It had not been earth shattering. It didn't change how I felt when I looked into his deep green eyes. But I still felt a little whole in my heart.

It had been two months since spring break and now as I stood in the line of kids waiting to receive our diplomas, I couldn't help but look into the crowd and look for the face I so longed to see. But I knew he wouldn't be there.

I knew he wouldn't be standing and cheering with my family as my name was called and this tore at my heart even more.

Flash back:

We sat in his backyard which had been turned into our own little paradise with twinkling lights strung in the trees and soft music playing in the background.

But as beautiful and perfect everything seemed I could tell something wasn't right with Edward. He just stared off into space, unresponsive even as I kissed up his neck.

"Won't you tell me what is bothering you?" I asked as I nibbled on his ear lobe. But he just sighed and turned his head away. I was shocked, Edward had never turned me away…well not since last year when we had our "break".

"Edward, what's wrong?" I said in a more demanding tone as I took his hand in mine and turned his head to look at me but his eyes were down casted.

"Bella….I don't know how to tell you this." My hands began to shake. I didn't like the start of this conversation but I steadied my hands and forced myself to look composed for Edward's sake.

"You know you can tell me anything. Even if it's something that I may not want to know."

"You know how much I love you. You are my everything and my world…" I just sat there immobile as I waited for him to finish.

"But I have made a decision that may not lead us down the path that we originally planned. I'm….I'm…I'm not going back to Washington for school. I got accepted into John Hopkins, and I am going."

He finally looked up and I saw the tears that rimmed his eyes, but I felt no compassion for once….or at least not enough to stop me from doing what I was about to do next.

"You promised we would get married after school. You promised we would start a family. Yet you couldn't include me in the biggest decision of your life. I would have let you go, you know, with a smile on my face."

At that I stood quickly and stared at the ring that sparkled under the lights before sliding it off and dropping it into his lap.



"I love you Edward, but maybe you don't understand all the responsibilities that come with your promises."

And I stormed into the house and up to Alice's room. She was sitting on her floor as she painted her nails a bright pink color.

"Bella what's wrong?" But I just locked her door and slide down it as the tears came out in floods. Alice quickly closed her nail polish bottle and ran over to me taking me in her arms.

"He told you didn't he?" She asked as she ran her hand up and down my back in a calming manner. I could only nod. Suddenly we heard a banging on the door.

"BELLA! ALICE! Open the door, please! I have to talk to Bella! I have to explain. I have a plan." Edward shouted as he continued to pound but I could only cry harder.

"Edward, I swear to God if you don't leave right now then you will have hell to pay with me. You have done enough damage for tonight, now leave!"

I had never heard Alice sound so dark before but it got the pounding to subside however it didn't stop the screaming.

From down the hall I heard a scream so full of agony that it made me just want to run to him and tell him that I wasn't really mad at him but just shocked by the news that's all.

For the remainder of the night we stayed locked in Alice's room, but Edward never came back. Edward wasn't seen for the remainder of the week.

Edward wasn't even seen as the plane took off from the crowded airport. I had messed up. I had ruined everything.

It wasn't until I began to unpack that I found Edward.

His beautiful script that laid neatly across the page of paper and my beautiful ring that I had so ruthlessly thrown at him.

My Dearest Bella,

I know I should have included you in my decision and I know that you would have been supportive. But when it came to making the decision I got scared. I began to think that I am only 18 years old and here I was worrying about ten years down the road. I made the choice on my own because I felt the need to be independent, from you. Bella I love you so much that I got scared. I wish that I could turn back time and change what I have done. I wish that I had included you as the love of my life and someday to be wife in such an important life event, but I know that I can't. And I understand if you hate me, but if you can find it in your heart to forgive I will be waiting for your call.

Forever and for always I will love you,



Edward

End of flash back.

But I never called him. And now here I stood on the small wooden stage turning the little white tassel to the other side without the one who I knew would be the proudest of me, the one who had my heart.

Charlie and Rene threw me a small party back at Charlie's inviting some people that I didn't really know and some people that I didn't really care about.

So I snuck off to my room and booted up my laptop, playing mindless games seemed like my best option.

But then I noticed a new name pop up onto my buddy list…Edward. I hadn't seen him online since before the whole college fiasco and my heart began to race rapidly that was until a video chat request popped up from him, then my heart stilled.

I clicked okay but when the small window opened up I saw no one in front of me. The room seemed to be empty from the angle that the computer faced when suddenly Esme appeared in the small window; however I don't think she was aware that the web camera was on because she continued to dust around the desk area before finally straightening the computer to show a better view of the room. Oh how I prayed that the computer would turn back and that I could erase the image from my mind. I wished that I could muster the strength to click the small x in the top right corner and rid myself of this image for ever. Edward lay across his couch in his pajamas even though it was nearing four in the afternoon, his eyes were red and it looked as if he hadn't saved in nearly a month. He just sat there staring at the ceiling as Esme busied herself around the room picking up plates of unfinished food and clothes that looked like his closet had exploded.

"Edward I swear, it's been nearly two weeks since you got out of school and you have not moved off that couch! Edward I understand that you are hurt but you cannot spend your entire summer in this room." Esme shouted frustrated at her son.

"Mom, can you please just leave me alone!" He yelled back. "I did what you asked and went about life so as to finish school but now it is my time. It is my time…my time to be by myself to….remember." His voice was barely audible and I had to strain myself to hear the end.

Esme continued to clean ignoring his request to be left alone when she abruptly stopped her shuffling of papers.

"Edward is this you're housing form that you were supposed to send in back in April!" Now she was livid…I had never seen Esme so mad. "Are you really going to throw your life away over a girl, who didn't support you?" Her voice was soft once more.



"Get out mother. You don't know what you are talking about, so get out." His voice was an eerie calm that frightened even me and I wasn't even in the same room.

I shut off my computer before I could see or hear anything else, and I sat there staring at the black screen as my heart ached to go to him and tell him that I forgave for not telling me, and how I had forgiven him even before the plane had left the airport.

"Bells?" I looked up to see my dad leaning against the door frame of my room. How long had he been there? How long had I been gone? "Can I talk to you for a minute?" I nodded and gestured to a spot on my bed.

"Dad….what's wrong?" He looked so somber as he sat on my bed with his hands clasped in his lap and as he stared at the floor.

"Bella, I love you. You are my only child and this time with you has been great, but you aren't meant to be here." I started to interrupt him but he just held up his hand. "Let me finish. I have tried so hard to root you here but I now know that this isn't where you belong. So I have here a graduation present, just from me. Your mother doesn't know anything about this, I thought I would let you have it and decide before including anyone else." He handed me a large white envelope with no writing on it what so ever. I slowly ripped through the top and pulled out the contents of the envelope. It was a single white sheet of paper and a pamphlet. I looked at my dada with a look of confusion and he just urged me to read the letter.

Ms Isabella Swan

Loyola College is honored to accept your application to our school and we look forward to seeing you this fall….

"What is this dad?" I still didn't comprehend what all this meant.

"You are meant to be where he is and I can see that now. I sent in your application after you came home from spring break, its only three minutes from John Hopkins." I stared at my father with my mouth open a bit and my eyes wide. He was sending me to be with Edward….I was going to be with Edward.

I dropped the envelope and ran into my father's arms as the tears fell down my face and for the first time in a extremely long time I felt like a father and daughter as he patted my back calming my breathing and telling me how proud he was of me.

"Oh there is one more thing" He said after the tears had subsided. He handed me another envelope, this one however was much smaller. "I think you should tell him the good news in person." I opened the envelop to reveal a plane ticket to Chicago leaving in three days.



AUTHOR'S NOTE:

I AM NEARING THE END, ONLY A FEW LAST MINUTE ENDS TO TIE UP. THIS IS NOT THE LAST CHAPTER THOUGH!! SO PLEASE DON'T ASK IF THIS IS THE ENDING BECAUSE IT IS NOT! PLEASE REMEMBER TO REVIEW! THANKS WISH-ELEVEN.