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*~Bella~*
"Bella?" I stirred from the softness of my pillow and the undying heat of the duvet cover to open my eyes at the sound of my voice being called above me...I fluttered my eyes open and my gaze fell on the ceiling...That isn't my ceiling! I lifted my head up a little to see Rose standing over me...I took the duvet cover off of myself and was about to get up from the bed when Rose put her hand on my shoulder.
"It's okay, Bella....You're in Emmett's room" Rose said
"I am sorry...I will go back to my room now" I stuttered...Knowing how angry Rose was at me...Being in Emmett's room was probably going to send her over the edge.
"No, Bella it's okay...Calm down for a minute" Rose said as she put the duvet back over me "you're going to get cold if you don't put this over you". I lay there staring at Rose bewildered that she was actually speaking to me let alone be in the same room...I had never once blamed her for her behaviour towards me because I had deserved it...I had also always known that Rose reacted differently to everyone else and now it was deemed completely true...And I couldn't bring myself to care.
"Here I got you this" Rose said reaching down to the floor by her feet and pulling up a mug..She handed it over to me "It's camomile...It's supposed to help...Calm people" she said with a shrug...I sat up to sit on my bottom and instantly put my knees up too...I took the lukewarm surface of the mug out of her hand.
"Thank you" I said bringing the mug up to my lips and blowing on the tea...The smell instantly soaring around my nose.
"So how are you feeling?" Rose asked...I looked up at her...I didn't know what to think..Was I still dreaming?
Rose studied my face and bit down on her lip sighing at the same time...I guess the thoughts in my head indicated the look on my face...I really need to work on that. "Bella...I am sorry for hitting you...That was out of line...I get angry sometimes and I do things that I end up regretting." Rose explained...I leant over and put the mug under a book on the bedside table and put both hands in my lap.
"That's okay...You don't need to apologise...I am the one who should apologise...I hit you and I definitely shouldn't have done that"
"Oh I am fine with it...I realise my face does need to be smacked sometimes...That is what Emmett has always said" I glanced at her wearily "Oh he is only joking, Bella"
I smiled and took the mug off of the bedside table and took a sip of tea "I am not sorry for being angry though" Rose finished.
"You shouldn't be" I replied after swallowing my first taste...Camomile was surprisingly nice it had a different kind of taste but it was a welcomed change to me....I put the mug back down on the table nearly missing the table altogether...I was very achy this morning and I knew it was because of being in a new bed to my own.
"So...Are you okay, today?" Rose asked...She looked like she wanted to say more to me in her eyes...But I let that go, I mean I see a lot of things when I am tired and when I have just woken up...The only thing that could ever wake me up properly was a large cup of coffee (preferably the milky kind which I had found out how to make a while ago) or Edward.
I remembered how Edward had been with me the other night....However I do not recall ending up here in Emmett's bed...I would have to talk with him about that later. I still loved Edward but considering the way he was with me at the hospital AND last night has made me realise that I will probably never be his again and he would never be mine...If only he knew how sorry I was then maybe he would be persuaded somewhat to change his mind...It was a long shot because I knew he would refuse to listen to anything I said in the first place probably before I even opened my mouth.
"Are you supposed to feel like this when your heart is breaking?" I asked Rose tears filling up my eyes...I didn't know anything about heartbreak...Love had never come to me and I had never felt the pain of breaking up...I didn't like it though...I'd much prefer to be in love – which I was....At least a PART of me was.
Rose tutted and shot me an apologetic look "yeah...It feels like hell" she said frankly but her voice was soft...I lay my head back down on the pillow and covered my face. I felt movement from the bottom of the bed but I ignored it only concentrating on getting my emotion out...I had cried so much lately surely I have run out of tears by now?!
I put my hands down and looked to the side to find Rosalie balancing on one arm and looking down on me...I didn't want to move in case she hit me again or worse..I couldn't feel my legs anyway so it looked like I wouldn't have to worry.
"Emmett told me what happened last night" Rose said and I nodded...Of course Emmett would tell Rose what had happened...He told her everything and I didn't mind in the slightest.
"Rose...I don't know what to do anymore" I confessed through the my tears...I kept my gaze away from her eyes on principal in case I saw the anger in them once again.
"There's nothing you can do...But mend" she replied and I sighed.
"How do you do that? How CAN I do that? When the one person I want most in my life doesn't want me?!"
"Has he ever said to you that he didn't want you?"
"He didn't need to say anything...It's in his face"
"Edward is angry, Bella"
"I know he is...I know it's MY fault too but is it wrong to want him back even if deep down I know we probably won't be together again?"
"No...It's not wrong...Look in the past I have had my far share of run-ins and heartbreaks but you get through it, Bella...You will get through this"
"As of right now...I don't believe you"
"Time is the greatest of healers...If you believe anyone when they say that then it should be me"
"Okay"
That was the last comment I made about the whole conversation of my heart...In all honesty it hadn't helped one bit because I knew that Rose was still mad at me...It didn't take a mastermind to see that she was fighting back what she truly felt...I was grateful in a little way that she had stayed with me and even if our relationship with each other would never be the same as before...We were being civil to each other and that's all that mattered.
When the going gets tough...You need people there.
Even if it's people who would rather give a wide berth to.
*~Emmett~*
I had finished my breakfast early leaving Rosalie in bed...All I could think about was Bella and how she was suffering right now...I had decided earlier on in the week to go to a game today seeing as it was Saturday and every second Saturday of the month I would go and see either a league game or go out and train for my team at school...That will teach me to be held back a year!
I walked into dad's office ignoring the idea that he may be busy or on the phone to work...I needed to see him and I needed to get my head around about how I was going to sort Edward out...It was him that needed the sorting, Bella already knew she had done wrong and he DID still love her he was just being too stubborn right now to realise it.
"Emmett..What's wrong?" My dad stood up from his desk as I stormed over and stood in front of him.
"I need to speak to you about Edward" I stated sitting down on the seat...Dad continued to stand he looked confused at my statement.
"What about him, Emmett?"
"Dad please sit down?" I asked him...I hated it when people stood in front of me when I was sitting...It made me feel like I was back in elementary school again and the pupil was always considered mud compared to the jewel that was the teacher that had been teaching them...Besides the fact that my dad was also a doctor in a psychiatric hospital made me feel like I was having some kind of therapy when he would stand in front of me himself. Dad sat down and put his hands on the desk.
"Edward will no doubt tell you about it...Well if he does speak to you...Anyway I thought that you should hear it from me-" I trailed off studying my dad's face.
"Okay?" Dad answered patiently.
"I kind of got angry at Edward last night and...it ended up with him being...Pushed against the wall by me" I said biting down on my lip.
"I see" dad answered his face unchanged.
"I didn't mean it, dad...Honest I didn't...I just saw red"
"What were the two of you fighting about?"
"Bella"
At the mention of Bella's name dad took his hands away from the desk and leant back putting his hands in his lap instead..He sighed heavily out loud.
"Their relationship?"
"Yeah" I answered with a smile...Dad always knew what was going to be said...In his weird doctor way it was endearing.
"So what did Edward say or do to make you flip?" Dad was calm...I wasn't used to him being so calm about this as he had always drilled into us that physical violence was never the answer to anything..Maybe things were different now I was an adult.
"I can't remember most of it...You remember in Bella's note when she left for England that she wanted Edward to read her diary?"
"Yes"
"I took her diary out of her room when she wasn't home and I left it with Edward at the hospital...Last night when I brought him home he threw it back to me and accused me of trying to do something with him and Bella"
"And are you? Doing something?"
"Of course I am but I don't want him to know that...He refuses to listen to anyone right now and it's pointless"
"Emmett what is that you are trying to do, son?"
"I want them to get back together, dad" I confessed honestly...Truly I did the two of them were all I could think about and I never thought I would think of any other ONE person more than I did Rosalie but everything was changing right now in our lives and not for the better.
"It is up to them, though Emmett"
"I know...I don't want them to lose what they had I mean...It was special, anyone could see that"
"Emmett..I do not disagree with you in my preferred world I would want them to be together but I would also like to have Alice back with us...Sometimes things just aren't possible"
"I am not taking a back seat, dad...I can't. I found out more things than I ever knew about Bella when I went to get her from England and I am determined to see her come out of the other end. Edward's behaviour is despicable!"
"Edward is hurting...He is also grieving...You have to understand that who he is now is not the way he is in everyday life..We all know who he can be – Bella certainly knows more than any of us"
"Dad...I refuse to watch Bella continue to suffer under the glaring eyes of her former boyfriend..He will hurt her dad, like the way he has hurt mom before in the past..Or had you forgotten that?"
"I haven't forgotten ANY of Edward's wrong doings...I go through my own life praising the good points in him but deep down I am more than aware that he has flaws...Not everyone is perfect, Emmett"
"I don't believe in perfection dad...I believe in justice"
"For Bella?"
"For everyone...Jasper, Rose, you, mom, Bella and Alice...We owe it to Alice to carry on life as normal the way things were when she was alive...You know she used to say how much she loved seeing Edward and Bella together because she saw in them what she once had with Jazz...I want to do this for Alice, dad and not just myself...I need to get Bella and Edward back together"
"In that case...I will help you as best I can. I am aware that your mother had a talk with him the other day when he was in the hospital...She found the diary and confronted him about it"
"I have a feeling that the confrontation wouldn't have gone down very well"
"That's all Esme told me...She refused to speak anymore about it...I couldn't see whether she as angry or upset about it and I know my wife better than anyone on this planet"
"Oh..Dad that reminds me..-"
"Yes?"
I had yet to tell my parents about Rosalie and I but maybe if I just told my dad then he wouldn't make such a big deal out of it...Mom was a hopeless romantic and she would not let me live it down..Alice was so much like her and I didn't want to ruin the memory of Alice when her death was still rare in all of us. What's the harm in telling dad and asking him to keep it a secret?
"I wasn't going to tell you...but-" I stopped myself...Go on, Emmett...You will still have Rose if this doesn't turn out well...Wait what if it doesn't turn out well and my dad ends up hating me...Pull it together you wimp!...But I can't help thinking that this is selfish...Just DO IT! "Rosalie accepted my proposal" the words flew out of my mouth at such speed that I found myself wondering what the hell I had said afterwards as I looked at dad's face.
"Emmett that's fantastic!" Dad exclaimed a wide smile appearing gradually on his mouth..He was about to stand up when I put a hand up to stop him.
"Can we do the whole hugging and congratulations thing another time...It's not that I don't appreciate it it's just that I don't want anyone to forget about Alice right now"
Dad nodded and sat back down "I understand, Emmett...Thank you for having that attitude..I only wish you could give Edward a few pointers!"
"The only person who can change Edward is Bella...Considering that he won't go anywhere near her it is proving to be a problem."
"Your mother won't talk to him...Even if she did I would not want her to...I will talk to him if you like?"
"That would be great, dad...But try not to let it slip that you want to talk to him about Bella"
"Of course not...Would you do me a favour in return?"
"Sure..Shoot!"
"Can you talk to your mother for me...I need to know what happened between her and Edward...If he has upset her by his childish attitude then heaven help him when he comes to see me"
I couldn't help but laugh...My dad always meant business when he was angry and it was funny.
"Sure dad, no problem" I stood up from my seat "Thank you" I finished
"You're always welcome, Son" he said with an assuring smile...I walked out of his office feeling a huge weight off of my shoulders.
Without a moment's thought I went up the two staircases to my bedroom and opened the door to find Bella on her own...Lying on her side and facing the wall...I knelt down next to the bed and touched her shoulder...She rolled over the instant my hand made contact with her skin and she said nothing as she twisted round fully to face me putting her hand under one of my pillows to face me. I took a strand of hair away from her face and stroked her cheek...Her eyes were red and puffy and god did I hate seeing her like this.
"You alright Bella-boo?" I asked her as smoothly as I could..Edward should be smashed repeatedly against the wall for making her feel like this...Bastard!
Bella sniffed and nodded but she continued to stay silent.
"Tell you what...How about we get you out of the house and I take you out to lunch somewhere?" I suggested.
"Don't you have plans of your own?" she choked out I stroked the tear off of the cheek visible to me that had escaped her eye.
"I did...But it's just that I have never been out with just my little sister before...There's a first for everything" I replied.
"What about Rosalie?"
"Don't worry about her..She will understand besides she is meeting Jasper later on at the hospital..It is Danny's last day before he is allowed to come home"
"Oh" she replied.
"So what do you say?"
"You really wouldn't mind?"
"Why would I mind? I wouldn't have suggested it otherwise" I said.
"Thank you, Emmett" Bella sniffed and smiled...I stroked her cheek.
"Now...You go and make yourself beautiful..However it won't take too much effort and I will wait downstairs for you" I said standing up shaking out the numbness in my legs...Bella rose off the bed and I leant over and picked her up and placed her on the floor both her feet making contact with my carpet.
"I could have done that myself, you know?" Bella teased and I chuckled.
"Off you go, missy!" I demanded grabbing her shoulders and leading her out of my room...I turned to fetch my wallet out of my bedside drawer and then went down the two flights of stairs...Ignoring Edward's room completely as I sat in the living room...Rosalie came out of the kitchen and sat beside me.
"I am taking Bella out...Did you want me to give you a lift to the hospital on the way, babe?" I asked her as she snuggled into my chest..I wrapped my arm around her.
"No that's okay...Jazz will be here later, I think he wants to invite Edward to come with us" she answered. "You go and have fun with Bella" she finished.
I kissed her forehead and let the silence fall over us...Rose and I hadn't been the same since Bella had come back but she was making an effort to be sincere and I knew how hard that was for her anyway and so I appreciated her doing it...Even if it was just solely for my purpose.
I kept Rose close to me both of us left to our own thoughts once again.
I was curious as to what she was thinking at this moment...Maybe she was curious as well as to what I was thinking...However none of us would express them...Preventing argument is better right now.
*~Bella~*
I climbed out of the shower liking the feel of the warmness still hanging over my skin from the water...I took the hair clip out of my hair and allowed my chocolate waves to fall over my back and shoulders..I didn't bother again with the reflection...I washed my face instead with some cold water and some soap to wake my tired face up and hopefully prevent my racoon eyes from bulging through my normal ivory skin tone. I dried my face on the towel wrapped around me.
I tiptoed to the wardrobe not wanting to get my wet footprints on the carpet and browsed through what I had..Seeing as we were probably going to go to Port Angeles today then I wouldn't need to wear anything formal or an outfit fit for a party or a night out..I pulled out a pair of black jeans that I hadn't worn yet and my favourite baby blue v-neck sweater...I pulled out a white tank top which was folded up in one of the shelves in the wardrobe and threw the clothes on the bed I then took out the first pair of underwear I could...I was stopped however in my search.
There it was..My lacy white underwear set that I had picked out myself to wear the night of Carlisle's party...The same night I decided to take the nest step with Edward and the night we had sex for the first time...Or made love whichever people preferred to say. As I looked at the lace I had flashbacks of the way that Edward had touched me and the way that he had acted that night with me...So patiently and so gentleman-like that I reckon he would put some of the upper-class elder gentleman in England to shame. How I missed his touch! The way that my body instantly knew that it was him when he made contact...How my heart raced as he kissed me and the fire he sent through every vein in my inner body and every pore in my skin...I desperately needed to feel that fire through me again but I was never going to have it with anyone else..No one else was Edward. No other person could ever make me feel the way he does. I blinked away the tears and pulled out another matching set next to the white one and closed the drawer. Edward had closed the drawer already and I would have to learn to as well.
I changed quickly and easily now that my skin was near to being dry...I didn't bother with my hair I just let it continue to lay over my shoulders...I picked out my makeup bag from my chest of drawers and picked out the blue eyeshadow, powder foundation and some mascara..I glanced once at the lipstick and lip glosses but closed the zipper...The simpler the better. I did the task as quickly as I could missing the fact that Alice and her magic hands would never grace my makeup or skin again...It's always the little things that you miss about a person like when I sang to Danny the other day as he was crying I instantly missed my mum...Little things make reality come back to you.
I gathered all my products and put them back into the bag when I had finished...I stood up and put the bag back into its drawer and took out my phone as well as the silver locket...Just because Edward had given it to me did not mean that I was going to stop wearing it and besides..Alice was also in that locket and if anything I was going to wear it for her.
Once the locket was clasped firmly around my neck and my phone safely in my pocket..I walked out of my room and down the stairs....Deciding not to look at Edward's closed bedroom door or think about him as I descended the stairs..I needed to learn not to think about him so much and so why should I not start now? However by god did it hurt!
I saw Rose and Emmett on the sofa together as I reached the bottom of the stairs..Emmett tapped Rose on her waist and she looked my way..She smiled only slightly and stood up along with Emmett following shortly after her.
"You ready sweetie?" Emmett asked his voice happy...Thank god for Emmett...He was truly a brother to me and even more so now the family had lost a member.
"Yes" I answered...I looked at Rose "are you sure this is okay?" I asked her.
"Of course, Bella...I had other things to do anyway..Just don't let him eat too much..Coach has gone strict on him and he can get pretty grizzly when he hasn't eaten over three thousand calories a day" she remarked and I smiled letting out a small laugh...It wasn't really a laugh but more like a breath.
"I don't know why you're complaining...You love having this to hold on to" Emmett tapped his stomach and Rose rolled her eyes at him.
"Yeah, yeah" she replied sarcastically as he kissed her on the forehead..I gave her a small wave on my way to fetch my coat...Luckily I had my purse in it...I knew what all the Cullens were like even if they didn't want me to pay..I still wanted to pay for my share. Emmett grabbed his keys and followed me out of the door as I walked the small distance to his car...I wrapped my coat around my body and straightened out the collar.
I climbed in and fastened my seatbelts..Emmett climbed in the driver's side at the same time and looked over at me.
"What is it with you English and your seatbelts?" he exclaimed jokingly.
"Excuse us for wanting to be safe" I said in a posher tone of voice and he chuckled.
"Fair play" he answered backing out of the driveway..I looked once at the house in the distance and then turned my head to look out of the windscreen.
I wondered then what Edward was doing right now.
*~Edward~*
Fucking Ribs! I hadn't slept a wink last night thanks to my arsehole of a brother killing my back...I would get him back...All this shit he was spouting about Bella was doing my head in...Why couldn't he just drop it? She hurt me...I did nothing I mean is it now a crime to be angry? I had laid on my bed fully clothed last night and had spent most of the morning alone with my thoughts letting the birdsong be the only sound to reach my ears...However my solitude was not peaceful for long when someone came through my bedroom door.
"Right...Come on lazy bones..UP!" I heard Rose call...I groaned.
"What the fuck, Rose...Leave me alone!" I answered grabbing one pillow from under my head and smashing it over my face...I didn't need this right now!
"So you can sit here on your own and be anti-sociable..No chance! Besides Jasper will be here in an hour to take both of us to see Danny."
"Why both of us?"
"Because he wants you to be there...Danny is still your nephew, Edward" I groaned in defeat taking the pillow away from my face...I couldn't ever deny seeing my nephew because he was so goddamn amazing..I loved every part of him and I am sure that I would love him every day as he grew up. I struggled off of the bed with one hand on my ribs and walked past Rose and down the stairs..Seeing as I am up I might as well get some breakfast.
*~Rosalie~*
I smiled inwardly in defeat as I had managed to get Edward up...I had lied in saying that Jasper wanted him at the hospital but I didn't want him to stay here wallowing...Carlisle was working and Esme hadn't come down from her room so there really wasn't many choices for him. I didn't care that he was injured..He could still walk even if it was just hobbling.
I was about to walk out of his room when something caught my eye on the floor...It was a book..At least that's what it had looked like. I picked it up and looked behind me in case Edward had come back and seen me looking at his things...But he wasn't there. I opened the front cover and gasped slightly at the writing on the first blank page.
Bella Swan's diary
Wow..So this is what Emmett was going on about..What he had taken from Bella's room...I had watched him do it however I didn't think it was the best idea.
I had two options then...I could take it back to Bella's room or I could leave it here where Edward would find it.
I was still angry with Bella..However seeing her upset this morning had got me thinking...What if Emmett was right? What if Edward did read this and think twice about ending it with her? I would prefer it if they didn't get back together but then again if I turned a blind eye to this...I would possibly be hurting Emmett and no matter how angry I was at Bella's behaviour..Emmett was my life...My future husband and even now I could not deny him anything.
I walked over to Edward's bed and slipped the diary underneath his two pillows...I wasn't doing this for Bella...I was doing this for Emmett because he meant so much more to me.
I then left the bedroom and went down the stairs again...Perhaps Edward would find it...Who knows what will happen as everything so far has gone pear-shaped.
*~Bella~*
Emmett parked up in the same car park that he, Alice, Edward and I had parked in on our first trip out together as I climbed out I looked out at the birds hovering above the sea and stopped in my tracks.
"Bella?" Emmett called from behind me...I turned around to face him..My hair blowing in my face from the coastline.
"Emmett...Would you walk on the beach with me?" It seemed like a silly question but the beach sounded more appealing than sitting in a restaurant.
"Sure" Emmett said locking the car and walking round to take my hand.
Down we both went...The same way as we had done before..All the memories washed over me like the tide in the sea..I took off my shoes..Luckily I had trainers on and held them in my free hand..Emmett took his shoes off too and we walked down hand in hand the same route to the rocks...The wind cold on our faces.
"Remember this?" Emmett asked over the crashing waves and the bird calls.
"It seems like years ago we were all last here" I answered..Emmett wrapped his arm around my shoulders and I leant into him as I continued to walk.
"You know...That was probably one of the most fun days I have ever had" Emmett remarked and I smiled keeping my eyes on the sand below both of our pairs of feet.
"Why?" I asked
"I had a new sister...Who I liked very much" he replied.
"Wow she sounds nice" I teased
"She is....Amazing would be the best word to describe her..Strong...Loyal..Devoted...Loving almost everything good that lies in one person"
"Hmm sounds too perfect to me"
"Well the way we think about ourselves is different to what others see in us"
"You speak wisely darling brother of mine" I laughed and wrapped my arm around his waist and hugged closer to him...I loved Emmett too much...The best brother in the world!
As we reached the rocks Emmett lifted me up onto one and I sat down...It was a few rocks down from the one I sat on with Edward next to me this time. Emmett climbed up and lifted me up again and put me on his lap I rested my head on his shoulder...Enjoying the moment as best I could.
"Do you ever think about how things would have stayed the same...You know if Alice were still here?" I asked him closing my eyes.
"Of course I do...I miss her though, Bella...And not just because she was my sister but because she was my best friend..When I was adopted she didn't envy me like some children because I was new to the family and I wasn't properly related to her..She welcomed me in and we would always tease each other when we were children...She did have the remarkable ability to wrap everyone around her finger and that's what I think I loved most about her"
"I would have loved to have met her...Well all of you when I was a child"
"You weren't missing much, Bella...Edward was the brood and Alice and I were the rebels...Simple as that"
"Emmett about you and Edward?"
"Oh god..I am so sorry that you saw what happened last night, Bella...That was the last thing that you needed to see." I lifted my head and faced him.
"I am not mad at you for that...I don't want you and Edward to fall out because of me..I have no right to come between the two of you"
"Bella Edward and I have contrasting views about you right now...It is bound to cause some conflict...I could honestly beat the shit out of him right now but then I think of you"
"Please don't hurt him, Emmett...After the way he has acted I should WANT you to hurt him but I don't...I am the one that has caused him pain and so I should be the one to try and sort it out..When I am ready"
"I understand that but Bella...You are not completely to blame for this...Edward is grieving over Alice as well and as a child he made it clear that the world wasn't fair and now it proves his point"
As there was a small silence I took the opportunity to look out to the sea and around to where we had just walked from..My heart skipped a beat when I saw Mike Newton walking along with his hand in....
Jessica Stanley's!!
I hopped off of Emmett's lap and crouched down behind a rock further down as Emmett looked at me puzzled.
"Bella..What is it?"
"Ssh..Look over there!" I whispered pointing in the direction of where Mike and Jessica were...Emmett looked around and froze.
"Whoa...Didn't see that one coming!" Emmett exclaimed his face still away from me.
"Mike spoke to me the other day..Rekindled our friendship as it were. Why does he always turn up where I am?" I whispered loudly to Emmett as he swung his head round to face me.
"You weren't thinking of going back out with him were you, Bella?"
"No...Don't look at me look away...Make it look like you are on your own" I whispered keeping my head firmly behind my rock.
"Oh yeah that will go down well...I am never on my own..Besides they won't see me" Emmett said sarcastically.
"Jessica's your cousin she is bound to recognise you" I whispered keeping my gaze away from Emmett's.
"Our cousin? Jessica Stanley isn't our cousin, Bella" Emmett said...I peered over the rock.
"What?!" I whispered loudly.
"Jessica is a friend of our cousin Marie...Who told you that she was our cousin?"
"Uh I don't remember" I whispered back.
"They're heading back the other way now"
"Tell me when they have gone completely?"
"Honestly, Bella is this really necessary?"
"The last time I saw Jessica Stanley was when her fist made contact with my eye!" I said hearing my voice once again.
"Oh Jesus...I had forgotten about that, sorry Bella-boo"
"That's alright...Can you see them anymore?"
"No all-clear" I crept out from behind the rock and stood up...The beach was empty again...I brushed myself down and sat down on the rock next to Emmett's.
"How is it the world keeps getting stranger?" I asked him.
"I have no idea...Shall we have lunch or should we go back home...It's your choice, Bella I am game whatever way"
I thought for a second.."Let's have some lunch" I answered and he smiled taking my hand and lifting me off of the rocks altogether.
Mike and Jessica..Who would have thought it?
I hoped that she hadn't made any recent contact with Edward...If he goes out with her then I don't know what I would do...His relationship with her would be based on a lie and I would have to face the decision about whether to tell him the truth or brush it all off.
I would not be prepared for that.
*~Edward~*
(Late Evening)
I threw myself onto my bed...I was aching from the long day at the hospital however Danny was doing extremely well considering he had been a good two months premature and the nurses had been extremely pleased with him...It seems like my little nephew had already turned some hearts so early in his life...He would certainly grow up to become a male version of his mother.
I put both my hands under my pillow when I felt something hard graze my fingertips...I trailed my hands up further and pulled out the mystery item with one hand and held it above my head to look at it.
Bella's diary...Again! How the hell did it keep turning up here? Wait a minute did I put this here? Surely I would have felt it last night...Then again I was too busy with my head at the OTHER end of the bed to worry about what would be under my pillowcases. I was about to throw it across the room when something stopped me...I didn't know what it was...It was a feeling.
What would I lose by reading this anyway? Maybe it will hold some facts about why Bella is so blatantly messed up in the head...I turned the cover back and saw her name written in red crayon.
I had a choice...Read it now or never set eyes on it again...If I read it then I wouldn't lose anything but if I chose not to see it again...I would be riddled with curiosity.
So I turned the next page and started the first entry...This should be good!
*~Emmett~*
After Bella thanking me for the day out she walked up the stairs and to her room...Rose was probably back at home now as Jazz had rung me whilst I was eating with Bella to say that he was dropping her home. I pondered in the silent living room for a bit before walking up the stairs myself...I got to the second floor and instantly walked to my parent's room...It wasn't that late and I hadn't seen my mom at all today and that wasn't like her. I peered through the door to find my mom reading in bed...The other side where my dad slept was empty.
I pushed the door slightly and mom looked up a little startled at me.
"Hi mom" I whispered
"Emmett..Sweetheart you scared me!" she exclaimed with a smile...One of her hand lying on her heart.
"Sorry...Can I come in for a minute?"
"You don't need to ask, baby" I walked in and closed the door
"Where's dad?"
"He had an emergency at work...Come and sit down with me" she said..I adored my mum so much for her loving nature..I think Alice's death had hit her harder than it had done anyone else and she just didn't deserve it. I sat down upright on the bed where my dad slept the alluring smell of him hitting my nostrils.
"What are you reading now?" I asked looking over at my mom as she took her glasses off her face and closed the book on her lap.
"I still have my Hardy phase going on...Tess of the D'Urbervilles" she replied putting the book and her glasses on her bedside table.
"I haven't seen you all day, mom I wondered whether you were okay...You're not ill are you?"
"Oh god no...I am sorry about that honey...Edward and I had a disagreement" she replied putting her gaze on her lap.
"Did he upset you?"Hell if Edward has upset my mother then heaven help him!
Mom turned to look at me...She stroked my face with one of her hands "No baby...He is just being Edward at the moment...The way he used to be when he was younger that is all"
"Don't defend him, mom..If he has upset you...Tell me"
"I'm not...He is going through a rough time..I just can't see him at the moment..By going downstairs I run the risk of seeing him."
"I understand. I can't seem to get Edward and Bella out of my head, mom"
"Why?"
"I want them to be together again...I don't want them to forget what they had before all this happened"
"It looks like you are turning into me!" she remarked and I laughed at her.
"I learnt from the best" Mom scooted over a little and put her head on my shoulder..I put one arm around her shoulders and the other one around her chest...I held her close to me.
"Give it time, Emmett...Besides there is nothing you can do as an outsider...It's for them to decide"
"I KNOW they still love each other...Well Bella more than Edward"
"Of course they do...Situations like these are hard on relationships. That's why time is so good because it pans things out"
"That's true...Do you think I am being silly about this whole thing?"
"If I thought you were being silly, sweetheart I would tell you straight out. You want things back to normal and I admire you for sticking by your sister like this"
"Bella and I have gotten closer..I understand her more now..She is easily scared and because she doesn't like fear she runs..It all makes sense now"
"She hasn't had an easy life...Her life has been nothing like ours...The hardships that we went through together do not even touch the surface of her emotional pain."
"That's the thing though mom, Bella and Edward...They changed each other I have never seen her happier then when she is with him and he became a whole different person."
"I know, baby...You want what's best for them...Have I ever told you how proud I am of you?"
"You may have mentioned it once or twice" I teased mom punched me lightly in my stomach and lifted herself up to look at me I lessened my hold but kept my hands around her as she gazed at me.
"I really am, Emmett...You have been strong throughout all of this and I have NEVER been so proud to call you mine" she said with a smile...As usual mom's words touched my heart.
"I will only EVER be yours" I answered kissing her forehead lovingly..I pulled her down to my chest and continued to hold her.
*~Bella~*
I was comfortable in my pyjamas as I sat comfortably in my own bed...I had got my new diary out that Esme had brought me when I had first arrived..I smelled the cover before turning the front cover back and looked at the blank front page. I pushed the lid of my pen down and wrote my name...Much neater this time than my last one...I had only been around ten years old when I had started that diary and that is why it was so precious to me.
The diary of Isabella Swan
I put today's date at the bottom and the date in case I needed it to look back on for future references..I had only put the month down in my old diary because I was never tempted to look back on it when I was writing all my entries in it. When I had left my mum I had only kept it because it explained my life and where I had come from...When I would have kids of my own in the future they may want to have an interest in their mother's early life. I turned to a fresh page...My day with Emmett would make for a good entry – it was the most fun I have had in a long time and I would be forever grateful to Emmett for making me feel better at this time.
I had literally touched the nib of the pen to the page when there was a small knock on my bedroom door...I looked up from the diary to the door.
"Come in" I said quietly looking back down at the diary...I put the same date I had done on the previous page on top of the new one..As I was doing this my door opened and closed again. Once I finished writing I looked at who had entered.
My heart fluttered when I saw Edward standing there...I took a deep breath in trying to compose myself..I was so pleased to see him it was beyond words.
"If you have come in here to have a go at me you can go straight back out again" I said keeping my eyes on the door behind him and not on his face....Why did you say that, Bella...God I don't want him to go..Please don't go!
"I haven't...I read your diary, Bella" He replied..His voice smooth – dryness came over my throat at the sound of his words I swallowed in an attempt to get rid of it but it was pointless. My eyes fell on his then as he lifted one of his hands and held my diary up in the air.
Oh Jesus!
What was going to happen now???
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