I KNOW THAT I AM TAKING FOREVER WITH MY CHAPTERS AND I AM SORRY BUT ITS EXAM WEEK AND AS A COLLEGE FRESHMAN IT'S A VERY STRESSFUL TIME. I WILL TRY TO MAKE IT UP TO EVERYONE OVER CHRISTMAS BREAK BY UPDATING A LOT, BUT HOPEFULLY I WILL BE ABLE TO GET ONE MORE CHAPTER OUT BEFORE THEN. SORRY AGAIN!
"Was that Bella I saw just now talking to you with Jacob Black?" Asked Alice as she came around the side of the booth to where I stood. I was still stunned by what she had just said and my eyes were still focused on her retreating for m that all I could do was nod my head. "Edward? Hello, earth to Edward." I snapped out of my thoughts as Alice waved her hand in front of my face. "Did you hear what I just said?" She asked with her hands on her hips.
"Uh, no sorry. What did you say?" I turned towards her to show her that she had my complete attention….now that Bella was out of view.
"I said, you can go wander around for awhile. Jasper and I will man the booth." I grabbed my jacket from under the stand without needing to be told twice and made my way into the masses of people that were wandering around. I was looking to play any games or buy any of the greasy food that filled the gym but rather I was looking for Bella. I wasn't planning on talking to her but I just wanted to see her. I notice that she let go of the boy's hand and started to head to the bathroom, which disappointed me because I could not follow her there when she suddenly veered to the left and out the large double doors of the gym. I wasn't sure if I should follow her out there because if she saw me then I would have to tell her the truth but if I didn't go out there then I would be missing a chance to see her beautiful face and hair glowing in the moonlight once more. I made sure when I opened the doors to the outside that I was very quiet, and I hid around the corner of the building so I only a peer around the bend to see my sweet Bella. But something wasn't right. From my hiding place I heard sobs and as I glanced around the corner I saw my angel on the ground crying into her arms clutching the necklace that I had placed around the lion's neck. Without even hesitating to think about what my actions would bring, I tore around the corner and grabbed my Bella pulling her tightly into my chest.
"Shhh….it will be okay. It will all be okay." I whispered into her hair as I tried to calm her drawing small circles on her back. She turned her head so that her face was buried into my chest, soaking my shirt no doubt, but it was the best feeling to have her in my arms once more. I kissed the top of her head as I rocked her back and forth in my lap, until her sobs finally subsided and she turned her beautiful brown eyes towards my face.
"What do you want from me Edward?" She asked, her voice was so small but held so much emotion behind it. I took my thumb and wiped away a stray tear that ran down her cheek and just stared into her eyes, trying to find the right words to describe how big of an idiot I had been to let her go.
"I want you. I am so sorry Bella that I cause you pain, but you must know how much pain I was in myself. I didn't want to break-up with you Bella, but I thought that if we stayed together then it would hurt that much more when it came time to leave." My voice trailed off at the last part, the words barely escaping my lips because I knew that it was pitiful excuse but it was the truth no less.
"But all this time we could have been happy. I love you Edward and it broke my hurt to think that you didn't love me back. And right now I know I should hate you with every bone in my body but I can't. We could have been happy for all this time and then figured something out when it came time for you to leave." I could see the tears forming once again in her eyes, and it killed me to know that I was the one who caused these tears.
"Bella, I was a fool and I know that now. It may not be as long as we hoped but there still is some time left before I have to leave. I guess what I am trying to say is Bella will you forgive me? Will you look past my faults and be my girlfriend again? Because not a day went by that I didn't think about you and how much I loved you. Not a minute went by that I didn't feel my heart breaking because I couldn't hold you and kiss you. And the jealousy that I felt tonight when I saw you hand in hand with that other boy showed me that I can't live without you. I am not strong enough to live without you because I am truly and deeply in love with you. So will you be my girlfriend once more?" I sat there staring into her eyes that were flashing so many emotions at one time. It felt like hours before she opened her mouth to reply.
"I….I…." She stuttered, as I became increasingly anxious for her response. Her brow knitted together and tears once again spilled from her eyes. Why wasn't she answering my question? She said she still loved me, isn't that enough? "Edward…."
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