Author's Note: So after a long time (probably a few months), I have posted a new Addex oneshot again. Anyway, in this story let's just say that Addison didn't attend the wedding of Burke and Cristina; and Alex was supposed to come too but some things got in the way, don't worry you'll know what I'm talking about when you read the story. Well, that's all I have to say here. Oh and wait, I promise updated my "Find A Way" story, I'm just had a bit of writer's block there. And I apologize in advance if you don't like this that much, I just did this for like 2 hours and I got distracted halfway through my writing 'cause GA was on, anyway enough with my ramblings, go on, enjoy!

"I guess it's gonna have to hurt, I guess I'm gonna have to cry,

And let go of some things I've loved to get to the other side,

I guess it's gonna break me down like falling when you try to fly,

It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,

Starts with goodbye."

~ Starts With Goodbye by Carrie Underwood ~

Three months has passed since a certain gorgeous redhead attending left Seattle Grace Hospital. And in those three months, no doctor can surpass or even be close to the said redhead's records. A certain doctor is muttering and swearing for he can't still find a good replacement for the sudden resignation of the woman he treated as his daughter. Richard had tried to make Addison stay, try to reason out the things why she should stay but the perfectly rehearsed script he made didn't work, he still found a resignation letter neatly placed on his desk. Sighing, Richard put down his glasses and thought of a way on how he will make the now 12th hospital in the city back to the top.

Not only Richard misses Addison though, a lot of people also miss her. There are Mark, Callie, Miranda, and even the interns miss her; yes, even Meredith and Izzie do miss her. But among those interns, a certain intern (or rather resident now) named Alex Karev misses her the most. When he heard that Addison was resigning, he thought it was a joke so he decided to just ask her and make things clear. He still remembers very clearly that day, that moment when he asked her if she will really be leaving.

"Are you leaving?" asked the panting intern.

"Yes, I am. And why are you panting like you've just ran the whole hospital?" asked the curious redhead.

"Well, you're a hard person to track," answered Alex.

Addison was about to retort on his answer when Alex interrupted her.

"Why are you leaving? I mean, Seattle Grace is one of the great hospitals here in the state. You have a life here, you have friends here," said Alex.

"You're right, Seattle Grace is a great hospital, and yes I do have a life and friends here but don't you think I would've been back in New York if we're talking about that certain aspect? I mean, I had a great career there, have great friends, and had a great life back there. So basically, you can't reason that," smirked Addison.

"You didn't answer my question, why are you leaving?" asked the fidgeting intern.

"Let's just say that I can't make my job my life," answered Addison, remembering what Richard told her earlier.

"What the hell are you talking about?"

"Look Karev, shouldn't you be on your way to the wedding now? And I don't have time to talk anymore, I still need to go back to the hotel and pack my things," said Addison, picking up her purse and walking to the door.

"Are you leaving because of me?" Alex asked, stopping the attending with his hand on her arm.

When Addison heard Alex's question and felt his hand on her, she gasped. Turning around, she glared and attempted to free her arm from his strong grip but she can't, so she just slapped him which made him stumble a bit but definitely made her arm free from his grip.

"You do not get to do this! And how dare you suggest that you're the reason I'm leaving! If I am leaving Derek would be the first of the many reasons! You wouldn't even make it in the list!" gritted Addison.

As Addison finished talking, Alex laughed with what she said and Addison looked at him like he was crazy.

"Derek, that ass ex-husband of yours? Really, then if he was the reason then you would have left already months ago, when you found Meredith's panties on his tux. And if you were to reason that it's Mark, then why did you make that bet with him, huh? So just tell me the truth Addison, that I am the reason you're leaving!" shouted Alex.

"You are so full of yourself! Fine, Derek and Mark aren't the main reason but they play a part on it. I'm leaving because I didn't get the Chief of Surgery—" but was suddenly cut off by Alex.

"Bullshit! Stop telling me lies, Addison! I know when someone lies, I'm expert on it I do it a lot. I know you're lying!" argued Alex.

"Fine, you win! YOU are the reason why I'm leaving! You wanna know why, huh? Because you barge in my surgeries even though you're not on my service anymore, you brought Mark vanilla latte because he was rude to me, you said you will notice when I'm missing, you are a great, intelligent and caring guy. Then you said those words that made my heart ache, no wait not ache, that made my heart break into tiny pieces! You're worse than those people who pays for sex because YOU MADE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU and then you just make me feel used! How dare you do that to me! I thought you were different because you saw what's been going on with me for the past few months, I thought you really cared but apparently not! So there is your answer, are you happy now huh? YOU ARE THE REASON I'M LEAVING!" shouted Addison, tears streaming down her face.

Alex can't seem to stop looking at her when she was shouting at him, it's like he was hypnotized and a voice keeps saying in his head that the pain the woman's feeling that moment was because of him. Both of them didn't even notice that an audience gathered already until Callie dragged Addison away from the hallway and went to the nearest on-call room. He was still speechless and was just brought to reverie when his resident shouted to everyone to get back to work. He looked at Bailey and he saw the disappointed look she gave, after that she went and followed her friend who's deeply in need of comfort.

After that encounter, he never seen Addison and never asked Callie nor Bailey if they know where she is. His friends asked and bugged him to just find Addison because he clearly has feelings for her. But he reasoned out that he doesn't want to get involved anymore, because he hurt her enough already. He focused on his work, to try to get Addison out of his mind as much as he could and sometimes it works, especially now that he's not in the OBGYN service anymore, he's in plastics now. It took some time for him to be in plastics because Mark was upset with him for what he did to Addison but eventually Mark decided to teach Alex because he saw how miserable the former intern was. And everytime Alex was around, Addison's name cannot be mentioned because he'll be blank for a minute or so and then be either cranky or depressed; so they kind of made Addison's name taboo when Alex is around.

Meanwhile, thousand miles away from the rain city a certain someone cannot sleepy peacefully. She stared outside the window and cannot believe in was raining in Los Angeles. In Los freakin' Angeles, where everything should be more fun, sunnier and magical! But apparently, God still hates her for being an adulterer and decided that rain must follow her. And she can't help but to be depressed because a lot reminds her of the rain: that night when Derek threw her out of the house, that night when she found Mark screwing another woman, Seattle and all those haunting memories she had when she was trying to save her marriage, and especially that time when she broke down in front of half the hospital and Alex; Alex Karev, the intern she can't still seem to forget and still in love with. Realizing she can't go to sleep because of the rain, she decided to watch a movie.

After a few minutes, Addison found a movie which caught her attention and remembered what the title of the movie was. She watched it for a while, trying to wrap her mind on why the girl is not the least scared that her childhood friend's a werewolf and what she claims as the love of her life is a vampire. As the movie progressed by, Addison began to become engrossed with it.

'Wow, I hope I had that much of courage in loving someone. I mean I can't even love a normal person,' thought Addison.

When the movie was finished, Addison looked at the wall clock and realized it was already 4am in the morning. She decided to take a hike or maybe run in the beach so that she can get some things off her mind; she changed into running attire and then realized it was still raining but she didn't care so she ran in the rain, in the cold trying to forget things from the past, especially a rather someone. After running for at least an hour, she went back to her house drenched from head to toe. She was about to head to the bathroom to take a shower but she heard her phone ring, which made her confused considering it was just around 5 in the morning. She reached for her phone and frowned for she didn't recognize the number so she decided to ignore the call. But as she was about to head back to the bathroom, her phone rang again. She decided to let it ring, but she suddenly stopped when the caller was sent to her voicemail and she immediately recognized the caller's voice.

"I don't want to move on. I miss you so much and I still regret that day, that moment when I let you walk out of my life forever. I know I haven't really told you how I felt all those times, but I love you, actually I still am in love with you. But I do hope you're happy and doing fine now, if you are and hearing me say this makes you mad or upset then I'm sorry. I just thought that for once, you'd like to hear the truth from someone like me. Goodbye, Addison. You will forever be my heart, my life," *beeeep*

Addison broke down into full blown sobs when the message was finished. 3 months has passed and she can't believe that the man who always invades her thought called her and told her he loves her. Addison doesn't know what to do, after a few minutes she finally calmed down and picked up her phone.

"Hi, I'm trying to be happy, I'm trying my best to move on, to forget everything but the more I try the most I can't forget. A lot has happened that day when I left but you have to understand I moved away for a reason and I have to live up with that. We both hurt each other so much but I would like to thank you for telling me the truth. You will forever be in my heart, goodbye my Alex," cried Addison on the phone.

Back in the rainy state Seattle, a certain resident who was known as the bad boy and man whore broke down and held his phone dearly, never ever want to let go to that something that makes his life go on. Two different place, two different people, two different personalities and thousands miles in between them, they both shared one thing that night: longing and missing the love of someone they truly never had.

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