(me)ok, welcome to the story, I'll start telling u all m-my story, as you all know, I'm Matt, my real name is Mail Jeevas, Mail being pronounced Mile, instead of Mail, Mail means uncertain, sometimes it means Peaceful, thou I really doubt I am. My dad's name was Daman meaning Demon, I have a little sister named Alice, her hair is a light ashy-red color, her eyes are the same green as mine, my mum's name was Loralei, meaning one who lures men to death and destruction, Loralei Angelique, Angelique oddly enough, means Angel like, that was my mother to a T, her hair was a soft reddish brown, like the color of autumn leaves….her eyes where a bright the color of stormy seas. Dad has flame colored hair, a yellow-red and his eyes where a deepest ocean green. Mom and dad never had said a kind word to me or each other, it always made me think they where strangers that merely lived in the same house…..

When I was about 3, is when everything started to get really messed up, mum used to bring home really weird men, and she would take them to her and dad's room, always telling me not to tell my father or he would be mad at me….and one time, dad came home when one of her male-friends was with her, he found them and started screaming and shouting and she screamed back and the other man screamed and yelled, I just went to my room and locked the door. I had a small blade in my room, no bigger then a pin, and for the first time, I let the blade meet the flesh of my arm….I just let the blood run down my arm and I just watched it…..a few hours of more smaller cuts the screaming stopped and everything calmed down, the next day, with what money I got from doing photo shoots that my mom forced me into, I bought my best friend BB a stun gun and sent it to him, he lived in the shinigami realm and I lived in the human world, he and I met one time when his father had taken him with him to take away souls, and he wondered off n found me in a grave yard just chilling, now I was about 3 when I sent BB the gun, and I met him at 2 so what does that tell you? That anyone can buy a firearm.

Anyway the next morning, the phone rang while mom and dad were at work, mom worked as a bar tender and dad worked as a computer programmer. The call was from BB, so he and I talked until he had to leave, we said bye and I just played my video games, until my eyes started to hurt, so I went upstairs and put on the goggles I had gotten a month ago 4 my birthday, because BB and I where only a month apart it was almost too easy to remember when each other's day of birth was, though I am not sure ether of us really wants to remember the day we where forcibly dragged into this living hell called life…..

A hour or so later my dad came home and he said "Mail, we are going for a walk, come on!" I got up and he lead me out side and down the block and he said "Mail you have probably started to realize your mother and I are not getting along, so this walk is to tell you that I'm leaving, I will stay in touch so you can talk to me, but it may not be for a long time until you see me again" and I just looked at him and, being the obedient child I was, I jut said "ok dad" and he left…..

When mum returned from work that night she dragged me out of my bed and she reeked of alcohol and she said "Mail Bain Jeevas, you are now going to be a host. Mama is gonna teach you how to charm a lady." I just looked horrified, because girls were, and still are, icky! But none the less, I was forced that very night to learn how to speak like a gentleman and how to use my body as sex appeal to get woman to give me what I want, to this day it works….but its not right……

When I turned 6, my little sister was 3 I came home from school after picking her up from kinder garden, I was dressed as I usually was, red hair looking like I just finger combed it(which I did) goggles over my eyes, and a long sleeved striped shirt and my jeans n combat boots Alice was in her favorite outfit, a iOtaku shirt(it was a light pink with black letters in curlz fount)and her some-what fluffy knee leant skirt, is was black n lacy, her boots as always came just above her ankles and she had on black and pink striped tights, mum wasn't around, so I took care of Alice, thou I did normally anyway, when I took Alice upstairs so she could do her homework we found mum on her bedroom floor in a mess of her own blood, her organs where everywhere and on the wall it said "Pay back is a BITCH, just like you Loralei" you can imagine how horrified my sister I where, I called the police and they declared her dead, after that my sister and I where assured we couldn't have saved mum, we were sent to Wammies House for Gifted(and fucked up)Children, there I was shocked to see my best friend, whom I thought had just stopped wanting to be friends, BB, and I met Mello, and Near, I later met L, who I really didn't notice or really think of as interesting how ever, Alice still fallows Near around, and talks to this girl named Linda, who I guess she thinks is cool. Well, that's the story, so good bye and don't let the website kill you on the way out.