Addison sat stiffly at the kitchen table, fiddling with her watch. Meredith brought over two cups of coffee and sat directly opposite.
"So, why am I here Meredith?"
"You know why you're here"
"Well yes, I know what I told you this morning and I'm sorry that I did, I just, I don't know what came over me"
"Its OK"
"Really?"
"Yes, I mean its a bit, well weird" they both let out a little laugh "But I don't know, there's also something about it thats not so weird, which I know makes no sense"
"It makes sense, sort of"
"I mean, I've never thought about you in that way, or any woman but especially not you, you're Derek's ex wife, you turned up out of the blue and everything was turned upside down, everything got so complicated, you hated me"
"I didn't hate you, I hated Derek….I haven't always felt like this, about you I mean but as we started to work together more I just, I don't know, I mean I liked you, your funny and beautiful and...I didn't mean to fall for you but when I saw you lying there, dead, it just broke my heart"
"But we can't do this"
"I'm not expecting there to be anything, I don't even know why I told you"
"Erm, I'll be back, in a second, I just need to um, right, I'll be back"
Meredith stepped out into the hallway and called Cristina, she hoped she was on a break or something.
"Hello" she heard Cristina croak.
"Did I wake you"
"Yes, what do you want Meredith"
"Addison's here"
"Where?"
"My house, I've just left her in my kitchen, you were right"
"About what?"
"She loves me"
"WHAT! I was kidding Mer"
"Well she isn't, I don't know what to do"
"Well do you like her?"
"I haven't really thought about her like that, I'm with Derek, I like guys"
"Doesn't matter, you and Derek haven't exactly been all sunshine lately, do you think she's hot or not?"
"She's gorgeous, anyone can see that I mean wouldn't you kill to have those legs, those cheekbones, that hair"
"OK Mer, I think we've established she's a looker"
"Yeah, OK I think I'm just going to wing it, phone me when you finish your shift"
"OK Mer, good luck" Cristina hung up her phone and sighed "That girl has serious problems!"
As Meredith turned around Addison was stood in the doorway of the kitchen.
"How much of that did you hear?"
"Enough. So, you think I'm gorgeous"
"Well, I..err"
Addison walked across the hallway until she was stood right in front of Meredith.
"I'm probably going to regret this but…" Addison leaned in and softly kissed Meredith's lips, cupping her cheek in her hand, she expected to be pushed away but she felt Meredith's lips respond. They began to part, Addison stroked Meredith's face with her soft hands.
"I'm sorry, I should go" Addison mumbled as she turned to walk away she felt Meredith's hand grip around her wrist.
"Wait, Addison"
"I'm really sorry Meredith, I know thats not what you want, I'm sorry"
"What if it is?"
"What?"
"What I want"
"You want Derek"
"I wanted Derek, things aren't exactly great between us"
"I won't be your rebound Mer"
"I know, you're not the rebound type of woman, that was me"
Addison stared at Meredith in shock.
"So how do we do this?"
"I have no idea, I'm going to speak to Derek tomorrow, tell him its over"
"Are you going to tell him about me?"
"No, not yet, not until we know what this is"
"OK"
"I'll call you, tomorrow"
"OK, I'll see you tomorrow then"
Addison gave Meredith another quick kiss then made her way to her car. "I did not expect that to happen" she said as she turned on the engine and made her way back to her hotel room.