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It's not all happy-dory now let me tell you...I am sorry in advance but I have had this planned ever since I started writing AML and the story will be coming to a close VERY soon!!
I also need to say as a little note...Edward DID use protection..That's what he was doing when Bella was alone on the bed for a minute or two..I forgot to disclose it..There will be no babies for Bella in AML because I BELIEVE in contraception...That is unless someone wants to have a baby then it's all good. I just wanted to make them both give their virginities away because I thought it would be much more special.
Here is chapter 32 for you..!
Songs for B/E part of the chapter are: All the things she said – TATU
R/Em part of the chapter: 'Entwined' – Jason Reeves
B/A part of the chapter: 'Sweet Sacrifice' – Evanescence
J/B part of the chapter: 'Danny Boy' – Declan Galbraith
There IS sexual content in this chapter...Consider it a warning before you read.
I do NOT own Twilight.....I own AML
*~Bella~*
I sighed contently in the security of Edward's pillow...I had been awoken by the feel of his lips on my cheek and the side of my neck...I could get used to waking up like this!
I twisted my body around and smiled up at Edward...He wrapped his arm around my torso and kissed my nose.
"Good morning sweetheart" he whispered to me...After last night everything seemed so perfect...The kind of thing that only happens in fairytales and in romantic films...We were in our own montage Edward and I and nothing would ever compare to the feelings that overtook me in that moment...I was completely comfortable with Edward as he was with me.
"Morning" I sighed back stretching out my legs under the duvet
"Are you in any pain this morning my Bella?" Edward asked me as his nose skimmed along one of my cheeks...I sighed again.
"No..I can't feel anything right now" I assured him in reply.
" I heard that sex can do that to a person" Edward teased moving down my cheek to the side of my neck..I shuddered a little...God he always knew how to make me melt!
"I wouldn't know" I teased back...Edward wrapped one of his arms around my chest and kept his weight on his free arm.
"You know I never said thank you for basically lying to my face last night" Edward said...I giggled lightly.
"You're welcome...I glad I did it"
"Glad about what...Lying or having sex?" Edward kissed my forehead...I put one of my hands on his arm and sunk further into the pillow....My forehead was definitely my favourite kissing spot.
"Both" I breathed out with a smile...Edward responded with my favourite crooked smile and attacked my lips before I could say anything else. I wrapped both my hands around his face and responded fully...How can I have missed his lips so much since last night a mere number of HOURS ago...I have officially got it bad...I was tingling all over this morning and all in a good way...If I got up and found myself in some discomfort like I did last night then it wouldn't matter because the good points would smash the bad ones out of the water.
I felt Edward move from the side of me and I guessed immediately that he was up for round two...Jeez so was I...Is sex usually something that can turn into an addiction? Or was it just the fact that Edward made me feel special it made everything else feel special when I was one with him...I was about to alter my own position slightly to welcome his weight when our moment was interrupted by the sound of Edward's phone echoing through the silent room...Edward moaned deeply the vibrations soaring through my lips and I fought back a smile...Did he really like doing this with me? There was me thinking that I couldn't feel anymore love and need for him now...Did he feel the same way? Wow physical aspects make everything seem so rosy but complicated at the same time...I guess it was just one of life's mysteries. Edward disconnected our mouths and reached over to get the phone...He done it gently out of being half on top of me at that moment and flipped his phone up and accepted the call.
"Hello?" Edward said into the phone as he moved away from me completely and leant on his side again facing me...I waited patiently for him to finish not really curious as to who might have been on the phone. "No that's alright, I was awake...Yes she's right here, hold on a minute" I frowned at him and bit down on my lip...How could Edward have got a phone call for me? I had my own phone...Oh Jesus that reminded me that I really needed to actually USE that thing. "Elizabeth for you" Edward said flashing me yet another knee-buckling smile and handing the phone over to me...I took it from him and held it up to my ear.
"Hello?" I said.
"Hello Bella ducky it's Elizabeth...How are you doing? I am so sorry to call this early I hope I didn't wake you"
"I'm fine..No I was awake how are you?"
"I am very well thank you...Listen I need you to pop in and see me again today...I just need your confirmation that all your details on your work-pack are correct"
"Of course that's no problem..What time would you like me to be there?"
"We have a busy day ahead so the earlier the better as you know we don't open till twelve but if you come earlier than that then I will be here to let you in through the front entrance as usual"
"Okay sure no problem...I will see you later then?"
"Thank you so much Bella you're a star! See you later!"
I handed the phone back to Edward and he flipped the top of it back down.
"So what did Miss Lizzie want so badly that it interrupted quality time with my girlfriend?" Edward remarked with a cheeky smile.
"Edward I need you to do me a favour"
"You know I would do anything for you, Bella...I meant what I said last night. What do you need?"
I smiled "I need you to give me a lift into work"
"Oh well I am sure I can do that-" Edward started he moved his arm away from the bed and placed both of his hands either side of me as well as his legs on either side of my waist...He looked down on me from above however he did not put any of his weight on me "I have one condition, though" he finished.
"What's that?" I asked
Edward kissed my lips tenderly before disconnecting us again. "I want you to have a shower with me" he whispered...I felt the surge of panic through my stomach...I admired Edward's body so much in the dark and there was no doubt in my mind that I was going to love all of him in the day...But what about me? I always believed that I looked better in the dark...I am not a perfect shape and I have a few imperfections that I am still a little insecure about even if I had shown Edward my full nude body.
"What's wrong sweetheart?" Edward whispered as he stroked my upper and bottom lip with his index finger.
"I am afraid that you won't...LIKE me in the light...You know what I look like" I stammered.
"Why would you think that, Bella?"
"I know it's silly considering...You have seen me already but everything looks different in the light"
"Bella...Listen to me...I meant EVERYTHING that I said last night...As well as the fact that you are stunning...Believe me honey I would spend every hour of every day worshipping your body if you would let me do so...I still can't believe that I have been so lucky, Bella...To have you as my own"
I shivered under his genuine stare...I was stunned to silence for once...I was no longer a babbling idiot more like a stunned statue.
"Thank you" I answered him meekly. Edward kissed me with fervour again before I broke away from his lips to speak "I need my towels" I finished.
"No you don't I have two spare ones in my bathroom" He answered...I rolled my eyes...Before I could say anything else he had hopped from the bed and stood beside me I looked down at him and looked back up.
"How come you get to wear boxers and I have to be naked?!" I exclaimed as he smiled.
"I couldn't very well get the mail in my birthday suit now could I, Bella?" he replied...He grabbed my shoulders underneath my armpits and pulled me out of the duvet and into his hold in one swift movement..I wrapped my legs around him as he walked me into the bathroom.
"Do you mind?" he asked keeping his gaze on me...I knew what he wanted me to do...I lifted my legs higher and hooked my toes around the waistband of his boxers and pulled them down to his knees...Edward lifted me out in front of him so my legs fell from his waist..I felt like a toddler in that moment as I pushed the boxers down to his calves which he then let me go completely and kicked them off himself..I turned to face the shower...Edward wrapped his arms around my waist.
"Is it wrong to love it when you do that?" he whispered...I smiled.
"As long as you don't make it a habit" I teased in reply.
"You are going to be the death of me Isabella...However I would die a happy man considering that your last remark hurt my ego"
"So sorry Mr Cullen" I giggled as he reached over me to open the shower door...I walked in with his grasp on me and he closed the door behind him...He turned the handle on with one arm still keeping hold on my waist...I flinched as the cold water hit me but then it began to warm slowly...I turned to face Edward.
"So...What are two people to do in a big shower...Oh and by the way how do you get to have a SEAT in here!" I exclaimed pointing at the seat at the far end of the shower.
"Well technically it is a stall and I get one because...Well...I'm me!" he teased...I rolled my eyes. "We can do whatever you want to do, Bella" he finished and I bit down on my lip.
"I don't think it would be fair to leave the water running for too long" I admitted.
"That's true however...I might want to love you again...Call it seconds"
"I don't think so"
"And...Why ever not?"
"Because...It takes two to tango and maybe I am all loved-out after last night...Have you ever considered that?"
I can't believe I was behaving like this...I had never flirted because no one had ever gave me the attention to do so in the first place...Sometimes I surprised myself however it was all Edward...It would only EVER be Edward.
"No I am afraid I haven't...I am a selfish person"
"That's not a very good trait in a person"
"Bella...When you fall in love with someone you love EVERYTHING about them...Like I adore everything about you" he finished...I melted then...I would have to work on my self-control if I was going to get anywhere or anything done in my life.
"That's true" I smiled and Edward caressed my mouth with his...I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and leant into him.
"I love you" he said against my mouth
"I love you too" I breathed in reply my desire taking over me again.
"Good" he said as he moved down to my neck he stopped his kisses suddenly and lifted his head "I'm sorry..We will have to wait until tonight, love...I don't have any protection left" he said pulling away from me.
"Oh that's okay" I said a little disappointed however I was glad that he had noticed that because I was ready to go into it without wearing anything and I may have ended up like Alice.
PHEW!
*~Rosalie~*
I was so pissed at Emmett...He hadn't yet given me an explanation as to why he had left me numerous times in the week to go and 'sort something out'.
I stuffed the rest of his clothes in a bag angrily...I had cleared my room of all his stuff and if he was not prepared to want to be with me then he can stay at his house on his own and see how he likes it. I had taken the opportunity to do this whilst he was getting changed in the bathroom...He took the longest out of the both of us to get ready but I would need to get his stuff out of the bathroom too. I was about to put away the last thing of his in my wardrobe which was a baseball cap he got free at a game a year ago but had never worn again when the bathroom door opened.
"Rose what the hell are you doing?!" he said glancing at his bag on his bed and then back at me.
"You want someone else...You go and find someone else"! I yelled throwing the cap into his bag and leaving the room.
I got to the stairs.
"ROSE, wait!" Emmett called and I stopped sighing deeply.
"What do you want, Emmett...You made a choice and I am alright with that I just don't want to watch you go" I said descending the first step...Emmett had sprinted over and grabbed my shoulders before I even got to the second step. "Emmett...Let go of me!" I shouted as he gripped around my chest and pulled me back in the room. He put me down forcefully on the ground and closed the door behind him.
"Let me go, Emmett" I said to him through threatening tears.
"You won't even at least allow me to explain?"
"No...You had numerous chances to explain...I don't want to hear it!"
"So it's okay for YOU to not explain why my stuff is packed but it's not alright for me to explain anything?!"
"Don't you dare make this about ME, Emmett don't even go there...To think that I thought there wasn't going to be ANYONE else out there for me!" I turned away from him and covered my face in my hands...I was so angry that I wanted to cry however I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of seeing me upset.
"What the hell is THAT supposed to mean?" Emmett exclaimed...I growled loudly.
"It means that maybe it's best if we did finish this...You could have said sooner that you didn't want me, Emmett and true I would have been upset but eventually I would have understood"
"I am not going to leave you, Rose"
"Well I think it's best if you did" I shot back...Emmett closed the space between us and grabbed me by the shoulders...My back hit one of the walls of my bedroom hard. "Emmett...Leave me alone!"
"No" he said intently
"What are you going to do...Hit me? Make me bleed? Go for it, Emmett...I have had a whole lot worse before" I spat.
"Rose"
"EMMETT FOR THE LAST TIME WOULD YOU JUST GO!" I yelled at the top of my lungs...Emmett crashed his lips down on mine hard and I struggled as hard as I could to get away from him...I managed to pull his mouth off of mine...We struggled hard against each other for a minute.
"Rose just STOP!" Emmett yelled...I shut my mouth when I saw the anger in his eyes. "That's better" he finished...I huffed and looked down at the floor. "I had this all prepared for another time, Rose but seeing as I will lose you if I do not say it then...Here it goes"
"I don't need a guilty confession from you" I stated firmly.
"THE REASON WHY I WENT TO TOWN WAS BECAUSE I WAS BUYING YOU A FUCKING RING...AN ENGAGEMENT RING...THERE IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT FOR A CONFESSION?"
I stood motionless...Oh my god what have I done?
"I love you, Rose...I love everything about you...You are the most beautiful woman in the world and I want to spend the rest of my life with you" Emmett said in a quieter voice...I was still amazed...I released the tears from my eyes. "Here" Emmett pulled out something from his pocket...It was a white velvet box..Before I could say anything he lifted the lid and there it was...The most beautiful ring I had ever seen with my birthstone in the middle...I let out a gasp and looked up at Emmett my mouth still hanging open.
"Will you marry me, Rose?" I didn't need to think about anything...I knew my answer already.
"Yes-" I breathed out as he smiled and put the ring on my finger "oh god, yes" I sighed wrapping my arms around his shoulders and attacking his lips.
I felt like a bitch...I felt so guilty that I knew I would have some major making up to do. Emmett moaned in my mouth as he wound his fingers in my hair...I pushed us both away from the floor and pushed him over so he landed on the bed...He just narrowly missed the bag..he pushed it off of the bed as I landed with him landing on top of him feeling his erection pressing on my thigh.
"I'm sorry" I whispered against his lips..I licked along his bottom and top lip as I began unbuttoning his shirt tearing it from his body as all the buttons were undone. I relished his mouth again as I did quick work with his belt buckle and threw it behind me and I then pulled down his trousers only to half-way...I didn't need to have him completely naked anyway.
I stood up and pulled off my pyjama top..Luckily I don't wear a bra in bed...I undid the bow on my pyjama bottoms and pulled them down along with my panties and then walked back over to him...He lay there in awe breathing heavily as I put my knees either side of his waist...I was about to lower myself onto him when he grabbed me by the skin at my waist.
"Rose..I don't have any-"he started but I shut him up with my lips as I caressed our tongues together as deeply as I could.
"I am on the pill...I need all of you, Emmett" I whispered to him against his mouth he shuddered...I loved having this affect on him.
"I love you so damn much" he breathed his voice low indicating his desire...I smiled against his lips.
"I love you too baby...I am sorry I am such a bitch sometimes...However I can't wait to be your wife" I replied...A loud growl came from Emmett's chest as I moved my body back up and lowered myself on him both of us moaning in satisfaction when we were connected fully.
I put my hands behind my head and rode him going as deeply and as passionately as I could...I normally love to ride Emmett cow-girl style when we simply fuck each other...The hard and fast way but now I wanted to do it slow considering my behaviour I owed him that much.
It didn't take long for Emmett's stomach muscles to clench in front of me and I was beginning to subside myself...I quickened my pace sweat starting to bead my skin and as soon as Emmett filled me I let go too...My knees ached but I didn't care...I rode out both of our orgasms and stopped my movements completely. Emmett lifted himself up so that he was sitting on his bottom..He put his hands on my ass and kissed me passionately...I melted into him.
This was far from over...However I was soon-to-be Mrs Emmett Cullen.
Nothing felt better!
*~Bella~*
Once Edward and I had finished breakfast and washed up he turned to face me as I stood up from the kitchen chair.
"I need to go and collect a few things before I take you into work my love...I will be back soon, though" he assured me and I smiled taking both his hands in mine.
"Okay...I will wait for you here, then" I replied.
"I love you" Edward said
"I love you too" I replied...Edward pecked me lightly on the lips and grabbed his coat before walking out of the door...I looked around the empty kitchen and when Edward's car had roared into the distance I say myself down on one of the sofas.
I embraced the silence in the house...I had no idea where everyone else was as I hadn't seen them since last night...I closed my eyes and allowed the birdsong outside to soothe me if I were to fall asleep then I am sure Edward would come and wake me up...Hopefully in the same way he had done this morning.
I jumped out of my skin when I heard the front door open...Alice walked in and closed the door behind her...I got up from the sofa.
"Would you care to explain where you went last night? Actually no...Don't answer that...Sex is written all over your face you might as well have a billboard above your head with a flashing arrow pointing down"!
"Hi Alice...It's nice to see you too" I replied with a smile.
"Come on missy...I want details!" Alice grabbed my hand and pulled me up from the sofa completely so that I was standing.
"What do you want to know?" I said awkwardly.
"Spare the graphic details...But was it good?" she asked with a mischievous smile.
"It was amazing" I gushed out as Alice squealed...She opened her mouth to saying something else when her hand shot to her stomach as her upper body instantly crouched over.
"Alice?" I asked her alarmed..She sank to the floor clutching her hands around her stomach "oh shit, Alice..Where's your phone?" I said thinking of the first thing that came into my head.
"My bag" she choked out and I rushed over to the front door diving into her bag and grabbing the phone...I dialled 911 and asked for an ambulance...I was so frantic I could barely speak...I hung up the phone walked back over to Alice and held one of her hands as my other hand was still holding the phone.
"Alice...It's okay there is an ambulance coming" I said trying to reassure her..Her breathing was aspirated and I had no idea about how to make her feel better. I looked at the phone and dialled Esme's number.
"Hello?"
"Esme...It's Bella you have to meet me at Forks Hospital as soon as you can...It's Alice"
"Don't worry, Bella we are on our way now"
I hung up and stayed with Alice until the ambulance came...I no longer wanted to go into work and I am sure Elizabeth would understand once I explained everything...I needed to help Alice because she sure as hell could not so this by herself.
Everything went by in a blur...The ambulance trip the entrance to the hospital..Alice's examination I swear my body had turned on to auto-pilot and yet my brain wasn't able to register anything. All I could diminish was that we were in a hospital room that was it...I had no clue about anything else we were going to do or what the doctors had said...It sure was a good way to be helpful!!
Some minutes later the doctor whose name I did remember as Doctor Williams came into the room...I grasped Alice's hand as she lay on the hospital bed...Tears were falling from her face as she looked up at me through her broken eyes.
"Ok Alice are you ready to go into the birthing ward...We need to act quickly if we are to save the baby" Dr Williams said from the foot of the bed.
"I don't think I can do this, Bella" Alice choked out...I stroked her clammy head lovingly.
"You listen to me, Alice...You can do this...You will do this because your baby deserves to see what wonderful parents it will have...Stay strong for your unborn child, Alice...If no one else" I replied in a stern voice trying to keep my voice steady from my sobs .
"Will you come with me, Bella...I need you...Jasper is no good in these kinds of situations he is easily panicked"
I looked over at the doctor who was studying the two of us. "Is it okay if I go with her...She needs me and I don't want to leave her?" I asked him slowly...He looked hesitant.
"Are you family?" He asked...I had forgotten to disclose who I really was when Alice first came into the hospital..Mostly due to the panic rushing through my system.
"I am her sister" I replied.
"Of course...We will provide you will suitable attire...Are you ready?" he asked analysing us again...I looked down at Alice.
"You ready to meet your future child, Alice?" I asked her soothingly trying to smile but failing miserably..I could feel my lips quivering now..I was so scared for her...I couldn't bear it if she lost her child now.
"Stay with me, Bella" Alice breathed as she grasped my hand tighter.
"I won't ever leave you, Alice" I answered..She gasped as two fresh tears came out of her eyes...I looked back at the doctor again and nodded.
Without another word two nurses came in that were waiting outside...One of them handed me a dark green jacket and I quickly let go of Alice's hand to throw it over my shoulders...I grasped Alice's hand as she was wheeled out of her room with me walking along beside her...I didn't loosen my grip on her hand until we got to the birthing room...Alice was gasping as her contractions got stronger and I felt helpless that there was nothing I could do to make her feel any better...The nurses wheeled Alice into position and put down the brakes...I used the sleeve of the jacket to wipe Alice's head. I had never seen Alice cry before and in all honesty it broke my heart...Someone as happy and enthusiastic as she is about her life should never be put through pain like this even if her and Jasper did decide together to go through with it.
"Okay Alice are you ready to start pushing?" Dr Williams said as he grabbed each of her legs and gently put them in the stirrups either side of them. He then took his place down the other end and sat down where the two nurses who wheeled Alice in stood beside him as his first and second hands...Butterflies began to soar in my stomach...I had never imagined I would be a part of a child's birth especially not one that belonged to my adopted sister..It was all surreal but I was sure that I wasn't in a dream. I snapped out of my thoughts and looked over at Alice who had nodded meekly through painful gasps and erratic breathing...I hope she got through this...I really hoped she did.
"When your next contraction comes I need you to push hard" The doctor informed her as she nodded again...I held her hand tighter as she looked over at me.
"I love you, Bella" she said with tears falling down her face...Mine had broken free uncontrollably ...I leant down and kissed her forehead.
"I love you too, Alice..You can do this...We will do this together" I stated even though I was terrified underneath my exterior..I needed to be strong for Alice.
Alice let out a huge wail when I had taken my lips of her head...I gripped her hand hard as indication that she could do this...Alice face was scrunched up and she was already going red in the face before she let go of her first push...She fell back on the bed when it was over.
"Good, Alice that's good" The doctor remarked as he fiddled around down her lower body with various equipment...I kept my vision on Alice.
Alice pushed again this one lasting a lot longer...There were words of encouragement from each of the nurses as she did so...This all looked so painful a lot more painful than I could ever have imagined it would be...Alice fell back again and tilted her head around slowly to look at me.
"I feel so weak, Bella...I can't...I can't" she stammered...I wrapped my free arm around her shoulders and leant my forehead on hers.
"You can..Alice...I know you can..It will be over soon sweetie..I promise" I choked out in reply...The tears really falling from my face at this point.
Before I could register anything else...Alice had pushed hard for the third time...I broke my contact from her...My hand was now throbbing from where she was clasping down hard on it but I didn't care...I wanted her to get through this too badly.
"I can see the head now, Alice...One final push...It will be a long one you can do it" The doctor said from underneath her legs.
"One more, Alice...One more that's all" I repeated to her as she bit down hard on her lip and nodded once.
The final push was the most heart-wrenching to watch...Alice was truly red and sweaty as she fell back hard on the bed and instantly closed her eyes...The sound of her baby crying was now the only thing filling the room as I kissed her on the forehead...I was overwhelmed by her strength because as an onlooker it looked like something that was so difficult to have to go through and I admired her for it.
The nurse took the baby in her arms and placed it on a small table at the side of the room...I didn't look at was she was doing because I honestly did not have a clue about how birthing works even though I had just been through it with Alice...I dabbed Alice's shoulder with my sleep and smiled at her soothing any nerves she may have about the health of her baby.
"Nurse Cason...Place the child in the ward...I am sorry Miss Swan but there is a problem" I looked at Alice who still had her eyes closed...There was the panic in my stomach again...The nurse carried the baby out of the room completely as the doors shut behind her.
"What do you mean?!" I exclaimed at the doctor.
"I am afraid you will have to leave Miss Swan...Nurse Cooke could you show her out please?" Doctor Williams wasn't looking at me...The Nurse had already come over and taken my arm.
"Come on, dear" she said but I refused to let go of her hand.
"No I need to be with my sister...I said I wouldn't leave her!" I shouted back.
"The doctor needs to analyse Miss Cullen's condition...Come on we cannot have any people who are not medical staff in here at this moment in time..We need you to wait in the waiting room" the nurse answered. I was so very tempted to blow off some anger because they hadn't told me exactly what was wrong but I didn't want to make a scene either...I kissed Alice's hand before releasing it and walking out with the nurse...I looked back at Alice who was still motionless on her bed.
I sat in the waiting room for what seemed like an eternity..So many thoughts were going around in my head and I couldn't allow myself to calm down..I had began to shake uncontrollably and I was still shedding silent tears...I put my face in my hands in an attempt to try and soothe myself.
"Miss Swan?" I looked up from my hands to see Doctor Williams look back at me...I stood up instantly.
"How is Alice?" I asked him my voice breaking.
"I am so very sorry Miss Swan...Miss Cullen...Alice suffered from a considerable amount of bleeding from her womb as a result of the extent of her contractions..Therefore causing an extensive amount of internal and external bleeding..We were not aware of this until she had successfully given birth to her child... I am so very sorry to say that we were unable to revive her"
Oh no....No...No....Please don't make him say what I think he was saying....Please!
"Miss Cullen passed away about five minutes ago" The doctor finished...I stood there dauntless unable to move or think or do anything.
"Bella?" I turned my head very slowly my mouth still open to find Esme, Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie all standing there with anticipation on their faces. I took one look at my family and back down at the floor before I could finally find some movement in my body...I ran as fast as I could past my family and out of the hospital altogether the sobs escaping from my body at an alarming rate..Once I was outside I tore the jacket off of my shoulders...The rain was coming down heavily but I couldn't bring myself to care...I ran further away from the smell and the bright lights and into the woodlands opposite...I didn't know where I was going...I couldn't function myself to stop I just kept going...I scratched my ankles and legs a good few times as I began to get incredibly soaked...I trudged through the soaked and muddy grass long enough to get to a clearing...A meadow of some sort although I couldn't be sure because my tears had once again affected my vision. I paced into the centre the rain showering me harder...I fell to my knees and the sobs violently escaped me..There was a weight on my body that I couldn't seem to shift I put my arms out in front of me and trailed my hands along the mud of the meadow...Allowing me to dig my nails hard into something soft.
Alice...Oh Alice, no!!
First my mum and now my sister...All I could picture was Alice and Jasper's face as they both stroked her tummy...The passionate embrace they had last night...They would never be able to embrace each other again. I continued to sob hard the affects of the rain and the pain in my abdomen making things harder.
I couldn't move and I didn't move until everything went black.
*~Esme~*
After I had seen Bella run out I immediately felt panic and worry...I turned to the doctor.
"Where's my daughter?" I asked him in a stern voice trying to control the inner anger that had suddenly taken me over.
"I am sorry Mrs Cullen-" the Doctor started...I wasn't having any of it however...I had no time for excuses I needed to see my Alice...I blazed through the double doors and saw a couple of nurses over Alice. They turned to look at me and both walked out instantly without saying a thing...It's funny how you always depended on doctors and nurses but they could sometimes be so stupid for their own good..Everyone except my Carlisle he truly was the best.
I walked over to Alice and saw that her eyes were closed...I touched her forehead.
"Alice my darling...It's me, mom" I whispered to her...Alice was motionless. "Alice?" I called her again but still no answer...I touched the base of her neck and...Oh my god no pulse.
I grabbed both her shoulders and shook her "Alice come on wake up, it's mommy...It's going to be okay..Alice?" I could feel my voice breaking...She can't be dead...She can't be!!
"Alice?!" I shouted now at the top of my lungs but she still didn't wake up..I looked over at Jasper who had come in along with the doctor.
"Is there anything else you can do...My daughter can't be dead!" I shouted at the doctor...My beautiful can't be dead..I refused to believe it.
"No Mrs Cullen" the doctor answered biting down on his lip...I looked at Jasper who had began to cry hard about the same rate as my own tears....I wanted to comfort him but I didn't want to leave my Alice..She had to wake up. I glanced back down at Alice. "Alice for god sake..Wake up PLEASE?" I wailed the sobs really breaking through me now.
"Mrs Cullen-" the doctor started...I cowered my body as a violent sob broke my body...I grabbed Alice's shoulders harder.
"No...My BABY!" I wailed...I put my head on Alice's and let the tears fall....I couldn't see anyone else but my daughter beneath me.
My world had officially come crashing down.
*~Edward~*
I had been lucky to receive a call from Rosalie just as I had come back in the house to get Bella. All thoughts of surprising everyone went out the window as I had gone to get ingredients to make us all a family dinner for tonight. When I heard Rosalie's panicked voice from the end of the phone...She said that I was needed at the hospital and that I should call Carlisle at work to say that he was also needed. She had also confirmed that Bella was already there. I had rung Carlisle briefly to say that we were both needed at the hospital and it didn't take me long to realise that Alice might have been the one getting treatment there of some sort..How could that be when she had over two months left of her pregnancy? Unless she had to deliver prematurely which I had heard about before with childbirth.
I had never driven so fast in my life...I was surprised that I wasn't stopped by the police due to the extent of my speed but panic had overcome me and all I could think about was getting to the hospital..I pulled up my car in a space and climbed out frantically ignoring the falling rain as I approached the entrance I saw Rosalie standing there with her arms wrapped around herself.
"Rose..What is it..What's happened?"
"Did you ring Carlisle?"
"Yes...Rose what is this about?" I was standing in front of her...The sight of her red, watery eyes alarmed me more now and I couldn't contain it in my voice.
"I am so sorry, Edward" Rosalie said her voice breaking.
"Rose for God sake just tell me what's wrong!" I exclaimed..She flinched a little at my words.
"It's Alice...She gave birth but..She didn't make it" Rose answered meekly
I registered her words and scoffed "Rose if this is some kind of joke-" I started
"No it's not..She's dead. Edward" Rose answered tears falling from her eyes. I stumbled back and put my hands on my face...Oh god no not my sister..I didn't care that my tears had broken free from my body...Not Alice anyone but my sister. I turned away from Rose and crouched my body slightly as I pushed my head further into my hands...A sob broke through my body.
I registered quickly that everyone else would be here...If I was going to cry then it would be inside and away from anyone else's prying eyes into our business..I took a large breath in and turned back around and began walking up the stairs...Rose stopped me by placing her hand on my arm.
"Edward...There is something else...Bella ran out of here and no one else knows where she is" she stated...Oh not my Bella.
"Do you have any clue where she went, Rose?" I asked her..She pointed at the woodland behind us.
"That would be my first guess" she said simply..I looked at the woodland before turning back round to her.
"Will you wait here for dad...I need to go and find her" I stated..Rose nodded and I turned around and ran as fast as I could into the woodland...The mud sinking my feet...I ran even though I had no idea where she would go or where she would be...I just needed to find her. I successfully got through the trees when I reached an open space...I looked at both sides and saw nothing...I looked ahead and saw her.
Bella my beautiful amazing Bella, was lying face down in the mud soaked to the skin by the rain..She was motionless..I sprinted towards her and knelt beside her head..I pushed her shoulder with one hand to turn her body around so her face was facing upwards to the cloudy sky above us...Her face was slightly covered in mud her eyes red from crying...I frantically pulled at the sleeves of my coat and moved my body to the back of her head so I could balance her upright...I wrapped the coat around her and lifted her torso up with me to standing..She wasn't heavy but due to the wetness of the mud beneath me I was finding it difficult...I managed to get her standing properly even though she was wobbling under her weight...I wrapped one of her arms around my shoulders and pulled her up in my arms...I walked back through the woodland..My thoughts filled of both my sisters...I couldn't cry at the moment..I needed to be strong for Bella.
Rose was still standing at the entrance when she caught sight of me and Bella lying in my arms...My shirt and the top of my trousers were soaked through and so was the majority of my coat but I didn't care.
"Rose..Get a doctor!" I shouted...She must have heard me as she rushed inside of the hospital...With some difficulty I climbed the steps and opened the door taking one arm from underneath Bella as I did so...I walked in receiving some stares from people in the waiting room...I looked to the left and saw Rose and a nurse running towards us.
"Bring her this way" the nurse said as I followed.
God knows where we ended up..All I was concerned about was placing Bella on the bed...I lay her down gently on the bed and looked over at the nurse.
"Right...Someone will need to change her out of those clothes" the nurse said.
"I will do it...You go and see your family, Edward" Rose replied instantly..I was grateful that she was there even if she did look like she had been shot in the stomach. I kissed her on the cheek before running out of the room..I knew where the maternity department was as I had seen a sign briefly pointing towards it when I came in...I was exhausted from carrying Bella all that way but I wanted to see my family now...I didn't care if I had to crawl.
I went through a few double doors and saw Emmett sitting outside a room with another double door...He had his head in his hands...I walked over to him and stood above him..He lifted his head gradually. I had only seen Emmett cry once when we were kids and I remember then that I individually had felt sad seeing him cry even though I hadn't done the wrong. Emmett stood up and said nothing as he put his arms around me.
I didn't know whether it was the fact that he was hugging me or whether I was already emotionally drained about Bella but once I felt Emmett's warm shoulder on mine...My sobs escaped and the tears had fallen once again..I was silently relieved that I could let them go but I desperately needed and wanted Alice...The fact that I was never going to see her smile or moan about her winding me up again broke me in half.
I didn't know how long I was hugging Emmett for but due to the fact that his body was also shaking meant that he had also let some tears go in the hold. I embraced the moment once my sobs had subsided I hugged Emmett tighter when I found feeling back in my body.
"Where's mom?" I asked him in a whisper
"She's through there...I can't bring myself to see her, Edward...At least not yet" Emmett choked in reply.
"Will you be alright out here for a moment whilst I go and see her?"
Emmett released me and nodded..."Where is Rose?"
"She's with Bella...Bella is unconscious I found her lying in the woodland outside" I explained.
"Oh, shit" Emmett answered his voice choking.
"It's unlikely but if she wakes up could you tell her that I love her and that I will be there soon?"
"Sure, buddy" Emmett answered.
"Ask a nurse where she has been admitted because I didn't look...Too worried about her"
"I understand, mate...See you soon" Emmett said and he walked away through the double doors...I had a lot of appreciation for my older brother in that moment. I took another deep breath in before walking through the double doors.
My mom was sitting on a chair beside Alice holding her hand...There was no one else in the room but the two main women I cared about in my life aside from Bella. Mom didn't turn so I walked towards her instead and placed both my hands on her shoulders.
Mom turned and exhaled "Edward, thank god you're here!" Mom exclaimed as she leant her head against my chest...I kissed her on the forehead...I didn't know what to do about all of this...It just didn't seem real.
"Where's Jasper?" I asked her in a whisper.
"He went to see the baby...I insisted he go as it was only right that the baby at least see one of his parents-" my mum trailed off her voice breaking..I took my hands off her shoulders and wrapped them around her chest and tightened my hold.
I had so much more I wanted to ask but I couldn't bring myself to say anything.
"Edward?" I turned and saw dad looking at us...I let go of mum and walked over to him.
"I will ask you how it all happened but for now..Mom needs you" I said..He nodded biting his lip to prevent his own tears..I walked out of the doors but stopped to look in the small windows as the doors stilled.
I saw dad hug my mom as she cried hard however I couldn't hear her sobs...My dad was crying too and I put one hand on the window for my parents but also for my sister..I loved them so much and I knew that life was never going to be the same again.
I would see Alice a bit later on but now she needed to be with HER parents...Her biological parents anyway...It broke me to know that also Esme and Carlisle had lost their ONLY daughter and even though Emmett and I were their sons we were not tied by blood.
I wondered whether our family will EVER be the same again.
*~Jasper~*
"Mr Hale...Here is your son" A nurse said as she led me towards an incubator...There were others but I was too upset to look I needed to see my child.
I looked down through the glass and saw him...He had blonde hair like mine but he had Alice's eyes...A mixture of both of us.
"He is doing extremely well considering he is premature. The incubator is just to keep him warm...There is a small hole there which you can put your hand through if you wish to do so"
"Thank you" I answered quietly to the nurse...She walked away from me and I hesitated before putting my finger through the hole.
I saw my baby's eyes glance up at my finger...I lowered my finger to stroke along his stomach very lightly and then the moment I stopped my finger my son touched my finger lightly with his own tiny hand.
"Hello Danny...It's your dad" I whispered into the incubator...I looked away then and shed more tears.
I just didn't know what to do...I don't know what I would do without my Alice.
*~Bella~*
There was a faint beeping noise in my ears as I slowly opened my eyes...I squinted under the bright light above my head..I felt something on my hand as I slowly looked to the side of me.
Edward was lying on my hand breathing deeply...I found the strength to move my other hand over to touch his hair...He jumped instantly and took his head off the bed...I smiled at him reality coming back to me as tears filled my eyes.
"Bella?" he asked me as he clutched my hand tighter ... I attempted a small smile through my clouded eyes I saw him briefly lean towards me from the chair.
"Oh my god, Bella...Don't do that to me again" he said before he passionately connected out lips...This wasn't like any other kiss that we shared there was a longing there and a sense of relief..I needed him too and I responded to try and tell him that..Our mouths moved together as if they had spent years apart..We were both savouring ever crook and every gap in our mouths as if we were reciting them from memory...The tears continued to fall from my face both out of sadness and relief.
Edward moved his mouth to my forehead from my lips...I gripped both his shoulder as hard as I could even though I was feeling very weak...I needed him to stay with me...I needed him in my arms...I needed to cry over my amazing sister snatched away from the world so cruelly.
(Later)
After Edward had made a promise to come back and see me tomorrow..He had gone and I was left unable to close my eyes and sleep because of the frantic feelings and thoughts that had bombarded my mind...Everything was quiet.
I climbed slowly off of the bed feeling a little stronger than when I had woken up but not as much as I usually did...Once I was standing I breathed in and out to prevent me from stumbling...I saw my shoes at the corner of the room on the radiator..I felt them and was relieved to see that they were dry..I popped them onto my feet and walked out of the room.
There was a few people in the waiting room but not as many as there had been when I had first come here with Alice. I walked down the main corridor near the entrance and saw a sign for a ward where the premature babies were kept...I didn't look at the exact name of it I had already continued to walk down the way it was pointing.
I got to a reception area but found it empty..There were glass windows showing all the sleeping babies in incubators...I saw Jasper over the far end with his back to me...I looked around to make sure that no one could see me before walking in..I saw a hook which had the same green jackets hanging up...I took one and put it around myself and walked towards the back of Jasper's head...I saw the baby in the incubator and my eyes had already started to fill up again.
I tapped Jasper on the shoulder and he turned.
"Bella...You shouldn't be here you need to rest" Jasper exclaimed.
"I couldn't sleep" I choked out "So...You have a son?" I exclaimed.
"Yes...Our little Danny boy" Jasper choked out...He bit down on his lip but his face scrunched up as his tears began to fall...My own face scrunched together and I wrapped my arms around his shoulders as he rested his head in my chest....He had begun to sob now and I let out a few silent ones myself needing to release more emotion...I have never in my life cried so much.
"I loved her so much, Bella" He choked out through his tears...I rocked him slightly from side to side "I just don't know what I am going to do" he finished.
I couldn't say anything...I just let Jasper cry and I allowed myself the opportunity to cry too.
There was nothing else now...I just knew deep down inside that nothing will ever be the same again...I loved my sister and I missed her so much already that it ached.
I wish she could have seen her son...She would have made a fantastic mother to him...Now, Jasper and their son were to face the world alone.
It broke my heart.
Holy Jesus am I in tears!! I am SO sorry I do not know anything about childbirth or whether dying from bleeding actually CAN happen...I just looked under direct maternal death and made up an idea of my own....I am not old enough for children yet and I am sorry if I have mucked things up in the medical side of things...I failed my academics in science so..It was doomed to be something that I found difficult when writing this chapter.
I struggled SO much with this chapter and there have been times when I have cried in previous chapters of AML but this is the WORST to date.
Please review my lovelies and tell me what you think...I am sorry if I have mucked everything up I just needed to get the plot down but I may have gone the wrong way about it.
Thanks for reading
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*Runs and hides*!