The cold snow on the ground. The dirt that now keep me from Jack. The cold wind blowing causing me to shiver standing next to Bobby. Tears rolling down my face stinging from the cold wind. Jack was gone, and there was nothing I could do to bring him back. My heart aching, I never felt so lost in my life. The boys started to walk away but I didn't have it in me to move. I felt a arm grab me pulling me away from Jack. My Jack was gone, no wedding, no children, no lets grow old together. I then looked at who was pulling me away to see Angel. "You are going to get sick staying out here all night." I took one last look at the grave, I would never see Jacks face again. I would never hear his voice telling me that he loved me. I took a deep breath then fallowed the guys to the car. My eyes still locked on the grave as we drove away to where it was no longer in my sight.

Once we got to the house everyone sat down in the living room. I was on the couch where Jack was sitting before he was taking away from me. I missed him so much already.

"Never should of came home." I heard Bobbys voice, and could tell he was crying. "Never should of came." He looked up at the pictures on the wall. Jacks smiling face, I looked down at the floor as more tears spilled from my eyes.

"I'll miss him to." I heard Angels voice. "We wont be able to bring him back, but we are going to send him some company."

"You cant go to war with Victor Sweet, not straight up." I didn't hear the rest of what Jerry had said but when I heard Bobby's voice I looked up at him.

"I don't know what to do anymore, I already lost one brother. You guys are all I got." Jerry stood up.

"I got a idea."

"What?"

"We take the rest of the insurance money from mom, pay Sweet to call off the dogs. He will deal." I just got up and walked out of the room. I knew they was planning something stupid and I would end up watching another one of them shot. I walked up to Jacks room and laid down on the bed. I looked over at his things laying on the floor. It still felt like he was still here. It was like he was out with his brothers and I was here just waiting. However I knew he wasn't coming back. No matter how long I laid here waiting, Jack would never be back. I got up and started packing my clothes, I figured it would be best for me to go back home. Home would even remind me of Jack, our things still in our old apartment. I figured once I got home I could get a new place to live and start over again. Bobby walked in the room seeing me pack my things.

"Where are you going?"

"Back home."

"Why?"

"It reminds me of Jack to much here." Bobby sat down on the bed and looked up at me.

"What if I help you get back at Sweet for what he did to Jack." I shook my head.

"Getting back at Sweet will not bring him back Bobby, you and I both know that."

"He killed my mother and my little brother Amber. There is no way he is getting away with this." I shook my head then sat down beside him.

"I understand Bobby but, this, this life isn't for me."

"You unloaded that whole clip in that guy and you are telling me this life isn't for you!"

"What I did was wrong." I got up to walk away but Bobby grabbed my arm stopping me.

"No what they did was wrong, they killed my mom and my little brother! They took Jack from you how can you say what you did was wrong!"

"That guy mite have a family somewhere out there and look what I did!"

"That was his own dumb fault for coming after us! We could all be dead because of them guys."

"Maybe that is what I wanted!"

"For us all to be dead?" I tried to pull away from Bobby but his grip became tighter.

"I just want to be with Jack, if Jack is dead then I want to be dead to!"

"What about me!" He was now standing and in my face.

"What about you?"

"When I kissed you, what I said in the car and I know you heard me." He finally let go of my arm.

"I love Jack, and you know that." Just then Angel walked in the room.

"Bobby, we got to go now."

"This isn't over, stay here."

I sat there on the bed waiting. Normally I wouldn't listen to Bobby but something was telling me to stay in Jacks room. I heard voices fade and the door slam. I was now alone, in the house, in Jacks room. Sitting there I could still smell Jack. Then I thought my mind was playing tricks on me. "Hey." I looked up to see Jack standing in the door way. Was my mind playing ticks on me? I blinked a few times then look at him again.

"Jackie." He just smiled at me.

"I'm here baby."

"You left me, and you promised me you wouldn't." Tears started rolling down my face.

"I am still here with you and I always will be."

"Yeah, but not here with me like you should be." He just shook his head.

"You know that day in the car when Bobby said he like some girl." I just shook my head. "I know he was talking about you. I also knew you loved me so much that you wouldn't ever leave me for Bobby."

"I still wouldn't." He smiled.

"I want you to, Bobby will take care of you, and he needs you to take care of him." I stood up and walked closer to Jack.

"I like Bobby, but I love you so much more."

"I know you do, but you deserve so much more then loving someone who is no longer around to love you. You should be loved, become a wife and a mother."

"I wanted that with you."

"I did to but we both know that is impossible now. However Bobby can give you what you need." I started to laugh.

"Come on Jack we both know Bobby is a fuck them and leave them type of guy." He just smiled at me.

"He used to be until you came along. Take care of yourself, and Bobby. I'll be watching."

"Jack! Wait!" It was to late he was gone. I ran all threw the house yelling his name. I needed to see him, again. Once I ran all threw the house not finding him I finally give up and fell on my knees in the living room crying and screaming out his name. The door opened but I never heard it. Bobby came running over to me picking me up off the floor.

"Amber what's wrong."

"I saw him, I talked to him, he let me alone again." Bobby carried me over to the couch.

"Do you want to tell me what you talked about?"

"No, I just want him back Bobby."

"I know you do and I wish there was a way I could bring him back for you, but I can't. I should have been me instead of Jack, I should have done a better job at protecting him." Bobby was now in tears.

It then hit me, this was what Jack was talking about. I had to take care of Bobby and he was to take care of me. I just wondered when Bobby would see Jack. I now understood why Jack was sitting at the table looking at his mothers seat and not looking up at me or anyone else. His mom was talking to him just like he was talking to me. I reached up and using my hand tried to dry up most of the tears on Bobby's face. "I'm in." He looked at me confused. "I want that fucker to pay for what he did, I want in." Bobby shook his head as I got up off the couch.

"Lets go to Jerry's." I fallowed Bobby out to the car.

As we got there Jerry was sending his wife and kids away for safety. He was talking to them as Bobby and I stood in the yard. Bobby walked over to the car while I stayed back waiting. Once the car pulled away we walked in the house. Jerry got everything ready to go as we waited for Angel to call. Just then we heard a car horn. "Not till we hear from Angel." I hear Bobby say to Jerry.

"JERRY!" I heard a voice outside the door.

"I am coming." Jerry yelled back. Just then the cell phone rang. After Bobby was done he grabbed me and pulled me out to the back door. Jerry walked out the front.

"You trust me right?" I shook my head, Jack trusted Bobby so I knew that I should to.

Let me know what you think, I only have 2 more chapters left. Then I am done with this fiction!