That night I watched them collide, making sounds extremely similar to the sounds of the thunderstorm that clashed overhead. I called out to Emmett and laughed, he began chasing me, and threatened to throw me in the sky so high I'd hit the moon, impossible, but I still enjoyed being chased.
I think I have begun to love my family, they said they'd take me to the library tomorrow.
At that thought I awoke from my slumber, however weirdly enough everything still looked dream-like and abstract especially things in the distance. All I could see clearly is the quilt against my own face, was I still asleep but dreaming I was awake.
Then it hit me... I was still awake and for some reason... I was blind. A piercing scream echoed through the walls of my house. I realized I had made it and more shrill cries lurched up my throat, fear rose in my chest, my heart beat even faster, if that's even possible! Mum and Jacob were there in a few seconds. I could see their abstract silhouettes in the far distance of my room.
One came to hold me.
"What's wrong Ilina?"She asks concern and terror rebounding off of each other in her tone. I looked up at her face and I could see the shape of her face but her features were extremely plain and smudged.
"Oh mum!" I bawled staring into the strange face.
"I'll never see your pretty face again."
A voice sighed with relief.
She doesn't understand, I want to tell her but admitting it makes it real and that's a reality can't deal with.
"A bad dream?" She asks, her voice loosing its edge.
"No...I'm...I'm blind!" Once again this was the beginning of a brand new reality for me.
2. MY MIST
I've gotten used to it now the blindness was hard at first, but Carlisle persuaded me that the loss of sight had made my other senses more precise and accurate. He was indeed right about my sense of smell and my hearing they've become great advantages for me. I leaned on them for my sense of awareness and never really bothered trying to see through 'my mist'. That's what it's like trying to see was like looking through a thick mist, the further away something was from you, the more blurred out of focus it became.
I sometimes have to use steps or sense of smell to make my way through school but mostly if use the rebounding of sound against objects which in my mind creates a space which is sort of like a detailed image, but this needs a lot of concentration. At first it was hard, the first few months of blindness held me, I have to admit.
I'm glad I'm now old enough to attend school with the Cullen's, we go to a school in Ohio called Idaho high school, it's in this school that I have found my passion. Cookery class, with Mrs. Cooper, I loved cooking, I feel so ordinary, so human while cooking foods like crème de la crème to pepperoni pizza. I feel powerful behind the pan, when all my vision fails me, my passion helps me to do anything.
"Dad," I sigh. "Your homework is due in tomorrow..," I enquire. Dad (well, Jacob to others) often had a tendency of you know, not bothering with his studies, he always claims
"It's not worth it, I don't need brains in my life, and I've got all I need," He recites once again. I just want what's best for him, I always sound like a parent when it comes to Dad.
"Don't worry about him Ilina, he enjoys looking stupid don't you boy!" Rosalie teases. "As long as he is potty trained and knows how to sit and stay," she adds. I laugh quietly, and listen to the musical laughs of my family.
"Leave dad alone, besides for once is it too hard not to argue you two?" I counter. He huffs and leans gently on mum's shoulder. Although my blindness is normally a curse sometimes, being in that world of mist is exciting, like being in an unknown world, although it is scary too. I reach out and steal Edwards' pizza, he looks away from staring lovingly at Bella, to reveal amusement on his face, yet he's not surprised.
"Darn you heard me?" I ask him he nods chuckling slightly. My attention is averted as JJ (James Jackson) sits at the table in front of ours.
"What's wrong?" Bella asks, she always so observant.
"No reason," My thoughts flash across my head and I know Edward will pick up on them. I used to think him knowing what we were thinking was fun, now it's really annoying.
"In answer to your first thought," Edward says eyeing me. "Your right he does," He analysed the boy, reading his thoughts.
"Explain..." mum mumbles, playing with some chips in her plate.
"Well Ilina was feeling...uneasy about JJ," all of a sudden all heads on our table turns to me and then JJ.
'Why?' The question echoes on all of their faces.
"Well can't you smell it?"I ask.
"Smell what?... over this crap they give you to eat?" Emmett huffs, he hates this time of day. The stillness they live in here really holds them. Going slow isn't their thing.
"No," I roll my eyes extra humanly slow, just to annoy him. "He smells like...like a...vampire." Again all heads turn to JJ, suspicion rises in their faces'.
"What does that mean?" I ask. "Because he's so obviously human, normal heartbeat, normal skin tone, I just don't understand...unless...but that...could...?"
"I don't know, I've never come across it, but it could be possible..," Edward mumbles to himself now deep in thought. Rosalie nudges me, annoyed to be cut out of the conversation.
"I was wondering if it was possible he was a quarter breed?" I query again this time out loud. Silence.
They're faces turned grave...
"We don't know anything yet, we don't want to jump to conclusions and expose ourselves if he's not." Edward suggests. Bella giggles at him.
"Edward...you sound more and more like Carlisle everyday!" she informs him. If he could blush he would.
"Bella," he growls playfully at her.
"Guys I have an idea...let's test him!" Mum puts forward.
"How?" asks Emmett, who wasn't really even listening to the conversation.
"Well...I have a few ideas I promise i'll be careful..." I tell everyone.
"I don't know if this is such a good idea... Alice?" Jasper confers with Alice.
"It doesn't seem to have any serious implications...I don't have that feel about it." Edward laughs go ahead Ilina try it. He gestures towards JJ.
"Now?" I ask feeling slightly left out of the loop. He simply nods, his smirk growing across his face, while Bella admires it. Dad and mum look reassuringly at me.
"Fine..."
I raised my self off of my seat to walk around our table, to pass JJ, before I passed our table I picked up a tray of food. I strolled past his table and as I was about to pass JJ, I feigned a trip and the contents of the tray fell o him.
"EUGGHH, what the!" He groans. I squeeze my eyes shut, tying my hardest not to laugh and the snickers of my table and those around.
"I'm so sorry...I'm not usually this clumsy." I bat my eyes at me, Rosalie taught me this is how girls get what they need. I even threw a pout in.
He didn't even look up... he's still engrossed on the sloppy Joe on his shirt...which is reasonable.
"No problem Ilina...it's fine." He gets up and walks to the door of the cafeteria. I slump begrudgingly to my table.
"LEENS!! MAN! You trying to kill me with stuff like that you see his face...human reactions are so slow, it was like in a movie man TOO FUNNY" says Emmett, Loud enough for us only to hear.
"Emmett I feel bad enough already I don't need you to make it better..." I sigh deeply, cradling my head in dishonour.
"Maybe that wasn't quite the way to find Ilina."
"But I just thought well Edward caught all of Bella's food when she nearly dropped it..."
"Yes but we weren't in the attention of all those people." Edward remarks.
"Ilina, do you even realise how much people noticed when you got up?" Dad enquires.
"No..." I murmur.
"A hell-of-a-lot!" he says amusement still in his voice.
"No vampire would risk exposure like that, if he is a vampire he wouldn't have reacted, because there was too many people's attention. Only an idiot would react in the way you wanted him too." Emmett chuckles.
"Well thanks a lot, you guys could have for warned me you know, could have saved him a trip to the nurse's and me a lot of humiliation." I spit.
"Then Ilina, where would we get our entertainment from?" Alice grins at Jaspers response, I could tell he was messing with my senses, making me feel less embarrassed and more unaffected.
The bell sounded signalling the end of lunch.
Leave it to me to do something like this...it sounded so logical in my head...I can't give up...knowing could be important to my family...
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