I was so wrapped up in my memory that I didn't feel the arms wrapped around my waist until the person spoke.
"Where have you gone love you looked lost in your thoughts." Edward said while kissing my neck.
"Just remembering how we got here with Elijah." It was the truth, I was remembering how we came to be with Elijah.
"We have such a wonderful son Bella. I am so lucky to have a wonderful wife, who gave me the son I never thought I could have." He loved me so much and I had betrayed him in the worst way possible.
Emmett remembered our night together he had confronted me about it a few weeks after it happened.
Flashback
We were having a family dinner when I excused myself to go to the bathroom I had been feeling sick recently. On the way back I ran into Emmett.
"Bella can I talk to you for a second?" Emmett looked confused as though he didn't know what he wanted to say. I followed him out the back away from the family.
"Bella you know at Alice's party. We got pretty drunk together, I don't remember much but I remember dancing with you and then I woke up naked in one of the rooms. Did we, you know do it Bella?" I looked down at hands.
"Um yeah we did." He pulled my face up so he could look at me.
"Have you told Edward?"
"No and I don't plan on it either it was a drunken night Emmett something that won't happen again. I love Edward and we're trying to start a family together I don't want to hurt him over something that can be forgotten." He looked like I had just punched him in the face.
"If that's what you want Bella, I won't tell him either I promise." I gave him the best smile I could muster up at that point.
"Thanks Emmett." We walked back in to finish dinner with our family and nobody was any the wiser about what happened between us.
End of Flashback
When me and Edward announced we were having a baby the whole family was ecstatic. We had been trying for so long and we were finally rewarded. At the time I didn't think that the baby was Emmett's. It wasn't until my baby boy was born did I think of the possibility of it being his. While I was still in the hospital after giving birth I had one of the doctors run a paternity test. They were able to take some of Edwards's blood telling him that it was just to check for any sicknesses that could be passed down. It was a week later that I got the call telling me that Elijah was definitely not Edwards.
I came back to reality at the sight of my son grabbing cake and shoving it in his mouth. He was so adorable.
I looked at Edward watching our son with so much pride in his face. I had been finding it hard the last year to live with this lie knowing Elijah wasn't Edwards's son. Edward deserved so much better then what I had done to him.
Emmett walked over to Elijah picking him up.
"Come here little man Uncle Emmett will clean you up." He gave me a slight smile as he walked out to clean our son.
"Bella love, are you ok you don't seem yourself today." In all honesty I wasn't ok I didn't know how much longer I could keep living a lie with Edward.
"I'm fine just really tired, Elijah takes in out of me with all his energy." Edward laughed.
"Yeah I don't know where he gets that from me and you are quite relaxed compared to him. Maybe he has a different father." He was joking, but if only he knew the truth.
"I'm going to go and get him off Emmett, he needs to be put down for a nap anyway." I moved away from Edward to go get my son. I saw Emmett making funny faces at Elijah trying to keep him content while he cleaned his face.
"Thanks for that Em, you didn't need to." I said looking at him.
"No worries Bells, you looked like you were thinking about something." After Emmett confronted me about sleeping together he never acted strange around me. He went around as though nothing had ever happened between us. It made it easier for me to deal with.
"I'm just going to take him and put him down to sleep. Otherwise he'll be grumpy the rest of the day." I took my son from Emmett's arms and headed towards his nursery. Looking at my son while he was sleeping I knew I needed to do something about my deception to Edward. It wasn't fair to him to think that this gorgeous little boy was his. I needed to tell Edward the truth even if it did hurt him. I needed to clear my conscience for mine and my son's sake.
The last two months I had tried to tell Edward but every time I would go to tell him something would happen. Elijah would need me, Edward would have to go to work, his family would interrupt or I would just lose the nerve to do it.
I had decided that I would write a letter to Edward telling him everything. Writing the letter allowed me to say things that I don't think I could have said to his face. The only thing I left out of the letter was Emmett I wouldn't ruin his relationship with his brother because of what I did. I had asked my friend, Rosalie if I could stay with her in Seattle for a few weeks, just to allow Edward some time to settle down and take everything in.
Edward had gone to work earlier and wouldn't be home till late tonight. I packed mine and Elijah's bags with anything that we might need. And left the note on our bed where he would see it.
Edward,
I want you to know before you read anything else that I love you with all my heart. What I'm going to say is going to hurt you more than anything should and I 'm so sorry for that. Elijah as gorgeous as he is isn't your son. I'm so sorry I wanted him to be yours so badly when he was born, but he wasn't. I had a paternity test done when we were still in the hospital, I attached the test results on the back.
I swear to you Edward that it was only one time and I didn't mean for it to happen. We both got really drunk and it just happened. I'm so sorry for betraying you Edward in the most horrible way. I'm going to go away for a little while. I hope you can forgive me Edward. If you can forgive me and want me to come home just call me and I'll be home. But if you don't ring I'll understand completely Edward. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness.
I love you
Bella
xoxox
And me and Elijah walked out of Edwards life until he wanted us back, that's if he wants us back.