Chapter 21

I wrapped an arm around my tummy and closed my eyes, "He'll come back baby," I whispered to my stomach, "He'll come back."

~End of Flashback~

"Bella," I blinked the memory away and looked up to find Edward right beside me now. "You okay?" he asked with concern.

"Uh yeah…just…thinking," I said as I shook my head.

He looked at the knives uneasy before he looked back at me, "About what exactly?" he asked.

I shook my head as I got the waffles and put them on our plates, "Nothing."

"You weren't thinking about stabbing me were you?" he asked jokingly.

I chuckled lightly as I shook my head and started walking back to the kitchen table, "No why would I be thinking about stabbing you?" I asked amused as I sat down.

"I don't know…maybe I did something you didn't like," he suggested.

I chuckled lightly, "You are far from that…trust me."

"I do trust you," he replied back seriously as he sat across from me.

I looked up at him and looked into his eyes as I searched for a deeper meaning to his words. I could tell he meant it but I had already known that he trusted me, "I know," I replied back just as serious.

"Then please tell me what you were thinking," he was nearly begging now as he reached across the table and took my hands in his.

I pursed my lips, "Are you scared?" I asked him.

He seemed confused by the question at first but after looking into my eyes he seemed to understand why I was asking, "Yes," he whispered, "After knowing that you were in such a deep depression because of me and seeing you just…staring at the knives…I'm scared for you Bella. I've seen you depressed before but this is different…its worse."

I looked down at our hands with a slight nod, "I know…and I'm sorry I'm putting you through this but…I just can't lose you again," I looked up to meet his eyes, "I can't," I said with a shake to my head.

He looked at me with sympathy now before he let go of my hands and moved his head to the side indicating for me to go by his side, "Come here," he told me.

I got up from my seat and walked over to him. I gently sat on his lap and wrapped my arms around his neck. His arms wrapped around my waist lightly as he looked up at me, "I'm not leaving you Bella. Please try and grasp that," he begged.

I sighed silently, "You don't know that…and I didn't mean just leaving…what if something happens to you?" I asked in a soft voice. "I don't think I would be able to handle that…with or without Carlie."

"Please don't say that. I don't ever want you to…give up if anything happens to me. You need to be here for Carlie…for me," he responded back in a solemn tone.

I rested my head in his shoulder and frowned, "I don't want to talk about this anymore."

"You need to know this Bella," he replied back.

I sighed shakily, "I know all of this Edward. It doesn't change anything."

He stayed quiet after that. "Are you mad at me?" I asked.

"No," he replied back in a whisper.

"Can we eat now?" I asked quietly.

"Yes."

I sighed before I lifted my head up and kissed the side of his head before I got off his lap and walked back to the chair across from him. We ate in silence and we didn't look at each other. He wasn't lying before. He wasn't mad but he was something. I went over and put my dirty dishes in the sink and walked over to him. "You're disappointed aren't you?" I asked him.

"A little," he admitted as he stood up to put his dishes in the sink.

I bit my lip lightly as I looked down at the ground, "I'm sorry…but you can't change the way I feel," I said as I turned around to look at him.

He slowly walked over to me and placed a hand on my cheek, "I know…I just don't want you to hurt yourself," he said in a low voice.

I nodded slowly as I placed my hands on his chest, "I know," I looked back up at him, "If I promise I won't hurt myself," I bit my lip lightly before I proceeded, "will you…not be disappointed in me anymore?" I asked.

He looked into my eyes intently as he slowly slipped his hand behind my neck, "Yes," he replied back honestly.

"Then…I promise," I told him in a low whisper.

He searched my eyes to see if I was telling the truth. I was telling the truth although it hurt to promise something like that. He slowly leaned in and kissed my top lip. I kissed his bottom lip lightly before I pulled away.

"I love you with all my heart Bella," he told me softly as he caressed my cheek with his thumb.

"I love you too Edward," I replied back as I hooked my hands together behind his back. I leaned in and rested my head against his chest, "I won't let anything happen to you…ever," I whispered to him. I'd jump in front of a speeding bullet if I had to.

He chuckled lightly making his chest rumble, "I think that's my line, love."

I smiled lightly against his chest, "Yes well this is my first time saying it. You've already told me that before so now it's my turn."

He turned his head slightly and pressed his lips against my hair before he pulled away from our embrace, "We should watch that movie Carlie wants to see," he informed me.

"Let's go get her," I told him as I entwined my fingers with his and led him down the hall and towards the staircase.

"How do I bond with her?" Edward asked suddenly when we were descending up the stairs.

I smiled lightly, "Don't worry about that. I have something planned for you guys," I told him.

"What?" he asked.

"You'll find out soon enough," I told him as we made our way down the hall and toward his old room.

He sighed making me look at him, "What?" I asked.

"I don't want to wait that long," he complained.

I smiled with a small chuckle, "I said soon…not never…now stop complaining your worse than a child."

"You would know," he replied back.

"Not even Carlie complains as much as you," I told him as I opened his door.

"Are we going to watch the movie now?" Carlie asked as she stood up from the ground across the room.

Edward walked in and looked around. His bed was replaced with a small bed for Carlie and she had toys all over the room…it was more of a play room for her than a bedroom. Well that was until Edward came back. I guess we'll have to clean it later.

"Yeah…come on," I told her as I outstretched my arms towards her.

She smiled and started making her way towards us, "Watch your–," I didn't get to finish the warning. She fell over a toy and landed on her hands and knees.

We both went over to her and helped her up, "You okay princess?" Edward asked.

A small tear escaped her eye, "I fell on my knee again," she told him.

He pouted at her before he wrapped his arms around her. She cuddled up to him and buried her face in his chest. He pulled her away and gently wiped her tears away, "You want me to kiss it?" he asked her softly.

She nodded as she rubbed at her eye. He bent down and lightly kissed her knee making her giggle. He looked up at her with a smile, "Does that feel better?" he asked.

She giggled lightly and placed her hands on his cheeks, "Thank you daddy."

He took one of her small hands and kissed it, "Okay well go watch the movie," he told her as he lifted her up and placed her against his side. He was taller than me so she didn't rest on his hip like when I carried her. "Where'd you leave the movie?" he asked her.

She looked over his shoulder at her bed, "On the bed," she replied back.

I walked over and grabbed it, "Okay let's go," I said as I made my way out the door. I somehow managed to bump my shoulder against the doorway but I ignored it.

"Bella," Edward said in a complaining voice.

I stopped outside the room and looked at him, "What?" I asked.

"Please watch where you're walking," he told me in a scolding voice.

"Huh?" I asked.

"I don't want you to get all bruised up," he told me as he lightly placed a hand on my sore shoulder.

"Its nothing," I said with a shrug.

"That wasn't nothing," he said as we started walking downstairs.

"Mommy always bumps into things," Carlie told Edward.

"Yes well mommy needs to stop bumping into things or she's going to get hurt," he was talking to Carlie but looking at me.

"I can't help it. It's a curse," I said with a small shrug.

"It isn't a curse Bella. If you would just be more careful–."

"Alright! Alright! I'll be more careful jeez," I said with a roll to my eyes.

"You made mommy mad," Carlie said in that you're-in-trouble voices.

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