Chapter 17
(A/N: Rated M for mature content)
Fear prickled through my veins as visions I didn't want to see popped into my head.
He didn't seem to notice how scared I felt at the moment. He placed me on the bed and got on top of me. His lips crashed against mine as he glided inside me. My heart pounded in fear painfully. It felt like it would pop out of my chest any second.
It's Edward, it's Edward, its Edward, I chanted in my head. It didn't help. I had to make him stop before I ended up doing something I might regret later. I moved my lips away from his, "Stop," I told him.
He stopped everything he was doing and looked at me confused. Its Edward, its Edward, its Edward, I repeated in my head. Nothing. My heart still pounded like a sledgehammer.
"Kiss me," I whispered to him. He was confused by the request since I had stopped him from doing that. He slowly leaned in and lightly caressed my bottom lip. He didn't move anything else. I kissed him back but that didn't seem to be helping.
I started screaming now but he quickly covered my mouth with his hand as he still continued in and out.
I closed my eyes tight from the small flashback and pulled away from the kiss, "Tell me you love me," I was practically begging now. I opened my eyes to look at him.
He brought his hand up and lightly brushed his fingers through my hair as he looked deep into my eyes, "I love you Bella. I'll always love you no matter what happens."
And with that my heart stopped beating hard and the fear dissolved in seconds. I smiled at him lightly before I reached up and kissed him again. He kissed me only for a brief second before he pulled away.
I looked up at him as he tried to search for something in my eyes, "What happened?" he asked.
I stayed quiet as I continued looking at him, "Was I going too fast?" he asked.
I shook my head, "No."
"Did I hurt you?" he asked in concern.
"No you scared me," okay so I didn't really want to tell him but it just sort of slipped out. I'm so used to telling him the truth it's hard to tell him a lie.
Confusion etched on his face prominently, "Scared you?" he repeated my words, "Why?" he asked.
I bit my lip lightly and looked around the room through the corner of my eyes before I looked back at him. Realization struck him fast, "Do you want me to stop?" he asked.
I kind of already did that, "No," I told him.
"Are you sure?" he asked worried.
"Yes I'm sure," I told him as I arched my head up and met my lips with his. He rested my head back on the pillow and kissed me tenderly as he started moving inside me again.
His hands were lightly caressing my hip when he pulled his lips away from mine, "What made you remember?" he asked suddenly.
I shrugged as I moved my lips to his throat. "You have to know Bella," he told me breathless.
I stopped kissing his throat and sighed before I rested my head back on the pillow and looked at him, "I think it's because you moved me from the restroom to the bed a little too fast," I told him truthfully.
"You think?" he asked.
"Okay…I know," I told him.
"And that's it?" he asked.
"Yes that's it," I told him as I reached up to kissed his lips. I could feel that he was about to pull away to ask me something else so I quickly turned him onto his back and kissed him roughly.
His hands flew to my thighs as I moved my hips rhythmically against his. I finally got him to shut up. Its not that I didn't want to hear his voice it's just that I didn't want to hear about my awful past when I was making love.
I was pretty sure I had made him forget all about what had happened when I felt him grow hard. I smiled against his lips before I moved them away from his lips and to his ear. He was breathing heavier than usual. I understood why. I had gone to medical classes to get my degree for anthropology so I knew that when a man grew hard they had to release their stimulus or it would never go away. So you'd basically have a horny man just begging for more.
His hands tightened on my thighs as his breathing came quick, "Faster Bella," he moaned out. I moved my hips faster against his like he asked me to. He gripped onto my thighs harder making me cry out in pleasure rather than pain, "Faster," he moaned out louder.
Is this how I sound? I shrugged the question off and moved faster against him. My lips were kissing his heaving chest slowly, "Right there," he grunted. I inched him deeper inside me making both of us grip onto one another. We were almost there. Almost to the point that would send us to cloud nine for at least the next couple of hours.
I was starting to get tired. I reached my point faster than Edward did. I collapsed on top of his chest and his hands let go of my thighs. I looked at him, "I'm not finished with you yet," he told me seductively.
I grinned at him before I got off his chest and laid on my back next to him, "Then finish me off lover boy."
"With pleasure," he said as he got back on top of me. That lasted for around another hour before he finally finished and we fell asleep beside each other.
I woke up to a bright light shining in my eyes. I cringed before I pried my eyes open and looked over at the time. It was already nine in the morning. I rubbed my eyes and sighed before I slowly sat up with covers covering my front.
A light brush against my skin on my back made me turn my head to look at Edward. He smiled up at me but didn't stop touching my back. I smiled back at him. He reached over and pulled me next to him making me giggle, "We have to get up," I told him.
"I don't want to," he told me as he tightened his arm around me.
I smiled at him with a small chuckle, "Come on," I said as I tried to get up. He pulled me back down and sat up. I smiled up at him. He turned toward me with a sly smile on his face. I looked up at him suspiciously. What was he going to do?
His smile slowly turned into a grin. My eyes widened a bit before his hands started attacking my stomach. I thrashed under him as I giggled uncontrollably, "Stop!" I giggled out with a huge grin.
"Say it first!" he said on top of me with a huge smile on his face.
"Say what?!" I asked as I squirmed under his hands.
"Say you love me!" he said over my giggles.
I shook my head and his fingers moved faster, "Say it!"
"Okay! Okay! I love you!" I told him still giggling.
He stopped tickling me and smiled down at me, "See was that so hard?"
I calmed my breathing down but couldn't take the smile off my face, "No."
He leaned down and pecked my lips over and over. I giggled lightly under his lips, "We really need to get up," I told him between each peck.
"Why?" he asked as he stopped giving me pecks on the lips.
I chuckled lightly, "Carlie's at your parents remember?"
"Oh! Right," he said with a sheepish grin.
He got off of me and sat on the edge of the bed. I pulled the covers off of me and realized I was wearing my bra and underwear. I looked up at Edward confused, "Did you put clothes on me?" I asked.
"Yeah…you looked like you were getting cold," he said as he stood up and started walking away from the bed and to the bathroom. I got up on the bed and walked to the edge before I jumped on his back. He caught the bottom of my thighs and steadied himself.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist. He moved his head back to look at me. I smiled down at him, "Hello hubby."
"What are you doing?" he asked with a smile.
"Hitching a ride on my husbands back to the closet?" I asked with an innocent smile.
He moved his head back forward and threw me up a bit to reposition me on him. He gently set me down in front of the closet and turned to look at me, "Are you happy?" he asked as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
I rested my hands on his chest, "Of course I'm happy. Aren't you?" I asked.
"More than you can imagine," he said with a grin.
I smiled before I reached up and kissed his lips. I pulled away, "We seriously need to get going," I said as he moved his hands to my bottom delicately.
He pouted, "Do we have to?" he asked.
"Yes," I said with a chuckle, "You remind me of Carlie when you do that."
"Well I am her father," he said as he pulled away.
I shook my head with a smile as I turned around and started looking for something to wear. I picked out a pair of blue jeans and a green shirt and place them on the counter.
I took my toothbrush out and started brushing my teeth. Edward came and did the same. I finished before him so I started changing. I bit my lip as a question that had been stuck with me for two years resurfaced in my mind.
"Edward?" I asked.
"Yeah?" he asked looking up from his zipper he had just zipped up.
"Can I ask you something and you won't get upset?" I asked cautiously as I watched him put his shirt on.
"Sure," he said as he straightened his shirt out.
I bit my lip a bit nervous to ask him, "What would you have done..." he stopped tying his shoes and looked up at me, "If Carlie wasn't yours?" I asked.
A/N: So what do you think? Think he'll get mad? Think he'll be okay with the question? Please review!