Hello LOVELY people!
Here it is...The FINAL chapter of 'A misshapen life'!!
I shall be sad to see it go after it has been literally ALL I think about for the past two months...!!
I do NOT own Twilight...I own AML.
(I should thank Ms Meyer as amazing as she is for letting us ALL play with her characters and create our own worlds to keep them all alive).
Sexual content in this chapter for the AMAZING 'Katie Lou Lou x' for her UNDYING and extremely kind support of this story...I appreciate her SO much.
Song for the first part of chapter is 'December Boys' – Peter Cincotti (A good ENDING song)
*~Bella~*
(4 Months later)
Jasper and I had just gotten back from Alice's grave...We went upstairs as I held Danny in my arms..We walked into Alice's room and I stood in the centre as Jasper sat on his bed.
"Wow I can't believe how big he has got already!" I exclaimed to Jasper...He smiled over at me as he sat on the bed. Jasper had moved in with us in the Cullen household...Esme had given the choice for his mother to also stay with us but she kindly declined the offer and admitted that she wanted to stay residing where she was...However Beverly Hale was a frequent visitor and a close family friend to all of us. Danny Hale was also making a huge impression on us all...Not a day went by when he wasn't surrounded and cuddled by one of us...Just like his amazing mother before him he was wrapping us all around his little finger and I stuck by my idea that he would become a charmer as he grew up and would surely break some hearts in his conquests for finding a future girl to be with him.
"I know...Why are you here anyway, Bella...Aren't you supposed to be helping Rose get ready?" Jasper asked from behind me.
It was Emmett's wedding day today...I hadn't seen him much at all as Carlisle and Edward had been the only major part of his company...Something about how men need to do what they must do before a wedding...The things they do that is separate from what the women do...So Rose and Esme had been with me for the past month or so and I had barely had time to think about my own life as it would all revolve around Emmett and Rose for the past month and of course today. I started my job at the restaurant...FINALLY as it had been offered to me before Christmas but due to events in my life I was unable to begin working there properly. Now that life seemed to be back in some kind of order again I was learning my own craft and earning my own money which I was extremely happy about. Elizabeth was truly one of the best employers I could ever imagine to have...She was not just my boss but she was also a good friend and like Tess would prove to be a big influence in my life which I will never forget as long as I live on the earth....My fellow employees who I also consider to be friends continue to be kind and helpful during my time at work...As my days are now split between school and work it was hard to adapt to at first but now I barely remembered my routine before I had started my job.
"Rose is out with Esme this morning picking up the wedding dress...I decided to stay away...I couldn't turn down time with my gorgeous nephew ." I cooed looking down into Danny's eyes...Alice's eyes...So beautiful and so expressive but Danny had the colour of Jasper's natural blue eyes...Alice had a bright hazel but the shape of Danny's eyes were Alice's all the way.
"I think he has been getting enough attention" Jasper remarked and we both laughed at the truthfulness of what he had said. "I am sorry that you are no longer bridesmaid" he added and I turned to face him.
"I understand why Rose had stripped me of that duty...She had every right to and besides what's important today is that all of us celebrate something together. Esme has organised this entire wedding so quickly I was wondering whether we would have to wait at least a couple of years before all of it was done...I still underestimate her talents"
"I think we all do" Jasper replied.
"What about you? Do you not have to play your role of best man, today?" I asked.
"Edward was made the first best man...I am merely a deputy if it is best to put it that way...I organised the stag night yesterday and I will read out a speech for Emmett and Rose today...As for everything else my attention lies purely on my son"
"Well I cannot argue with that" I said with a smile...I gently put Danny down back in his cot as he had fallen asleep in my arms...I stroked my index finger down his tummy and pressed play on the tape player on his cot side table that held his baby monitor and his lamp. The lullaby that Edward had made for his nephew came through the speakers beautifully...I walked out of the room with Jasper behind me and closed the door.
"I still don't know how you do that...No one can make him go to sleep as easily as you can" Jasper remarked as we descended the stairs.
"I guess he just has good taste" I teased and he chuckled.
"I would have to agree with his taste then" Jasper replied and I rolled my eyes...I walked into my bedroom and left the door open for Jasper. I turned to look at him standing just outside of my room in the hallway.
"It's alright, Jasper you can come in" I said.
"Sorry...I know you have said it is okay for me to come in here, I still however think that it is rude if I do not wait until you give me permission"
"Its okay" I said gesturing for him to come in...I lay down flat on my bed and sighed out loud.
"Are you okay, Bella?" Jasper asked sitting down next to me on the bed.
"Yes...It just all seems too much like a dream...I mean Emmett is getting MARRIED today...its madness" I exclaimed.
"I know...I have always said that he was going to be the first one to tie the knot. I bet you're missing Edward though."
"I swear, Jazz sometimes you can read my mind"
"No...I just know a thing or two about being in love."
I laughed a little and twisted my body around so that I was side-on looking up at him "I just wish that we could ALL be together today" I said.
"I do too, Bella...By god I wish my Alice was still here...I think about her everyday" Jasper replied looking at the floor.
"Oh god that reminds me!" I exclaimed climbing off of the bed and walking over to my drawer...I pulled out a present that I was meant to give Jasper when Danny was finally able to come home but it had slipped my mind completely. I had gone to great lengths to look for a beautiful frame that had a rose design...Something that wasn't too feminine but something that Danny could keep. I found a sterling silver frame the design was trailing stems with baby blue blooms...The same flowers that Jasper continued to lay on Alice's grave. I was proud of it...If Danny had been a girl then I would have brought jewellery with the same thought but I thought the frame was beautiful and even know three months later I had been proud of myself for making the discovery without any help from anyone else...I had kept it secret from Edward as he had made his own gift of a lullaby..Esme and Carlisle had made up Alice's old room into a full-equipped nursery...They had kept her bed and her wardrobe out of principal and had also kept all the possessions that she loved the most. Emmett and Rosalie had brought a large picture to hang on the wall of all the Cullen's...The same one that was existed in my silver locket Edward gave me...However Rose and Emmett's picture was in colour and my locket one was black and white. The large portrait of all the Cullen's hang on the wall above the far frame of the cot. I was not in the picture but I didn't mind in the slightest...I would have to go out in the future and have one made again with just me, Edward and Emmett...The Cullen siblings.
In my gift I had found a different picture of Alice...The most beautiful one I could find of just her on her own and there were lots of great ones but the one I had chosen had struck me the most and had caused the most of my tears to fall.
I picked out the frame that was wrapped in baby blue paper and had a glittering blue bow wrapped around the centre. I took a deep breath before turning around to look at Jasper on the bed.
"I was meaning to give this to you a while ago...I am sorry that I have forgotten about it up until now. It is for Danny...As memories sake" I said reaching him and holding out the present. He took it out of my hand slowly and pulled on the bow...He then pulled the ends of the paper carefully as my breathing began to pick up...Oh god please like it!
Jasper turned the frame around was he had undone all of the paper and sighed long and loud trailing his finger over Alice's face...I took the opportunity to say something in his silence.
"I don't want Danny to ever forget his mother because none of us ever will" I stated in a shaky voice...Jasper looked up at me through his tear-filled eyes the two of us remained silent for a second..I looked away from his gaze and onto the floor...I was about to look back up at him when both of his arms constricted around my shoulders pulling me into his chest...Jasper held me tightly keeping one arm around my back and the other resting in my hair...I kept both my hands on his back and returned his grasp just as tightly.
"I just hope Edward realises how lucky he is to have you, Bella" Jasper whispered and I sighed.
"Even if he does...I will never stop thinking about Alice nor will I ever stop loving her...You do believe me don't you?" I asked...Jasper took his hand away from my neck and stared into my eyes.
"Of course I believe you, Bella...You are one of the main people in my life that I trust completely...I will make sure that Danny treasures this...I thank you from the bottom of my heart for giving this to him..His mother, the love of my life will never be forgotten" he said...I smiled and took myself out of his hold.
"Do you need to see Emmett today?" I asked closing the drawer to my chest.
"No...He said he will meet me here later...He knows I would never leave Danny" Jasper answered.
"If you like I can watch Danny for you...That is if you want to go and see Emmett and Edward now?" I suggested...I looked back at Jasper who seemed to be pondering for a moment before returning my gaze.
"Would you mind that, Bella?" he asked.
"Of course I wouldn't mind...He is to be my Godson in a couple of weeks I should at least start making my impression now" I answered...Jasper picked up the frame from my bed...He kissed my cheek.
"Thank you for this, Bella" he said walking out of the door and back up the stairs.
I sighed and looked around my deserted room...The best thing I can do now is to wait for Esme and Rosalie to come back.
*~Esme~*
"Are you alright in there, Rose"? I called from outside Rose's changing room door...She had been in there for at least twenty minutes and I was getting worried. "Do you need a hand?" I added.
"No...I am coming out" I stood back from the curtain as it opened and I clutched my hands over my mouth as I took in Rose's look. Rose looked simply amazing...As beautiful as any bride on their wedding day...Her dress consisted of slightly old-fashioned lace which was surprising for me to see on her because she was so wonderfully modern. The bodice wrapped around her curves in exactly the right placed and the bottom of the dress was just as gorgeous too. It was simple but simply breathtaking.
"So Esme what do you think?" she asked looking at me apprehensively...I took my hands away from my mouth taking a few more seconds for it all to register.
"You look amazing, Rosalie" I choked out.
"Are you sure...I really want to look good...Do you think Emmett will like it?" I sensed her nerves and it was only natural that she would feel them in this moment.
I closed our gap and put my hands on her face "Right now...I am so happy that you are going to be my daughter in law" I admitted as Rose smiled...Her eyes were filling up with tears.
"I am sorry...I just...I am so nervous" he choked out attempting to blink away her tears.
"It's okay, sweetheart...its natural" I replied and she took a deep breath. "So is there anything else you need to do?" I asked her my hands still on her face.
Rose was deep in thought for a moment...Her eyes staying away from my own as she did so. "Actually there is one thing..." she trailed off and I took my hands away from her face.
"Yes sweetie?" I asked.
"I never cancelled the order for Bella's bridesmaids dress...Would you go and ask for it at reception for me?" I stood back.
"Wait...You want Bella to be your bridesmaid?" I asked her a little shocked.
"I wanted her and Alice to be my bridesmaids but seeing as Alice won't be able to...I want Bella to be there with me."
"After everything that has happened between the two of you?"
"I reckon that this might be the one thing to make our relationship better...And there is one more thing that I would like to ask you?"
"Of course what is it?"
Rose analysed my face for a moment before speaking "Would you and Carlisle give me away?"
I heard her words in my mind and I suddenly became very emotional..."What about your parents?" I asked.
"They are away...I preferred it if they didn't come because they haven't been parents to me at least not in the same way you and Carlisle have" She explained.
"Rose...I am sure if I rang them and told them then-"
"No...Please...I will belong to Emmett now and I want a REAL family to give me away...Please, Esme?" She pleaded...I found myself unable to refuse her as she stood in her beautiful gown.
"Of course we will, Rose...We would be honoured" I choked out my tears escaping from my eyes...Rose wrapped her arms around me and held me tightly.
"Thank you, Esme" she whispered.
I released her after a few moments "You go and take that off...I will go and get Bella's dress and then we can go back home and surprise her with the news!" I exclaimed Rose nodded closing the changing room door as I walked down to the reception.
Today was certainly going to be an emotional one...I just hoped that my beautiful Alice would be able to be a part of this day with us as well.
*~Carlisle*~
I tugged hard on Emmett's waistcoat...Grunting as I pried the buttons closed with as much strength as I could...Edward was watching me from the living room chair fighting back laughter at the picture of us.
"Christ, son...When was the last time you measured this?" I exclaimed pulling the waistcoat harder around him...Emmett grunted in pain.
"Last week" he choked out.
"You can't have eaten THAT much in a week...Remind me to tell your mother to stop giving you seconds" I said...I put my foot down on his lower back and he knelt his torso down to lend me a hand...I was becoming very hot in a short amount of time. "Emmett for pity's sake I can't get it on!" I shouted letting go of the coat. We were interrupted by Jasper's arrival in the house...I had decided to ask Beverly Hale for the use of her house so that the girls could have our house for their own...Jasper looked confused at us and bit down on his lip as he closed the front door behind him.
"Don't tell me...He has eaten too much again?" Jasper said and Edward laughed through his closed mouth.
"Is there any way you could get this on Jasper?" I sighed out...I was out of breath and it was quite embarrassing. Jasper sighed and walked over to Emmett...I sat down next to Edward on the sofa.
"Right, Emmett this is going to hurt grit your teeth, buddy" Jasper said...Emmett nodded once as his head hung...Jasper put his foot on Emmett's spine and pulled the waistcoat with every strength he had until he and Emmett were both red in the face.
"Almost there...One more pull" Jasper choked out as he gritted his teeth...He tugged the waistcoat one more time and managed to tie up the buttons successfully.
"It feels like I am wearing a fucking corset!" Emmett remarked and Edward laughed.
"Since when will you ever wear a corset?" Edward replied...Jasper was breathing deeply.
"I don't know but there is no chance in hell I am going to wear one now!" Emmett began to lift himself back up.
"Go slow, mate" Jasper said tapping his spine.
"Yeah we don't want anything ripping" Edward added...He and Jasper both rolled their eyes at each other...Emmett managed to put his upper body straight and he let out a huge sigh. He turned to face me.
"You alright there, old timer?" he asked me...I narrowed my eyes at him.
"Careful son...I can easily cancel this wedding with one press of a button" I spat and Emmett chuckled...It's true I would never have done it but right now...I lacked the energy to be civil...I had demanded that he eat carefully this week but he had gone and done the complete opposite.
"Right if you boys will excuse me...The old timer must go to the church" I sat lifting myself up from the chair. "Please tell me that your coat fits Jasper"? I asked him and he nodded.
"Don't worry Carlisle I haven't had much time to eat anything with Danny" he said with a proud smirk...I tapped his shoulder and walked out of the front door closing it behind me.
That was the last time I would play dress up with my son ever again...From now on he was going to be on a diet consisting of only vegetables and fruit!
*~Jasper~*
"So do you need a hand putting your things on?" Edward asked me...Emmett had gone into the kitchen to get a glass of water...I sat down next to Edward.
"No...It won't take me long...You know I have to say this, Edward...You have got yourself an amazing girlfriend in Bella"
"I know I do, Jasper" he said genuinely "where is she?"
"She is at home with Danny...Don't worry Esme and Rose should be home now so she won't be alone"
"Edward has had to spend a lot of time on his own without any action this week" Emmett said as he walked back into the kitchen.
"Guys...Before you start I am not prepared to talk about what I do in my life with Bella...It stays between me and her"
"There was me thinking that you would shout it from the rooftops" Emmett replied pacing around the glass of water still in his hand.
"That was the old me" Edward stated.
"It's only when it's really good that people don't talk about it" Emmett said.
"Oh and how would you know? All I hear is sex stories about you and Rose so it must not be any good then" Edward spat...I stifled back a laugh.
"Wow you hurt me deep little brother" Emmett said sarcastically.
"So...I am a little concerned about why Bella isn't the bridesmaid anymore" I said looking over at Emmett who shrugged his shoulders.
"What?" Edward exclaimed following my gaze to Emmett.
"Sorry...It was Rose's idea...I had the choice ofpicking out best men and she had to pick her bridesmaids...She was set when we got engaged that she wanted Alice and Bella to do it...But she is still angry at Bella for what she did to you, Edward"
"I have forgiven her, Emmett...She was looking forward to being a bridesmaid" Edward replied.
"I am sorry, bro if it were up to me then she would be walking down the aisle before Rose today but it is out of my hands" Emmett said as he laid the conversation to rest.
I stood up breaking the awkward tension in the room..."I am going to my room to change...You guys coming?" I asked.
"Sure" Edward said getting up.
"Sorry I think I will stay down here...I have enough trouble trying to breathe properly without having to worry about climbing stairs" Emmett said...I gave him an assuring smile and made my way up the stairs with Edward behind me.
I just hoped that Emmett's jacket stayed on.
*~Bella~*
I had just that moment put Danny down to sleep again after I had fed him lunch...I was reaching over to get my diary when Esme and Rose came into my room.
"Hello Bella sweetheart!" Esme exclaimed walking over and kissing my cheek she held what I guessed was Rose's dress in her hand. I looked over at my door and saw Rose enter...I stood up when I saw that she also was carrying something in her hands.
"Is Danny sleeping?" Esme asked me suddenly...I snapped out of my daydream and faced her.
"Yes...I have just fed him" I answered.
"Good girl...I am going to go downstairs to make some food...I will leave you girls to it" she said flashing us a cunning smile and walking out of my room and closing the door...Esme was up to something I just knew it. Rose hung the hanger on my wardrobe door and put down another bag she had around her wrist.
"So does the dress fit alright?" I asked Rose as she turned to face me.
"Yes...Just right thank you. Listen Bella, before we get ready...There is something I want to ask you?" Rose seemed anxious and alarm bells went off in my head.
"Sure, Rosalie what is it?" I replied.
"I am sure that you are wondering why I have two dresses in here aren't you?"
"Um I was a little stumped but the second one must be for your honeymoon trip...Right?"
Rosalie shook her head "not exactly"
I shook my head trying to get my head around what she was trying to tell me "then what is it?"
"You see, Bella...The thing is...It will take me a little more time to forget what you did but when I got engaged I wanted you and Alice to be my bridesmaids...I didn't even have to stop and think. Now that Alice is gone...I want you to be my bridesmaid again...I want you to be with me, Bella as part of my new family" Rose explained and I sighed out in shock.
"Wow...Rose are you sure you are alright with that?
"Yes...I can't deny that I need support, Bella and I hate the fact that Alice will not be here with us to make our little trio again but I can't do this, alone" Rose choked and tears filled up her eyes...I took her hand in mine as I tried to soothe her.
"Of course I will be there, Rose" I said as she smiled a little.
"I am scared, Bella" she admitted.
"I know you are...its okay...I will help you get ready and I will be here if you need to talk okay?" I assured her.
Rosalie sniffed and nodded shooting me another small smile.
Rosalie and I went into my bathroom without another word.
*~Rosalie~*
I had been in Bella's room for over an hour as she was adding the finishing touches to my hair with her straighteners...I had a small amount of time left before I would make my way to the church and be married. The past four months had gone so quickly and nothing could have prepared me for the nerves that I was now facing as I stood in my dress.
Even though I didn't want Bella to be my bridesmaid anymore...I had forgotten what such a source of comfort she is...It was like kindness radiated off of her and that is why I had grown to like her so quickly...Things had been bad between us but I needed her there with me when I made those vows...I was glad that she had accepted to be my bridesmaid again.
Esme barged into the room with Danny firmly resting on her arm as Bella flicked the switch of her straighteners off.
"You ready, girls?" she asked...I had a colour code in my wedding for baby blue...In memory of Alice and her birth to her son...Esme wore a simple but elegant baby blue dress and her hair was up in a bun.
"Yes" Bella answered...Bella was also wearing baby blue...Her dress was much more bodice styled like my own wedding dress...Both of our dresses had buttons at the back however Bella didn't need to worry about having the dress end on the floor as hers ended just above her knees.
"Are you ready, Rose?" Bella asked as she stared into my eyes.
"Yes" I said...Esme beamed.
"The cars are outside" Esme stated holding out a hand which didn't hold her sleeping grandson.
"Is that for me or for Rose?" Bella asked...I had been thinking the same question but it didn't come out of my mouth.
"Rose" she answered and Bella looked over at me with a smile.
"I will carry the dress" Bella assured me.
"Thank you" I said as she went round behind me and picked up the bottom of the dress. I grasped Esme's hand tightly and she led me out of the room and down the stairs...I was lucky I had Bella holding up the dress because my knees were shaking quite badly at this point descending the stairs...Esme nodded at the doorman who was holding our three coats and he walked down the steps and onto the driveway. Esme stopped and turned to me.
"Are you okay, Rose?" she said...I took a deep breath and nodded...Esme put both her hands around Danny then as I walked past her and down the steps with Bella still holding the back of my dress...I walked across the gravel and the doorman whose hands were free of our coats now nodded at me in greeting as he stood beside the car door...I climbed in as Bella took the dress and placed it neatly by my feet...The doorman closed the door as Bella climbed in the other side so that she was in the middle and Esme followed her...she reached out and the doorman handed her baby Danny as she wrapped her arms around him tightly holding him to her chest.
The car journey was silent as I gathered all my thoughts.
By god I was nervous...But I was marrying Emmett and that was all that mattered.
*~Edward~*
I was standing next to Emmett at the front of the church...He kept muttering and fiddling with his waistcoat his gaze examining all of the people that had come along to see him get married.
"Stop fidgeting" I whispered angrily at him.
"When you get married, bro you will be a nervous wreck too and I will watch you every step of the way" he snapped back...Jasper had been with us but had gone when he heard Danny had arrived with Rose, Bella and Esme...I scanned the crowd for my beautiful Bella but I couldn't see her yet... I leant over to Emmett.
"Emmett do you know where Bella is?" I whispered.
"I was just thinking the same thing" he answered...The wedding march had rang through the room in that moment as everyone stood up to look down the aisle.
*~Bella~*
"Jasper you go first" Rose whispered to Jasper who was holding baby Danny in his arms...He nodded and preceded his walk down the aisle...I looked away from the staring guests hoping that they hadn't seen me. The wedding march echoed off of the small corridor where Rose, Carlisle Esme and I stood...I had butterflies all of a sudden.
"Bella...I don't think I can do this" I snapped my head around clutching onto my bouquet...Esme and Carlisle looked alarmed.
"What are you talking about?" I whispered back.
"Bella...I can't-"she trailed off.
"Rose listen to me...You can do this...Emmett loves you and you love him...Surely that is enough"
"It's not the same...it's not the same without Alice" she admitted.
"I know it isn't...I meant what I said Rose...I will be here and I am here...We can do this together"
"But Alice isn't-"
"Alice is watching over us all now...I can feel it. If she were here she would say to get that pretty booty down the aisle" Rose laughed.
"You're right she would".
"So you ready?" I asked and she nodded...Carlisle winked at me as he took Rose's arm in his own...Esme had done the same with her other arm.I turned to face the doors and they opened...I walked down the aisle concentrating on getting my feet in complete sync with the march being played...I kept my gaze straight ahead as I felt everyone's eyes on me. I looked to see Emmett beaming at me and beside him was my beautiful Edward...A huge sensation of calm washed over me and I smiled back at him as I reached the vicar I went to the side opposite Emmett and Edward and turned my body round so that I was facing Rose.
Carlisle and Esme clutched onto Rose as she walked down the aisle...Her veil was covering her face now and everyone was smiling at her as she walked past them...I looked at Emmett who looked like he had just robbed a sweet shop...I smiled and watched Rose reach Emmett..He took her hand and Esme and Carlisle sat down...I took Rose's bouquet and the vicar began the service.
"We are gathered here to witness the joining of this man and this woman in marriage; which is an honourable estate, instituted in the necessities of our being, and dedicated to the happiness of mankind; an estate not by any to be entered into unadvisedly or lightly, but reverently, discreetly, soberly, and in all sincerity. To be true, this outward form must be a symbol of that which is inner and real, a sacred personal union, which a church may solemnize and a state make legal, but which only love can create and mutually fulfil. To endure, the marriage of these two persons must be a consecration of each to the other, and of both to the wider community of which their lives are a part. Love is a great thing, and thorough good. By itself, it makes everything that is heavy, light, and it bears evenly all that is uneven. Love carries a burden which is no burden; it will not be kept back by anything low and mean; it desires to be free from all worldly affectations and not to be entangled by any outward prosperity or by adversity subdued. Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble, attempts what is above its strength, and pleads no excuse of impossibility. Love is therefore able to undertake all things, and it completes many things and warrants them to take effect, where he or she who does not love would faint and lie down. Though weary, love is not tired; though pressed, love is not straightened; though alarmed, love is not confounded; but as a living flame, it forces its way upward and securely passes through all. Love is active and sincere"
The vicar then turned to Emmett...I was fighting back tears as I gazed on his face...So much happiness radiated off of him in that moment.
"Emmett... Will you have this woman to be your wife, to live together in the sacred estate of marriage? Will you love her, comfort her, honour and keep her, in sickness and in health, in sorrow and in joy, and be faithful to her, as long as you both shall live?"
"I do" Emmett said...I sniffed quietly...I looked over at Esme who was also crying.
The vicar then turned to Rosalie "Rosalie, will you have this man to be your husband, to live together in the sacred estate of marriage? Will you love him, comfort him, honour and keep him, in sickness and in health, in sorrow and in joy, and be faithful to him, as long as you both shall live?"
"I do" Rose said.
I looked over from Esme to Edward...He smiled and mouthed 'I love you' to me...I sniffed and mouthed 'I love you too' back at him...Feeling very overwhelmed with emotion as I looked back at the happy couple.
"Emmett...Take Rosalie's right hand in yours and repeat after me..." Emmett obliged as he listened to the vicar's vow...Once the vicar finished Emmett opened his mouth to speak. " I Emmett Cullen take you, Rosalie Andrews to be my wedded wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part"
Emmett said the vow with no stumbles or mistakes...The minister then asked Rose to take Emmett's hand and repeat after him.
I, Rosalie Andrews, take you, Emmett Cullen, to be my wedded husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do us part."
The vicar then smiled and spoke again. "The rings, please?" Emmett turned to Edward who put the ring in his finger...Emmett smiled and put it on Rose's left finger...I panicked then...Where was Rose's ring for Emmett?!
Rose gestured for Jasper to stand up and he walked over with Danny who was still sleeping she reached into Danny's top pocket and pulled out a ring...I breathed a sigh of relief. Jasper went to sit back down and Rose put Emmett's ring on his finger. The vicar spoke again.
"In as much as Emmett and Rosalie have consented together in marriage, and have witnessed the same before you, and there to have pledged their faith to each other, and have declared the same by joining hands and giving and receiving rings, I pronounce that they are husband and wife. You are now wed....You may kiss the bride."
Emmett lifted Rose's veil and kissed her lovingly on the mouth...The congregation stood up and applauded them as they kissed...I tapped my arm on my hand that held the bouquets...I needed to clap but I couldn't do it properly. I blinked back my falling tears as Emmett and Rose laughed together in an embrace...It was such a beautiful picture. Rose turned to look at me...She beamed and nodded at me as I smiled at her...She then walked back down the aisle with Emmett's hand in hers..I watched them go along with all of the other guests.
"You alright, baby?" Edward whispered as he approached me.
"Hmm...I have never been to a wedding" I choked out..."Now I know why people cry" I finished. Edward stroked my cheek with his hand.
"I never got to say how beautiful you look, Bella" he whispered.
"Thank you" I sniffed...He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and he led me back down the aisle...I kept my body connected with his as we made our way back to the village hall.
*~Jasper~*
(An hour later)
"Emmett became a fast friend of mine...Someone who introduced me not only to the way friendship should be between men but to also his little sister, Alice...I am not right in saying that he didn't approve of his sister's match with me and we would often come at lock heads about her...He was a caring brother and he continues to be so...Alice also thought the world of him. Rosalie was a woman who I had gotten to know through Emmett...I remember him saying to me that he had fallen deeply for this girl and yet he was scared...Scared that he wouldn't be enough for her...I replied 'Emmett...If you are in love with someone then that is all that matters...Even if you love from afar then it is enough to make life complete...Go for it and take the risk because she might feel the same way about you' and of course I was right. I will be forever grateful for Emmett because he introduced me to the love of my life who sadly cannot be with us today...I will be grateful to him because he accepted me both as his sister's boyfriend and his own friend and that took a lot of courage to swallow...I just hope that I am lucky once again to find love and if it were to be half of what Emmett and Rosalie have then I will indeed be a happy man. I love my buddy, Em forever and Rose will always be my sister. So everyone raise your glasses to a couple who truly belong together. Emmett and Rosalie Cullen".
"Emmett and Rosalie Cullen" The guests repeated and tapped all their glasses together...Emmett stood up from next to me and gave me a loving hug and Rose kissed me on the cheek and the two of them sat back down...I took Danny out of Bella's arms and held him closely.
*~Bella~*
"My Brother bear what can I say? You welcomed me into the family and you spread your love around me in every way possible...I was scared to adapt to life with a new brother but I was glad to be proved wrong...You are the eternal light that hold our family together and you are the reason that we all stand here today...You are an inspiration to all men of your generation and you are terribly good at stacking the food away. I have never been so proud to call you my brother as I am right now and I hope that in my life I will have done you as much good as I can as a sister. Rosalie is forever going to be my friend...Even though we have had our ups and downs...She is beautiful, honest and courageous and everything that I hope to be...She is the other half to my brother's soul and I cannot imagine two better people meant to stand and face the world together than my amazing brother and my amazing friend. To Emmett and Rosalie"
"Emmett and Rosalie" Everyone called. Emmett hugged me and Rose came over and hugged me as well before sitting back down...I sat down next to Edward.
*~Edward~*
"Emmett has been the truest of all role models to me...Not just as my brother but also my friend...I never give him enough credit for what he does and I believe that everyone should have credit where credit is due. I give Emmett a lot of slack and can be a real jerk to him and I am not afraid to admit that to myself...But he always forgives me and supports my decisions and for that I cannot fault him. I owe him a lot in life...Mostly for kicking my ass but also I owe him for the continuous love he shows not only to me but to the rest of our family. He is the rock that holds us all together and he has remained strong when times have been hard. Rosalie is his light...The love that he has and we accepted her the day we met her but now we are even prouder to call her a sister...Rosalie is the perfect match for Emmett and I wish you both the very best in your married lives. I love you both and I also wish that Emmett would stop eating as much as he does. To Emmett and Rose"
"Emmett and Rose" The crowd repeated...I walked over and hugged Emmett and I leant over their table to kiss Rose on the cheek.
*~Bella~*
Carlisle and Esme had gone off somewhere after Rose had thrown the bouquet...A person who I didn't know had caught it and I sighed in relief to find that I wasn't going to be the one who got married next. Everyone waved them out of the church as they climbed into the car to go to the airport...I already said my goodbyes so I allowed myself to take in the sight before me. I watched Esme and Carlisle close the door and walk back inside towards me hand in hand...They kissed me on my cheeks.
"Where's Edward?" I asked them.
"He took Jasper and Danny home...Jasper will be at his tonight because it is his night to spend with his mum...I imagine that Edward is at our home...He said he would be back later" Esme slurred...She had been drinking as Carlisle kept his arm around her.
"Okay...Well I am going to go and check on him and I will be back" I said.
"Okay, Bella...Be careful" Carlisle said as he and Esme walked back into the party room. I had no choice...I had to walk because everyone had been drinking large amounts of alcohol...Edward and I had been the only sober ones in the whole party.
I took my coat off of the coat rack in the hall entrance and wrapped it around myself and stepped out into the cold but silent night...The moon was shining brighter than usual but the road was dry so I wouldn't have to experience wet shoes or dirty feet in my attempt to rush home to my boyfriend.
(This part of the chapter is influenced by 'Flightless Bird' by Iron and Wine)
I walked home as fast as I could having to take my heels off half-way into my journey...I hadn't even notice Edward go and I was worried...I was trying to drown out the unmistakable thumping of my heart my clearing away my thoughts and letting the night air calm me but it was impossible...I breathed out a sigh of relief as I reached the driveway and I saw Edward's car parked there...I stepped over the gravel ignoring the pain in my feet...I opened the front door and closed it behind me...The house was quiet at least it was on the ground floor...I dropped my heels on the floor and picked up the hem of my dress as I carefully walked up the stairs...I got to Edward's bedroom door opposite mine and knocked lightly...I didn't want to make too much of a noise on the door if he was asleep. There was no answer...I leant my ear up to the door and tried to concentrate on finding any sound coming from inside.
There was soft murmuring of music but I couldn't for the life of me try and name it...Music was still very much unknown to me...Seeing as the only music I had ever listened to was an Irish ballad and of course Edward's classical compositions. I had drowned my mum's music out as a child as it was always constantly playing in the house. I put my hand gently on the handle and pushed it down using my other hand to push against the door slowly...Why wasn't I EVER any good at being silent? I walked in to find Edward's room covered in candles...The lamination of the soft golden light filling the air and beautifying every corner of the room...I gasped uncontrollably I saw Edward standing there in only his pyjama bottoms...His beautiful chest under the candlelight looked almost like a delicate marble...I bit down on my lip at how...Sexy he looked in the candlelight...If I gazed too long the desire would be too much for me to handle. I looked down at the floor and kept my mouth firmly closed...My breathing had begun to pick up and Edward knew how much he had an effect on me...I closed my eyes too not wanting to bask in his undeniable beauty. There was a creak after a few moments and I knew that it was Edward's floorboards underneath his carpet making the sound...I kept my eyes firmly closed...I could sense him in my personal space already and it was only a matter of time before his beautiful skin made contact with mine in some way. I took a deep breath inwardly...I could feel my want for him growing and I didn't want to attack him uncontrollably...Especially when we could be causing a potential fire from the candles...I also knew that my own skin was going to set alight when Edward touched me.
"Bella look at me, please?" Edward said in a whisper...God this guy was going to be the death of me...Him and his sexy voice. I tilted my eyes back up and I flinched a little at how close he had gotten...My chocolate eyes rested on his...His eyes sparkled under the light in the room...I clenched my fists at the sides of my body...Jesus he was handsome...How could someone that looks like he does go for someone like me. Edward flashed me his crooked smile and took the strand of my hair that was the only strand from my whole head out of the clasp at the back...He ran it through his fingers as his face inched closer to mine...I stared at his lips intently as they parted from his own breathing his white teeth only just noticeable in his mouth....I couldn't move.
"I was going to come back and get you" he whispered...I melted under his glare transfixed on my face. "No I see that I don't have to" he finished.
Edward released the strand of my hair and walked around behind me...Trailing my neck and upper back with kisses as he went...I forced my knees to stay upright...I closed my eyes allowing the music to soothe my senses...Edward touched my hair clip and released my curls from their confined space...My curls landed on my back and I swallowed hard at the feathery touches they left on my skin as they moved. I kept my eyes closed anticipating what Edward was going to do next...My heart was skipping so much that it felt like it was going to break free from my body altogether. Edward fingers grazed along the back buttons of my dress undoing each one slowly my newly exposed parts of skin showing to him...He released the last button and the warm air of the room basking my skin...I shuddered as he trailed his fingers down my exposed spine leaving Goosebumps behind them.
"You're cold" he whispered.
"Sorry" I breathed out...I didn't know what he was doing back there and I couldn't help but feel a little anxious. Edward kissed my right shoulder once and rested his head on the bottom of my neck as he kissed up the side of it to my jaw line...My body began to rock and I wanted desperately to push my neck further into his kissing trail but I forced myself not to...I would not be so overwhelmed so quickly this time around...I needed to work on gaining some self-control even though with Edward it was always forgotten about. It had been a long time since we had slept together however not the longest we have ever gone without making love to each other...I had missed him desperately and the romantic scene in the room around me was not making my attempts to control myself any easier. Edward could sense my hesitancy...Once he had kissed along my jaw he entwined his right arm in my hair pulling my head so that it could face his....I stood strong.
"Bella...Kiss me, baby?" he asked whispering again...There goes my plans once again! Grr sometimes he had a great knack of driving me insane. I tilted my head backwards so it rested on his shoulder...I looked up into my eyes.
"I have missed you beautiful" he said connecting his lips with mine and immediately pulling them apart to connect our tongues...I let out the groan I had been holding inside since I came into the room into his mouth. Whilst our mouths were hard at work Edward used his other hand to pull down my dress at the front down to my hips...I bucked further into his shoulder as the warmness hit my exposed torso...Edward kept his focus on our mouths but kept his hand working...soothingly he trailed his fingers from my collarbone down to the clasp of my bra...He snapped it open and the cups flew apart and rested against my arms near my armpits...He caressed each breast in turn starting with the left and then giving the right one the same attention...I disconnected our mouths and sighed feeling the fire inside my veins once again...Edward moved his mouth up to my forehead and my eye lids as his fingers caressed both of my bare breasts...I felt desired but exposed at the same time and I was a little embarrassed that he was taking his time with me...We had never gone this slow and the ache in my soul was getting to be unbearable. He took his other hand away from my head and then with both his hands in tact trailed the straps of my bra down my arms and off of my hands completely as it landed on the floor...I kept my head on his shoulder...However my resting spot was short-lived as Edward moved back around the front to face me...He kept his eyes on mine as he hooked my dress with his thumbs and pulled the dress down all the way past my thighs, calves and down to the floor at a circle around my feet.
I was standing there in only my knickers...I still felt vulnerable looking at Edward and comparing him to myself there was no comparison...Edward stood back up and took my face in his hands...He wrapped his lips around mine and feverishly caressed them with passion the signals going straight to my head making me feel dizzy and lightheaded...Edward could kill someone with one touch of his lips...Probably sending them so far into airheadeness that they would need a brand new I.Q. I kept all my concentration on the feel of his mouth not wanting to spoil the moment with my own slight insecurities...Edward would never agree with me that he was the god-like example of man instead he would say that I was the beautiful one...I guess what others think of you is different to what you think of yourself. Edward moved his hand across my hip and I jumped immediately thinking that he was going to take off my one remaining garment but his hand continued down to the outer side of my left thigh...I instantly hitched it up my knee now on his right hip...His desire pressed against my inner part of the thigh I moaned when I felt how distinguished he was...Edward was well endowed even though I had never taken the opportunity to look at him properly....I knew it by the way that he filled my insides there was never any part that went untouched or unloved in any way and in all the time that we had been together.
Keeping our mouths battle Edward moved his hands to my waist and hoisted me up in the air...I wrapped my legs around his waist his desire now pressing into my own...A low growl came from Edward's chest as he wrapped his arms around my waist...My breathing picked up even more as I wrapped my own arms around his neck pushing my mouth further into his...My lips were going to be swollen in the morning...That much I knew but I didn't care...I have said before that I would spend the rest of my life kissing Edward if I had the choice and I still stick by that one hundred percent. I tightened my knees as Edward twisted me to the side...He took one little step and lay me down on the duvet however what I had failed to notice was that my legs were hanging off of the end...My knees in the air and my feet on the ground...I arched my back attempting to move backwards slightly but Edward stopped me putting his hand on my arm as I began to move underneath him.
He disconnected our mouths and climbed off of me taking great care not to hurt me...He stood next to his door and knelt onto his knees...I was aching for him badly by this point...I clutched my hands around the duvet underneath me trying to calm my body down...I was flushed by Edward's attention and my lips were chapped ever so slightly...I kept my gaze up on the ceiling and exhaled out slowly.
Edward's hands snaked their way up from my feet to my stomach...I felt the tears threaten to fall from my eyes...I blinked to stop them from escaping. I was so overwhelmed by what he was doing that I could barely control either my body or my emotions...It was like they had minds of their own. As his thumbs hooked around the band of my last item of clothing I closed my eyes letting the tears fall...He was being so attentitive to me and I had never experienced this kind of emotional pull to Edward...His touch was the best thing in my life but now...He was doing so much more without actually having sex with me. I felt my underwear fall down my legs slowly and smoothly and he took them off of my feet.
I was completely nude and unable to look into his eyes...I didn't want to see him study me...More tears escaped my eyes as I clutched the duvet harder...Stop crying, Bella you're ruining the moment! There was a part of me that wanted to see the look on his face...I took the risk and lifted my head from the duvet to look into his eyes...His eyes had changed there wasn't that sparkle anymore if it were possible to see desire and love in someone's eyes then those same emotions were in Edward's right now. I bit down on my lip as another tear fell from my cheek...This all felt so strange and new to me and of course the only way I ever handled things was to cry. Edward looked me up and down as my chest rose and fell to the point of embarrassment...The music was still going in the background however my moans drowned it out.
"Bella you are exquisite" Edward whispered as he knelt back down and took one of my feet in his hands...I wanted to push my legs together and close them...I could feel my own arousal but Edward had never seen it. Edward kissed every inch of my foot as it lay on his shoulder...I threw my head back into the pillow...This desire was now officially unbearable. Edward lifted my other foot and did the same...I pushed each finger I had into the duvet trying to stop myself from grabbing him. I looked back down at him as he stood up and climbed over to rest on top of me...He put his knees on either side of my waist and leant on one arm as he used his free hand to wipe away my tears.
"Sweetheart...What is it?" he whispered his voice loving...I choked on a sob and took a deep breath in causing both me and Edward to rise slightly.
"I'm just...I'm" I stuttered...I clenched my stomach hard to get the words out "I'm just overwhelmed right now" I said feeling very idiotic after my obvious lack of speech. Edward caressed my cheek with his thumb.
"I have missed you so much" he whispered...I let out a sigh.
"Edward you didn't have to do all of this" I whispered in reply my voice low.
"Bella if I had the choice I would make love to you every hour of everyday" he replied...His words soaring to my soul once again...I shuddered a little under him.
"Edward...I...I love you SO much" I sighed out as he smiled a little trailing his index finger along my bottom lip.
"I love you my stunning, amazing and loving girl" he whispered his breath on my face as he kissed both my moist eyelids "I will love you for the rest of my life" he finished moving his kisses to the side of my head... I took my hands away from the duvet and ran them up his back before wrapping them around his wrists. He took himself off of me again causing me to have to let go of his wrists I sighed when he left me but he stood to the side of me...He moved his long fingers to the band of his pyjama bottoms and I studied him as he pulled them down revealing his now naked body...No wonder he felt so strong against my skin..He didn't have the boxers to stand in his way.
I kept my focus on his face and on his torso...It's not that I didn't want to look down...I just knew that if I moved my gaze down then I would have to let him take me then and there when he clearly wanted to take things slow with me. He hitched his knee up onto the bed and climbed to put his knees back where they were before at the sides of my waist...Before I could do or say anything else he grasped the tops of my thighs and pushed me further up the bed so that my head landed on the pillow...I don't know he was able to do that...As usual Edward continued to surprise me. He kept his hold on my waist as he climbed closer to me...I was ready to spread my legs when Edward hitched my knees around his waist and knelt down putting all of his weight on his knees. I was shaking now as he guided his 'male area' to my desire...I have never liked using the real names of body parts because it always made me blush even when I thought about the proper names I would blush and at this moment I had gone so long without blushing that it must have been some kind of record for me.
"Edward...Do you-" I stopped myself...I should trust Edward but I wanted to make sure that he was protected as I was not...I did not want to go down the same path as Alice had done at least not at this moment in my life.
"Don't worry, Bella just relax my baby" Edward replied... My hands started to tingle with the need to touch him but he seemed to have had other ideas I nodded in indication that I had heard him and then braced myself taking a deep breath in. "I love you, Bella" he finished.
"I love you too" I replied taking my gaze back to the ceiling...Edward then pushed into me...The emotion was so overwhelming that my hands flew up from the mattress and I gripped the headboard...It was such an impact that my body was following his and if I didn't hold on I would probably land in his lap. I moaned as Edward pulled out and pushed back in...I met his moves and desperately needing more of him I wiggled my hips to fit him in...He sighed in contentment as my hips starting to rise and fall with his movements.
Edward pushed and I pulled...I gripped my hands harder on the headboard and my tears fell down my face...This was nothing like the last two nights we had spent together this was so much more...We were in a different position but Edward's thrusts were harder and deeper this time around...I welcomed them pushing down on him to make him go further inside me...If that was even possible. I was moaning so much in pleasure but I couldn't grab a pillow to try and compress or quieten them because my hands were already occupied...I kept biting down on my lip but every move that Edward made caused my moans to get louder...There was no one else in the house but I didn't want to have to explain to anyone what we had been up to.
My legs hardened and I clenched my stomach as my hips moved up and down...None of this seemed real...Just a great dream that I would be reeling about tomorrow morning. Beads of sweat oozed out of the pores on my forehead...I had never been so hot before like this with Edward...It was defiantly a new time for both of us.
I felt my stomach harden as I clenched hard against the rising climax of an orgasm...Edward was grunting hard as he increased the speed of his movements...He was close too...I held on for my life as Edward caressed my knees but continued to keep our rhythm. I moaned again however it was shaky as Edward got faster and faster...It wasn't painful it was just amazing...Edward knew how my body worked and he knew what things I liked...Without even having to ask me. A true master and gentleman with me...He never made me feel repulsed by what we were doing he made me feel special and he wanted to please me as much as I could him. I clenched my teeth together as I got to the very top of my climax...I wanted to say to Edward that I was nearly there but I couldn't form any words. Edward sped up again and that sent me over the edge...I released the tightness of my hold on the headboard as I rode the waves of pleasure...Edward came seconds later riding out both of our orgasms..I tried to slow my breathing down but it was impossible...This had been the hardest climax I had ever endured and the sweat was now dribbling down my forehead and onto my eyebrows...My hand tingled with numbness from how hard I had been clutching the headboard...Edward owned my life...That was the only way I could describe it.
I was about to find some movements in my knees to take them off of Edward's waist when he moved forwards and onto his knees...my legs now around his back...He leant one arm by the side of my head. He kissed me deeply taking his free hand up to meet mine on the pillow...He grasped it tight and I felt tears filling my eyes again...One little gesture and he had me melting. He kept his contact with me and our lower bodies as he released my hand and put it by the other side of my head...I was too content with having him over me again to realise that he had begun to rock us again slowly...I held on to his waist...How can he still have the energy after that? No way was I complaining...If I had the choice I would have sex with Edward every day but due to our contrasting schedules of everyday life...This wasn't possible. I gripped my fingers on the front and back of his ribcage as he continued to go deeper and deeper...I was sinking further into the mattress and every push he made...I was so flustered to care about the fact that we might end up breaking the bed and having to continue on the carpet.
I once again had no speech when another orgasm unexpectedly hit me from left field...Edward came then...He always waited for me maybe next time around I should work on making him orgasm first...There was time of course...Always time for this...Hell I would MAKE time for this if I had to. Our hips slowed as Edward breathed hard on my face he kissed my forehead and down my nose taking one hand and wiping my clammy forehead...I put one of my hands on his cheek and stroked it lovingly as my breathing slowed and subsided.
The two of us stayed connected just gazing at one another...I couldn't hide the smile from my face even though I was exhausted.
"Are you alright, sweetheart?" Edward asked me his voice now back to normal. I nodded and smiled at him. Edward planted a tender kiss of my lips before lifting up his body and breaking our contact gently...He stood up on the bed and hopped down...I pulled the duvet cover up and put one hand over my head and went over how I was feeling over and over in my mind. Edward walked into the bathroom and came back out moments later...He climbed into bed with me and held me securely in his arms...I snuggled into the crook of his neck and allowed my eyes to flutter closed.
I didn't mind that neither of us said anything...The moment was beyond any words in the English language...Edward was truly mine and I was his and that was the way it was going to stay for as long as he would continue to have me as his girlfriend.
I laughed at the idea that he had once only been a brother to me...There was no way he was going to be like that again...Not now that we had seen each other naked...There was just some things you could never go back to once you had sex and I would never again be Edward's sister...I didn't want to be.
About an hour had passed when I realised that the candles were still burning...Edward was out for the count...I wriggled out of his arms slowly...He didn't stir and pushed my knees down on the mattress to push my whole body out to the foot of the bed...I had done it before when I needed to escape his room...This idea was better than having to climb over him...I never wanted to wake him once he was asleep as he had always looked so peaceful. I buried around the carpet and found my dress...I climbed into it and left the zipper open...I went around the room blowing out each of the candles in turn before opening Edward's bedroom door slowly and stepping out into the hallway...I tiptoed into my bedroom and opened the door but left it ajar. I had one more thing I had to do.
I dug through my bedside drawer to find my updated diary...I took out the pen that had escaped from the cover and into the wooden surface of the drawer and opened up to the first cover.
The diary of Isabella Swan
I analysed my name and pushed the lid down on the pen to reveal the nib and scrawled over the note as much as I could without breaking the paper. I proceeded to the top of the scrawl.
I began to write:
The Diary of Bella Cullen
I closed the diary completely and undid the pen nib putting them both back into my drawer and closing it. I tiptoed back out of my room and closed it...I looked around the hallway once and once I was definite the coast was clear I hopped back into Edward's closing the door behind me.
I crawled back underneath the duvet going forward this time instead of backwards and I snuggled back into Edward's arms...He moved his hands tighter around me but kept his eyes closed...It was if I never left.
I closed my eyes and had three more thoughts before letting sleep take me over.
I was now Bella Cullen...An official Cullen.
Alice...I love you and I thank you so much for everything you have done for me and for all of us.
And my 'misshapen life' was now to my happiness a 'shapened life'.
*~ The End~*
All-Over...I REALLY hope you enjoyed this story.
I will write a FINAL A/N tomorrow but it WON'T be a chapter!!
Thanks so much for the support on this story and I am quite tearful now it has finished...I will now work on 'A Swan's melody' and ANOTHER story for Twilight which is early in my planning...I WILL improve my grammar in my next ones it was only because AML was my first shot at writing a story...I hopefully will improve somewhat in my next project.
All my love
Samantha (Jigsaw Rose)