I don't want to hurt my son. My only son. I don't want to lie to my wife. I don't want to be in love with Astoria Greengrass.
I feel so ashamed when I come to her door. I know what we're doing is wrong. But for every step I take away from her, I take two towards her.
I don't want to see her in my study doorway, wearing only that coy smile on her lips. I don't want to give in to temptation.
I feel so disgusted when I take her in my arms and kiss her lips. I know what we're doing is wrong. But for every moment I hesitate, I kiss her twice.
The more I resist, the weaker I am. I don't want to believe that lust is stronger than love, but I know that it is stronger than I will ever be.
Disclaimer: All recognizable characters belong to JK Rowling. "Lovin' You Against My Will" is by Gary Allan