I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT...Just this story
We were sitting around my living room deciding the best coarse of action we needed to take. Well, they were talking and I was sitting there with my own thoughts. I looked at all the faces I loved and had a moment of fear someone wouldn't survive. Which was impossible because we outnumbered them. We hoped. Alice was seeing something that she couldn't see clearly. Something big. Something bigger than we realized.
I kept stealing glances up the stairs, straining to hear sounds of movement. I wanted to go see Nic. Alice leaned over to me. "Go. Your driving me crazy with your back and forth thoughts."
I gave her a half smile and stood up. Edward had my hand so I gently let it go. He looked at me with concern. "I need to go see Nic." I told him. His eyes tightened and he asked if I wanted him to come with me. I paused and said "No". He just looked at me for a few seconds and slowly let go of me. I had to turn away quickly before I changed my mind. I ran up the stairs, only tripping once. I could hear soft chuckles from below. "I better have balance after I'm changed!" I called down to them, causing even more laughter.
I paused at Nic's room, listening to hear if he was awake. I slowly open the door. He was sitting at the window gazing out. He turned to look at me and smiled softly. I felt my heart turn. I knew my feeling for Edward were strong. But Nic was important to me, always was even when I forgot him. I walked over to him and sat beside him.
"I'm glad you weren't hurt" He said to me. He touched my cheek.
I smiled at him. "Me too. So much has happened today..." I began.
"I know. I heard it all." He looked into my eyes. I knew he heard everything. "Nic.."
"Bella, you don't have to explain. I know how you feel about him. I also know you feel something for me too."
I could only stare at him. I was silent trying not to delve to deeply into my emotions, my feelings. He surprised me with what he said next.
"Bella, give me my chance. Spend one week with me and only me, let me show what kind of life we could have together. I've loved you for years. Dreaming of you as my mate and spending eternity with you. One week Bella, one week to change your see what we could be." He was pleading with me. I heard a loud thump and alot of commotion downstairs. I started to rise but he held me down. I was struggling for words,struggling with my heart. How could I deny him that? I looked him in the eyes and said what I knew I would say all along. "Yes."
I realized that was what the commotion I heard earlier was all about. Alice had seen my answer, and Edward saw it in Alice's mind. As soon as I realized this Edward burst thru the door and stood in front of us. He growled at Nic and before I could blink we were in my room. He set me on the bed and started pacing. I let him have his moment. I walked over to him and started to speak.
"Edward...I need to explain.."
"No." he said.
"Yes I do." I tried again. He stopped me with a kiss. I lost all train of thought. I slowly opened my eyes and stared into his. He smiled my favorite smile.
"Bella, I can't stand the thought of you with him. But I know I messed up when I left you. Your different know, because of him. Charlie told me who he is, but most importantly who he used to be in your life. How can I be with you and not be 100% sure its me you want. If I hadn't come back, would you be with him now? I have to know...You have to know. No doubts. After all its only forever were talking about."
My mind was swirling, I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I'm sure my mouth was hanging open. He has always been so protective of me, now I had his blessings to leave..with another man??
I made my decision but I was still floored. He never let me make choices. Something had changed. He had changed.
"Edward...I need to do this. Your right I need to know. I know I love and want to be here with you. But I owe him this. He almost died for me. He was my best friend. I could give many reasons..but the simple matter is I...we...need to know."
He gently took me in his arms. We didn't speak again. As we laid on my bed I felt at peace, safe.
Some how..some way it would all work out. I wasn't sure how. How do you love two people? How do you let one go?
I know its been along time for this chapter. I've had some personal issues to deal with and my computer that had this story on it completely died. I plan on updating this story very shortly and keep it rolling. I would love to hear from you! Thank you for reading :D