School life. SasuHina: Pain. Ch26.
Before Hinata was out of apartment she stopped. –Not only that picture shows that you were with another woman… But you smell like one! – Then Hinata left. Only then Sasuke noticed that she looked thinner and remembered that Hinata said that she wasn't feeling well when Sasuke called. Sasuke looked out through the window. *It's storming outside!* Sasuke rushed to doors and took Hinata's umbrella. When Sasuke got out Hinata was nowhere in sign. *I guess it's useless.* Thought he and went back to apartment.
Sasuke closet outdoors and went to living room. He looked at the box with videos. *What's this?* He thought and took one of the CD. He wanted to place it in CD reader but it showed that there already is another CD so Sasuke turned it on. It was Hinata's mother testament.
Outside.
Hinata was leaning round the corner on her apartment wall and breathing deeply. *He… He didn't believe… He hit me… * Hinata blankly stood up and started to walk somewhere. When she noticed that every single human who passed her; looked at her like at some insane girl; she started to run. Twenty minutes later she rushed in a forest and fall to the ground. Hinata didn't have strength left so she stayed in that position for some time. All this time it was still raining and Hinata was soaked to the skin and cold. More than hour she was lying on the ground.
Suddenly she got up and her eyes were dark as if she was going to kill someone. She was walking through the storm for about another hour and finally reached graveyard. *Where are you mother!?* Hinata was screaming in her head. –Where..? – She mumbled. On her face played a cold smile and then she smiled more openly. –There are you my beloved mother… - Hinata said and sat down on a grave. Her mother grave.
At Hinata's apartment.
Sasuke was sitting on a couch and blankly looking at the TV. It was his fourth video where Hinata's mother was beaten up by Hiashi. *And after all that Hinata went through I hit her…* Sasuke looked at his hands and then saw a letter. He took it and read it. *So Hinata was really telling the truth…* He got up and walked to bedroom. He saw that picture about which Hinata was saying and another letter. Sasuke read it and heavily sat down on bed but something was stinging in his ass. Sasuke stood up and took of bedspread and saw Hinata's pregnancy test. He saw blue stripe on it. *Blue? What does that mean?* Sasuke rushed to bathroom's garbage bin. He took a box on which was written 'Pregnancy test'. Sasuke turned it around and froze. *She… She is pregnant… Hinata… I'm such a bastard.* Sasuke walked out of bathroom and went back to bedroom. He didn't knew what to do.
Graveyard.
Hinata was sitting and quietly singing song that her mother used to sing for her; in Hinata's childhood after Hiashi would beat her up; to calm her. Hinata's voice was quiet and slow. She was singing this song really slowly but clear enough to make sure that; if someone is listening to her singing; she will understand.
- If you feel really insecure, you may be a person that overdoes things – Hinata looked up in sky and she was still crying. Hinata knew that she was broken and alone. Hinata knew that this rain; which still hasn't stopped; was her mother tears that cried for her little daughter.
-Come here once in a while, as you may need to take some time off- Hinata laughed trough tears. *I guess it's too late to take some time off…*
-Rest assured, it's okay to cry- *No it's not okay to cry… Tears are for weak! Remember that Hinata!* Hinata was trying to pull herself together.
-Nobody will laugh at you. Stay by my side, and I'll give you the
courage to set free into the sky the dreams you held onto – Hinata sighed and looked at her hands. Her vision was blurry because of tears.
-Don't worry, I'll always be here, looking at you
you don't have to worry about things that are still far-off…- Hinata let out a whine.
-As I hold you close to me, moonlight shines proudly in your heart
a miracle for you… - Hinata closed her eyes. *Miracle would be if I would be able to see you one more time… But you left me all alone!* Hinata was angry.
-When you hug your knees and cry, look up at the sky
At those times, that soulful voice will be within your reach…- Hinata smiled trough tears again. *No… No! That voice left me a long time ago and since then I haven't cried! Now, when I am crying that voice is nowhere around here… So don't lie to me mother!* She thought.
-Come over here, I'll be waiting
and when you go back home, I'll be there. Stay by my side, and I'll
give you the courage to set free into the sky the overflowing dreams…
When you're broken and burned out, this singing voice will save you
When you carry all those sins, it'll come through for you
Gather the stardust to make a light, and start on your path a miracle for you… - Hinata's face turned angry. *You dare to leave me alone! Your own daughter!* She looked at her mother grave.
-Don't worry, I'll always be here, looking at you
you don't have to worry about things that are still far-off… - Hinata stopped and stood up. *You promised to me… You made a promise to stay always by my side! You said you will be here whenever I will need you! And I need you now but you are not here! You broke our promise!* Hinata thought and looked at the sky. Sun was already rising. *It's Thursday already…* Hinata sighed.
*I promise not to be a mother like you! I promise to be a better mother! I promise I will not run away like you did mother!* Hinata thought and smiled. - Courage is when you're afraid, but you keep on moving anyway. Courage is when you're in pain, but you keep on living anyway. We all have excuses why; living in fear something in us dies. Like a bird with broken wings; it's not how high he flies, but the song he sings. Wasn't that something you always told me mother? Wasn't it? Then where the fuck all your courage went? – Hinata angrily smiled. –I will never let go my courage and I will make sure that my daughter is much stronger than I am! I will make sure to be stronger that you are! – Hinata turned away from her mother grave. Suddenly she was unsteady.
In apartment.
Sasuke looked out of the window. *Where the fuck is she!?* He was nervously biting his lip. Suddenly he heard his cell-phone. –Yes. – He said still not looking away from window. –You bastard! – He heard Karin's voice. She was really angry. –What is it? – Sasuke asked annoyed. –Hinata is in hospital! What did you did to bring her to nervous breakdown and to this horrible state!? – Karin was yelling. –Where is she? – Sasuke asked worried. *Hinata…* Thought he. –Konoha's central hospital… - Said Karin and hung up.
In hospital.
Five minutes latter Sasuke rushed in hospital. He saw Karin and rushed to her. –Where is she? – He asked worried. *Why did she have to do this to herself? * Thought Sasuke and looked at ward behind Karin. He didn't wait for the answer and walked in there. Hinata was calmly sleeping in bed. She was livid. That scared Sasuke. He run out of ward back to corridor. –What happened to her? Was she with you before? – He asked. –No… About an hour ago she came to this hospital and as soon as she made her first step in here; she collapsed to the ground. I think she knew she was going to collapse soon so she came here. – Karin glared at Sasuke. –What did you do? – Karin asked trying to control herself. –I… I just don't know. Yesterday around dinner time I came home and … I got some pictures earlier that day… And when I came home I yelled at her. She tried to tell me that they weren't real but I didn't believe her. Then she left. After, I found out that she had many CD in which were seen how her father was hitting her mother… And her mother testament and diary. Then I found out that she is pregnant… And before she left… I hit her… - Sasuke didn't have the time to react to Karin's reaction. Her fist already hit Sasuke's face and Karin's eyes were full of tears. –How dared you hit Hinata!? How you dare to touch my precious Hinata!? She had gone through so many things and finally; when I thought that she will be happy and protected; turns out that she is in more danger that before! – Karin raised her hand up again and Sasuke tightened his face ready for the pain.
But pain never came. There was a sound that proved that Karin had hit someone but not Sasuke. Sasuke opened his eyes and saw Hinata standing in front of her. Karin's eyes were wide and she was shocked. –Karin… You already hit him once so stop… Calm down. – Hinata said in a soft voice and Karin fell to the ground. Hinata squatted to Karin and hugged her. –He hit me only once so you already hit him back… Calm down honey… Everything is fine… - Hinata was rubbing Karin's back to calm her down. *Hinata… She is so calm…* Thought Karin and cried. –Come here… - Said Hinata and helped her stood up. She walked Karin in her ward and after one minute came out.
Hinata didn't looked angry at Sasuke. She looked emotionless. –Did you wanted to die out there in such a storm? – Asked Sasuke to break silence but actually he wanted to fall on his knees and as for forgiveness. –Yes… At the beginning I was thinking to just simply die out there… But I couldn't kill another person. If I would have died I would have killed MY baby. I would have killed not only myself but MY child too and I couldn't let that happen. I couldn't run away like it did my mother. – Hinata still looked emotionless but her eyes were coldly looking at Sasuke. Every time when Hinata said 'MY child' it hurt him. –It's my child too… - Quietly said Sasuke. –How do you know? I'm a slut and I can have a baby from anyone in Konoha! I'm a slut and I can be hit as many time's as you want to… I can be raped, beaten up, hated and throw in to dirt as many times as you want to… - Hinata looked at Sasuke and he noticed a small hint of pain in her eyes. Hinata couldn't fully hide what was she felling.