Disclaimer: Hey, guys! Sorry I took so long in updating but I do have a reason. 1) I had a terrible case of that 'disease' we all call "Writer's Block". Someone needs to come up with a cure for that damn sickness. Who's with me?

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Yeah. . . And 2) I was trying to reach 50 reviews on chapter eleven alone. And I was so close! I only needed one more review. But, it's okay.

So, here's chapter twelve! Enjoy!

The month of January passed by like a breeze. I can barely make out some of the moments in the past month.

I still can't forget about that kiss Kagome and I shared on New Years. You can't really blame me, though. I mean, come on. Would you forget about kissing the person you're in love with? I don't think so. The thing is, I've found myself in positions like the ome that night. That same feeling, you know, the one where my body and face slowly starting drifting to hers somehow, continues to come over me. It's not like I didn't want to kiss her before. But the feeling is like a million times stronger now. Probably because I already know what her lips feel like.

There is absolutely no word to describe how soft her lips were. They were not chapt or wet. They were. . . well, perfect. I can't find any way to describe them. They just felt so amazing against mine. The sensations that shot through my body were strong enough to knock someone out. Saying that I saw stars and felt fireworks shoot through me was an underestimate. It was more like a nuclear war just went off. They just decided to drop the bomb right when I kissed her.

I tried to avoid all possible eye contact with her, but that was like asking water not to wet you. In other words, impossible. It was awkward to talk to her again, don't get me wrong. We barely talked or made any eye contact, which was good, in a depressing way. The tension sort of melted away after awhile and we were able to talk like we normally did. That's when making eye contact got harder. Because every time I looked up, my eyes seemed to be like a magnet to hers. I just couldn't pull myself out of the trance. It was her voice, of course, that always woke me up from it.

It was a sort of strange thing, actually. When she talked to me, she seemed to ignore any subject that talked about boys. She never said a thing about anyone and when I asked, in her own way, she tried to push the subject away. I didn't push it further. I didn't want her mad at me. But I was still curious.

Trying not to think about the kiss is actually extremely hard. I got detention, twice, for going off and remembering the kiss. The only good thing about detention was the fact that it gave me even more time to think about the kiss. I really need help. . .

In other news, Valentine's Day is coming up! Joy to the world!

Sorry about the tone of sarcasm in my voice but I absolutely despise that day. Not only because couples are prancing around happily on that day and gives the guys in this school a perfect time to break yet another girl's heart but for the obvious reason that I do not have the girl that I am in love with. Oh, and let's not forget that I don't even have the guts to ask her out. Then again, the awkwardness of her New Years party has not left so it would feel strange to ask her out. You gotta love excuses!

So, now, here I am, stuck in 4th period English. I know that staring at the clock and trying to manipulate the laws of time is impossible, but how about we push that little thought to the back of my head and keep trying. Only five more minutes until this class is done. Kami, why can't time move faster? All I want to do is get out of here, go to my lunch table and wait for Kagome to come.

About ten seconds before the bell actually rang, I got up from my chair and went out the door. The bell rang right after that and everyone flooded out of the room, running over me as if i was nothing but a low test grade no one cared about on the floor. Now I'm comparing myself to a peice of paper. Great. I really need help.

I sat down in my regular chair and waited. How did I get here so fast, you ask? I'll tell you as soon as I figure it out myself.

In no time at all, Kagome was sitting next to me. I grin wiped across my face.

"Hey." I greeted. I still can't believe that after all this time I couldn't find a better way to say hi to her. I am pathetic.

"Hey." She greeted back, just as happy, apparently. There were a few moments of silence as I racked my brain for a good conversation. Though, I don't think I'll need one since Sango will be here any minute and blabber on with Kagome. I waited a bit longer but Sango didn't come. I looked back and around the whole entire area.

"Is everything alright?" I turned back to Kagome. I guess she noticed what I was doing.

"Um, yeah. . . Where's Sango?" Surely Kagome would know where Sango was.

"She didn't come in. She's sick." Now, this was weird. Sango was the type of person who would always bundle up and make sure she didn't get sick. Even if she did get sick, she would come to school prepared for her sickness. She would bring a box of tissues to every class and cough drops. How could she have gotten sick and not come. Kagome must have seen that I was confused because she smiled and said something else.

"She didn't come because she thought Miroku would come."

"But, Miroku's sick, too."

"She doesn't know that. She got into another fight with Miroku yesterday." Now, that I had to laugh at. Miroku always had a way to piss someone off.

"What did he do now?"

"He was talking to a girl and Sango saw him. She got mad and left but Miroku saw her and chased after her. Sango was so busy in trying to get away and Miroku was so busy in chasing after her that they both forgot their coats and got sick." I sighed and shook my head. He always has to screw something up. "You'd be surprised that he wasn't flirting with the girl." My head shot up and I stared at her. She was right, I was surprised. That's completely impossible. Miroku not flirting with women was like Cupid becoming a banker and giving Miroku a reality check.

"What?"

"That girl was part of the commitee who sells carnations for Valentine's Day. He was asking how much a bouquet would cost for Sango. Sango took it the wrong way and thought that he was flirting." Wow, I can't believe it. Miroku really does like Sango. A lot, apparently. There was still one question I had, though.

"How do you know all this? Are you like Cupid in disguise or something?" She giggled and I couldn't help but smile.

"This all happened when I was waiting for you so we could go home."

''Really?"

"Yup. I watched all of it. I thought he was going to resolve it but, well, this happened instead." I nodded, still pretty surprised. I mean who would've thought Miroku would change? He's never changed. Not even for his girl friend he didn't change. Maybe he really, I mean really, likes Sango after all.

I sighed again and watched Kagome eat her lunch before smiling. How could Kami have created someone so. . . I don't even have a word to describe her anymore. She's completely indescribable. It still confuses me how I could have hated her before. Well, not hate her. Just not talk to her as much. She must have seen me look at her because then she gave me a weird look.

"What?" I wonder if she remembered. . .

"Remember when I first met you?"

"Not really. . . I don't remember the exact moment but I remember not talking to you so much." Strange, I don't remember when I met her either. How can I not remember how I met the person I'm in love with. I'm a disgrace! "Although, I do remember the time you tried to jump over a rock with a stick yelling, "I'm Luke Skywalker!", then you fell flat on your face 'cause you ended up tripping over the rock." She said laughing hysterically. Oh, yeah! I remember that. That was pretty funny. Painful but funny. My knee hurt a lot after that. . . Oh, I got one!

"I remember the time you got mad at one of your friends. You got so mad you took their water bottle that was in their hand and threw it on the floor and left."

"Well, she was getting really annoying--"

"So, you pretended the water bottle was her head." Her and I both laughed. I have to admit, it was a little scary but when you look back on it, it's pretty funny. "Good times, huh?"

"Yeah. But, that's all over now. The past is the past." That's what I hate. Everything changed. And things are going to change even more now. She's gonna leave and. . . I might never see her again. . . The next bell soon rang, meaning lunch was over. I walked her back to class and returned to my regular classes, the thought of change on my mind. There were only two things I was afraid of in this world. That's change and losing Kagome, but I'm afraid of the second one even more, which has to start with the first on before that happens. It's true, if things change anymore, she might leave and I won't see her again. And, knowing that it's a possibility, I'm scared to death.

The thought never left my mind, not for one second. It stayed with me until the end of the day, where I drove Kagome home. The conversation on the walk to the car was good. She started remembering even more things about the past. All sorts of things like the time where one of our friends told us a really weird story about some guy she liked. It was really weird. I mean really weird.

We both got into the car and buckled in. I turned the car on and smiled as I listened to some of our other memories. It was nice to look back on the past. So many good and bad things happened but you can still look back and laugh about the dumb moments in your life.

The drive didn't take that long. I guess time flies when you're having fun because when we got there, me and Kagome couldn't stop laughing. I could barely breathe from all the laughing I was doing. I was laughing so hard I honked the horn of my car by accident. After that, we ended up laughing harder because Kagome's next door neighbor, who was a grumpy old man, yelled at us in the funniest voice you wouldn't even be able to hold back your laughter.

When the laughter subsided, Kagome was about to leave but I stopped her.

"Hold on, Kagome." She turned to me with that comfused expression on her face that you have to love. I had to fight back a smile.

"Yeah?"

"Um. . . Don't you ever wish that you could. . . well, you know. . . Go back to the past?" She closed the car door and watched me. I could see she was still a little confused.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, there are so many great memories in the past. Wouldn't you want to re-live them?" She was quiet for a moment before she gave me a smile that took my breath away.

"They're only great memories because of the time that has passed." It was weird, but I actually understood what she was getting at.

"I'm just. . . Scared. . ."

"Of what?"

". . . Change."

"Why are you scared of change?"

"Because, for me, change has always only been for the worse. Everyone leaves when things change. Nothing is ever the same. I don't want to lose anyone. . ." Well, there's the truth. The truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. What I hadn't expected was for her to put her hand on mine and feel the thunder storm begin inside of me.

"I know what you mean. I don't want to lose anyone either. But, change doesn't mean you'll someone or something. Maybe, you'll gain something. Maybe, you'll gain someone. Change isn't always for the worse, Inuyasha." I looked up at her. I had to tell her what I was really afraid of. A part of me didn't want to, but that part was so tiny and the other part was much too dominant to stop.

"I'm afraid of losing someone. Someone who is special to me."

"Who?"

". . . You." My eyes locked on to hers and I immediately felt the magnetic pull. It was so hard to resist. I wanted to give in, but it would make things even worse. I couldn't give in, I needed to stay in control. The only problem is, I don't really know what that means anymore. I leaned in and stopped myself before leaning in more then stopping myself again. It was as if I was a student driver, trying to stop myself from crashing. It would only be a matter of time before I do in this case.

I finally came back down to Earth when I realized my lips were only centimeters from touching hers. I was so close to her again, I could feel the breath I had missed so much on my lips. It took every single ounce of will and power not to just crash my lips on to hers.

"I-I-I have to go." She whispered before opening her door and running to her house. I stared at her out the window and sighed in relief. It almost happened again! How could I let myself be so vulnerable?! Then again, it is Kagome. . . Wait, what am I saying? There is no excuse for my actions. I turned the car back on and drove home.

I almost ruined my friendship with Kagome. . . Again! Damn it, why did Kami have to make her so attractive!? I'm going to have lots of complaints when I get up there so he'd better prepare himself. Oh, great, now I'm threatening Kami. That's a one way ticket to hell. Okay, here's a little something you guys listening to the story can do. Give me the number of a shrink 'cause like I said, I really need help.

A/N: And there's chapter 12! I'm really sorry it took so long but it's here! Like I mentioned in the earlier chapters, you can start voting on which story you want me to write next. This story will be coming to an end soon :[ But, don't worry, there will still be a few chapters before the end. Remember to R&R! Until Next Time!

Oh, before I forget, if you guys have any questions, feel free to mention them in a review or P.M. me. I'll answer your question next chapter or answer you with a P.M. Okay, now I'll go.