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Ignorance is Bliss

Chapter 5 Nightmares with Answers

That night I dreamt of Kagome.

It was at my house by the beach that I timeshared with; it was the early afternoon with the sun shining and blue sky smiling.

"Ohhhh…Kouuggaa…" Kagome moaned my name as I kissed my way down her neck.

"Mmm?" I mumbled, lightly biting her neck then kissing it.

"KOUGA!" Ayame shrieked my name as I pulled Kagome closer to my body.

I heard her drop her purse as she ran out of my house.

I looked up at Kagome sitting atop the counter with her legs wrapped around my waist and I took in her appearance.

She was wearing my red dress shirt halfway buttoned up; leaving enough cleavage for anyone to guess what we were doing and her small face was flushed. Her long black hair was slightly tousled and her lips were swollen.

"Kouga?" She softly cooed my name and wrapped her petite hands around the back of my neck and pulled my face closer to hers.

"Yes?" I ran my fingers along her jaw bone until I reached her chin.

"How did she get in?" She fluttered her long lashes and smiled a cute smile.

"I gave her a key." I answered automatically.

"Oh?" She leaned in closer.

"Yeah…" I couldn't take my eyes off of her lips.

"Kouga?"

"Yes?" Right then I would have done anything she asked.

"I know you. You only give keys to those who you hold dear in your heart."

I woke in a cold sweat panting; my black hair clung to my face and shoulders as I scanned my dark room. Nothing had changed.

I tossed the covers off my heated body and got out of bed; stumbling though the dark.

For all of your perverts out there, no. I didn't have a boner.

I walked into my kitchen to get a bottle of water. Even though it was just a dream she was right with what she said. I wouldn't give a key to someone I didn't care about.

It took my over year to trust Ginta and Hakkaku with keys to my car. And I let Ayame have a key to my place in less than a year.

Well okay that's stretching it a bit I mean I did grow up with the girl.

I sighed and ran my hand though my messy hair and sat down on the couch.

I was giving myself a headache. A bad one at that.

Kagome had made up her mind about us and the relationship we once had. She made it perfectly clear.

Only thing left is for me to decide what to do.

Marry Ayame.

Or not.

But then where the hell does that leave me?

Unhappy for sure.

Single.

I had loved Kagome with my entire heart but that was then.

This is now. She moved on and is now in a relationship with that mutt, and me; I was doing just fine until she came back into the picture. I even proposed to my girlfriend; and that took some serious thinking.

Of course she was always in the back of my mind but seeing her today. In all her glory, she was breathtaking.

But it wasn't there.

The old flame we had burning bright had died down to a flicker.

A flicker of hope that I put there.

Now the only question left to answer was what does my heart really want.

Was I really in love with Ayame and my feelings for Kagome were just a figment from the past?

I groaned and threw my arm over my eyes. This was getting me no where.

It was late at night and I needed to sleep.

Tomorrow was going to be a long day.

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