Lies

Authors note: Thank you for all the wonderful reviews. Someone from the past is going to return in the next chapter and Kate continues to go down hill.

The car ride home was a long one, neither one of them said a word. Kate wouldn't even look at Jack, she was too ashamed of herself, and she was beginning to wonder if they were going to be okay through all of this. The tears began to fall down her cheeks as she began to think about all the horrible things she had done to him, all the things she had put her kids through.

"Kate, why are you crying?" he asked her softly.

"It's nothing," she answered trying to wipe away the tears.

"Please tell me," he pleaded with her.

"I'm just so sorry for everything I have put you through," she replied.

"You have nothing to be sorry about," he told her as he grabbed her hand. "Please just promise me that you will eat and go back to being yourself again."

"I will," she said hoping that she could convince him that she was fine.

"I love you Kate," he said with a smile.

"I love you too," she said as a sad smile appeared on her face.

As they pulled into the driveway, Kate began to put on a fake yawn, hoping that Jack would think she was too tired to eat. Unfortunately, he still insisted that she eat, but he told her that she could eat in bed while he put the kids to bed. Once she was in the house, she made her way up the stairs, trying to avoid her kids, the last thing she needed was them questioning why she had been crying.

Jack paid Hannah and went straight into the kitchen to make Kate some soup, he knew she had to eat if she ever wanted to get better. Once the soup was done he put it on a tray and made his was to their bedroom, where he found Kate sitting up in their bed staring at the wall.

"I made you some soup," he said as he snapped her out of her thoughts.

"Thanks," she said as she gave him a weak smile.

He handed her the tray, which contained the soup, a glass of water and some medicine to help her relax and get some sleep. She looked up at him with a smile hoping that he would leave her to eat without him breathing down her neck.

"Kate, you need to eat," he told her with pleading eyes.

"I will Jack, I promise," she replied "just trust me."

It took a lot of convincing on her part but he finally left the room leaving her to eat the soup in peace. However, the longer she looked at the soup the more guilty she felt, how could she eat, when her baby would never get a chance to eat, how could she even think about eating after what she had done.

The thoughts raced through her head, she began to feel as though she couldn't breathe, beads of sweat began to roll down her face, and she knew exactly what she had to do next. Slowly making her way out of bed, she peeked her head out of the bedroom door to make sure Jack wasn't coming, once she made sure everything was clear she took the bowl of soup and dumped it in the toilet and flushed it without any hesitation. Once she made sure there was no evidence she quickly made her way back to bed. She had just pulled the cover back over her when she saw Jack enter the room.

"Thank you for eating," he said to her as soon as he saw the empty bowl.

"Your welcome, it was really good," she lied, she felt so guilty about lying to him but he wouldn't understand the truth.

"Did you get the kids to sleep?" she asked him as he climbed into bed.

"Yes they are out like a light," he replied with a slight laugh.

"I love you," she said hoping it would get rid of her guilt that she was feeling at that moment.

"I love you too," he answered her, "but I think we should get some sleep, it has been a long day."

"Yeah, maybe you're right," she said as he turned off the lights.

"Good night," he said.

"Good night," she replied.

An hour later Kate was still wide-awake, the guilt of everything was just too much for her to take. She needed to get out; she needed to talk to someone, someone other than Jack, he just wouldn't understand. She carefully crawled out of bed, making sure she didn't wake Jack in the process and went into the bathroom to change her clothes. When she had finished get ready she made her way down the stairs being as quiet as she could she grabbed her keys and headed out the door.

As she backed out of the driveway she began to cry, she would never have dreamed that she would be doing this to her family, to Jack. She had to drive anywhere, anywhere but here, she began to get lost in her thoughts and she continued to follow the road not knowing where she was going, not knowing what she was doing.

Jacks eyes fluttered open as he heard faint cries coming from Claire's room, he sat up and noticed that Kate wasn't there, he figured that she went to check on Claire so he began to walk down the hall to check on them. Once he reached her room he noticed that Kate wasn't in there, he went over to Claire and picked her up and began to head downstairs to look for Kate.

"Kate!" he yelled, "Kate!"

After searching the whole house he realized that the car keys were gone and he knew that Kate wasn't going to answer.

After an hour of driving around, her cell phone began to ring, it was the call she had been dreading since she left the house; it was Jack. She took a few seconds to think about what she would do, if she ignored it he would end up having a search party looking for her, but if she answered it he would yell at her and tell her to come home. She decided it was better to answer, at least then he would know that she was safe and she could make up some story of why she left.

"Hello," she answered trying not to sound upset.

"Kate, where are you?" She heard Jack voice yell through the phone.

"I was hungry and nothing sounded good so I decided to go to the store," she said hoping he would but this story.

"Why didn't you tell me I would've gone for you," he questioned.

"I just needed some alone time," she snapped, " you are always with me and I just need some space."

"Kate, calm down, what his going on?" he asked her his voice was now filled with worry.

"Nothing, just leave me alone," she replied her voice was beginning to shake.

"Kate please just tell me where you are, I will come get you and we can talk, It will be alright," he said trying to calm her down.

"Good-bye Jack," she said in a whisper as she closed the phone.

Authors note: I know Kate would never act like this, but I've always wanted to write a story where she has some sort of breakdown and she needs Jack to save her. Anyway, I hope you guys like this chapter and please review and tell me what you think.