Author's Note: Hey guys, sorry for the lack of update. I've just been busy these past few weeks with some school work such as exams, reportings, papers and I also have soccer trainings everyday, so I don't have that much time. And I was suppose to post a oneshot about last week or two weeks ago, but I got sick and I got stuck with it. But don't worry I will be posting it, I just need to figure out on how to end it. Hehe. So anyway, here's another oneshot. I hope you'll like this. I had no idea how I started with this, I just picked up my loptop and started to type random things and then I had a plot all of a sudden. Well then, go ahead and read. :)

I don't own anyone from this. It's all from Shonda's mind.

" It's like one step forward and two steps back

No matter what I do you're always mad

And I, I can't change your mind

I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street

I can't give you what you want and it's killing me

And I, I'm starting to see maybe we're not meant to be."

~ Not Meant To Be by Theory of A Deadman~

Addison was sleeping soundly on her very comfortable bed when suddenly she heard a crashing sound downstairs. Thinking that it was just the cat, she let it go and went back to sleep until she heard another crash followed by a loud swearing, which made Addison realize that there is someone else on her house. She scrambled to her feet and looked for something that can protect her; she decided to call Sam but realized she left her phone downstairs. Swearing, she picked up the lamp placed on her bedside table and then slowly and quietly walked downstairs. As she was nearing the bottom of the stairs, she noticed the intruder had opened the lights and from what she can hear, also rummaging in her refrigerator. Addison was so scared and just decided to go and scream for help but that will definitely alarm the intruder, so she decided to quietly as possible walk to the man and smash the lamp on his head.

'Yeah, that could work,' Addison thought 'Or, I could just run the hell out of here,'

"Damn! She doesn't have any food here?" said the intruder, which Addison didn't seem to hear.

Just when the intruder closed the refrigerator door, and was about to turn around Addison suddenly came out of her hiding place and then charged at the intruder.

"AAAAH!" shouted Addison, ready to smash the lamp on his head.

"What the--!" the intruder was startled by Addison's shout, and using his wrestling reflexes, he easily dodged the aim of Addison.

But Addison wasn't stopping, she kept on trying to hit the intruder with her eyes closed and she also kept on shouting. The intruder tried to shut Addison up and hold her down, but she won't budge. On the other house, specifically Sam's house, the boys were having a poker night and some beer. Cooper and Pete were a bit tipsy that's why they decided to sleep there. And when they heard a shout, a very loud shout from across Sam's house, all three of them were suddenly awakened.

"Was that Addison?" asked Cooper.

"Of course, it's her. Who else could scream that loud anyway, let's go!" Pete said.

All three of them ran to Addison's house and went inside through the backdoor. Meanwhile inside Addison's house, the intruder was still trying to shut Addison up. Sensing that Addison won't be stopping anytime soon, he snatched the lamp from her hands then threw it on the side then took both of her hands clasped it in his one hand only and pulled her to him then kissed her fully on the lips, which shocked Addison very much. That kiss made Addison open her eyes and when she did, she was even more shocked to see who the person was. Addison stood frozen on her spot, but when the guy started to run his hand on her back and side, she started to moan and kiss back. Then suddenly they were broken apart by a shout from Pete.

"HEY! GET OFF OF HER!" shouted Pete, pulling the intruder from Addison and then punched him.

"What the hell! You want to fight, huh? Let's fight then," the intruder stood up and was about to tackle Pete when suddenly Addison smacked his head.

"Argh! What's with you?! Why the hell did you do that?!"

Addison just kept on hitting the guy with her bare hands, while the three men were now very confused on what's happening. After a minute or so, Addison stopped and looked downwards, with her hands on her sides.

"Are you finished now?" asked the guy.

"Why are you here?" asked Addison.

"Do you really have to ask that? I'm here because you're here," said the guy.

"Yeah, right. Then why did it take you two years to come down here? And as far as I know, you never wanted me. You wanted Ava, a married patient of ours and when it didn't work out between the two of you, you went back to Izzie and married her. So please, enlighten me Alex Karev on why you're saying you're here because I am here," gritted Addison.

"So, I'm guessing we should head back and let you two talk," Sam said, ushering Cooper and Pete outside Addison's house. Addison doesn't seem to hear them and was staring at Alex.

"Addison, if you're in trouble just shout again, okay?" Pete said, very concerned for that woman he treats as one of his close friends.

When they were outside, Alex looked at Addison and he regretted for ever causing her that pain.

"I'm sorry Addison, I really am. About Ava, I never wanted her. Maybe I thought I did, but I didn't. She was just there for me when I rant random things about you and she helped me through studying for my exam back then. And for Izzie, I won't deny that I did love her. I mean hell, I even fell in love with her and yes we did get married but I know this is wrong, but I always thought that I just felt sorry for her that's why I did the wedding thing. But I did love her, that's all. Throughout the wedding, I kept on picturing what would you look like or what designer wedding dress will you wear for our wedding and who will be invited. Can't you see Addison, I never stopped loving you. Yes, Addison I love you. That's why I'm here, I am ready to be a man and accept all of my mistakes and regrets if you let me correct them. Addison, please I beg you to give me another chance even though I know I don't deserve it, please," begged Alex already on his knees, holding dearly on Addison's hands.

He looked up to see Addison's face, and what he saw made his heart ache even more. Her eyes were already puffy and red due to her crying, and she can't stop shaking.

"I can't, I'm sorry Alex. Just go, please," cried Addison, pulling her hands away from Alex.

"Addie, please, Addie!" shouted Alex.

Addison ran upstairs to her bedroom and Alex followed her. When he was about to reach for Addison again, she closed her bedroom door and locked it. Alex was pounding on the door and begging her to open the door and talk to him.

"Addison! Please, I love you just give me a chance to show that," pleaded Alex.

"Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Stop saying you love me because I don't! Just go!" shouted Addison from the other side of the door.

"I don't believe you, if you don't love me anymore you will say it straight to my face Addison," answered Alex.

When she heard his response, she opened the door and looked Alex straight to his eyes and said, "I'm still in love with you Alexander Michael Karev"

"I knew it, I'm sorry for every pain and hurt I caused you Addison. We can start over again, I don't care if it's here in LA or New York or wherever you like as long as we will be together. We will have a family of our own and I'll teach them how to play catch and we'll have barbecues every Sunday. I'll take them to their soccer games or their piano recitals. We will all go to the mall and watch Disney movies or just go to the park and I will never get tired of pushing their swings. And by the end of the day, even though I feel exhausted from work, I wouldn't care because I have you and our children, I have a real family," smiled Alex.

"But I'm getting married tomorrow," finished Addison, her heart aching so much after hearing what Alex said.

Alex stood frozen on his place, his smile slowly disappearing after what Addison said.

"I'm getting married tomorrow to a man who loves me so much, who was there for me through my darkest and hardest times, who was able to get along with my friends and crazy parents. He is a man who stuck with me even though I told him to leave, he's a man who I am sure will take care of me and wouldn't let me go away without a fight," said Addison.

"But do you love him?" asked Alex, tears freely flowing down his face now.

"That's why I'm choosing him Alex because he loves me so much that he will marry me even though it breaks his heart to see that my heart doesn't belong to him," explained Addison.

"Then why can't we be together? I know it is me who is in your heart Addison," gritted Alex.

"Because I owe him this much to just even try to let him make me love him. I love you so much Alex Karev, but our time's over. Maybe it was always meant to be like this, that we'll love each other so much and yet get hurt also. That you will always be meant for Izzie and I will be meant for someone else," Addison said sadly.

"So, that's it, you're giving up on us?" asked Alex.

"There was never even an 'us', Alex. There were just you and Izzie, then me and Kevin," said Addison.

"What am I suppose to do now, huh? Go back to Izzie and tell her how much I regret the past things I've done and how much I love her?!" argued Alex.

"Yes, that's what you will do Alex. It's the least you can do for Izzie who loved you and took you back even though you cheated," said Addison.

"But she went do Denny after, she fell in love with a patient," said Alex.

"Yes, she did, but you were there when he died. You were there to pick up the pieces of the woman you loved sincerely because you can't accept that someone broke her, that someone broke the love of your life, your wife," said Addison, emphasizing on the wife.

"I can't believe this," scoffed Alex.

"It's just the way it is Alex, we're just not meant to be together," whispered Addison.

"Tomorrow 9am, at the airport I will wait for you there. I will be leaving at around 11:30 so I will wait up until that time but if you don't come, then I won't come back here and we won't probably see each other anymore," said Alex, looking intently at Addison.

"Alex—" Addison said but was cut off by the resident.

"Ssh, I'll wait for you tomorrow my love," said Alex and kissed Addison passionately.

When Alex left, Addison wasn't able to sleep anymore and kept repeating what happened in her head, how Alex perfectly maneuvered his speech on how much he loves her. And almost considered going to the airport tomorrow instead on her wedding, her own wedding. But she suddenly remembered Kevin, the man who is willing to marry her even though he knows she loves someone else. She remembered the time they met in the practice, the time they exchanged names, the first time they dated, the first time they had their fight, the first time she saw him in action, the first time he met her brother, the first time he attended a formal party with Addison, the time they talked sincerely about their pasts, the time he moved in and told her he's in love with her and the time he proposed to her. She can't bear the fact that she will be hurting the man who loved her so much. After pondering so much about the situation, Addison did finally fell asleep with Alex Karev on her mind.

After just a few hours, Addison was woken up by her alarm. Turning it off, she stood up and went to the window where she can see the beautiful scenery where she will be getting married. She never believed that she will get married again and even having her beach wedding. She can see the people down the beach arranging the chairs, the aisle she'll be walking down, the arc where the priest will be standing but she can't still help but to feel discontented.

"Why now Alex, why do you have to go back and ruin my life? Damn it," muttered Addison.

Addison was broken out of her thoughts when someone knocked on her door, and without waiting for an answer she came in. Seeing her best friend standing on the door holding the wedding gown, Addison went to the bathroom and took a shower. After a few minutes, Addison came out and was a bit surprised that Naomi was still in her room.

"Are you okay, Addison?" asked Naomi.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Why do you ask?" Addison said, sitting down in front of the mirror to dry her hair and do her makeup.

"Sam told me what happened last night. What did he tell you Addison?"

"Nothing, Nae. He was just sent here for a conference and he decided to visit me considering I was once his attending, that's all."

"Yeah, right. Addison, this is Alex we're talking about. The last man you slept with before you decided to change your life, this is the man you loved so much but broke your heart into million pieces. So I'm very sure that's just not it."

"Geez, thanks for reminding, Nae," Addison said sarcastically.

"Look, I'm sorry of that was out of line, but Addison it's been two years and I would've thought you're over him now but obviously you're not. He comes here in LA, a day well rather a night before your wedding and then you're starting to act differently,"

"He doesn't even know I'm getting married, Nae. He just found out last night, and it broke my heart to see him like that, so broken and all his hope were lost when I told him I'm getting married. You know what's funny, before he found out I was getting married he gave me this speech on how he wants to show me how sorry he was and then he told me he wants to have a family with me. And even admitted that when he got married, he kept on thinking how I would look like walking down the aisle. He even told me he will wait for me today at the airport," cried Addison.

"Oh, Addie. I'm sorry you're hurting this way. And honestly, I don't know what advice to tell you. But whatever you decide, I will always be here for you. I'll just be downstairs, if you need anything just call," said Naomi, standing up and allowing her friend to have some privacy.

While the final touches for the ceremony were being done, Alex was waiting nervously on the airport. He kept looking around to see a certain redhead and kept glancing on his watch to see the time. As minutes passed by, his nerves didn't calm down at all. He was starting to think that Addison will not come at all but as soon as he thought of that he saw her, the woman he wanted to spend his life with. He stood up and walked to her, not believing that she really was there, in the airport, in front of him. Alex can't stop smiling like an idiot while walking, and when Addison saw him, she can't help but to feel guilty on what she's about to do.

"You came," smiled Alex.

"I did," responded Addison.

Alex hugged Addison so tightly and never wanted to let go. He tilted her head and was about to kiss her when Addison stepped back and gave an amount of space for both of them. Alex was confused on Addison's actions and was about to ask her what's wrong when she spoke.

"I'm Addison Forbes Montgomery," but was cut off by Alex.

"Yeah, I know your full name. It's very long and elegant, but I like it," teased Alex.

"Alex, I'm Addison Forbes Montgomery-Nelson," finished Addison, lifting up her left hand to let him see a ring resting on her ring finger.

Alex froze when she heard those words from her mouth, and his heart broke even more when he saw the ring. After a few minutes, Alex finally found his voice.

"What?" whispered Alex.

"The ceremony finished earlier than we thought, and before you leave I decided to give this, to give us a closure. It's unfair for you and especially to my husband," Addison explained.

"But you're here, don't you think you're starting to be unfair to your husband now," gritted Alex.

"He knows I'm here, he's my husband Alex, I won't make the same mistakes before. I told him what happened last night. Alex, I love you, I really do but Kevin, he loves me so much. I'm sorry if I hurt you but you also hurt me. As I said last night, maybe we're just not really meant to be. I hope you will be happy with Izzie and I wish you the best on your career, I wish you all the happiness Alex," said Addison, who was nearly in tears.

"I won't ever be happy without you," cried Alex.

"Maybe you say that now, but after a few years you will be happy Alex. Both of us will be happy, even though we're apart,"

"So this is it, it's goodbye," said Alex.

"It is goodbye, for now. I hope someday when all of our wounds heal, we'll be able to talk and better, become friends," smiled Addison.

"Yeah, I hope so. Just always remember this, Addison, I love you so much," cried Alex, hugging Addison.

"I love you too," Addison cried, hugging Alex as tight as she could.

When Alex heard his flight being called, he reluctantly let go of Addison and looked at her so intently. Memorizing every features of her face, of her body, feeling how soft her skin is and how her voice sounds. When he heard the call again, he picked up his bags and walked to the gate, trying his very best not to turn around and beg her again. He gave his ticket to the lady and mustered his strength to not to look around. All the while, Addison has been staring at him, crying so much.

"Just turn around, Alex, that's all I'm asking and I'll give up everything. I'll eat my own words, I'll forget everyone, everything. Just turn around, please," muttered Addison.

Sensing that he wasn't going to, Addison look at him once again and slowly walked out of the airport, crying so much. But just the moment she started walking out her spot, Alex turned around thinking that Addison was waiting for him. But when he did, he just saw the redhead walking out. Alex almost broke down again when he saw the love of his life walking out, but decided to leave it be and really believe they weren't meant be.

Both of them going into different directions and forgetting about everything, both of them thinking they were never meant to be together, but both of them thinking the same thing:

"I love you so much, Addison," whispered Alex on his seat on the airplane.

"I love you so much, Alex," cried Addison on her car.