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Songs for this chapter: 'The Rose
'Wind beneath my wings' Bette Midler
*~Bella~*
(Next day)
I kept Carlisle's hand securely in mine as we both walked into the office...Carlisle flicked on the light switch and started to walk over to the desk with me...I stopped my movements and tugged on his arm...He looked at me confused and stopped his own movements too.
"Can we sit on that sofa? I've just never been on it and...-" I started putting my free hand in my pocket and keeping my body still.
"Of course...I have never had reason to use it before now anyway...Have a seat" Carlisle smiled and let go of my hand...I sat down on the sofa allowing my body to sink under the softness of the cushions..Carlisle stood in front of me with his arms folded around his chest.
"Look dad...I know you must be mad at me...Deep down inside somewhere I mean I don't know but...I really am sorry" I started the butterflies still fluttering around my stomach at increased speed.
"Why don't you start from the beginning?" Carlisle replied softly...He didn't look angry in his face but he could have been keeping it under wraps fighting with himself to keep his voice calm..How was I supposed to know? At this moment in time I wish someone could have the ability to read other's minds...It would be somewhat a comfort in situations like these.
"I panicked...I couldn't function right when Alice went...It was like a whole chunk of me went with her..The worst part was that I was there in her final moments and she was so scared about having the baby and I kept saying to her that she could do it..Spurring her on as best I could but I was struggling too..I hated seeing her like that" I explained...I began to cry again...The images of Alice's face when she held my hand giving birth swirling around my head.
"I should start by saying thank you for that, Bella...If she were alone then I don't know whether she would have been able to go into labour at all" Carlisle said..I looked down at the floor.
"You shouldn't thank me...I wasn't able to do anything anyway...I wanted to believe that we could get through it together and have a stronger bond at the end but-" I trailed off...I could hear myself speak and I knew I wasn't making much sense...It aggravated me a little because I had done the apology speech a few times now...It should be easier the more times that you do it...Not for me!
"Can I sit down, Bella?" Carlisle asked. I looked up at him.
"It's your office" Carlisle smiled and sat down...His eyes on the corners of mine as I gazed back down to the floor.
"There was nothing you could have done" Carlisle said quietly almost in a whisper.
"I know that now"
"So...Living here when Alice had gone..Was too much for you?" I nodded keeping a lid on the sobs once more. "Why didn't you tell us, Bella...Tell me...I've always been here"
"I know...I didn't tell you because...I didn't want to send me back to Sandgrove...I thought that if I did things by myself then I could do anything in life"
"Let's make something clear...I would never have sent you back there without your permission...I only sent you there the second time because you were about to hurt yourself...Did you ever feel like you wanted to do that again after Alice died?"
"No...It never even crossed my mind...However I did hate myself more than I have ever done in my life and I didn't want anyone around me because I felt like I didn't deserve them"
"That's silly, Bella"
"It didn't feel silly at the time...It felt right"
"That's your depression talking...Do you honestly think that I would take you back to hospital before I even got the chance to talk to you about it first?"
"I didn't know what to think...I still don't." I looked up at Carlisle then...He took a deep breath and opened both his arms out as he twisted his body to the side...I scooted my body over to lean into him but Carlisle grabbed my waist and pulled me up onto his lap with almost no effort needed...He held me close to him as I leant my head on his gazing away from him again as I took in the moment.
"We all miss her, Bella...When we saw your note..All of us..We thought we were never going to see you again" Carlisle's voice was breaking...I tilted my head to look up at him...I saw his tears fall and I wiped them away with my hands as he let me do it.
"Don't cry because of me...Because of what I did...I can't bear it...You have always been the strongest one in this family, dad...I don't know what I would ever have done without you"I choked out through my own falling tears...I had really hurt everyone and it tore me apart to realise that Carlisle had been suffering too. I continued to wipe his eyes as more tears fell through them.
"We just love you...I love you so much, Bella...I was scared that I was losing another daughter"
"I won't leave again...I promise...If you never believe me again then believe that..I can't leave..Not now"
"Promise me...Promise me, Bella?"
"I promise" I said with a small smile...I leant up a little and kissed his forehead once at kissed the top of his head...He wrapped his arms around my waist and held me close.
Carlisle and I had hugged before...But never like this...I had done him wrong and he was still grieving for Alice..I didn't know whether to feel happy or sad that he was back in my life again...However my thoughts suddenly came onto Edward..I let go of Carlisle and climbed off of his lap yanking his hold off of me..I walked over to the window and looked out with my back to my dad.
"Are you alright?" Carlisle asked me from across the room.
"Edward just came into my head...That's all" I answered looking away from him.
"I'm sorry about the way he spoke to you before"
"Don't apologise for him...I made him drink...I am the one who has to live with that and...I'm okay with it"
"Are you?"
I turned to face Carlisle again putting my hands in my pockets "Yes...It is Edward's choice now about our relationship..He gets first say..I owe him that much...It doesn't matter what I think"
"It takes two people to make a relationship, Bella"
"Where was I in the two weeks that I stayed here before going back to England? I pushed him away that hardly makes me a good candidate for a relationship or a good girlfriend"
"I know why you did that...Edward doesn't understand the way your mind goes like I do"
"He's my boyfriend...He should know everything about me and I chose now to make my mind known to him?!"
"Bella...Calm down, please?" Carlisle got up but I backed away the window sill bashing my lower back.
"Is he really very angry at me, dad?" I choked out...I needed to know and the question did blurt out of my body faster than I could register what I had said.
"He will come round" Carlisle replied.
"So that is a yes, then?"
"He is angry, Bella"
"I know he is...I just need to know from you...Honestly...Do we have another chance?"
"I don't know...That will have to be up to you and him"
"Please...Dad...As an onlooker?" I pleaded.
"You both love each other...Far more at the moment than either of you wish to express...You and him must hold onto that love"
"You can fall out of love with someone, dad"
"You and Edward? Fall out of love with each other? I don't think so somehow, Bella"
"So should I hold on to a false hope or tell myself that is over?"
"Wait...Just wait, Bella...Edward will be home in a few days and then maybe when you two are under the same roof you will find a way to talk to each other about it...I am not big on the knowledge of young love, Bella...I fell in love later in my life"
"You don't think we are too young to be going into a relationship right now...We are also adopted siblings in case you haven't noticed"
"You're not related by blood...Besides being adopted siblings never stopped you going out with each other before...Why should it prevent anything from happening now?" Carlisle had a point...I just wish I knew what was in store for me and Edward...Whether there were such things as crystal balls in reality.
"So...You're not sending me back to the hospital?"
Carlisle walked over to me and wrapped me in his arms again "I won't lose you again, Bella" he replied..I sighed in relief as we stood there hugging.
How could I have been so stupid?
Edward didn't know me....I sure had got Carlisle wrong...Maybe I just need to know more about my family before I go ahead and fend for myself.
(Next day)
"Bella?" I heard a faint calling of my name over the loud sounds of my hairdryer...I looked over to the door and saw Jasper standing there...I immediately turned the switch off.
"Sorry" I said apologetically biting down on my lip.
"That's alright...Would you do me a favour today?"
"Of course..Anything!" I answered fiddling with the ends of my still-moist hair.
"Would you come with me to see Alice today?" Jasper shuffled his feet as he waited for my answer.
"Yes, sure" I said with a smile and he smiled back.
"Thank you...Do you want any breakfast..I am making some for me so...-" he trailed off and I fought back a giggle...Jasper was just too sweet when he would say something sentimental.
"No thank you very much for asking though...I will be down soon" I replied.
"Okay, great" Jasper walked away from my door and down the stairs...I turned my hairdryer back on and finished drying my hair until it was dry to the bone. Thank god I was dressed already...I don't think that Jasper would have wanted to see me in only my towel.
I wrapped the wire around the hairdryer and the straighteners when I had finished and put them both back in their usual drawer in my chest of drawers...I took my used towels out of the bathroom and walked down the stairs with them and into the wash room...I put them on a hot cycle and then went into the kitchen where Jasper had already finished his food and was drying his plate with the dishtowel.
"Are you sure you don't want anything?" he asked turning around to face me as I entered.
"Yes thank you" I said before walking over to the fridge...I pulled out the carton of Juice.
Jasper watched me as I pulled out a glass from the cabinet and poured the contents of the carton into the tumbler..I was silent as I went back to the fridge and put the carton back in.
"I could have got that for you" Jasper said as I took a sip from my glass.
"I have been waited on too many times...I need to hunt for myself sometimes" I said honestly and he chuckled.
"That's fair enough...I like to be useful" he put the now dried plate away and hung the dishtowel back on the rack under the sink counter.
"So are you looking forward to having Danny home?" I asked him.
"You bet...My mom is even more excited about it" he replied
"Must be nerve-wracking though"
"Yeah I mean I'm terrified I am not going to lie to you but I am excited as well"
"That's good" I finished up the juice and went over to the sink to wash it out...Jasper moved out of the way and balanced himself against the counters at the side.
"So are you ready to go?" Jasper asked.
"Yes" I replied putting the glass on the draining rack next to the sink...He then led the way out into the living room as I followed behind him...As he was taking his keys off of the side table I wrapped my coat around my shoulders and pulled my hair out from beneath the collar.
It was another cold day in Forks...I didn't mind it in the slightest anymore I was just glad that Alice had brought me coats when I first came here...I would have undoubtedly frozen to death if I hadn't owned any. The car right was silent apart from the muffling music on the radio...I felt awkward being in Jasper's car and not having anything to talk to him about. As Jasper climbed out off the car he went around the back to fetch something in the boot...He pulled out a large...And I mean LARGE bunch of baby blue roses...he had stuck what looked like pictures on the side of the paper and there was a small tag hanging down in the same shape and colour of the blooms...I had wondered why Jasper's name hadn't been put on the family bouquet but now it made sense as he must have decided to have his own one for Alice. I felt sad again as he straightened out the paper balancing the flowers in one hand as he pushed down the boot with the other hand to close it. He looked up at me, then.
"Your mom and dad offered to put mine and Danny's name down on their flowers but I wanted to get one of our own." I smiled.
"They're beautiful"
"Alice's favourite flowers were roses...She didn't have a favourite colour though...It took me ages to find these and I ended up ordering them from a gardening depot...The blue is for our baby son"
"Alice would have loved them" I said with as much of a steady voice as I could manage but the picture in front of me was just so tragic....Jasper and Alice were meant to be together and they were meant to have their son and bring him up together but fate dealt them both an awful hand.
"Thank you" Jasper smiled...I could see his eyes watering and I bit down on my lip...This was just too horrible..The world could be so goddamn cruel.
Jasper took my hand with his free one as we walked through the small gate and we paced the route to Alice's grave in silence letting the birdsong and the bitter wind surround us...Even though the weather wasn't nice in this particular part of America..It was always peaceful.
I released Jasper's hand and sat down on the same bench that I had sat on with Tess only yesterday...Jasper walked over to Alice's grave by himself. I took my gaze away from him and up to the sky watching the birds fly across the white sheet that was the huddled clouds..I didn't want to look it would make me too sad and the moment was Jasper's I wasn't going to ruin it.
Jasper took his time but he startled me when he suddenly sat down beside me putting his hands in his lap...There was an awkward silence.
"You know..Esme and I went to see Edward before we came home yesterday" Jasper started...The pain in my abdomen came back at the mention of Edward's name.
"Did you?" I asked not looking at him.
"Yes..He is awake now...But you already know that don't you?"
"Yes"
"Must be hard for you...Having the person you love in the hospital"
"Jasper what are you trying to say?" I knew there was a hidden meaning behind this conversation.
"He said that he didn't want to see you again and I was wondering how you were coping"
"Edward made it clear to me yesterday..Not in your words however"
"What happened?"
"Edward woke up..He was calling for Esme as he came back to consciousness but he saw me instead..I felt like an idiot because I wanted to say to him how I felt and I wanted to comfort him...He said that I was so good at fucking off that I should do it then...He said he didn't want me there"
"Ouch!"
"It's okay...I was prepared for it"
"Were you?"
"Yeah...I can't really expect him to welcome me back with open arms can I?"
"He could have acted a bit better, though"
"No...That is the way that Edward is."
"You really love him don't you?"
I looked up at Jasper then and sighed out loud. "More than my own life"
"I never realised how much you felt for each other...Alice used to think that I was blind..She saw it before everyone else you see.."
"Yes..She had a way of doing that"
"Well Edward only changed when you came into our lives, Bella...Before you there was no reasoning with him about ANYTHING...He did what he wanted and woe betide anyone who got in his way. You changed him, Bella"
"I haven't"
"Trust me...You have...He will forgive you, Bella"
"How can you be so sure?"
"Sometimes a person just knows...You and Edward are exactly the way Alice and I were when we started going out...Inseperate from the beginning but then we hit rough patches but we still loved each other even if she did drive me up the wall sometimes and I would drive HER insane"
"Edward couldn't drive me insane...He couldn't"
"You love unconditionally don't you?"
" I don't really know.." I trailed off.
"Yes you do...You're like me...I love and trust too hard and before Alice it had gotten me into trouble"
"Alice was like you"
"Exactly...Just like Edward loves the same way that you do...You show it a lot more than he does, however"
"Can we please stop talking about him...I'm sorry it just...Hurts too much" I admitted.
"Of course...I did not mean to bring it up...I was curious"
"I am glad that you are curious...I would be too if we were in role-reversal"
Jasper and I laid that conversation to rest as we continued to sit on the bench together in silence.
*~Emmett~*
"Emmett...I really don't think this is a good idea" Rose said to me as I took Bella's old diary out of her bedside table.
"Bella said that she wanted Edward to read it...Now that he is awake..He can" I said closing the drawer and putting it in my coat pocket.
"What makes you think that he would want to read it?"
"Why you want him to break up with Bella don't you?"
"I don't think it is wrong to think that"
"Well I do!" I exclaimed walking past Rose and down the stairs.
"Look Emmett I am allowed to think the things I do!"
"Yes...I am not saying you aren't but Bella and Edward belong together...Just like you and I do and I will not see them both suffer because of this!"
"Emmett you are being ridiculous!"
"Ridiculous or just sensible, Rose?!" I stood in front of her my stance intentionally strong...I was not going to back down to her this time..This was my family and I was not going to watch us all fall apart.
"Ridiculous...You have completely forgotten about what she did and now...You are going to flounce around and play cupid for them?!"
"I won't forget what she did...But I also won't forget how she has always been there for us...That means so much more to me than one mistake"
"But Emmett-" Rose walked towards me and I backed away from her.
"You stay here...I don't think I want you to come with me" I spat and walked out of the door...I walked across the gravel and climbed into my jeep.
I felt bad about the way I had spoken to Rose...However I had bigger things on my mind.
I parked in the car lot of the hospital and locked my Jeep as I climbed out and closed the door...I walked pass reception gaining the usual nod from the receptionist as I made my way to 'Oak Ward'.
The corridor was a little busier on the ward today and I almost had a run-in with an elderly woman with a trolley full of dirty cutlery but missed it a near-escape.
I opened Edward's door to find him asleep his breathing heavy...I walked over and put Bella's diary on the foot by his bed. Instead of waking him I walked back out and went up to see Danny.
I just hoped he would wake up and read it soon....He needed to know Bella's mind in the past and how it affects her now..He would never understand her properly if he didn't read it.
*~Esme~*
(Later)
After saying goodbye to Emmett when he had joined me to see Danny I walked down to Edward's room..Emmett had told me that he was asleep when he had been in there earlier...Maybe now he would be awake.
I opened the door slowly and something on Edward's bed caught my gaze...It was a book of some sort...I closed the door and sat down on the seat taking the book off of the bed...Edward's breathing was heavy and I knew that he was still asleep..I knew my son inside and out that way.
I had just turned the first page to see a scribbly child-like scroll inside the cover..It was red crayon and it had faded slightly round some of the lettering.
Bella Swan's Diary
I gawked at the name with my mouth open..Why would Edward have Bella's diary? Was he really going to read this? Without Bella's consent? I thought better of him than that.
"Mom?" I looked up from the book to see Edward's eyes open and his head drifted my way...I closed the book and held it up in the air for him to see it.
"You have Bella's diary?" I acknowledged.
"What?"
"Bella's diary...Why is it on your bed?" I asked
"How the hell should I know? I don't want to read it...and I haven't if that is what you are accusing me of"
I put the book on my lap and took a deep breath.
"You shouldn't be so quick to be angry at her, Edward"
"Mom...Don't start on me...I have made a decision and I am sticking by it"
"So everything that you've had together just goes out the window does it?"
"Everything we had went when she decided to go back to England...Also when she wouldn't let me near her before she went...She was already gone and I failed to realise it"
"Why don't you understand her actions, Edward?"
"Why do you all UNDERSTAND them?!"
"Bella's our child"
"It wasn't just ME she left though was it, mom"
"She is sorry"
"That may be so...But I am not sorry for not wanting her here."
"Why are you being like this?"
"I am not being like anything...This is the way I am...Who I have always been"
I shook my head "No...You are better than this"
"Isn't growing up all about making your own decisions, mom?"
"Not this kind of decision...Don't shut her out"
"I am allowed to do as I please"
"Without hearing her side of the story...You are being very stubborn about this, Edward"
"Stubbornness is good in life...Sometimes we all need to do things for ourselves and not worry about other people"
"That's exactly what Bella did...She went away for herself"
"That's different...She had no reason to leave because she was surrounded by people who wanted to help her...Her act was out of selfishness..Not stubbornness"
"You know Edward when are you going to wake up and realise that you still love each other...You have something special?"
"I did love her...There will always be a part of me that will love her but right now I do not want to be anywhere near her"
"So you give up on her?"
"She gave up on us...I am merely finalising the deal"
"Your mom had you all wrong"
"Here we go with the mom card...Don't make me feel guilty about this!"
"Your mom said that you had the potential to be whoever you wanted to be...You had a pure heart that loved completely and intentionally and that you were a good person who merely had bad luck in the world"
"Okay fine so I am not a nice person...I do not have the potential to be who I want and I do not have a pure heart...I almost DIED, mom...Does that not mean anything?"
"How could you say that? Of course it does mean something and you know it!"
"So what are you getting at?"
"You HAVE the potential and you DO have the heart...Right now at this moment you are NOT a good person"
"Well I am glad we have got that cleared up"
"There's nothing I can say to persuade you otherwise is there?"
"No"
I stood up then kicking the chair out from underneath me. "Well as of right now, Edward...I do not want you anywhere near ME! When you have grown up then you can think about speaking to me again but not before. I have never been so upset with you as I have right now!" I stormed out of the room and slammed it behind me.
How could my son have a nerve to speak to me like that?!
I hope he stays away from me for a while because I am not going to be able to control myself.
*~Bella~*
"I am going back to the hospital to see Danny...Did you want to come with me?" Jasper asked as he stood up looking down at me as I remained on the bench.
"I will come and see him later...I have to sort something out first" I answered.
"Did you want me to give you a lift home?" he offered.
"No thank you...I enjoy the walk" Jasper kissed my forehead and left the graveyard...I didn't see him drive away instead I walked over to Alice's grave and knelt in front of it.
"Hi Alice...It's me again" I said feeling a little silly that I must have looked like I was talking to myself things are getting a little easier but I am still worried about Edward...What should I do? I mean should I wait like dad told me or should I just let go and prevent myself from any pain later on?" I looked at her name on the grave and sighed. "No I know exactly what you would say...You'd say that we were meant to be together and that the only thing that mattered in our lives are each other and that we should stick together...You know Alice I just don't think that is going to be possible anymore" I sighed in defeat...God I did wish that she was here!
"Bella" I jumped and flipped my head around startled...Mike...Mike Newton was standing a few steps away from me holding a bunch of yellow roses in his hands..I got up and shook out my legs instantly putting my hands in my pockets...What the hell was here doing here?
"Mike...What are you doing here?"
"I heard about Alice...My family requested that I come down and lay these for her...It's from all of us and we just wanted to show that we are thinking about her...About all of you"
Was it wrong to feel a little touched at Mike's answer?
"Oh well...Thank you that's very nice of you...You can put them down if you wish" I said stepping out of the way...Mike knelt down and put the flowers on the soil...He stood back up to face me again he too had his hands in his pockets...Was he feeling just as awkward as I was?
"I know things didn't go down so well with us before, Bella...But I am sorry about Alice"
"I have forgotten about it, Mike...But thank you all the same"
"So how have you been?"
"Um..I could be better"
"You wanna talk about it?"
I considered this for a moment..What was the harm in talking to Mike for a while...I had nothing else better to do.
"Sure why not?"
"Listen it's pretty cold out here...Shall we go inside the church...At least then we will be warm" I nodded and followed him out of the graveyard and into the church..The familiar smell of old books and dust filling my nostrils...Mike sat down on a chair and I plopped down next to him.
"I am not really a big fan of churches" he remarked
"I wasn't for a while but now...I have a little more liking for them"
"So how's life been in the world of Bella?"
"Nothing much has happened, really...Except for Alice being gone nothing HAS changed" I lied...I didn't want to tell Mike about Edward and I because what we had is strictly between me and him and I was never going to tell anyone about what happened between us because it was only ours to share..It was no one else's business. "What about you?"
"Yeah...Things are all-good now I mean I have a job and school is going okay so I have nothing to complain about"
"Oh you're working now?"
"Yeah a mechanical garage down at La Push...It's not much but it's money"
"Yeah I understand"
"You working?"
"Sort of...I haven't started it yet because of all this with Alice but I hope I will be able to start it all soon"
"Cool..Where you working?"
"In Port Angeles...at 'Angeles'"
"Oh I know that place...It's cool!"
"Yeah it is"
"You're out of the hospital now, too?"
"Yes...It's weird now that you mention it...It seems like years ago since I have been there"
"Yeah I agree...Look Bella I know I have been avoiding you and stuff-"
"Mike, please?" I broke him off
"I need to say this, Bella...I never stopped caring for you inside...I stayed away from you because I thought it would be easier to get over the pain but I always thought about you...I have never stopped"
"That's sweet, Mike"
"I am not asking you to be my girlfriend Bella...I just want to say that I am here if you should ever need anything"
"Thanks" I said with a small smile.
Wow things had a way of getting weirder in short amounts of time...I know what I wanted and I know that it would never happen.
I needed Edward.
I needed him so badly that everything hurt when I thought about him or when someone else mentioned his name.
I just don't know what to do anymore.
*~Emmett~*
(Four days later- Late evening)
I walked into Edward's room as he was packing up his overnight bag...I would need to have words with him about Bella but now wasn't the time to do so. I thought about the diary and about whether he had read it or not...I had never asked him because there was a part of me that wanted him to believe it was Bella who had left it for him to read...It wasn't a complete lie but then again it was a long shot expecting him to read it...He was being a complete wanker about the whole thing!
"You ready, bro?" I asked him putting on a cheery voice as I did so.
"Yeah" he mumbled back...I took the bag away from the bed and lifted it over my shoulder...I opened the door for him. Due to his injury Edward was still hobbling somewhat when he walked and he would still have to have the bandages around his waist for a few weeks but his cuts had cleared and his bruise no longer visible on his face...The only things that didn't look right on his face were the dark circles under his eyes from his lack of sleep and his moody facial expression. I wasn't much happier having to drive him home either but he could have at least been more grateful about it.
I waved to the receptionist and she waved enthusiastically back...I didn't see Edward's expression as he walked in front of me which I was grateful for because his face was probably in need of a good punch right now. Edward said nothing on the ride home and I had kept silent only because he had done...I wasn't going to talk and pretend to be civil when he looked like a serial killer with wounds.
I threw his bag back over my shoulder and helped him out of the passenger side and we walked into the house together...His weight only slightly balancing on my own. Rosalie got up from the living room chair.
"Hi Edward" she said pleasantly...She was loving this...She was loving the fact that Edward did not want to be anywhere near Bella and I didn't like her for thinking it.
"Hi Rose" Edward said...I walked straight past my fiancée without even looking her way and up to Edward's room...I opened the door and let him inside...I looked down at the crack underneath Bella's door and saw that her lamp was on..She must have been reading or writing. I followed Edward into his room and put his bag on the bed..I was about to walk out again when he stopped me.
"Hey!" I turned around..Edward was going through his bag. "You can have this back" he said throwing Bella's diary at me...I caught it in my chest.
"What makes you think that I left it for you?" I threw the diary onto the bedroom floor but kept my gaze on my brother.
"I am not stupid, Emmett..Whatever it is you are trying to do just stop!"
"How am I doing anything?" I decided to play the dumb one here...Maybe I could get something out of him.
"Don't patronize me!" Edward yelled...My anger boiled up then.
"Don't talk to me like that!"
"Or what?!"
"You are being an absolute bastard, Edward...Do you know that?"
"Didn't hurt me when mom said it and it won't affect me now!"
"I don't know what Bella saw in you...Why she still loves you is beyond me"
"YEAH, WELL I DON'T KNOW WHAT I EVER SAW IN BELLA!" Edward shouted...I couldn't help it...I saw red...I stormed over to Edward and grabbed the collar of his shirt and pulled him back to the wall nearest to the door...Causing his back to slam hard against it.
"LISTEN TO ME YOU WANKER BECAUSE I AM ONLY GOING TO SAY THIS ONCE...BELLA IS THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO YOU...GROW UP AND REALISE THAT YOU CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT HER!"
"I AM DOING WELL BY MYSELF!"
"YOU KEEP TELLING YOURSELF THAT YOU ARROGANT TWAT...DON'T BLAME ME WHEN EVERYTHING TURNS TO SHIT!"
"Emmett?" I heard Bella cry and I looked to the side of me and saw that she was standing there...I looked at her face and instantly pulled my shoulders back down.
Bella reached over and pried my hands gently off of Edward's shirt as I stepped away from him and out of the room straight away leaving Bella alone in the room with my bastard of a brother.
*~Bella~*
Everything had gone by so quickly...I stood beside Edward as he straightened his shirt down and stepped away from me and back over to his bed he had not looked at me once and I felt slightly intimidated by his presence but I couldn't move my legs...I was battling with myself to leave and not to stay with him.
"Are you okay?" I asked him...My voice choking from the shock of the scene I had just witnessed. Edward turned to me his jaw was clenched and one of his hands was on his waist.
"What do you care? Go away" He said to me sternly...Tears filled my eyes and I put both my upper and lower lips to stop my sobs...I didn't want him to see that he has upset me...I walked out and closed the door behind me.
Emmett was standing near the second staircase.
"I'm sorry, Bella...I just-" I didn't hear him finish...I sunk to my knees and released my tears hugging my knees to my chest...I kept the sobs silent but I wailed out anyway. I missed Edward and I knew now that he was never going to be mine again...This was where the pain would begin.
I was clouded by my emotion...I could see Emmett's feet briefly in front of me.
*~Emmett~*
I knelt down and kissed Bella's forehead as she began to cry uncontrollably...I then lifted her waist up with both my hands and pulled her up off of the floor and into my arms...She wrapped her legs around my waist and I held her close as I climbed the stairs up to my room...I didn't want her to go back to her room where it would be possible for her to run into Edward in the morning...I was so angry at my brother right now it wasn't even funny. Bella continued to sob loudly on my shoulder as I opened the door to my room and let her in. Rose was sitting on the bed.
"Emmett..What's happened?"
"I need you to go to Bella's room, Rose...I will be down in a minute" I said nicely and she smiled and walked out of the room. I sat down and pulled Bella into my lap.
"Did he hurt you, Bella?" I asked her.
"No" she wailed out...I rocked her from side to side.
"I am so sorry" I said using one of my hands to stroke her hair...It broke my heart to see her so upset.
"I love him so much, Emmett...I love him so much"
"I know....I know you do, Bella...I am here sweetie" I assured her.
Bella's sobs subsided after a long fifteen minutes and she then went limp in my arms...I stood up still holding her and leant down to pull my duvet cover back...I slowly lowered Bella under the duvet making sure I didn't buckle suddenly and land on top of her..When she was straight on the bed lying on her back I pulled the duvet over her...She wouldn't be disturbed up here.
I kissed her forehead and turned the bedside lamp off.
I closed the door and went back to Bella's room.
My brother was going to pay for this...Simple as that!!
I will TRY one more update before next week but I DO have a lot of work on and I also have some much needed drinking time on my hands too.
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