I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT.

I was so happy! When I pulled away I wanted to jump for joy. I finally saw the light. Or should I say felt the light. I was doing a happy dance and spinning so crazily I didn't pay attention to my feet. I tripped over my own feet and fell down.I started laughing, I couldn't stop. I laughed so hard I soon found I was crying. I found my answer.

How do I tell him and break his heart!?

Nic was just looking at me like I lost my mind. He smiled and was about to say something. All of a sudden my dad was calling us.

"Bella, Nic! Come in here now." My dad called to us. Nic reached down and grabbed me up. He kissed my head and whispered to me. "I feel the same" and he pulled me out of the room.

Tori rushed to us and I could see my dad on the phone. He look upset.

"What's going on?" I asked.

Tori just pulled me in a hug. "Baby, somethings happened! GAH! I don't know how to tell you...." She began.

I could feel myself swaying and felt Nic pull me down on the couch. My dad was speed talking to someone on the phone. He was pacing back and forth. What..who... I felt my world spinning out of orbit. It had to be bad for someone to call us here.

As I sat on the couch with Nic on one side and Tori on the other. My dad hung up and raced to us. He knelt on the floor in front of me. Ok..now I'm getting terrified.

"Tell me now!!" I shouted at him

He looked at me in the eyes and said something I never saw coming. Something that hurt so badly.

"There's been and accident. A very bad accident. It happened early yesterday and no one was around to stop it. She was all alone when they attacked her..." He told me

She? who..who.. Mom??NO please!

"It's Angela. I'm sorry Bella but Angela was attacked by some of the newborns Vincent made. She was driving your truck back to our house when they saw her. They thought it was you driving. Alice saw but they couldn't get to her in time." He was looking at Tori for comfort.

I couldn't breathe, the floor was swaying but then it could of been me. Nic reached over and slapped my face.

"Focus Bella!" He hissed at me. He was furious and his eyes were glowing. Next thing I knew he was running out the door. Tori jumped up and ran to the rooms. I could hear her slamming doors. She was packing our stuff.

I didn't want to ask, I didn't want to know I had helped kill her. I wanted to scream and shout.

"Dad, is she..." I cringed even thinking it.

"No. She was bitten a few times but they got there and killed them. They were too late to stop the venom from spreading. They raced her to Carlisle and they made the decision to inject more venom. This was early yesterday. Alice sees her changed tomorrow morning. We leave in the morning." He was hugging me as I cried.

"Dad, I need to be alone." I told him. He nodded and went to help Tori.

This was all my fault. She is changed because of me. Because I was stupid and selfish. If I hadn't left she wouldn't of been in that truck alone. They were after me and she paid the price. I wanted to scream so I went outside. And screamed and screamed and screamed.

This wasn't fair! She had a life ahead of her. She didn't choose this. It was forced on her. How would she feel when she woke up and found out vampires did exist and oh yeah..now she is one too? And would she hate me when she found out this was all because of me? Could she forgive me when I couldn't forgive myself. I felt someone behind me so I turned and saw Nic a few feet away.

"Nic.." I reached for him and he raced to me. He picked me and wrapped his arms around me. I needed comfort and so did he. We stayed that way for awhile.

I must of fell asleep in his arms because the next morning I awoke to sounds of everyone racing around. I remembered my dream. Angela looked at me with blood red eyes and said it was my fault and I would pay, and she lunged at me. I shivered at the memory. Because it was true.

I wanted to cry. Last night I was so happy. I realized what my heart had been telling me along. I knew who I wanted to spend forever with. I had always known but my mind was fighting it. How could I be happy now? But one thing was sure. No more hiding, no more sacredness. I was done. I want it over. Vincent would pay for this.

Nic came in a minute later.

"Morning baby." He kissed my forehead and told me we leave in an half an hour.

"Nic, I .." I started but he would let me finish.

"I know baby.." He smiled at me and walked out.

I could believe how lucky I was to have him. He is a constant in my life. I tried not to think about what would happen when I got back. Alice promised not to say anything to Edward. I just hoped he wasn't around when she witnessed the kiss or my decision. I wanted to be the one to tell him.

I got up and got ready to leave my paradise.

It was a long trip back but combined with the anxious I felt it was even longer. I tried to sleep but I only dozed off and on. My mind kept wondering about what my future held for me and him. It was late afternoon when we rolled into Forks.

We went straight to the Cullen's house. Everything was quiet outside but inside I knew soon that would be a different story. Nic pulled me close and Tori came and stood at my door. I was confused about what was going on. My dad walked to the front of the car and stood there. I could tell by the way he was standing he was expecting an attack. The front door opened and Carlisle, Jasper and Emmett walked outside. Where was Edward??Jasper raced to the car and stood next to Tori. He was sending out waves of calming influence. Carlisle went to stand by my dad. They all turned their heads at the same time and looked into the woods. Emmett walked to the woods and waited. Rosalie appeared first and went to him, followed behind her was Alice and a woman I never seen before. They smiled at me. I felt like time stopped when this tall, slender, beautiful brunette appeared next. She was stunning. I felt Nic tense up besides me. I gasped when I realized it was Angela. She just stopped and stared at us. I saw her looking for me. I was afraid to look in her eyes and see the hatred. She slowly walked to the car. Everyone was smiling now. What was happening??? Why is everyone so happy?

I was getting really nervous when she got close to us. I heard the sweetest sound when she spoke.

"Bella. Theres no reason to be afraid." Everyone walked up and were standing around her. I was hoping they would be able to stop her if she attacked me.

I was confused...why was she smiling at me? Esme was speaking to me.

"Bella dear, Angela isn't going to attack you. She has control."

"How?" I asked. It was Nic who answered me.

"Megan. She used her gift on Angela." He got out and hugged Angela. She was hugging him back and smiling. I slowly got out of the car. Angela realeased him and turned to me. She slowly reached for me. I was a little scared but I couldn't reject her. She was my friend.

"Bella, they told me everything. I always knew something was different about them but I never would of guessed this. It's still so overwelming but everyone is so helpful." She smiled at Esme.

I wanted to talk to her and see how she really felt. She seemed too happy right now. When reality hit, how was she going feel about not seeing her family ever again. I want to cry when I realized she would have to leave the area. She couldn't be alone so where would she go? Could she stay with us? Did she want to? Too many questions.

I saw my dad in a group with Tori, Carlisle, Nic and the new woman. Alice hasn't left my side.

I wanted to ask her about Edward. Where was he?? Alice just looked at me. I had to ask.

"Where is Edward." Everyone just looked at me. Emmett looked at Rosalie. She was glaring at me.

Emmett spoke up. "Well you see when Alice had the vision of you kissing Nic, Edward saw it. He kinda lost it and ran. He hasn't come back."

Nonono! "Alice didn't you see anything else?" I was pleading with her.

"Well with Angela changing, things were kinda crazy here. Plus I wasn't sure I wanted to see." She told me.

I starting to walk away from them, I had to find him. They were following me. Alice stopped me by gripping my arms. I was struggling in her grasp. Nic came over to us.

"Alice let her go!" He demanded. She shot him a glare but let go.

"Bella, you cant go off alone." He told me. I started to cry and he picked me up in his arms. He was carrying me into the house. Everyone was following behind us.

"Why is she so upset. It's her fault he left." She was shooting me daggers.

"You don't know anything, blondie!" Nic said to her.

I could them bickering but I was lost in my own world. I felt the someone sit next to me. She picked up my hand and asked me when I was going to tell them. I looked up into Angela's eyes,even though they were blood red, and saw my friend. The one who understood me. I leaned into her. Why did I ever doubt her? She was and always will be my friend. Everyone was looking at me. I sniffed and said

"I wanted to tell him first." I looked around at everyone and told them

"I didn't choose Nic...I love Edward, he's the one I chose. That kiss only proved what I decided. We didn't feel anything for each other when we kissed." I was looking at Nic and he was agreeing with me.

"Good because I love you too." I spun around and saw the most beautiful smile in the world.

And I ran to him.

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