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The History Book

Chapter Eight – New desire

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Still thinking that Kishami was her real mother brought back more pain in her heart.

"Lily was right. If she had told me that Kishami, my real mother, was my father's murderer, I would get angry. Too bad I had to find out when I met the bitch."

Kagome's anguish in her heart disappeared quickly and was replaced by pure rage and hatred. All the anger she had subsided earlier for the sake of confronting Lily filled her soul again, as she directed all these emotions on Kishami. Kagome and never before wanted to hurt someone so badly…not even Naraku.

In the morning, she was going to go back to the Feudal era and open the history book that she left there. She was going to use it to help her find and destroy her blood mother.

Streaks of sunlight managed to seep through the blinds in Kagome's room, stirring the young girl awake from her rest. Slowly her eyes fluttered open, and quickly squinted from the glare. Groaning in disgust from the early morning's wake-up call, she tossed the covers over her head to block the light.

As her mind slowly began to remember the events from the night before, she instantly sat up in her bed and tossed the blanket aside.

"I have to go back through the well!" she shouted as she ran to the bathroom to get ready to travel five hundred years to the past. "I'm sure Lily will understand that I have to go back for a while. I'll just tell her I need some space. I need to destroy Kishami!"

"Achoo!"

"Bless you," Li said casually as he brushed off a leaf that fell on his shoulder.

Kishami and Li walked side by side through the forest a few villages away from the well so that Inuyasha and his friends won't be able to catch their scent.

"Thank you, Li. You've always been so respectful," Kishami said as she rubbed her nose.

"Kishami, what do you plan on doing next? Kagome and her friends only know that you're her mother, but other than that, they seem entirely confused. They still haven't figured out that Naraku is dead."

"Li, why ask this question? You already know what my plans for this world are," she spoke quietly as an evil smirk crept unto her face. "As for Kagome and her friends, I think it'll be alright to leave them in the dark for now. There will be a time when the truth will reveal itself."

Inuyasha stared out across the land from his position at the top of a tree. "I hope Kagome is alright." Suddenly he found the ground more interesting as he continued to think about the girl from the future.

"Inuyasha, when do you think Lady Kagome will return?" Miroku shouted from below, interrupting the depressed hanyou's thoughts.

Sango quickly nudged Miroku in the side and whispered angrily. "Shut up Miroku! Can't you see that Inuyasha's upset about the whole situation?"

"I can still hear you Sango," Inuyasha said quietly as he jumped down from the tree. Without looking at his friends he walked towards them. "I'm not sure how long it'll take before Kagome comes back, but we need to give her some time."

"Inuyasha, don't walk away. We need to talk about this business with Kishami, Kagome's mother!" Miroku shouted as he saw Inuyasha turn his back to head towards the forest.

"Miroku…" Sango said.

Inuyasha refused to look back at his friends. He wasn't sure what to say about the situation. Kagome was the one hurting the most at the moment, and he didn't feel right talking about it without her knowing.

"And what about Naraku? Somehow I think he's involved. Kishami mentioned that she knew about us since the day Kagome first came through the well, so why out of all times has she shown herself now, at the most crucial moment when Naraku is impossible to find and has the completed Sacred Jewel?"

Inuyasha paused and thought about what Miroku just said. 'It's true. Why has Kishami spoken up now? It must mean that Naraku is involved.'

"You're right Miroku," Sango said as she spoke up. "Inuyasha, I understand how you must feel right now, but we can not ignore this…"

"Of course not!" Inuyasha shouted as he turned around to face Sango and Miroku. "Of course I know that this can't be ignored! How could it? We're talking about Kagome's mother, her own flesh and blood that wants to kill her. I just don't feel like talking about it right now. I want Kagome to be here…"

"We understand Inuyasha," Miroku responded calmly. "But don't you feel we need to talk about this without her? She's too emotionally involved. Her feelings towards Kishami may cloud her judgment on what our next move should be."

"I know Miroku, I know. It's just that…it's her mother. She should be the one to decide what to do about it. It's not our decision to make," Inuyasha spoke softly as a vast range of emotions crossed his features.

"Inuyasha…" Sango said as she thought about Kagome and her feelings. Her dearest friend is in so much pain, and she didn't know what to do to help her.

"Inuyasha, Sango and, Miroku," Kaede called out as she walked out of her hut towards them.

All of their heads turned around to face the old priestess.

"Why don't ye all wait inside the hut for Kagome. Inuyasha is right, Kagome should be the one to decide what to do next. Do not worry Miroku. Kagome is a wise child. Right now she is searching her heart about the situation and will not let her feelings take over from what is important." Kaede spoke with wisdom in her voice.

"Inuyasha and Kaede are right. We should just be patient and wait for Kagome," Sango said.

"Shippou and Kirara are inside in the hut preparing lunch. Why don't we eat and rest?" Kaede suggested.

Everyone began to walk back towards the hut join Shippou and Kirara. Suddenly Inuyasha stopped halfway and sniffed. "That's Kagome's scent…she's back!"

Miroku, Sango and Kaede looked back to see a running hanyou.

"I need to get that history book from Kaede's hut. It tells the future! It can tell me what I need to do to defeat Kishami!" Kagome thought as she began to climb herself up from the bottom of the well.

Kagome felt movement from the vines she was climbing on and looked up to a see a hand held out towards her.

She instantly grabbed his hand, knowing full well who's it was.

"Kagome," Inuyasha said as pulled her out of the well to stand beside her.

"Inuyasha," she breathed as she smiled, already feeling the warmth and comfort from the man she loved, all of her hatred for Kishami momentarily faded. "I'm back."

"I mis…I mean, how are you?" Inuyasha hesitated as he managed to quickly catch his phrases. "How did it go with your mom?"

Kagome gave him a quick stern eye. "She's not my mother. And she explained as best as she could. I can't blame her, but…just don't call her my mom, please."

Inuyasha was taken aback by Kagome's sudden reaction to the word mom.

Silence over came them, and Kagome could not take it any longer. She started walking towards Kaede's hut. "We should go see Kaede and the others, Inuyasha. I have an idea on what we can do about our problem with Kishami."

Inuyasha's hand reached out towards Kagome as she walked away from him, but he suddenly held back. He didn't know how to comfort her. Secretly he wished that he had the courage to just hold her still with him, but for some reason, this Kagome made it hard for him to hold onto. It was like she was a different person. "Kagome, I wish you would just let me in..."

Managing to catch up with the angry girl, they walked together through the straw curtain to greet the others in the hut.

"Kagome!" Shippou shouted with happiness as he jumped into Kagome's arms. "You're back. Are you feeling better?"

"Shippou! Why don't you sit down beside the others as I explain myself?" Kagome said as she sat the young kitsune onto the floor.

"Lady Kagome, did you talk with your mother back home?" Miroku asked.

Once again, Kagome gave her friends that stern eye that warned, "I would appreciate it, if everyone here would not refer her as my mother. Just call her Lily…that's her real name."

"But Kagome…" Kaede started.

"I would really appreciate it Kaede…I'm not ready," Kagome whispered in a serious tone.

Everyone began to sit around the fire as Kagome informed her friends of what Lily had told her about her past. Each sentence that came from Kagome's mouth was filled with sadness.

Inuyasha became angrier whenever Kishami's name was spoken. He also noticed how each time Kagome mentioned her name, her lips shook. They weren't trembling in fear, but shook with held back rage.

When Kagome finished explaining, Miroku spoke up.

"I see. So, it seems that Kishami has lived in your time. This does raise a lot of questions though, like how was she able to travel through the well?"

"Keh, it's obvious Miroku," Inuyasha spoke up, his anger starting to take over. "She's a priestess like Kagome. Of course traveling through the well is simple for her."

Kagome couldn't hold back any longer. She wanted, no, needed to find Kishami. "I know what you mean Miroku. There's a lot of stuff with Kishami and my past that is mysterious. However, I know how we're going to find her."

"But Kagome," Kaede spoke up trying not to sound inconsiderate. "What about Naraku? What shall ye do about his mysterious disappearance?"

Kagome stood up looking around the hut for the mysterious history book as she spoke. "I don't know about the rest of you, but I'm going after Kishami. I'll go by myself if you all wish to search for Naraku. But honestly, if Kishami says she's the true reincarnation of Kikyo, then we're bound to run into Naraku. He will most likely be looking for her seeing as she could be a threat."

Kagome found her yellow backpack sitting in the corner of the hut next to some firewood. Her friends just stared as her as she rummaged through its contents to pull out the very large old book. "Besides," she continued, "this book is going to help us."

Everyone stared in surprise at the very large book Kagome took out. They had totally forgotten about the mysterious book that foretold their adventures ever since Kishami came into the picture.

"Kagome that book…" Sango said.

"I know. Someone who knew us wrote this book, and it tells our adventures. It already predicted that we would meet something ominous, that was, of course, Kishami showing up. This book will help us track her next move." Kagome explained as she turned to flip to the next page she left off from.

Everyone nodded in response, knowing full well that this is what they needed in order to find Kishami, and possibly Naraku.

As excited as everyone seemed to finally have an object that could solve all they're problems, Inuyasha didn't seem as pleased. Sure this book would help them, but he didn't like how Kagome has become so anxious.

Kagome sat back down with her friends around the fire and began to read the next page.

"In the pursuit to search for their new enemy, Kishami. Kagome and her friends started to read the mysterious book in search for answers…"

"Wow…that's a little too specific isn't it?" Shippou questioned in surprise.

Everyone nodded, as Kagome continued to read.

"Battle after battle will come their way in their search for Kishami. Small demons and even very peculiar ones will cross the group as Kishami prepares herself for her next encounter.

Along their journey to the East, they found themselves in front of a castle that held an interesting past that would involve both Kagome and Kishami. The group decided to stay the night and find out more information."

"Okay, that's it!" Kagome shouted in success as she closed the book. "We have our next direction, and if the book says it'll help us with understanding more about Kishami, then this is the place we need to go!"

"I guess we'll head out tomorrow morning, Lady Kagome?" Miroku asked.

"Yes. We'll need some well rested sleep tonight." Kagome turned to look outside to see that it already getting dark. "I'm going outside by the river to refill the bottles. Sango I'll leave the book to you. It's our most valuable source of information now, so you take care of it."

"Of course, Kagome."

With that said, Kagome rummaged through her backpack to pull out the desired bottles and headed outside the hut.

The rest of the gang started to discuss amongst themselves once Kagome was out of hearing range.

Inuyasha was the first to speak. "Kaede, do you think this is a good idea?"

Kaede sighed. "Inuyasha, I'm sure ye have already noticed that Kagome's spirit has started to become dark."

"Yeah, it was hard to miss," Inuyasha said sadly as he turned to look out the window.

"What do you mean Kaede? All of us here had become vengeful because of Naraku, why should it matter that Kagome now has strong feelings against Kishami?" Shippou questioned.

"You see, dear child, Kagome is not like the rest of you. She is a priestess, and her spirit must be kept pure in order to use her powers well. Now, her spirit has taken on such rage and hurt from her encounter with Kishami."

"But Kaede, if this is true, why hasn't Kikyo and Kishami's powers weakened as well?" Sango asked curiously. "Kikyo's hatred towards Naraku is vengeful, and Kishami's hatred for Kagome is very dark."

"That is because both Kikyo and Kishami have been trained for many years at the art of a spiritual priestess. They're spirit is not as sensitive as Kagome's, whom is very new to her own powers. They learned to control their spirit and emotions to their gain, however, for Kagome…it has become dangerous. Her hatred for Kishami is much more dark than her hatred towards Naraku."

Inuyasha turned to speak up. "Dangerous?! You mean, Kagome will be in danger from her own emotions?"

Kaede looked down towards the fire. "I'm afraid so. If Kagome does not learn how to separate her emotions from her power, in the next battle, she may find herself not able to use her sacred arrows or possibly worse…"

"We can't afford to go after Kishami now!" Inuyasha yelled angrily. His feelings towards protecting the young girl filled his gut.

"Calm down Inuyasha, I'm not finished," Kaede shushed. "It's true that her powers may weaken, but it can also become immensely strong. It all depends on Kagome."

At this, Inuyasha calmed himself a bit with relief.

"So you're saying Kaede, that Kagome can either become gravely weak, or super strong? How can she become stronger? What must she do in order to prevent herself from becoming weaker?" Miroku asked.

"To be honest, I'm not entirely sure. All I know is that it comes from training and experience for her to become stronger, like Kikyo and Kishami. However, it will be very unexpected how Kagome might be able to do this."

"So…does that mean we're still going to look for Kishami?" Sango asked.

"I guess so. Kagome seems so dedicated," Miroku answered, as he thought about the situation. "She said she would go by herself to find her, and if that's the case, I think it would be best if we all went with her."

Inuyasha had heard enough about all this talk with Kagome. He was starting to get sick of it. The entire conversation had been about how Kagome's life could be in danger, and the unknown scared him. If he could, he would force Kagome to not go after Kishami, but he knew that once she said the command, there was no stopping her.

Inuyasha started to feel betrayed by his friends. How could they just let her go? The fact that her emotions to her spiritual powers can go either way was so risky!

"I'm going outside," Inuyasha stated as he went out to look for Kagome. He needed to talk to her. He wanted her to know how she was feeling right now, but not only that. He wanted to comfort her. He knew that she liked to lean on him, but now it seems that she's distanced herself.

Inuyasha walked through the forest and headed towards the sound of the river. The sky had already darkened and the half moon shone a blue light over the land. He slowed his pace when he saw the girl that filled his mind bent over next to the running river.

His heart began to sink as he saw Kagome's once rosy cheeks gone pale as she filled water in their canteens. Her eyes that used to be filled with life now showed little luster under the moon's gaze. Oh, how Inuyasha wished he could just pick her up and wash away all her fears, all her anger, and all her pain.

"Kagome…" He spoke up, grabbing Kagome's attention from her thoughts.

Kagome turned around to see the hanyou looking down at her.

"What is it, Inuyasha?"

"How are you feeling?"

Kagome began to stand up after filling up all the bottles. "I'm fine Inuyasha. We're all set on our course tomorrow, so we should be getting a lot of rest tonight."

"Cut the crap Kagome!" Inuyasha yelled, getting tired of Kagome's distancing. "Stop faking it like you're fine. You found out yesterday that Kishami killed your father and wants to kill you. You are not fine, Kagome."

Kagome's plain expression turned to anger as she shouted back at Inuyasha, "Fine! You're right. I'm not exactly calm about the matter, but what do you expect me to do? Cry all night long feeling sorry for myself? I'm not going to be that girl anymore. I want to destroy Kishami. I feel so much anger boiled up inside me right now that I want to…"

Kagome's explanation was cut short as Inuyasha grabbed onto one of Kagome's flailing arms to pull her into a tight embrace. One of his arms managed to snake itself around her small waist, while the other held the top of her head close to his chest.

Kagome held a short intake of breath as she impacted his hard chest, her arms suddenly going slack at the sudden movement.

Inuyasha spoke with a shaky voice. "I hate this Kagome. I hate what you're doing to yourself. Ever since you came back from your home, you put up a tough façade to hide how you're truly feeling."

Kagome's hands began to move to place itself on Inuyasha's chest as she grabbed the front of his haori tightly.

"Inuyasha…I can't show weakness anymore. Kishami is coming after me. If I expose any feelings of sadness, I feel like she's beaten me. She already came to kill my father, and that night I couldn't do anything but cry. But now, I can do something."

Inuyasha held Kagome closer. "I know, Kagome. I can understand why you seek revenge so much, but…don't let it change you. I don't want your spirit to become darker because of a bitch like Kishami."

Kagome didn't know how to respond. "He thinks my spirit has become darker? But, Inuyasha, I'm still the same person…I'm just…angry."

Unconsciously a small tear started to form in her eyes. She didn't think that her anger for Kishami had made her darker…

Suddenly the tears wouldn't stop, no matter how much she tried to force them back, "Inuyasha…I didn't mean it…I didn't mean for this to happen, it's just that you don't understand how that woman makes me feel."

Inuyasha pulled back Kagome's head so he could look into her eyes. He took his thumb and wiped away a heavy tear that streaked down her pale cheeks.

"Kagome, its okay. Just for this night, just cry out all of your feelings towards her. It's okay to show weakness, I'm here to protect you. She won't win just because you're hurting," Inuyasha said as cupped her cheek with his warm hands, bringing her face to rest under the crook of his neck.

Kagome began to cry out all of the pain that she held within herself for the past two days. It was true that her anger had taken over, but deep down, the old Kagome was tearing up inside. If Inuyasha weren't here to convince her to cry out, she would have held onto the sadness until her heart suffered.

She didn't even notice when Inuyasha carried her onto his lap as he positioned himself beside a tree.

Kagome didn't notice when Inuyasha placed a soft kiss on her forehead.

Well, there was a bit of fluff for everyone haha. It was actually really hard to transform an angry Kagome to a sad one. But it NEEDED a fluffy scene!

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