And I thought I was broken. Stupid, stupid me. I thought that I was helping. Stupid, stupid me. I thought she was beautiful, perfect, different. Stupid Lucius. She was never mine. She trusted me. And what did I do? I took advantage of her weakness. I thought I was so in control. Stupid, stupid me. I thought Draco wouldn't notice the difference. Stupid, stupid me. I thought she would be happy with me. Stupid, stupid Lucius. And now she's gone. She ran. She trusted me and I broke that trust. I broke her. She might have even loved me.
And the funny thing is that a few years ago, Narcissa told me that all I cared about was my selfish needs, and not the needs of the family. And the one time I try to put the family first, the only one who got what they wanted was me. And then I realized that victory has a bitter aftertaste that I can never wash out. Astoria is never coming back. And it's all my fault.
Disclaimer: All recognizable characters belong to JK Rowling. "Stupid Boy" is a song by Keith Urban.
A/N: I'm not sure how I feel about this writing style. It's extremely repetitive, but I hope it got the soliloquy effect I was going for. Comments? Suggestions? Snide remarks about my taste in music? All are welcome. Except the last one. I like to think of my tastes as "eclectic"... Not "lame".