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Am I Not Enough for You?

Chapter 8: Let's Get a Little Closer Now

Bella's POV:

"Really? Ok, do you want to go out?" he asked sweetly. His eyes were so beautiful. I had realized why I didn't just make Emmett my boyfriend and get it over with.

"Nah, we have some Chinese leftovers. If that's ok with you?" I asked opening the fridge.

"That's fine," he replied, opening the containers I set on the counter. "Plates?"

"That one," I said, pointing to the cabinet behind his head. He piled the leftovers on two plates. We heated them in the microwave and sat at the island to eat.

"So, tell me what your favorite color is, gorgeous," he asked, looking into me eyes with his piercing emerald ones.

"I'm beginning to think it's green," I giggled. "Yours?"

"I really like that answer. Mine?" he sighed thinking for a second, "definitely brown," he laughed, taking a bite of the sweet and sour chicken. It was silent for a minute.

"Ok, so what are you majoring in?" I spoke up changing the subject.

"Architecture, but that's just because my dad wants the three of us to take over his firm when he's ready for retirement," he laughed, "I personally would like to major in music."

"Oh, what kind of music?" I asked interestedly.

"I play the piano and a couple years ago I taught myself guitar. I've tried a little bit of singing, but I'm just going to stick with playing. I write all of my own stuff," he explained.

"Well, sir, I think that is extremely sexy. By the way I love to sing," I laughed. I felt really free with him, but not as free and goofy as with Emmett.

"We should collaborate sometime," he flashed me that devastatingly sexy crooked smile. My heart just imploded.

I got up and grabbed both plates when we were done. I went back to the island and sat on his lap. I kissed up his square, serious jaw line to his ear. I started sucking his ear lobe. He started to kiss my neck. I tilted my head back to give him better access to it. He pulled away and looked at me for a second.

"What?" I asked feeling around the area he was staring at.

"Oh, um, well I seem to have gotten a little carried away just now," he laughed and stroked my neck gently.

"What are you talking about?" I asked letting my hand fly up to my neck.

"Well I left you a little surprise," he answered.

"What is it–oh," I said, I had to laugh slightly. He thought that he gave me the hickey from Emmett. "That's ok."

"Really?" he sounded surprised that I wasn't worried about it. I, quite frankly, was surprised that it took him this long to notice it.

"Yes, why is it so surprising to you? Do you think I'm ashamed to be with you" I covered.

"Well, no, I'm sorry," he said gently.

"I have to change," I whispered sexily into his ear.

Edward's POV:

She got off my lap and walked up the spiral staircase. She looked back at me expectantly. Obviously she wanted me to follow. I got up dazedly and followed her up to her walk-in closet. She was already in just her underwear. On her stereo The Scene Aesthetic was playing.

She walked over to me and kissed me passionately on the lips. I was blown away. I hadn't even known her for a full forty-eight hours and we were about to have sex.

Although, I wasn't really complaining. I was the only one of my brothers who hadn't lost it yet. Worse yet, they both lost it on the same night. Jasper fell in love with Bella's best friend, Alice. Emmett's story is kinda shaky. He claims he went upstairs to the roof with some girl and then they did it in some random room. I had to loose it soon–if not tonight–and I wanted it to be with her.

"It's a little hot in here, isn't it?" she asked unbuttoning my shirt.

"Yeah it actually is," I said letting her push it off of me. She pulled me out of the closet and we fell on her bed together. She started to kiss my chest. She made her way down and back up to my lips. She climbed on top of me and deepened the kiss. I had to break for air.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" I asked breathlessly.

"Do what? Make out? Yes, do you not want to?" she asked confused. My hopes came crashing down she didn't want to have sex. Damn.

"Oh, uh, yeah of course. I thought we were going further than that," I said sheepishly.

"Wha–ohhhh," she giggled, "I'm not that easy. I really was hot, and so are you. Don't worry though, play your cards right and we'll get there. Soon."

"Right so, back to the making out?" I replied awkwardly, not being able to think of anything else to say.

"Well, first I want to know more about you," she said audaciously. "I know you guys were all adopted, but who were you before you became Edward Cullen?" I exhaled deeply.

"Where do you want me to start?" I asked a little exasperatedly. She shook her head a little confused.

"Is there a story?" she asked for clarification. I simply nodded.

"Don't worry. It's not scandalous or anything. Like I'm not some sketch ball," I laughed. She nodded.

"Okay, I was born Edward Masen. My parents and I lived in Chicago until I was 14. My parents both died in an 'accident'. That's what the scum bag's lawyer told the jury. My dad was a police officer and my mom was a reporter. They were working together on a big drug ring case. They were, I guess you could say, undercover; until they got busted and they 'caught in a fire'," I sighed, "I didn't have any other relatives. So, Carlisle was in Chicago on business, he saw the story in the paper and called the city, to tell them he wanted to adopt me." I looked down to see a few tears falling down her beautiful face. "Shhhh, don't cry, I'm really happy that Carlisle found me."

"I know, it's just that's so sad, I mean I lost my mom, but she was never around much," she whimpered.

"Please don't feel sorry for me, my parents were never around either, I used to call my nanny mom," I soothed her. "I consider Carlisle my father. I had to change my name because of the witness protection, but I probably would have anyway." She nodded.

"Do you want to have sex?" she asked still crying.

"No, I'll wait until you're ready," I answered. I knew she thought that I was still upset about my parents' death which I really wasn't.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, baby, really I'm fine about it now. I didn't tell you that story because I thought you would have sex with me if I did. You want to wait, so we will wait," I answered firmly, keeping my voice soft. "Although if you really do, just ask me and we won't hesitate I promise." We were already acting like a real couple.

"Ok," I leaned and kissed the top of her head. She looked up and I kissed her soft lips lightly. She reached around to grab a fistful of my hair, so she could keep me there. I could've told her I wasn't going anywhere.

She crawled on top of me, to straddle my waist. I rubbed my hands up and down her perfectly slim body. She rubbed her hands in circles on my chest. She laid down on top of me, not breaking the kiss. She pressed her chest against mine. I grabbed under her ass, making her gasp a little. She giggled when I gave it a little smack.

I could feel myself getting hard, and so could she. My erection was pressing against her stomach. She laughed into my mouth. She broke the kiss, sitting up a little.

"I could use a cold shower myself," she giggled, "unless of course you've changed your mind. I sure have."

"I thought you'd never ask," I flashed that crooked smile that I knew made her heart melt.

"You totally knew I would," she laughed, unbuttoning my pants.

"By the way, I've never found someone as special as you are right now," I confided in her. I had to admit I was a little embarrassed. I started kissing her neck, waiting for an answer.

Bella's POV:

Oh my fucking God! Are they all freaking pure!? I panicked silently. What am I going to do? Tell him I'm a virgin? I have to.

"Mmhmm, me too," I moaned. He instantly relaxed. I tilted my head back to give him easier access to my neck.

This was probably going to bite me in the ass. Well, if I was going to hell I might as well enjoy the ride. And I already knew I would. Shit, I loose my virginity and now I'm a straight up hustler. It was way too soon to fall in love with either of the fantastically wonderful boys, or vice versa, and I knew it. Something, on the other hand was pulling at both of them. Damn, I'm a slut.

"Bella?" I heard Edward ask breaking my reverie. I could hear a hint of panic in his voice.

"Huh," I said shaking my head a few times. "What's the matter?"

"Well nothing I guess." He relaxed a little, "it just took me like five times to get your attention."

"Oh, sorry," I cuddled into him.

He kissed the top of my head sweetly, and I was having none of that. Obviously, I was going to have to take control, or we wouldn't be getting anywhere tonight.

I pushed my lips onto his roughly, but it wasn't lust radiating from his end of the kiss. It was longing; he didn't want me, he needed me. And that scared the piss out of me.

He flipped us over so he was on top. His lips left mine to go up my jaw line. He then made his way down my neck, placing a sweet kiss on Emmett's hickey. He trailed identical sweet kisses down to my chest. He stopped at my naked breasts. He kissed the left one roughly, while the kneaded the right gently. It was such a contrast. I couldn't hold in my moans anymore, I let a soft one escape. He looked up at me playfully.

"Do you like that?" he asked seductively.

"Oh…God…yes…I love it Edward," I answered just as seductively. I hooked my thumbs through my pink lace thong and pulled them down, exposing all of myself to him. He pulled back and ogled my naked body.

I took advantage of that so I could get back in control. I straddled his waist again and started to undo his pants for him.

"Like what you see?" I looked deep into his gorgeous emerald eyes.

"Most definitely," he replied letting me pull off his remaining clothes.

"Me too," I leaned down to whisper in his ear. That crooked grin I love flashed on his lips as I began to kiss his perfectly chiseled abs.

I moved down to his erection. I kissed the tip and licked up and down his length. I took all of him in my mouth. It was easier, because he was slightly smaller than Emmett. Oh God I should not compare them. His hands wound into my hair, and he started to push me down on his shaft faster.

I could hear his moans and I could tell he was getting close. I started sucking him harder, and my teeth grazed him lightly every once and a while. He soon released and I licked him up.

I made my way back up to his lips. I pressed my body down onto his, kissing his lips sweetly. He deepened the kiss by entrapped his fingers in my already messed up hair. He trapped me there, and I was totally, blissfully happy.

"Bella, we're ho— Oh, I'm so sorry," Alice barged in with Jasper not far behind.

"Nice work little brother, I'm impressed," I heard Jasper chuckle. "OW!"

"Thank you Alice," I said as she dragged him out. The door slammed shut, but I could hear her yelling at him.

"What is the matter with you? You probably just made her feel like a slut!" I couldn't hear anything after that.

Edward rolled his eyes and disentangled his hand from my hair. I reluctantly got up. He grabbed my hand to pull me back for another sweet kiss. I made my way to my closet and grabbed his shirt off the floor. He rummaged around through the other clothes on my floor looking for his boxers.

"You look so incredibly sexy in my shirt," he kissed me just below my ear. "I just want to rip it off and take you right now."

"Not with Alice and YOUR BROTHER here," I giggled as he was now kissing my ear lobe.

"Wishful thinking, baby," he laughed. I rotated around to look at him.

"Mmhmm, don't do that to me. I want you so bad right now," I kissed his neck hard. I sucked and nibbled a little bit. "There now we match."

"I should probably go now, huh?" he asked, reluctantly putting his pants.

"Unfortunately you are most certainly correct," I sighed.

He led me to the stairwell. I hugged him tightly, not wanting him to leave me. I looked up at him with sleepy eyes.

"Get some sleep, love. I'll take you somewhere tomorrow, okay?" I nodded. He gave me a lust filled goodnight kiss and left.

"Bella, get your ass down here. It's time for the Spanish Inquisition," I heard Alice yell up the stairs. I sighed and went to meet a way too eager Alice and Rose.

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