room and down to the washing room...Fair enough I hadn't always done the washing but I did know how to use the machine.
I placed the top in and was about to throw her jeans in when I felt something poke my chest out of one of the pockets...I laid the jeans out on top of the machine and buried my hand through the pocket picking out something that was wrapped in quite an amount of tissue...I unwrapped it slowly ignoring the unattended Jeans and top.
Once the paper had all been removed...I turned it round in my hand....
A PREGNANCY TEST.....!
IT WAS POSITIVE.....!
OH HOLY HELL.....!!
*~Esme~*
Edward had been looking at me uneasily for the past five minutes...How could he just sit there when he should be explaining to me what the hell had happened at his party last night...I folded my arms as an indication for him to speak...I hoped that he would take the hint.
"What do you want to know, mom?" Edward groaned out...Oh good we WERE on the right page, then!
"How the hell my youngest daughter got that black eye would be a start, Edward and don't start with how you hooked up with Jessica either because I am not in the mood for that" I spat out in reply...Edward flinched and moved his position on the bed.
"Do you want to sit down, mom?" he said gesturing to the empty side of the bed...I shook my head still keeping my posture strong..He exhaled and ran his hand through his hair.
"Okay...Bella had invited Mike Newton and he is someone that we have never been in conversation with...When I say we, I mean myself, Alice and Emmett. I don't know why she invited him but I got angry when I saw his face at my party and when I had seen him Bella had come into the house crying with him following her and I just saw red-"
"So instead of talking to Bella about it you went and threw rants?"
"No..I asked Bella but she was too upset and Alice insisted that she be the one who found out what was wrong about Bella...I was pissed at Alice because I wanted to be the one to help Bella and then I went off with Jessica but I couldn't get Mike out of my head...I later confronted Newton about why he was at my party and what he had done to hurt Bella-"Edward stopped and looked at me I nodded for him to continue.
"He backed away from me like the coward he is and Bella had come down as I had yelled at him and she grabbed me by the arm and led me outside...She started yelling at me which she had every right to and I was just trying to say that I wanted to protect her..She hit me and before I could snap back into the situation Jessica had come down and hit her...I told Jessica that Bella was my sister and she was shocked...She went to help Bella up and had began to apologise to her when Bella just crawled away back into the house...I haven't seen her since" Edward explained...I exhaled and walked over to him sitting in front of him on the bed.
"Edward...You know this isn't the first time you have gone wrong with Bella"
"I know that....I am so sick of screwing up...I don't want to keep saying sorry anymore...I get a girlfriend for the first time and even then I screw it up"
"You and Jessica...It's true, then?"
"Yes...Although it's only been a day...I don't think I feel as strongly for her yet but hopefully I will in time"
"That's good....Look Edward the only thing that was wrong here was that you stood by and watched your NOW girlfriend hit your sister"
"I know, mom and I am sorry....Do you remember the time I came in to your room and I was crying and I said that I was sorry about the way I acted?"
"Yes"
"Triple that and then times it by ten...That's how sorry I am feeling right now"
"So...What are you going to do?"
"Bella will avoid me...I know she will but I will continue to be there for her...I have apologised too many times to her and she said that I wasn't given another chance only an opportunity so I will try and get back to her as normal."
"Fair enough...Is there anything else that you are keeping from me, Edward?"
"Like what?"
"I don't know you and Bella seem a bit different lately has anything happened between you two without us knowing?"
"No...We are normal...The same as usual" I lied.
"Hmm well when you are ready to tell me, Edward then you let me know but until Bella's eye is healed and you are both back on the same ground...Jessica won't be welcome here"
"What? But mom!"
"You will thank me for this, Edward...Someday"
"Mom can you at least allow me to go out with Jessica if I chose to?"
"No..Sorry Edward she has to stay away until Bella is ready to face her"
"What about me?"
"The world doesn't evolve around you and your girlfriend"
"I never said it did, mom...It seems like everyone is too concerned about Bella to realise that I am still your son and a part of this family too"
"What the hell is that supposed to mean, Edward?!"
"Mom...Bella is the clear favourite in this house and you know what...I am getting sick of it" Edward climbed out of the bed and started walking over to his door.
"Where the hell are you going...Don't you walk away from me!" I yelled.
"Mom...I need air...I'm sure if Bella needed air you would let her have it" he answered me in a spiteful voice and ran out of the door and slammed it after him...I exhaled loudly and buried my head in my hands....I couldn't be too angry at Edward right now...I lacked the energy but also the fact that he hadn't been completely to blame in this pig of a situation...If I wanted someone to blame completely it would be Jessica...She would have to work hard if she were to ever come back into my house again.
I walked out of Edward's room making a note to ask him to clean up the mess later when he and I had calmed down...I went into Bella's room...She was sleeping in her bed and I could see the extent of the blackness and blue of her eye from where I was standing and I cringed internally...That must have been some blow and no wonder she was sleeping the impact must have knocked her for six. If Jessica wasn't distant family I would hit her one just as hard back and see how she feels...Stupid girl needs to learn that violence isn't the answer to everything.
"ISABELLA SWAN!" Carlisle shouted up the stairs causing the sound to bounce off the walls...I jumped and looked at Bella who had shot up from her slumber and was now sitting upright...I looked over to the stairs and before I could call my husband thundering footsteps filled the air...Oh god Carlisle never reacted like this except when he was really angry...I was frozen as I looked at Bella who was giving me a look of confusion – I shrugged my shoulders at her.
Carlisle had reached the stairs...He looked like an angry bull chasing after a red cloth I felt my stomach flip as I reached out to grab his arm...He tilted his head to look at me as I halted him, shook his head once and I released my grasp as Carlisle walked into the room just in front of me.
"Get up, young lady....Now!" He demanded at Bella who looked positively terrified...She clambered out of the bed nearly falling over a few times as she exited the bed and put on some slippers.
As she was doing that...I heard more tumbling footsteps from the opposite direction..Emmett and Rosalie came into view hand-in-hand as they stopped in their tracks when they saw me...They were swiftly joined by Alice and Jasper.
"Mom..What's going on?" Alice asked me...I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out.
"HURRY UP!" Carlisle shouted from inside the room...I moved out of the way without looking inside to make way for my husband and daughter to come out...There was no stopping Carlisle when he was this angry and all of us standing in the hallway knew this...Everyone of course except for Bella....Carlisle came out with a strong arm on Bella.
"Dad...What are you doing, you're hurting me!" Bella wailed as she was dragged down the stairs...I followed immediately and the others were behind me as we all descended down the stairs. Carlisle went to the living room and pushed Bella onto the sofa with some force.
"Carlisle what is the meaning of this?" I asked my husband...Not wanting him to lash out on her.
"Ask our Isabella what I found in her jeans pocket this morning?" Carlisle shot back at me...I looked at Bella who had began to cry and shake rather violently.
"Tell her then...Bella" Carlisle ordered, Bella bit her lip as she began to pant really hard..I had never seen anyone so scared.
"It's okay, Bella you can tell me" I soothed at her.
"STOP COMFORTING HER, ESME....TELL HER BELLA, TELL US ALL WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN UP TO?!"
"I haven't done anything" Bella choked out...The banter was interrupted by Edward who had walked in the front door and stood motionless as soon as he got in, a worried look on his face.
"YOU EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE THAT YOU HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING WHEN I FIND A POSITIVE PREGNANCY TEST IN YOUR POCKET?!"
An awkward silence fell over the room...My own heart had jumped into my throat...No there is no way that Bella would do that...I couldn't speak as I looked at my daughter who looked so broken on the sofa...None of my children had said anything but I could feel their shock.
"Bella...If you don't answer me..-" Carlisle said
"What will you do, dad...Hit me...Throw me out?" Bella broke off Carlisle standing up.
"Don't you answer me back!" Carlisle replied striding closer to Bella.
"You know all I do is help this family...What if I were pregnant...Is this the way that you would help me...Would you support me by throwing me out?"
"Explain your behaviour and then we wouldn't have to do anything drastic" I replied.
Bella turned to look at me and shook her head.
"No..-" Bella walked over towards Alice who was standing with her hand in Jasper's "I won't be blamed for this" Bella finished before staying a few seconds to glare at Alice and then she ran up to her room before any of us were able to stop her.
"Edward go and get her!" Carlisle demanded at Edward who nodded and had begun to climb the stairs.
"No...Wait Edward don't get Bella....She isn't the one who is pregnant....I am!" Alice shouted out...I fell to my knees with my head it my hands...This was all too much I didn't know what Carlisle was doing.
Alice...My baby was pregnant.....
What were we supposed to do now??
*~Edward~*
I knew that it would be wrong to follow Bella after we had been avoiding each other all day...I saw the look on her face after my dad had asked her if she was pregnant...The hurt in both Bella's and my dad's eyes was so completely obvious. Bella had been hurt that dad hadn't trusted her when she said that she wasn't pregnant and dad was hurt because Bella hadn't been honest with him if she was pregnant. I didn't know what to believe...All I had to do what see if she was alright.
Her bedroom door was open and I walked in to find it empty...The bathroom door was ajar a little and I walked gradually over to it...I nearly had a heart attack when I found her on the floor, her head down so that her long hair was shielding her face from view however I could see a razor in her hand though a gap in her hair...Her arm was also held out in front of her...I knew what she was about to do.
"Please put it down, Bella" I said to her as she choked...The razor was now as close to her skin as it could be without making contact with her skin itself...She didn't put the razor down but she was motionless the only sound coming from her body was her sobs...I got down on my knees and crawled a little way to her without getting too close...I grabbed a side of her hair and pulled it away from her...Her red and blotchy face now in view...I had never seen Bella cry this amount of tears and I felt sick that I may have been the reason that she wanted to hurt herself.
"Bella...Please?" I pleaded with as much of a steady voice as I could handle...She let out a small wail and dropped the razor...She then leant forward on the spot looking away from me and holding her stomach with both her hands as she wailed out silently...If it were possible to be heartbroken by your sister then this would be it for me...I grabbed her shoulder as she still remained forward and crawled over to place myself in front of her so that her head was now resting on my chest...I placed my hands on her cheeks and pulled her head up to face me...She followed the response but slowly..Her eyes never reaching mine as her head was upright. I leaned forward and kissed her injured eye once at the centre and then twice at either side..Bella shivered underneath my touch as she continued to let the tears fall...With one hand I took the razor off the floor; throwing it in the bin next to the sink and I didn't miss. I then wrapped both my arms around Bella's neck and hugged her tightly as she put her arms on my arms clenching her fingertips on them slightly but it didn't hurt.
I was about to pull away from her when she hugged me tighter...I continued to hold her as I pulled her up off of the floor to standing...She weighed nothing and she didn't put up a fight about being off of the floor...Once her feet were firmly on the floor I leant down and wrapped my arms underneath her legs and lifted her...She wrapped her arms around my neck without looking at me as I steadily made my way back to her bedroom...I flicked the bathroom light with my nose and then went over and sat on the foot of Bella's bed resting her body on my lap she kept her head in my neck...I felt the tears from her eyes on my neck I stroked her hair with one hand and used the other to hold her in place on my lap.
After around half an hour her sobs had completely disappeared and she was now breathing heavily on my chest – I didn't care that my bottom and legs were numb and I could no longer feel my feet I would stay here with Bella for a week if I had to.
Bella removed herself from my neck...I tilted my head to the side to look at her using a hand to stroke her hair from her face.
"Thank you, Edward" she whispered quietly.
"You're welcome" I replied just as quietly...I rested my head on hers...Bella sniffed.
"I don't want to do it anymore"
"Don't want to do what?"
"I don't want to be confused anymore"
"Bella...What are you confused about?"
Bella's breath hitched "I can't tell you, Edward"
"Sure you can, Bella"
"No I can't...I'm sorry, I wish I could"
"Don't apologise you don't have to tell me" I soothed
"I am sorry, Edward"
"I don't need an apology, Bella...I screwed up again"
"We were both at fault, Edward"
"You weren't at fault at all, Bella"
"I was...Edward can we just say sorry and leave it at that I don't have the strength to talk about it anymore"
"Sure okay...I forgive you"
"I forgive you too"
I rocked her on my lap carefully as she fully lifted her head to look at me...I smiled at her before kissing her on the forehead...She kept her forehead on mine and we each closed our eyes sitting in our own little worlds.
*~Carlisle~*
"Come with me, Alice!" I demanded at my daughter who stood confidently after her confession...I couldn't think straight I had been so angry at Bella because I thought she had been reckless in her love life but when Alice had confessed that she was the one that was pregnant...I couldn't breathe. I walked to the safety of my office my head buzzing with all the information.
I walked over to my desk without a backward glance at Alice and sat down putting my head in my hands...I couldn't look at her for the moment I was so ashamed that I had acted that way towards Bella and how Alice hadn't thought about telling me sooner so that this whole situation could have been avoided in the first place.
"Dad...I'm so sorry"
"You've made your choice, Alice...I am sorry that I didn't teach you how to be more careful"
"No, you don't understand...I knew what I was doing I just forgot to take the pill afterwards...Please don't be upset with me, dad...I spoke to Jasper about it and he wants to keep it – we want to keep it"
"How the hell could you stand by and watch me do that to Bella?"
"Dad...What are you talking about?"
I looked up at her for the first time..She was crying and her arms were folded tightly across her chest. "You knew that you were pregnant and yet you didn't come and tell me sooner?"
"I wanted to...I wanted to tell you the minute that I found out but I only told Jasper yesterday because he needed some time to think about what he wanted and so we were going to tell you later today but you found out before us"
"I did...Would you like to explain how YOUR used pregnancy test came to be in Bella's possession?"
"Bella found me the day of Edward's party when I had just taken the test...She was in the wrong place at the wrong time and I asked her to give me the result we found out and then she said she had got rid of it...I can see now why she would have it in her pocket...In case either you or mom checked the bins."
"She did that as well as keeping this to herself?"
"Yes...I didn't ask her to hide the test, dad she did it without my seeing it...I pleaded with her not to say anything because I knew this was something that I had to do on my own..I had made my own bed and I had to lie in it so to speak...She was so supportive dad...She said that she would help me and she also helped Jasper decide what to do – we are both so grateful to her dad"
"Maybe you should have thought about that before you allowed me to make her suffer like I did"
"Yes...I went about all of this wrong dad and for the second time I hate myself for what I have done to Bella"
"So how far along are you?"
"Nearly three weeks"
"You have to realise that I am disappointed in you, Alice"
"I know you are, dad but I don't regret doing it...I love Jasper and I want to love our child too"
"You are in a secure relationship...That much is certain but have you planned what you are going to do..Where you are going to live?"
"We both wanted to tell you and mom first before we planned anything"
"Good well then off you go"
"What?"
"You've told us and now you can go and plan things...It's your life, Alice"
"Dad you ARE mad at me"
"I am not MAD at you, Alice I am disappointed"
"That's the same thing"
"I think you will find it's not"
"This is about Bella isn't it....This isn't about me at all"
"Alice...This is NOT about Bella...This is about YOU and YOUR choices alone"
"Are you and mom going to support me, dad?"
"Of course we will...There's nothing more to say on the matter now...It's done"
"I thought you would have been happier about it"
"Happy? I can't be happy when I first find out that my seventeen year old daughter is pregnant...I will need time Alice to adapt to the change just like you will have to when you start to show"
"Fine but can I just say that I love you dad...And that I didn't do this to hurt you"
I looked up at the broken soul of my daughter and the longing moulded on her face...Now I had gone and made two of my daughters upset...I got up from the chair and pulled her into a tight hug...I couldn't stay mad at my daughter when she needed me...I didn't approve of it all right now and I would dearly love to hack off Jasper's parts but that is not what a father should do...Alice pulled her arms around me tighter and nested her head into my neck. We stayed like that for a few minutes letting the peacefulness of the silence wash over us...I knew that Alice was scared and making her feel even worse was just going to drive her away. I took her head in my hands and kissed her forehead.
"I love you too Alice" I said as she smiled and kissed my cheek.
Maybe I should of handled it differently and maybe I should have thought about things before I did or said them but now I had a daughter who needed me and a daughter who I needed to apologise too I had been quick to jump to the wrong conclusion and I was one of the first people Bella had trusted before she became my daughter legally.
One thing's for sure...For the next nine months things were going to be extremely different around here.
I just needed to be there for my family
Because as a father...................
It's what I do..............!
*~Esme~*
"Here you go, mom" Emmett said as he walked into the living room with a cup of coffee in his hand...He placed it on the coffee table and walked back over to sit beside me and grab my hand...Rosalie was sitting on the opposite sofa.
"Are you feeling any better?" Emmett asked me
"Yes..Thank you, darling I think it was just the shock"
"Are you mad at Alice, mom?"
"No...I couldn't be mad at her...I never have been able to – scatty little thing had always had one-up on me...Besides she needs us. I don't approve of her choice or how she went about this whole thing...I mean, come on I may want to believe that all of my children are untouched but no one is a saint..I know what you all get up to but I expect you to be sensible about it...Alice just had a lapse"
"So what are we going to do?"
"Emmett...I honestly don't know...We will have to go more into that when we are all feeling a little better this house feels like a prison right now and I already feel drained...Has Edward been back down yet?"
"No...He is still with Bella" Rosalie answered.
"Oh that's good...She has someone with her..Oh god Carlisle is probably beating himself up for his behaviour towards her"
"He couldn't help it, mom I mean...He wasn't to know that it was Alice's" Emmett replied...I tapped his hand with mine.
"How is football going anyway?"
"We have just found out that Alice is pregnant and you want to talk about football"?
"Let's just say I have had a little reality check today"
"Well it's going great we should be all trained up in time for summer..Just got to lay off some of the areas of the canteen until then"
"Can you do that?"
"Sure I can"
"Good boy" I laughed and caressed one of Emmett's cheeks as he smiled at me.
"You know it's been such a funny week"
"Tell me about it" Emmett said
"I am going to be a grandmother!"
"What about me? I am going to be an uncle...I don't know whether I want to be called Uncle Emmett yet" Rose and I laughed at his remark.
"Thank you again for organising the party on Friday, Esme" Rose said
"You're welcome...I just wish it would have gone a little bit better that is all"
"Well mom we are going to go and get ready...I am taking Rose out for dinner...Did you want us to bring back anything for you?"
"No thank you sweetheart...You have a good time"
Emmett stood up and kissed me on the forehead and Rosalie walked over and did the same...They then walked upstairs together and the house was silent.
I took the opportunity then to rest my eyes...
Everything was changing.......And fast.
*~Edward~*
Bella had fallen asleep in my arms...Her breathing was heavy and tingled every so often on my neck...Once I was certain she wouldn't wake when I moved I stood up with her in my arms desperately trying to get the feeling back into my legs...I placed her underneath the covers it was fortunate that she hadn't made her bed this morning and pulled the covers over the top of her she stirred a little but didn't wake. I leaned down and kissed her cheek before walking out of the room.
Bella had a close escape earlier and as much as I would like to keep it a secret from my dad I knew I couldn't...We Cullen's had a rule that we would tell each other everything no matter how badly or unexpectedly it came out. I was also surprised at the fact that I hadn't thought about Alice since being with Bella...I wasn't surprised at the revelation because I knew how much Alice and Jasper were mad about each other...It was bound to happen because nothing would break them up...They were meant to be together all of their lives and grow old together I had always known that there were couples who did that.
I walked down to my dad's office...I hadn't seen him all day and I am sure that mom had filled him in on everything we spoke about this morning and how I lashed out at her unreasonably...I think I need anger management classes...Either that or go away for a while on a vacation or something..Lord knows I needed it.
I stepped into the office; dad was at his usual spot at the desk..I walked over to him as he glanced up at me.
"Edward, what can I do for you?"
"I came...Well I came for one thing which I will tell you in a minute but I was wondering whether Esme had told you about her and my chat this morning?"
Carlisle put his glasses down on the desk and folded his hands out in front of him.
"No..She has yet to inform me."
"Oh I see...I will explain at some other time, dad...I am here about Bella"
"I had heard about your fight...I trust that you are building your relationship back up with her"
"Well I hope I am making some progress...I should tell you something...I am worried about her"
"Why are you worried, Edward?"
"After she left the living room after Alice's...Confession or whatever it is you want to call it I went up to Bella's room and I found her about to cut herself with a razor"
"Oh my good god" Dad exhaled as he put his head in his hands.
"I stopped her just in time..The razor never made contact with her skin but I think she needs help, dad"
"She also needed me to listen to her...Has she been crying?"
"She cried non-stop for about half an hour maybe more"
"Did she tell you why she was upset?"
"No she didn't mention any of us...She just said that she didn't want to be confused anymore"
"You better sit down, Edward" Dad motioned for me to sit down and I took it sitting down on the cold wood....Dad then got out his dictionary and started to scan through.
"Dad...I know that this is my fault and I know what you are going to say...But I need to be there for Bella right now you and mom can punish me later and I will not moan about it but we need to get Bella sorted out – there is something that she is not telling any of us"
"Do you have any idea about what it could be?"
"No...Not a clue"
"Right well self-harm can lead to a case of depression...Considering Bella's history with alcoholism it isn't surprising that she has been affected later on....However she has not been getting sleep either which is a worrying sign...I would subscribe her with sleeping medication but I know that there is a possibility that she will become too dependent on them"
"So what else is there to do?"
"Therapy"
"What you mean like a shrink?"
"She can go to regular classes and appointments on specified days, however seeing as she does not have a mode of transport of her own it would be better if she went back to Sandgrove"
"You mean....Bella would be leaving us?"
"Not permanently, Edward....just until she is better we have some of the best doctors and therapists in the country and I will be there also to check her progress and feet back to the rest of you on how she is doing"
"Is there any way that she could stay here...One of us could keep watch?"
"I am afraid that none of us have ever been struck with a mental illness and the proper carers are the people who have been through it themselves...I know you will miss her Edward but it is as you say..Her happiness is more important and she won't be happy until someone finds the real reason behind her sadness"
"Okay...I understand" God this was a bullet in the stomach there was now nothing that ANY of us could do for Bella...If only she would tell me what was wrong...If only she would let me in, or if she will not let ME in then let our parents or our sister and brother in....It just didn't make sense.
"I will ring up Doctor Albertson now...Hopefully he won't be finishing for another half an hour...Will you go and stay with Bella for me and ask Esme to pack some of her stuff please?"
"Yes" I answered as I left the office...Now Bella would be all alone back in the place she came from when she arrived here and I feared for her safety now more than ever....I was about to climb the stairs when I saw my mom in the living room asleep her head resting on the armchair.
"Mom?" I whispered into her ear as she stirred.
"Edward?" My mom mumbled
"Mom...Bella needs to go back to Sandgrove...I can't explain right now but dad asked me to tell you could you come and pack Bella some things" I whispered
"Yes of course" she said as she slowly got up from the sofa...I took her hand and she crushed her hand into mine...We would have to talk another time about my behaviour but my thoughts were now only for Bella.
I walked back into Bella's room and allowed my mum to get a bag from the wardrobe and browse around for necessities...I walked over to Bella and stroked her hair from her face as I sat on an empty spot in front of me... Once I was sitting I pulled her body up completely as gently as I could and held her body to mine tightly rocking her back and forth like I had done earlier...I couldn't help the tears that had fallen from my eyes...I kissed her head a few tears falling into her hair...I wasn't looking at my mom even though I knew she was moving around because I could hear her...I continued to hold Bella.
"Oh Edward sweetheart...She will be okay" Mom said forcing me to look up she smiled comfortingly at me and I forced a smile back..Still continuing to rock Bella.
"All-done...What else did your father say?" Mom said
"Umm...Nothing..." I started but I was interrupted by my dad bursting through Bella's room.
"They have a spare room at the hospital...We should take her in now"
Esme looked over at me and I nodded..Pulling Bella completely out of the covers and picking her up in the same way I had done earlier.
"What about Alice and Emmett?" Mom asked.
"You can stay here with them if you like or you can come along with us and I will drive you back later" dad answered.
"No..I will stay just keep me updated" Esme said as she kissed my dad and then kissed my cheek before she went however she stroked one of Bella's cheeks and kissed it lovingly as she lay in my arms.
"Okay, Edward are you going to be okay to carry her?" Dad asked taking the bag from Esme as she left the room and as he started out of the door, I nodded and began to walk down the stairs.
I welcomed the cool air as it hit my face..I tightened my grip on Bella who was laying limp and lifeless in my arms...I climbed into the back seat of the car and managed to climb in and put Bella on my lap again successfully...My dad got in and turned the key.
"Edward?" Bella mumbled her eyes still closed.
"It's okay Bella, I am here...I am not going to leave you...You are going to be taken care of my little sister I promise no one won't dare hurt you" I whispered back as she nodded a little and continued in her slumber...I didn't know whether she could understand what I had said or not I was too concerned about what had seemed to be bothering her.
THIS is the hardest night of my life...I would have faced a thousand parties like my own rather than have Bella here on my lap and going to hospital...She looked so fragile and I was so afraid that she would break completely and not have her usual beautiful character left in any remains...She did not deserve this and I would help her in any way I could EVERY step of the way.
SO confused and oblivious the pair of them, aren't they?!
So Bella will be going back to hospital but she won't be in there for long so don't panic...This is another emotional chapter I will do some POVs with E/Jess and B/Mike next chapter in case anyone is interested.
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