Secrets
Authors note: Thanks for all the reviews you guy's rock. Only one person guessed the person who is coming back, they will be back in the next few chapters. I don't own Lost.
The four hour trip back home had been the longest four hours of Jacks life, Kate didn't speak the whole time, she refused to even look at him and the kids were upset that she wouldn't even talk to them.
As soon as they reached their house, Kate went immediately into their bedroom and locked the door. She sat down on the bed, trying her best not to cry, but she knew sooner or later she would lose that battle.
How could she have let this happen? She killed her own child, she knew she should have gone to the hospital but she didn't. Jack had been right; he probably hated her right now, he would never forgive her no matter what she did now she could never fix this. Tears began to stream down her face, she could no longer fight it, she began to sob and the tears fell faster, he body began to tremble and she felt more alone than she ever had before.
Jack began to help the kids into the house; he carried Claire and held Aaron's hand as they walked up the driveway. He set Claire down in her playpen and turned on the TV for Aaron, then he made his way into the kitchen towards the phone.
"Hello," the voice on the other end of the phone answered.
"Hannah, it's Jack Shephard," he said, "Do you think you could come over and baby-sit for a few hours?"
"Sure, I will be over in a few minutes," she replied.
"Thanks," he said as he began to hang up the phone.
He slowly began to make his way back into the living room.
"Aaron, Hannah is coming over to watch you and Claire so I need you to be a good boy," Jack said looking at his son.
"Why daddy?" Aaron asked with worry in his eyes.
"Because daddy needs to talk to mommy for a little while," Jack replied his face filled with the same worry.
While Jack waited for Hannah to arrive he decided to watch cartoons with the kids. Thirty minutes later Hannah arrived and Jack greeted her at the door.
"Thank you so much for coming," he told her.
"It was no problem," she replied.
"I hope to be back soon but this may take awhile," he said as he began to walk up the stairs.
"Take all the time you need," Hannah said.
Jack made his way up the stairs and down the hall towards the bedroom he shared with Kate. Upon reaching the door he could hear her sobs and his heart broke for her. He knew that this had been so hard for her, how she blamed herself for everything, and how this was not going to be an easy thing to recover from.
"Kate, please let me in," Jack pleaded as he knocked on the door.
"Just leave me alone," Kate sobbed.
"Kate, I need you to open the door," he said, "If you don't open it I will be forced to break it down."
Kate knew that he was never going to leave so she might as well open the door.
"What do you want?" She asked him trying to act as if nothing was wrong.
"I think we should go get some dinner and talk okay," he said hoping that he could convince her to go with him.
"Okay," she said reluctantly, "just let me get dressed.
"I will meet you downstairs," he said.
Five minutes later Kate came downstairs dressed in jeans and a big baggy t-shirt, he face was all red from crying and her hair was up in a messy ponytail. Jack helped her get her jacket on and the two walked out the door. The drove for thirty minutes, neither one of them said a word until they reached a small restaurant just outside of town.
"Jack, why are we doing this?" Kate asked him.
"Because you can't just lock yourself away from me," he replied, "we can't get through this alone."
"Lets just go in," she replied slightly annoyed at the fact that Jack wouldn't just leave her alone.
Jack nodded and he got out and help Kate into the restaurant. Once they made their way into the restaurant, the waitress help them to their table and got their drinks for them. They sat in silence as they waited for their food, neither one knew what to say. Jack did his best to make conversation with Kate, but she wouldn't even look at him.
An hour later, Jack still couldn't get Kate to talk to him, and what was worse was that she didn't even eat her dinner. They only thing she had done was move her food around and pick at a little.
"Why aren't you eating?" he asked her.
"I'm not hungry," she said.
"You need to eat," he told her, "this isn't going to-
"Going to what Jack?" she interrupted, "Going to bring the baby back!" She shouted.
"That's not what I was going to say," he said trying to calm her down.
"Then what were you going to say?" she asked him as the whole restaurant watched.
"Kate this isn't going to help you get better," he told her, "you have to eat, you have to continue to live your life."
"Just leave me alone!" She shouted as she stormed out of the restaurant.
Jack quickly paid the check and rushed out to find her, hoping that he could get her to calm down. As soon as he got outside he saw her, she was sitting on the sidewalk crying and shaking.
"I'm sorry," she said quietly.
"You don't have anything to be sorry about," he told her as he sat down next to her.
"It's my fault, It's all my fault," she sobbed.
"What is your fault?" he asked confused about what she was talking about.
"I should have listened to you," she began, "after I fell I was in a lot of pain, my back was killing me and I knew that I should go to the hospital."
"It's not your fault," he said as he pulled her close to him, "you didn't know it would happen."
"Yes I did," she said, "I knew something was wrong and I didn't do anything about it."
"Kate, It's not your fault," he told her once again.
"Can we just go home?" she asked him with tears streaming down her face.
"As long as you promise not to lock me out and you will eat something for me," he said.
"I promise," she said knowing that she wasn't going to eat anything for him.
Authors note: Okay so this is just the beginning of Kate's breakdown things are going to get really bad. Don't worry this will have a happy ending I promise. I hope you guys like this chapter. Please let me know what you think.