LET ME SLEEP

(Author note)-primeval however if anyone would care to give me the rights to series 3 i would not object.n the title is off s club 7-let me sleep as i listened to this while writing it :)enjoy oh yeah doesnt tonites episode look class?

(connor got back home by the way)

Let me sleep for a while.....

Echoeing footprints were herd down a hall,cold,empty,lonely then,a pull of a doorhandle a clicking lock and finally a sigh as the figure dropped onto a chair close by to what?

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A just any bed though,his ex's bed and where? A exceedingly secluded hospital floor that's lazed in the corner,slouched into the chair provided seeing the pale,fragile frame lie there as his eyes darted playing tricks, his vision blured as a thousand images shot through his brain at once.

This was a glorified nightmare...

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He shot up in bed, a cold sweat empailing his face,breathing laboured as his eyes began to focus upon it's surroundings as he panicked.

Was that a dream? he thought but it soon became apparent that it was as Rex swooped above the rafters overhead chirping as though he actually understood what Connor was thinking.

Now focused he gazed over to the clock that said six in the he would be awake for at least another two hours before he actually had to be at work,however a thought suddenly struck him-he could go to the hospital and find out if or not Abby was there and check tthat everything was okay.

'Right Rex mate it's time I sorted me life out, what do ya think?

As per usual he critted now settled on one of the metal beams that supported the watched curiously at Connor attempting to get dressed before scampering for the car keys as his voice hit Rex causing him to recoil as the student said his goodbyes slamming the front door thick and fast leaving an extremely confused Rex on the other side.

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Connor slammed on the breaks as he stopped outside the hospital. His hand brushed the radio off as he got out, slamming the door, his breathing heavy 'Please be alright...' he begged as he approached the reception as quickly as he could, tears running from his wiped his sleeve across his face absorbing the tears that ran down his face as the receptionist came out of her office.

'Hello can I help you'

'Er ..yeah..yeah if you could'

'Well that depends on what your after' she tittered

'Er is Abby Maitland at this hospital? She has just had a baby'

'Hang on I'll just check.......'she spoke persivering on the computer tapping frantically on the keys...'Yes she is but before I give out anymore information may I ask who you are?'

'Who am I' Connor questionned half clueless

'Yes how do you no Miss Maitland are you a friend or relative or..

It killed him for people to ask that what was he supposd to say?.His chest constricted tight as he took one last breath...

...I'm her....I'm her boyfriend he murmured, making eye contact for a brief second before looking away again.

'Oh well in that case then she's on the top floor, the nurses office is at the left hand side when you open the stair case doors'

'Er okay thankyou' His mind was a mess as he walked up the stairs, not knowing what to expect.

'Please... let her be okay...please...' he whispered, eyes tearing up again, legs aching from the stairs finally reaching the door.

Mustering up more strength he pushed the heavy weight door open, the creeking echoed across the entire floor causing a women to come out of that left hand side room great concern eched across the features upon her face.

'Yes, who are you?' she rushed bitterly

'Erm ...Connor.. me names Connor Temple I'm here to see Abby'. 'Wait, I've heard about you from oh what was his name' she reminisced

'Stephen?'

'Er looked middle-aged scottish accent'

'Ahh Cutter'

'No that wasn't his name'

'His first name is Nick his last name is Cutter he's my work collegue'

'I see,yes he has told me about you, your the baby's father arn't you, Abby's ex boyfriend?'

'Yep that would be me what's he said about me'

'Nothing' the nurse lied looking him in the eye 'he just told me what you looked like incase you came.I suppose you better follow me then' as Connor began to follow her.

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'Wait why is she hooked up to all those machines-the drips there's even a heart monitor is she ok?' he voiced with great concern

'Yes she's okay, but the labour was particularly difficult Abby passed out twice whilst the baby was being she had to do this on her own for the first time in her life so it would of been intense for her, and to add to that there was some complications during the birth as she was in labour for just over fifteen hours the doctor had to interviene at the finish' but by now she could see the tears forming over his eyes like the anomaly's glass shard's, seeing her que to leave.

His world strong, kind girl he had fell in love with had gone... she was so frail...He began to cry heavily, his eyes hurting from the tears

"Abby..." He sobbed 'Abby baby what have I done to you' he whispered.

He'd cracked he'd finally seen what he had done as her hand lay gripped in his as he kneeled whipsering into her ear begging her to be okay over and over again, tears streaming down his face onto his he let go peering over into the cot that lay beside her the tiny baby layed on it's bent over the cot caressing the baby inside it that he took in his arms.

'Hey little one shhh you'll wake mummy up come on lets go for a walk' he sniffed

He paced the room that Abby lay in cradling the infant all the same as he took her into the nursery to calm her down.

'I'm so sorry,God you're small you've got Abby's eyes bet you get her haircolour too.I never should of slept with you're mum I don't regret you but it wasnt fair on Abby I said I loved her and she said it back.I can't keep denying that you're not mine because you are and the more I deny it the guiltyer I feel.I love you so so much you and Abby both but things got complicated and I've been stupid and chose Caroline over you and said she would only take me back if I had nothing to do with you but it isn't your fault your a baby.I may not always be around when you're growing up but I'll still love you and care about you ,when Abby comes home I could help look after you providing she doesnt throw me know seeing her like that hooked up to all those machines I want to make it stop, for it to all go away so she would get better so she could come home.I just can't believe she gave birth to you on her own with know one helping her through it apart from the nurses and midwife.I should of been in there holding her hand telling her everything would be ok but I didn't did I?I was at Carolines the entire time and now her parents have abandoned her since they found out she's not with the dad so I'm to blame for that as well.I love you but I have to go she'll be wondering where I am'.

Tears poured like twin rivers down his face his eyes bloodshot,his skin a patchy red and sore and the baby?.Well the baby's fingers were wrapped tightly round Connors little finger pulling hard at his heart strings knowing he had to leave her to go back to his girlfriend.

'Janet?' Connor beckoned the nurse 'I better will be alright though won't she?and the baby she'll be ok?

'Yes Connor try not to worry' those words were forced through gritted teeth she knew damn fine well what Connor had done Cutter had explained when he came to visit Abby a few nights ago.

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'Cutter isn't that her mini over the other side of the road' Stephen said pointing past Nicks head.

'Who's mini?'

'Abby's'

'Hmm dunno it might be'

'Duck Nick'

'What why?'

'Just duck Connors coming out the hospital'

Both men slouched down into their car seats as Connor walked past completly oblivious stopping briefly before crossing the road to get to the later the mini was at the end of the road heading up the high street.

'Caroline's'

'What,Stephen what's she got to do with us?'

Connor,he's heading for her house she lives up that way doesn't she?' he quizzed making eye contact with Nick

'Er yeah I think so'

'Good which means we can go in the hospital without being 's go'

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The clock on the wall showed nine in the morning.A women sat anxioushly tapping her fingers off the wooden table she sat at after slamming her mobile down after a phone call when the door went. As usual it had to be slammed to shut it properly causing the room to shake a little.

'Hey babe' he greeted placing a kiss on her cheek

'Where the hell have you been?'

'Er at the hospital'

'I hate you.I told you not to go you promised me you bastard' she screemed thrashing at him

'Caroline stop it it's not getting you anywhere' he retained grabbing hold of her wrists'

'The tears let themselves loose moistening her face as she began to sob 'Why...why do you do this for Connor you promised me...that you didn't want the baby..or her...you told me you loved me that you would give me the world and because of that bitch once again were on the verge of splitting up, she broke us up once I'm not letting her do it again'

Connor let go of her wrists bringing his hands up to rub his face as she sat down on a chair in the kitchen.

'Why,why do this, what's the point why must you always bring Abby into granted were close but I've known her for nearly three years we spend or used to spend every second of the day nothing is going on I love you why will you not accept it for Caroline what's so hard for you to accept....are you jealous of her is that it?

'No I'm not jealous of her but, why should she get all the attention from you, you constantly involve her in your life still when were the ones in this relationship not her.I feel like you're closer to her than to live together,work together you even have a baby together I'm just sat here on the bloody sidelines waiting to be told when it suits you for me to be in your life then,when we are alone together you end up getting called into work what is the point........

'So what you saying,that we should just end it because you can't trust me and you're jealous is that it?'

'Connor you slept with her whilst we were going out either you wanted to purposely hurt me or you wanted something on the side with no strings attached.......

'I know I slept with her I remember doing it but I regret it, I was drunk and why does everything have to involve you in it for?'

'Oh of course you would say that to my face wouldn't you, but honestly' she reasoned raisning her finger at him 'did you tell her that you loved her at any point?..........well'

'..yes'

'You bastard! I hate you, get away from me, how could you, I tell you I love you every day and this is what I get in return a stab in the back.

'Caro...

'Just go Connor I think it's for the best' she yelled as he stormed off smashing the door against the frame as he went.

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'Right come on Cutter hurry up were here now'

'Stephen your'e forgetting that you're at least five years younger than me and you're a lot more athletic'

'Well we here now so you can stop' he remarked pulling the exit doors open for Cutter and himself to go through

'Nurse?Janet?'

'Oh Nick hello have you two come to visit Abby?'

'Well sort was Connor here?'

'Yeah,he was here for about what twenty,thirty minutes max'

'Did he stay in Abby's room?'

'Yeah he did I heard the baby cry so he must of took it into the nursery to calm it down'

'There's a nursery?Where?' Nick spoke in shock

'Did you not know,it's in Abby's room the nursery is attached to the end of the room it's got surveilance cameras in to keep track of the baby make sure she's alright'

'Cameras....do they er... do they have sound on them?' he inquired

'Yes in colour and have sound, like I said to moniter the baby'

'Could we have a look at them by any chance'

'Well I don't know we're not supposed to really'

'Please we won't be long just ten minutes'

'Well go on then if you need me I'm just in the room next door' she gave in a smile crossing her face

' let's go'

They both sat down looking at the survielance screen in front of them as Stephen re-wound the tape.

'Woah wait stop,right there's Connor leaving so keep re-winding it'

'Right here we are he's just walked into the nursery....Do you think we should be doing this Nick do you not feel like it's wrong?'

'In a way but were just trying to sort it out just make sure Jenny and Lester don't find out'

There eyes averted back to the colour screen as they sat in silence listening to the tape

(the conversation from earlier that morning)

'I'm so sorry,God you're small you've got Abby's eyes bet you get her hair colour too.I never should of slept with youre mum I don't regret you but it wasnt fair on Abby I said I loved her and she said it back.I can't keep denying that you're not mine because you are and the more I deny it the guiltyer I feel.I love you so so much you and Abby both but things got complicated and I've been stupid and chose Caroline over you and said she would only take me back if I had nothing to do with you but it isnt your fault your a baby.I may not always be around when you're growing up but I'll still love you and care about you when Abby comes home I could help look after you providing she doesnt throw me know seeing her like that hooked up to all those machines I want to make it stop for it to all go away so she would get beter so she could come home.I just can't believe she gave birth to you on her own with know one helping her through it apart from thr nurses and midwife I should of been in there holding her hand telling her everything would be ok but I didn't did I?I was at Carolines the entire time and know her parents have abandoned her since they found out she's not with the dad so I'm to blame for that as well.I love you but I have to go she'll be wondering where I am'.

Suddenly crackling noisecame from the speakers it was Connor he was talking to someone on loud speaker on his phone.

'Yes I know how long I've been I came to the hospital ,Caroline I had to see them make sure they were ok'

'You promised me that you wouldn't ,you told me she was a mistake, you told me you didn't love her you loved me, huh so much for you not wanting to be a dad' Caroline bit back sarcastically

'I don't want to be a dad but this baby it's not her fault Caroline she's three days old and the only one who's ever held her was me she wrapped all her hand round my little finger it felt so good, I felt all warm and happy then I remebered the reality I was in, all this fighting'

'You didn't even want her Connor you told Abby to get an abortion but she refused ,you tell me she is nothing more than a drunken mistake ,you don't regret it do you?

'what?' he questionned down the phone

'Sleeping with that little whore getting her pregnant you did it on purpose didn't you?

Suddenly a voice became very raised and a angry tone replaced the soothed voice

'Don't you dare call her a whore if anyone is it's you talk about her like that once more and I'll..well I'll his voice drifted

'Connor just come to mine yeah so we can work this out'

'No you called Abby a whore how insensitive are you Caroline?..eh?...well?She nearly died having my child for crying out loud and you're telling me to choose between my own daughter and Abby or you.I can't just stop seeing them and cut them out my life why do you want me to? what are you afraid I'm going to do? get drunk and sleep with her again?.Because of you Cutter now hates me people at uni know what I've I'm coming to your's you're right we really need to talk it needs sorting out because it's becoming clear you don't trust me'.....'Caroline?The bitch she slammed the phone down on me.

Stephen stopped the tape as he began to speak towards Cutter

'Wow Caroline is a tad controlling towards Connor.I can't believe she wants hims to cut Abby and the baby out of his life.'

'Just shows how two faced he's being' causing Stephen to shoot Cutter a look of surprise.

'Well, Cutter continued 'he tells Caroline he wants her not Abby ,says she was a mistake and regrets it happening right? Yet, he tells the baby that he loves her and Abby and Caroline isn't exactly who his mind is he tells the baby he wants to be her dad however, he said to Caroline he doesn't want to be a can't even make his bloody mind up.

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The next few days passed slowly Connors relationship with Caroline became more heated and more arguements 's relationship with Connor became worse as he confronted the student about being two faced towards the three girls in his life. (+baby)

'Connor stop messing them about tell them how you feel, do you love them.' he ____

'Yes man Cutter piss off why don't you figure you're own relationship out?Oh wait you can't she ran out on you for time travel didn't she?' he bit back

'Connor that's it from today I'm not speaking to you anymore I've had it screw you, and I hope to hell that baby grows up resenting you and Abby too.'

Connor sighed deeply as he sat in the lockers his head in his hands staring at the pale blue flooring the lights turned out or were of a dim lighting what were on and everyone working at the ARC had long since gone home.

'Connor?What you still doing here?' Stephen asked thoughtfully

'What?oh... erm nothing just sat here because I am really, no specific reason'

'Connor don't take it to heart what Cutter said the man is extremly stubborn he goes in these little moods...Have you been crying?'

'Yeah, I don't care if you can tell I'm not bothered anymore'

'Look... do you really love Caroline?....Ok how do you feel about her then?

'Well' Connor wiped his eyes with his sleeve before carrying on 'I like her I really do but I don't think it will last she's too controlling she's making me choose between Abby and her'.

'And Abby how do you feel about her you fancied her for a long time so don't tell me your attraction for her just died.'

Connors eyesight began to blur he couldn't hold back anymore he had to get it off his chest 'No I still love her I can't bare to see her like that it makes my heart sink everytime I see her, she's normally so fiesty but she's so ill now so weak and I put her there because I got her pregnant, I wasn't there to hold her hand through it, tell her she would be okay.I don't regret sleeping with her or making her pregnant ,I regret trying to make her get an abortion and not staying with her because her parents now hate her too, admitting I loved her still or being with her through the 's going to hate me and I don't blame her it's my fault I turned her against me, she finally admitted she loved me and I through it back in her face'. By now the words were just bareable to hear as they started to blend together Connor babbling them out amongst breaths became more short like squeeks as Stephen tried to calm him down taking a seat next to him.

'Look Connor when Abby's better you need to sit down with her and talk to her, she's a extremly forgiving girl she has a good heart just like you, but if you want her to listen to you need to break up with Caroline before she comes out of you love her say so and if you want to be the dad tell her but Conn if you dont, you need to be there incase she needs you.

'But I want to be the dad I held her in my arms and it was the best feeling in the world knowing that she was mine knowing that I created her, but I rejected her don't babies know these things Stephen?.'

'Well,she wrapped her hand round your finger so I'm guessing no she must recognise you for her to do everything a bit of time besides I heard the doctors saying they were taking her off the drugs tomorrow so she must be getting better.

'Wait... how do you know about the baby grabbing my finger and how'd you know about Abby being taken off the drugs?

'Oh... you told me earlier' His words stumbled out making it sound completely fake

'No I didn't'

'Yes you did' he convinced

'No I didn't Stephen I havn't seen you all day until now'

'... okay Connor I apologise but me and Cutter kind of went to the hospital to see Abby and we may of heard your conversation with the baby'

'Excuse me your spying on me and how the hell did you see what I said to the baby'

'Surveilance monitors'

'Where' his face confussed and clueless

'In the nursery,take you didn't know either'

'Oh yeah Stephen this looks like a person in the know'

'Wait before you say anyhting or go in a one with me to be honest I..well I

'Yes'

'I just wanted to make sure you were okay lately you've done nothing but argue and fall out with people,you constantly look shattered aand you're not your old self anymore'

'Oh....Well I did think about hitting you when you told me you were so called spying on me but after the last few weeks I've had I figured that should be the last thing I'm trying to do right now fall out with more people.'

'Yeah come on I'll drop you off at the flat'

....'Thanks Stephen'..

ha omg i typed an entire chapter in one day n tonights episode duz look gud cum on guys admit it.i cn add more chapters coz im off for the nex 2 weeks so yay even though i was ill the day i broke up and yesterday which was quite crap duz that happen to u guys u get to ur hols then ur ill...well anyway all ideas for this story r welcome all though i have one or two meslef plz reveiw

kate x