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The next morning I woke alone in my room. I had sleep so deeply I never felt him leave me. I had a moment of panic thinking he was gone again, then I noticed his jacket was still on the rocking chair. I sighed with happiness. Then I started to panic. How could I do this?? How could I leave him when he just came back to me? What if he decides to leave because of this. Most importantly howcould I leave with Nic? Granted my dad and Tory would be with us but still...

I have never felt so alone or confused than I did at this moment. I really needed someone to talk to...

Beep beep beep... I picked up my phone and saw I had a message from Alice. "I'll be there in 5 minutes don't panic." I closed my eyes and sent a silent thank you for Alice being in my life. I jumped out of bed, managed to grab my clothes without tripping-yay me- and headed to take a shower. I could hear the TV on downstairs so someone was around. All the Cullens,except Edward, left to go home after our meeting last night. I heard Tory singing in the kitchen so I figured she was starting breakfast for me. I jumped in the shower and stood in the hot water trying to get my thoughts in order. Questions were still swirling in my head...

Is this the right decision?

Will Edward really be here when I get back?

Will he let me make my own choices and decisions in the future?

Will he continue to fight me turning into a vampire?

Can I trust he won't leave me again?

What are my feelings for Nic?

Any many more.

I hopped out of the shower and got dressed quickly. I knew Alice would be here soon if she wasn't already. I walked out the door and straight into her. I sighed.

She looked at me laughing. "Hi Bella."

I hugged her and for a minute I didn't want to let her go. She is my best friend and I knew she was the one person I could count on.

"Hi Alice." She let me have my moment then said Tory cooked me breakfast and I needed to eat before we headed out.

We walked into the kitchen and saw Tory staring out the window. I walked over to see what she was looking at. My dad was outside talking on the phone. I smiled at her and hugged her. I could see the love in her eyes. She hugged me back.

"I never thought this would happen. Being with him again after all these years." She let me go and started to put food on the table. Alice and I just smiled at each other. When I asked her where everyone was she said Edward left early this morning to talk to Carlisle and Nic was taking care of the arrangements for our trip to the coast of Washington. I could feel my panic rising again but Alice laid her hand on mine and reminded me to breathe. I managed to eat all the food and then we all helped wash the dishes. It was kinda weird standing beside two vampires doing something so mundane. I started to giggle. They both looked at me like I was crazy. I just shook my head.

We told her bye and walked outside. Charlie was hanging up the phone when we reached him. "Hi you two. Heading out?" He asked us. Alice answered "Yeah, we're headed to the beach for some girl time. I called Sam as a curtisy to let him know. The pack is out patrolling so we'll be be safe."

When all this started with me, Charlie finally went to see Billy and explained what he was. What Charlie didn't realize is that they already knew. But since Billy and my dad were friends from pre-school they decided to carry one as before and not give away any secrets till both sides were ready to confess their "secret". Charlie explained that's were he was the night I couldn't find him. He was shocked to realize I already knew about the wolves. Since then they have been working on a new treaty. I didn't realize that when I "changed" we would be breaking the current treaty. No one wanted this and they weren't happy I had to change but they seemed to understand. Since this was a choice of life or death and not a random killing they were willing to work with us. They were more than willing to help us with Vincent and Laurent. I hoped one day they would all be friends.

We said our goodbyes and headed for Alice's car. I soooo wasn't looking forward to the next 15 minutes in the car with her. She drives even faster than Edward! We took off and made it there with 3 minutes to spare. We crossed the boundry and saw Jake was there to meet us. He ran over to meet us.

"Hi Bella, hi Alice" He smiled at us.

We said our hellos and asked what he was doing here. He said he was our "eyes" while we had our girlie time. He rolled his eyes as he told us. Since Alice's vision depend on a person's choices we knew we had to constantly be on guard. Knowing Jake was near was a relief. We headed to the beach. Jake took off in wolf form and we headed to the water. I wasn't sure where to begin. I almost felt stupid talking to her about this.

"Alice, do you see my future ?" I asked her. She looked at me for a moment then responded. "You know I do."

I gazed out at the water. "So please tell me!! I am so confused about this trip. What if I make the wrong choice or mess it all up somehow. I know I love Edward. When I'm with him I know that's where I need to be. Like he's my next breath, my next heartbeat. But as soon as I think of Nic, all my memories and feelings come back. He was my hero growing up. Always there for me, picking me up when I fell, my best friend. As I got older I used to pretend we would get married and he would love me for forever. But I can't seem to separate the past from now. Do I still love? Howdo I love him? Nic is constant. I'm still afraid I'll wake up one day and Edward will leave me again.I know without a doubt I wouldn't survive a second time. I know I'm stronger now but I wouldn't want to." I looked at her but she was in thought herself.

Finally she said "Bella, you have two paths before you. I can see where you could go if you made a choice right now. But that's something you have to find out for yourself. I could tell you but how could you or Edward know for sure it was your true path. You would always have that "what if" question. You both would. I know you love Edward but Nic is someone you loved at one time. The question is Do you still?Can you trust Edward to never leave you again? You have to take this time to discover for yourself where you want to be, with whom you want to be with. Without a doubt, 100%.You've already made your choice with your heart. Now you need to figure it out with your head."

I was crying when she was done. How could me heart and my mind not be in one accord. Why was I so divided? Everything she said was true. Ihad to be sure. And I guess the only way to know was to go with Nic and see what might be.

After this talk I felt more determined than ever to figure this out. On my own.

We stayed for awhile spending the day just talking and catching up. We swam and then Jake brought us lunch while Alice went to call the family. She told me everything was set for the next day. Spring break starts tomorrow so we would use that time for our trip. We were picking up our stuff when my phone rang. It was Angela. I could tell something was wrong, she sounded like she had been crying.

"Ang,what's wrong!" I practically yelled at her.

She was sniffling. "Oh Bella! I don't know what to do."

"What happened?" I asked her. She paused a few seconds before she told me. " I wanted to surprise Ben with some homemade chicken noodle soup so I went to his house. Bella... he wasn't alone. There was another girl there. I know she goes to our school but I don't know her."

"Are you sure its what you thought it was?" I was in shock. I never expected this.

"Oh yeah, I'm sure. He looked so guilty and he couldn't even speak when he answered the door. And he wasn't even sick. He lied so they could spent the day together it seems." She sounded so heartbroken.

"Ang, I don't know what to say. He seemed so into you." I know I sounded lame but I didn't know what to say.

"Well, I've been having this feeling something wasn't right for awhile now. I don't know why I'm surprised. He started talking about staying in Forks instead of going to California for college."

"What can I do?" I asked her. I felt lousy I wasn't there for her when she needed me. I've been so wrapped up in my own misery I didn't even notice hers. I HAD to make it up to her somehow. "Do you want me to come over?"

"No, Ben's on his way over so we can "talk". I want this settled. It hurts so much! But I really called to see if your friend Jake could look at my car." she said.

"Sure,I'll ask him but whats wrong with it?" I inquired.

"Well, I was crying on the way home and hit a tree, now its dented and when I turn the wheel the tire scraps the car." She sounded embarrassed.

I asked Jake and he said he would look at it tomorrow. Then I had a great idea.

"Jake can bring you my truck while he works on yours!" I said. It was the least I can do. I was determined to do something for all the support shes given to me. I felt sad when I thought I only had a few more months left with her. I wouldn't be able to see her after my change. It would be too dangerous for her.

"Oh Bella! That would be so great. I'll need it to get to and from work. Oh no! He's here, I'm not ready for this!" She started to breathe to fast.

"Ang! Calm down. He doesn't deserve this! Your too good for him." I could hear Alice hissing behind me.

"Ok, If you need me call me. We aren't leaving till tomorrow afternoon." I told her about the upcoming trip.

"Thanks Bella, If I don't talk to you before you leave have fun and be careful!" She quickly hung up.

I looked at Alice and shook my head. I didn't see that coming. Poor Angela!

We decided to go home. I was too upset about Angela that we decided to cut the day short and I still needed to finish packing. We where packing the car when Alice became still. I could tell she was having a vision.

Jake and I both jumped when she screamed " Bella...NO!"

In my wildest dreams I never could of imagined what was coming.......

Don't you just hate cliffhangers! Sorry but I had to. Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Please REVIEW! I love reviews! :D Thank you for reading