I don't own twilight but I do own my friend I do own my friend izumie's lullaby. ;) The name for this chapter came one of the songs from The Sound Of Music, at least I think. I knew it as a nursery rhyme! (:

Last Time

"When exactly is this talk going to start?" I asked. My tone was harsh and it shocked Edward again. He quickly composed himself and answered my question.

"We can start the talk now if you want that, but could we walk and talk?" Edward replied calmly.

EPOV

When I had come into Bella's room, I still had not found a way to make her truly believe I didn't love her anymore. The fact that Alice had been here pissed me off. I wanted to know what she had said to Bella to make her snap at me. If she had given Bella any warning about my talk with her she was the one that was going to need forgiveness. I reigned in my anger before it could distract me from my mission.

"I don't mind what we do" Bella said calmly.

Her mood swings were beginning to confuse me. It was at times like these when I wished I could hear her thoughts.

"Let's go then" I replied. I took her hand to give the impression the talk would be a good one. I didn't want to give her any ideas about the topic of the talk. I lead her carefully down the stairs and out of the house. I didn't want any injuries to be held against me when I was done. I was going to talk to her whilst she was unhurt and leave her physically unhurt. Anything else she could get over quickly, her human mind would forget over time.

I carried on walking till we reached the woods and didn't stop till we were a little way in. I wanted her to get back to the house safely so I made sure the house was within sight.

"Bella" I began "we are leaving."

I could see confusion settling on her face though I had the feeling she knew this was coming as I expected her to look hurt.

"Before you ask, by 'we' I mean myself and my family. This in no way involves you" I continued.

At last I could see the hurt settling into her expression. I had to resist the urge to smile at this. I knew it made me more of a monster than I already was, but seeing Bella hurt made me happy. It would seem sick to anyone who had never felt the way I do.

"Why?" she whispered.

"Why? Bella are you blind?" I nearly shouted. I could not believe that she had noticed the way I had changed. I thought she was more observant but obviously I had given her too much credit.

"W-what do y-you mean?" she stuttered. Her voice would have been impossible to hear if I wasn't a vampire. Things were going well at the moment but I knew that if I wasn't careful I would lose my temper and do something I could possibly regret for the rest of my existence.

"Bella, for the past few weeks haven't you noticed that I have been less involved with you, not smiling as much as I used to and acting as I'm bored? I thought you were observant but obviously I was wrong if you didn't see what was right in front of you" I growled.

She flinched and looked like a puppy that had just been kicked. This new look made me even happier. I realised I was becoming a sadistic vampire who enjoyed toying with him and felt like I was going to explode with joy.

"Ed-"she began but I cut her off.

"No Bella, there is nothing for you to say. You want to ask if I love you. Well the answer is no. Did I ever love you? Well, there was a time when I thought I did but now I know what it really was – curiosity. I figured this out when James attacked you. I don't know how I kept up with this charade as long as I did but I'm glad that I don't have to anymore" I raged. I was on a roll and wanted to ice the cake with Bella's reply. I had never had this much fun since hunting humans. Just the thought made me eyes darken with thirst.

"Why are you saying this? You told me you loved me more than I you! You came to me. Not the other way around. If it was just curiosity why did you have to get involved with me" she shouted.

Again, her mood shocked me. I was expecting tears, hurt and rejection. Not anger. But this spurred me on even more. The fact that she was angry made me know how much I was getting to her, how much I was hurting her with my 'loving' words. I laughed. The sound of it was dark and haunting. Music to my ears.

"Bella, you are smart figure it out yourself. Actually, don't, you aren't worthy enough to put yourself in my shoes" I said casually.

I laughed even louder at her reaction. Tears were threatening to fall from her eyes and I suspected that she had more she wanted to say but wouldn't for fear of crying. Just to twist the knife I had put in her at the start of our conversation, I went up to her and embraced her. She relaxed in my arms and began to cry. I placed my head by her ears and whispered into her ears.

"Bella" I began.

She whimpered in response to her name being called.

"Bella, I don't love you. I never have and I never will. You and I would never work. You are not good enough for me and you never will be. I never wanted you to become a vampire because I didn't want you around for all of my existence. You are a naive little girl in a big world who will die one day. I will be at your funeral. Just to see how you met your end" I whispered. As I was speaking to her, I felt her freeze in my embrace. I smiled and then released her.

"Ciao, Bella" I called, grinning like the lion who had gotten the lamb. I walked away from her slowly to prolong her pain. I heard her coming after me and made sure she caught up with me before speeding up again. After a few minutes of this, I decided I had had enough fun with her and sped off, leaving her lost in the forest. I laughed loudly at the girl whose life I had just destroyed and felt as though nothing could take away this happy feeling.

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