OK so I'm super sorry this took a while to get out but I've been really busy with my end of he year dance and stupid tests! So here it is! =)
ps. sorry for the book part if you thought it was boring I just felt it went with it and expressed the way she might have been feeling then. OK so on with the story!
They Don't belong to me! =(
He just looked at me in stunned silence for awhile, like he knew the answer but he didn't want it to be true. "So you must be the girl my parents told me about," his face shows some sort of regret so deep I couldn't even fathom what it was for.
"He used to talk bout you sometimes to, he said you should be nice to your parents. He thought that was his biggest mistake. That he hurt his family," I bit my tongue hoping what I said wasn't to personal, Ranger never liked his life out in the open.
"He was a lot like me but I was sent away earlier to live with my abuela in Miami. He got straightened out way sooner then I did, he was right. I should have been a better son when I was younger, but I was stupid," It was my turn to me stunned, Batman was sharing his life with me and I didn't even have to beg!
Your parents always spoke highly of you, they told me you always judged yourself more severely then your worst enemy. Alex was that way to. Nothing he ever did was good enough for him, even when we all thought he was perfect," there was a thoughtful silence that filled the car and I realize that we had stopped moving and had arrived at Rangeman a while ago.
"When was the last time you saw him?" It was a strange question, something in his voice was off when he asked it.
"That day on the tarmac and all I could think about was a passage from one of my favorite books. It scared the hell out of me thinking I was making the same mistake. It hurts to know I really dd after all," I didn't want to tell him the quote, I Don't even know why I said it.
"Which book? Maybe I've read it," that book made be bawl like a little kid it was so sad.
"LetThe Great World Spin," Rangers face was hard as stone when I looked over, he must have read the book. I hope he understands where I'm coming from.
"Ive read it, which part did you think of," the door handle became quite fascinating, almost to the point that I couldn't respond.
"She wanted to tell him so much , on the tarmac the day he left. The world is run by brutal men and the surest proof there armies. If they ask you to stand still, you should dance. If they ask you to burn the flag you should wave it. If they ask you to murder, re-create. Theorem, anti-theorem, corollary, anti-corollary. Underline it twice. Its all there in numbers. Listen to your mother. Listen to me Joshua. Look me in the eyes I have something to tell you. But he stood there, buzz haired and red cheeked, in front of her, and she said nothing. Say something to him. Tell him. But she just smiled. Solomon pressed a star of David into his hand and turned away and said: be brave. She kissed his forehead good-bye. She noticed the way his uniform creased and uncreased in perfect symmetry, and she knew, she just knew, the moment she saw him go, that she was seeing him go forever. Hello central give me heaven I think my Joshua is there," I said the all to familiar words without even thinking, they just flowed live acid from my lips burning as they came out. Ranger nods but it feels automatic, hard and cold. I knew I had just bashed the way he lived but that was how I felt, and in my mind he wasn't a solider he was batman. It was time to change the subject or this was not going to end well, "I spend about 9 Christmases with your family, and like, 3 summers," maybe that would keep him from thinking about my previous comment.
"I Don't think I've even spent that many with my family here," I guess that was all he had to say on the subject.
That was fine talking about the Manoso family was one thing that made be feel a sort of peace, something you don't get from my family. "Whys Booth here?" It wasn't a planned question, I just really needed to fill the silence that was quickly taking over the car.
I suppose it really was a random subject change and Rangers face was evidence of that,"I told you already, he is just helping me with a new case." And there you go folks, the master of vague answers and mysterious acts. I made sure my annoyance was plainly written on my face while I slightly pouted in my seat waiting for some useable answer.
"What would you say if I told you he was still alive? What if I said he was just a few miles from you? What would you say?" His words hit me like a mac truck running in to the side of you and my first thought was, holy fuck!(eloquent I know, but cut me some slack here) Hes got to be joking, playing some sick joke on me. I must have made some strangled sound because he made a move to help me but I backed away. My last thought before my vision started getting blurred was, 'why do these Manosos always end up breaking me in one way or another?' and then the darkness took me.