I am so sorry guys. it has been so long since I posted something for you found me. but it has just been hard had a total writers bloc with this chapter.

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"Blair you are not safe with me alone at any given minute I could have your blood on my hands. I crave your blood more then anything. And I'm not sure who to control myself or if I even want to anymore." I could feel his breath creeping around my neck. His finger caresses the exposed skin. I know he is not capable of any such thing.

"You would have done so already if you wanted to." I said to a sure him that I'm not scared of him.

"don't be so sure Waldorf Shit happens ,I can slip I'm not that strong. Its better for you to forget about me." Chuck said as he moves away from me. I come closer to him to urgently close the gap.

I force him to look at me.

'Chuck do you really believe that never seeing me again will help you stop craving my blood. That by putting a small distance between us would some how make you immune to the smell of it. Leave if you want to but we both know that is not an excuses." I looked at him coldly. He didn't and I didn't move also, we just stared at each other.

"You don't get it Blair. Your head cannot begin to compromise the danger I am to you." Chuck said strongly, his jaw tensed as he said it.

"I do and because I do I know you wont do anything."

"If you truly know you wouldn't be standing their. Blair I'm not telling you this so that I can leave you I'm telling you it for your own good. I have learned to except what i am .but I will never except myself nor forgive if I ever hurt you. I can control myself but I'm never sure for how long. this right here me being here alone with you is so tempting to me you don't know how much." chuck came closer to me. I could see the drastic color change in his eyes. His whole appearance had changed it had became dark in seconds.

"Nothing has ever stopped you before if you want something you get it. And you know as well as I do that I'm no exception. I know how dangers you are. And I'm still here. You did your part with trying to protect me but if I want to risk it all then who are you to tell me other not leaving you so if you to then go."

"You should learn not to be this stubborn Blair because you don't know what your getting if I stay. I will never be your prince charming. I can't be near you and try to forget the thirst that builds up in me. one ounce can turn me into the one thing I have avoided for so long never wonted anyone's blood as much as I wanted yours. I didn't know this feeling could exist before you. I don't say a word I'm not sure what to even say to chuck anymore. I don't know what to do in order for him to actually believe what I'm saying. I need him to trust in myself."

"Disguises only go so far Waldorf, at some point my true nature reveals itself and when it does you will notice what a monster I am." Chuck grabbed my arms and his grip was like vise and his words where colder then the air around us.

"Well what happens if I can't make myself leave your side."

"then I guess you wont be leaving ." I was glad that he was himself again felt like if all the stress that I was felling before had just been replaced with fear and now I feel like if I could breath again.

'Why are you so stubborn?"Chuck said in his casual tone. He had now moved away from where he stood and yet again came closer to me.

"because I always get what I want" stated to chuck.

"Well then where to next?" he asked I haven't realized how long we had spent outside.

"Then night is young Bass you tell me."

"Come I want to show you something. Chuck led me up fleet of stairs and then pushed open the door. It reveled the sky line. it was butiful the light it captured the true essence of New York .the lights where like a sea of light it was breath less.

"The main reason I bought this place."

"the one place I can actually believe that everything is aright that I'm not who I am that I do have a shot at humanity . And or those short minutes I'm up here everything is right. but I know the moment I close that door behind me the reality sets in and I'm back to the same monster I have always been."

"Chuck why do you try so hard to convince yourself that your something. Chuck I have seen you do something. some or bad then others but never have I believed that you where a monster. Stop trying to convince your self you are." I placed my hands on his face and Chuck looked at her.

"How does it work, being a vampire?" I asked chuck as I looked at the skyscrapers in front of me. I never payed attention to buildings. I mean I live in the Upper East Side a building is as common as a star bucks.

"I don't know I've been one for so long I have forgotten what it is like . It just became second nature for me. Life just passes by like a fright train and I'm stuck in this one place and I can't move no matter what." chuck said right besides me.

"Is your whole family, like you?"

"Yes, they are."

"Can they read minds like you?"

"No, I'm the only one that can do it. But jenny can see the futer and Erick he can change and read emotions. I told you about myself now it's your turn."

I hesitated a bit, "what you want to know?"

"Why was it so important to you to get the line for your mother's line?"The one topic I didn't want to converse about he had to ask.

"Pride, the chance to finally show my mother what I'm capable of doing. That I'm not just some spoiled brat. that I can do something that she would have never thought capable. To finally be able to stand up to her standers. To hear a compliment from her. For once I my life, prove her wrong."

"Blair your perfect the way your are you don't ever have to wish to be something different. Every girl would die to be you. Your intelligent, gorges, and strong. You have everything you shouldn't let anyone tell other wise. You mean every little thing to me." Are faces where inches apart. My hart was pounding I have never heard so much lovely words about myself. Are lips finally met and it was more then I could ever expect. It was light and strong at the same time. At that moment breathing wasn't even a necessity. The kiss quickly deepened. it was by far the best, he really did know what he was doing. We parted and just looked at each other. he had a smirk on his perfect lips.

so guys what do you think. loved it, hate it, I no it wasn't good but I just have to post up anything to try to see if this writers bloc goes away. I couldn't quite remember if I had mention some of the things ,bubt if I did well just pretend I didn't and you just found out in this chapter . thanks for reading.

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