Feeling Chapter 7: This Is Real, This Is Me, a misc. tv shows fanfic

This Is Me

Kevin(singing)

Vanessa(Singing)

Both(Singing)

(Vanessa's POV)

I woke up forgetting where I am. No one has woke me up…oh no…I am at the Jonas and I forgot to ask them for what I do. I look at the clock to see it is six thirty and I hurry out of the bed. I take a shower clean the room and then I throw on my cloths and walk into Kevin and Joes room to see that they are still asleep, I grab their laundry baskets and walk out of the room then go to Nicks room and grab his. Then I go into Paul and Denise's room, they are also still asleep and I grab their baskets. I go downstairs and start the cloths then I start to clean. Soon everything is spotless and the laundry is finished and folded then I start on breakfast. When that is done I go over to the piano, they said I could use it anytime I wanted to, so I thought since I finished I would work in the song I was writing. I got out my writing book and started to play.

I've always been the kind of girl that hid my face, so afraid to tell the world what I've got to say, but I have this dream, bright inside of me, I'm gonna let it shine its time, to let you know.

This is real, this is me. I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be now, gonna let the light shine on me, now I found who I am there's no way to hold it in, no more hiding who I want to be…this is me…yeah…yeah oh…

Do you know what its like, to feel so in the dark. To dream about a life where you're the shining star, even though it seems, like its to far away I have to believe in myself, it's the only way.

This is real, this is me. I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be now, gonna let the light shine on me, now I found, who I am, there's no way to hold it in, no more hiding who I want to be…this is me…

That was only where I got to, I could think of anymore, I kept re-playing the whole song and went into the bridge but I couldn't think of any words…soon I just started to sing the whole song and as I got to the bridge there was a voice that wasn't mine…it was Kevin's.

You're the voice inside my head the reason that I'm singing, I need to find you I gotta find you. You're the missing piece I need the song inside of I need to find you…I gotta find you.

Then I finished, then I heard clapping and I looked behind me to see the whole family behind me.

"I'm sorry did I wake you up." I said.

"No. No its fine." Paul said.

"Umm…ok, Kevin that's a really good piece." I said.

"Thanks I want you to use it."

"No no I cant do that."

"Come on I wrote a song to that exact beet and I used a different bridge its fine."

"Thanks."

"Who made breakfast?" Denise asked, they were a chorus of not me and I cant cook…I was the only one that didn't answer and everyone looked at me.

"Ok I did."

"Thanks but you didn't have to." Denise said.

"Umm…"

"And wait it was WAY dirty yesterday." Joe said.

"Yeah and why is laundry done I remember having my laundry basket yesterday and I couldn't find it today." Nick said, soon they all looked at me.

"Ok it was me, its just I didn't know what I was suppose to do."

"Baby you don't have to do anything." Paul said.

"Yes but you let me stay here, and everything, and I always have chores." I cant believe I just let that slip to, well I did say I was the slave.

"Baby, look, here you don't have to."

"Shoot we don't even do anything." Joe said.

"But you live here…I don't."

"Speaking of, dad can Vanessa stay here forever?" Nick asked, I could have sworn I was Denise smirk at Paul.

"Yeah please."

"I don't see why not." Paul said.

"Yes!!!!" They all yelled.

"Come on lets see how well of a cook Vanessa is." Kevin said as they walked into the kitchen. "Vanessa come on." So I got up and went with them to eat.

"Honey this is amazing." Denise said.

"Umm…thank you." I said awkwardly.

"Oh wow, this is good." Nick said, soon everyone was done eating.

"Ok Vanessa, are you ready for me to take you to get some cloths." Kevin asked.

"Umm, yes please." I said knowing he was going to take me and not let me walk so I wasn't even going to argue.

"Ok I will go get my keys." He said as he went upstairs, soon he came back down. "Ok lets go."

"Ok." I said as we went outside and got into the car, soon we pulled into my drive way.

"Umm…you can come in." I said.

"Ok." He said as he got out.

I entered the house and went to the kitchen.

"Umm, are you thirsty?"

"No."

"Ok I guess I will show you around."

"Ok."

I showed him everywhere except my room so far, now I am showing him the living room.

"Umm the piano was my parents and I, it hasn't been used since they died." I explained as he looked at the grand piano.

"Why hasn't it been used?"

"My step-mom doesn't allow me to play it, and I know she will know if I use when she is gone."

"Oh, why aren't there any pictures of you?"

"My step-mom took them all down, well she told me to and told me to burn them, I didn't I hid them in my room." I said.

"Vanessa how do you live here?" He asked.

"I remember the good times, its not as bad as it seems, honest." I said, thing is I think I was trying to reassure myself more then him.

"Ok." He said.

"Here I will show you my room." I said.

"Ok." He said as he followed me, soon we were in my room. It was nothing special, I had a bed, but it was all down in music. I had an electric piano, acoustic guitar, a small drum set, and a bass, the room was pretty big. Everything was done in music notes. Black and white, blue, green, red, orange, yellow, pink, and purple, just everything. Their were CD'S with all my favorite band, The Jonas Brother, of course, Metro station, Miley Cyrus, I don't like her just her music, Casting Crowns and Rascal Flatts. There was pictures of my parents. Then their was my laptop my dad had gotten me.

"I am surprised she didn't make you get rid of this stuff."

"She wanted me to."

"What made her change her mind."

"I told her if she made me she would wake up looking like the Bride of Frankenstein." I covered up, I really told her I would tell she abused me and of her past. Ok so I did also tell her I would do something with her hair.

"Oh wow."

"Yeah I know, its just these were my parents and they gave all this stuff to me, and I couldn't lose it."

"No I was saying that about your step-mom, she sounds evil."

"Eh she is, whelp lets get my stuff."

"This is a cool room."

"Thanks." I could have sworn I heard a click, must just be my head, I am exhausted.

"Your welcome" Soon I was done and I was back in the car.

"Thanks again."

"Yeah of course anytime." He said.

Soon we were at the house.

"Umm…do you mind if I go upstairs and freshen' up a bit?" I asked.

"Of course you can, take as long as you need, and you look like you need a nap, no offence, how about it, we'll wake you up in an hour and half if you like." Paul said, he was right I did need one.

"Yes please, thank you SO much." I said as I went upstairs to the room I was staying and started to freshen up.

(Paul's POV)

I watched as Vanessa went upstairs, she is SO sweet, soon she was upstairs and soon I heard the shower go on I called over the boys.

"Boys come here for a second." So they came and sat down at the kitchen. "Ok we were wondering what you thought if Vanessa stayed with us on weekends and holidays."

"Yeah!!!!!" They yelled.

"Ok, just don't tell her, are you sure its ok."

"Of course." Kevin said, he looked deep in thought.

"She's cool." Joe said.

"Awesome I am going to have a sister, no offence guys but I do want a sister." Nick said.

"Ok go on boys we will talk to her about it."

"Ok." Nick and Joe yelled running off.

"Kevin are you sure your ok with this?" I asked.

"Yeah of course, but why?"

I looked at Denise and she nodded.

"We think she is abused." I said.

"I thought so."

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Look dad, she invited me into her house. There were no pictures of her, just everything had nothing to do with her."

"That's horrible."

"I know, look I don't want her back there."

"Look we want you to tell us if something that shows signs of it comes up, we are really worried, but we know she wont leave, and there is no Will I guess. So we already got a plan…do you have one?" I asked.

"Yeah, ok so the room she is staying in, we should design it for her. Her room is done in music note, and she has music instruments in it, she has a laptop, but the extra recording studio she should have and its right in the middle of mine and yours dad. Dad she is an amazing girl, and she is like a sister to me, she is great dad. Why would they do this to her?"

"I don't know son. But that was our plan. Music notes, Denise we need to go shopping."

"I know I cant wait." She said trying to hold in her excitement…not doing so well.

"Ok, dad I think you should talk to her." Kevin said.

"Ok I will, then can you watch the kiddos, don't tell her about the room, we are going to try and have it done by next weekend, so she can stay somewhere where she feels comfortable, I wish we had a picture of hers." I said.

"Umm…I do." He said.

"Why do you have a picture?" I asked taking his phone and looking at it.

"Because I was going to say exactly what this conversation was over, and I knew mom wanted to design a room for her and I thought this could help." He explained.

"Thank you this helps a lot." Denise said.

"Ok and I can watch the kids."

"Ok." I looked at my watch to see time flew by, it was four and we have been talking for over an hour. "I am going to wake her up and talk to her."

"Ok and I going to start dinner." Denise said as I got up.

I walked into Vanessa's room and looked at her, she looked so peaceful and her hair was still wet, she was in some sweats and a tank top…and that's when I saw a bruise, I put that inside to write down and went over to her and shook her awake very gently.

"Vanessa, baby, its time to wake up." I said, she woke up and looked at me.

"Oh, sorry, I didn't realize how long its been."

"No, no its fine I just need to talk to you."

"Yeah, of course. Thank you for letting me stay." She said as she sat up

"Oh its fine." I said. "And, we want you to stay every weekend and holiday."

"Oh I would love to don't get me wrong, but I, I cant do that, you don't need another kid here." I said.

"We want another kid baby, we talked about it last night. We want a girl, we want you." Paul said.

"But…why?" I asked.

"Because you're an amazing little girl who means a lot to us." I said. "Look I love this idea and so does Denise." I said, "Look baby, I know we just met you yesterday after seven years, but I have known you your whole life, ever since you were born. Look we want please." I said, "May I please explain how this will work then you can choose?"

"Of course."

"Ok well everyday…what time do you wake up?" I asked.

"Umm…six thirty."

"How long does it take for you to do your chores?"

"About thirty minuets."

"Ok the minuet you are done, you come straight here, there is a key under the mat, then you can sleep or write some music."

"Umm…ok."

"Then you will go to school, then after you will come here, or if you and Kev, have something just text him, me or Denise, or Joe, and even Nick. You will come here and hang out do homework…what time does your step-mom send you to bed?"

"Umm…eight thirty, nine…what time do you send the boys?"

"Nick and Joe eight and Kevin nine…so you can shower here and get ready then we will take you home…is there a way to get in without your steps knowing?"

"Through my window, there is a vine that is hooked to a fence that way is to climb."

"Ok we will help you up there, then we will just keep doing that, and of course you can always stay here. Then on weekends and holidays you will just stay here. We want you to move in…but I don't think you would."

"And your right, there is no will…and in till I find one I don't want to that's my parents house and I cant leave."

"I thought so, so will you. I already talked to the boys and they love it and Denise cant wait to have a daughter."

"Yes sir…I would love to"

"Do you have any question?"

"Umm…is there house rules?"

"Well, no actually, Denise loves to clean. Every once and a while she will ask one of ya'll to do something. Just behave really."

"Umm…how do you punish?"

"Well you are not ours, but umm, we just ground them."

"Well since you are treating me like your own, I will deal with the punishment from here and my step-moms." She said.

"Only if you want." I said with a smile. "Umm may I ask where you got that bruise?" I asked hesitantly.

"Oh…umm…my friend Jessica and I, we were playing basketball in gym and when she through the ball I kind of turned around and well yeah, I hadn't even realized I had a bruise." She said.

"Oh, ok. Umm…by the way if you are sick or hurt, I would feel way better if you stayed here and please tell us if you are."

"Umm…ok I will try." She said.

"Try?" I asked.

"Well…umm…" She said squirming a bit.

"Come on you can tell me anything, any of us, we will always be here when you need to talk…can you please tell me?" I asked.

"Well I am not use to people anymore, you know…caring." She said.

"Well I care and love you A LOT."

"Thanks."

"Now I am going to show you around." He said.

"Time for dinner!" Denise yelled.

"After dinner." So we walked downstairs and sat down, we prayed and started to dig in to our spaghetti and other Italian food.

"So did she agree?" Kevin asked.

"Why don't you ask her?" I said.

"Did you agree?"

"Yes…only if it ok with ya'll.""Yes we get a sister!" Joe and Nick yelled.

"Of course I am…I am REALLY happy." He said and you could see it to.

"Then yes…I agree."

Soon dinner was over and I took Vanessa to the right wing.

"Ok so Kev probably already explained the recording studios…" At her nod I continued. "Well we have one left and it wasn't ever going to be used, its right between Kev's and mine. We want you to have it." I said.

"I really couldn't do that you are already giving me to much."

"Well we want this so you have no choice." I said as I opened the door, it had a couch and closet to put stuff in. "Ok so here is the recording stuff. It holds as much music as you want and see this laptop, well you can save it in there also, the boys use their laptops, and this one is yours also, but if you have one just unhook this and re-hook it in. You can take this laptop anywhere. Now I am going to teach you the controls(these are just made up) ok so this is the remote, you can take it anywhere and do anything the table has. Now this screen is a touch screen and its very easy. There is a button, like the one that says speak, you just press it and you can here the person talking to you, play is playback, stop, ya know you are smart you should get it very easily. With each song you record when you are done you type in the name, if you want a CD you take a CD, " I said pointing at the racks of blank CD's, there are loads more in the closet, "You take it, put it in the disk drive, pick which ones in which order, then press the start button, they never erase though unless you choose to. Now you can also print the lyrics, the music notes, or both. Just take the paper, and put it in the printer and there you go. Now you can record on instrument, then play it while recording another, and keep going to finish a song, or you can just play it on one instrument and it will tell ya the others, if you need any other help just ask us, or there is a manual. Now if you wake up in the middle of the night, even if its like four in the morning, you can come in here, you wont wake us because our rooms are on the other side of the house, there are blankets and pillows in the closet if you get to tired, all I ask is that you leave a note on the door, or on the desk, preferably on the door, you can do what ever you want with the room, we mite do something with it, or you can tell us what you want." I said.

"Umm…you can do whatever you want with it."

"Now in the recording studio, there is a piano, bass, electric guitar, acoustic guitar, drums, and what not, its VERY big. Now every studio is like that so you should be able to help any one, we have a family one, it's the number one door, then Nicks' is number two, then Joe is number three, then Kev's, then yours, then mine, and then Denise's."

"Umm…ok, thanks again."

"Remember you can use any time, we have intercoms' in every room, so you should here us if we need you or just call if you need us." I explained.

"Thanks. I will do anything to repay you just tell me what you want."

"I want you to feel comfortable and just be yourself, we want you as a daughter and sister, act like it, just be a kid."

"I promise." She said.

"Ok, hey Denise and I are going to the store and probably will be home f late…we have a lot of stuff to bye, is it ok if you and the boys stay home?"

"Umm…Mr. Paul, I have been staying home ALONE for years, I am sure we will all be fine." There she goes with the Mr. thing again.

"Ok, and can you PLEASE call me Paul, or something with out the Mr. thing."

"Sorry its just I call everyone Mr. and Mrs. I will try though."

"Or you can call us what you use to…Uncle Paul, and Aunt Denise."

"I like that."

"Ok, thank you for watching the boys."

"Anytime." She said.

"Paul we need to leave." Denise yelled.

"Coming!" I yelled back as we walked downstairs, all the boys were there.

"Now boys behave for Kev and Vanessa, you know the rules and try to help Vanessa get use to the house. Ok"

"Yes sir." They all answered.

I went around and gave Nick and Joe a hug and then went to Kevin and gave him a hug, then I went to Vanessa and gave her a hug and, a kiss on the forehead.

"Call us if you need anything." I said as I gave her mine, Denise's and Nick and Joes just in case.

"Yes sir."

"Ok bye." I said as I opened the door and closed behind me as we left, Vanessa's song playing in my head. This is real, this is me…

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Ok so hey, I know its a long chapter, but I hope you understand everything, if not just email me and I will explain everything. Ok so, yeah, if you have any ideas for any kind of story or suggestions please email me and I will reply and I would appreciate it. Thanks, please read and review.

Song:

This Is Me-Demi Lovato