Chapter 7- Misunderstood
"What?" she asked. She didn't understand anything.
"Right, then it's true, you'll avoid me. But I ASKED YOU, I asked you when we were at the hospital"
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?"
"RIGHT! Keep avoiding answering. THEN IT'S FREAKIN TRUE!"
"WHAT IS TRUE?"
At this point they were both yelling at each other………………
"You know, you were talking about it" he said finally calmly after she asked for the 23rd time earnestly what is true.
"You should stop eavesdropping!" she shouted.
"And you know, you should stop KEEPING ME SECRETS!" he shouted back.
"That's because you misunderstood! We weren't…"
"Yeh that's right. I was wrong and pigs can fly!" he interrupted sarcastically remembering the conversation and the part of the "precaution".
"You're so stupid, how am I to communicate with someone like you! You don't try to listen!"
"I try to listen but this is nonsense and if someone is stupid that is YOU! I thought this subject is closed when we talked about it first day but no… you LIED!"
"I NEVER LIE TO YOU!" she said on top of her voice practically screaming.
"Listen both of you. Firstly calm down, you won't communicate by yelling. Secondly, son, what are you talking about? We were just saying…"
"Don't try to cover her, mum! I understood. Quite understood. Well…" his voice dropped down and he was now muttering to himself "I'll go in my room to reflect"
"What well?" she asked as she didn't listen him.
"Nothing…"
"OK nothing. BYE I'm going… this is such a non-sense conversation. Forget the film" she said irritably.
"Yeah I forget the film and EVERYTHING else. There's no story when there's a lie!"
"Right. BUT… There's no story when there's no respect!"
"What does that MEAN?" he asked but she had already slammed the front door.
He went in his room, thinking about what happened. :I DO respect her; it's her that told me a lie what the hell:
He began to pace in the room for few minutes in silent, thinking about he disrespected her. Then he switched on the radio on 147.9 FM and went on his bed.
"… and now we would like to receive many messages. So start sending your message with the name of a romantic song and to whom you're gonna dedicate it. Don't forget you're on 147.9 FM and you're listening to Dj Max on Romantic Music time to play…"
"Right, that's what I need to listen now…" he thought aloud.
"… oh yes and I forgot to tell you to send your messages on 50501479 or else email me on Yes yes SEND YOUR LOVE TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND or…"
"YEH that's right I will after she lied to me you stupid radio" he said as though the radio was human.
"…and stop talking. And here the first message. I dedicate 'I'll be right here waiting for you' to my Merie because she's traveling for 1 year. I'm gonna wait for you babe and I love you very much…"
Tsubasa didn't continue to listen; he just thought and got flashback of three years before.
- Flashback - (Author: Tsubasa's POV yes yes we'll discover what he was thinking)
I was on bed, Sanae switched on the radio. I knew something will happen, it was magical. Advertising were played on the radio but then… yeh I remember, 'I'll be right here waiting for you'. It was magical and I knew she will wait for me. I cried inside myself; I was leaving her and she will wait for me. But I smiled. Finally we knew we love each other.
Wherever you go,
Whatever you do,
I'll be right here waiting for you,
Whatever it takes,
Or how my heart breaks,
I will be right here waiting for you.
These words. I couldn't cry inside me anymore. I knew Sanae was crying and I left a tear going down my cheek. I thought when I'll be back I will give her something very precious in my family. Mum gave it to me, she told me to give it to a special girlfriend. I thought Sanae… but mum told me that dad gave it to her when he asked her to marry him. Shall I do the same? But then my thoughts were drove away by her sobbing louder. I'll hug her that's what a girl will want. And I hugged her. I also touched her face and she looked at me. She didn't know I was crying and when she saw my eyes full of tears she sobbed louder. I couldn't find comfort words. Instead I kissed her. It was a very passionate kiss on the lips. It's my best kiss ever; I want to share it with her only…
- End of flashback -
His thoughts were driven away by a song on the radio…
In the meantime; Sanae ran to home, she arrived in 5 minutes and went straight to her room. She kept thinking the same thing…:Why, why does he have to listen secretly? And why not listen to me… he doesn't respect me… but… I ran away, not even caring to answer his question, yeah the question I didn't want to listen and so I slammed the door. I knew he asked me what does that mean… in fact no, he does not respect me! But, it's just today… I still don't understand what he misunderstood in the conversation with his mother. Something terrible I guess, for not wanting me to speak, for running away in his room. But… No buts. He does respect me. I was unrespectable. Still he didn't tell me. Oh gosh I'm so confused I dunno what to do and say and… waaaaaahhh I'm in love and I'm angry:
She went to switch on the stereo… :Yeh I need to listen to some music, it clears my mind:
"…let it rock…Rock and metal and her it is NIGHTWISH with end of all hope"
And the song began. "Freaking rock yuk. I guess it is end of all hope though" and she sighed. She went to change channel on the radio.
"…whom you're gonna dedicate it. Don't forget you're on 147.9 FM and you're listening to Dj Max on Romantic Music time to play it. Alright now guys. What Mike? oh yes and I forgot to tell you to send your messages on 50501479 or else email me on Yes yes SEND YOUR LOVE TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND or ask her to forgive you…"
:This is a good channel. Well if I knew Tsubasa would listen… NO WAY. I'm not asking him to forgive me. He did not even want to listen to me:
"…message. I dedicate 'I'll be right here waiting for you' to my Merie because she's traveling for 1 year. I'm gonna wait for you babe and I love you very much, love Ales. That was indeed very romantic of you Ales. A lot and lots of messages I receive say they miss their babes but I guess you will miss her more as she's traveling…"
"I know how you feel Ales dear as I waited and missed Tsubasa so much. Hope you do not have my destiny and fight and broke after the first week" she thought aloud and immediately her thoughts fell on Tsubasa at the airport.
After minutes of thinking she yelled "BUT WHY?" and she kicked the cupboard.
"…yeh but I survived and now married her. I said so much sorry but by the way I will play your song after this one. Everyone listen and appreciate"
And a song that made Sanae heart beat faster begun.
"This song…"
It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
"YOU'RE STILL THE ONE" she cried aloud
Tsubasa was in his room, and this was the song that drove his memories away.
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on
"Why, why, why didn't you tell me? I wouldn't be this mad. And why I didn't respect you? This is so stupid God. Yeh you still turn the fire on"
So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
"Too true" Sanae whispered and let a tear fall on her face,
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should
"I always love you more then the day before" choked Tsubasa. He felt his inside escaped.
Please forgive me I know not what I do
"I don't feel guilty… you should, but… but why I'm crying then?" she said as if he was in front of her waiting for her to sing the song.
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
"You should ask me to forgive you, but I can't stop loving you. Too true"
Don't deny me
"Oh"
This pain I'm going through
"Surely he was hurt" she said sobbing louder.
Please forgive me
"PLEASE FORGIVE ME… what did I do hell! Why did I slam the door? HE ASKED ME WHAT I MEANT, we could've explained ourselves if I wasn't so stubborn to not listen to his voice again. I…Lost…h…him" she cried.
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
"Oh God, What if she's right?" he asked himself "maybe if she really likes me she was saying the true and… and… and I… OH MY GOD I'm so stupid heck. I misunderstood" and he smack his forehead.
Please forgive me
"Sanae PLEASE forgive me I'm stupid" and a tear dropped on his face. He got up from the bed and got to his mobile…
No battery
"HELL" and he threw it on the bed not caring to see what the noise was… The mobile fell from the bed.
I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
"Those were times" he said as searched the room for a photo on the wall. There he noticed the mobile on floor next to the photo. "Guess it fell when I slammed the door" and he picked a photo of him and Sanae in front of the airport kissing. It was a photo Yukari gave him… It was day he was wishing would come so immediately. The day he would come back to Japan and re-find Sanae.
We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do
He charged the mobile and switched it on… "Come on hurry I'll have to call her"
One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
"That's it… the only thing I depend on is YOU and us staying together. I'll cry out so he listens to me, I ask him to forgive me…" she cried.
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...
"PLEASE FORGIVE ME" they cried in the same moment as if they were playing a movie.
"I'll call her and, and, ask her to forgive me for being stupid" he picked the mobile and dialed her number.
"God I shall call him… and tell him these words not yell them her to the radio" she searched for the mobile and dialed his number…
Sorry the number you have called is busy; please leave a message in the voice mail.
"HELL she doesn't wanna talk to me anymore and she blocked the calls from my number" he muttered angry with himself.
Sorry the number you have called is busy, please call later.
"Did he forget me so much to block my number?" she sobbed.
They both laid down on the bed, closed their eyes and thought. Sanae sobbed more and more while Tsubasa let some tears fall down his face and muttered 'I lost her, I lost her'.
But he didn't give up. An idea came in his mind. :The mobile does not detect the number when it's setting is set to anonymous. Great: and he got up to the mobile, arranged the settings and dialed her number.
Ring…ring…
"Then she did really block my number" he thought aloud.
Ring... "Hello" someone weak responded.
"S…Sanae…DON'T H…H… please don't hung up."
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