Chapter 19

"ABARAI-TAICHO!!" Renji was doubled-over heaving into the fourth division toilet. Hands grabbed at him but all he did was shove them all away. He did not want to be touched right. He could not be touched.

"Abarai-Taicho." The hesitant voice of Hanataro broke though his crazed world as he turned to face the boy. He must have looked like a wreck if it caused even that poor boy to draw back as if he had seen a ghost.

"Are you alright Abarai-Taicho?"

"Stop calling me that will ya? You've known me for long enough. It's Renji."

"Yeah, Renji." Hanataro went back to his healer questions with a small smile. "But are you alright."

"I…I am." Renji's mind replayed what he had just seen and instantly went back to heaving over the toilet.

"RENJI-SAN!!"

That was how the 6th division captain wound up laying back on the bathroom with the healer hands examining him through an open hamaka and a strewn to the side haori.

"If anyone saw this, I don't think I'd ever be able to live it down."

"Why is that?" Hanataro smiled innocently. Renji sweatdropped. This kid needs sex-ed and A LOT of it.

"Nothing."

"What happened Renji-san?"

"Nothing." Sitting up with a wince, Renji closed up the hamaka and draped the haori over his shoulder. "I just didn't need to know a few things."

"Renji-san—!"

"I have to get back." He would be there for him. He would be there for him. He started at the six on the white cloth.

"This has always belonged to you." He entered the room and prepared for what happens next.

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He was awake. He knew he was awake. White walls surrounded him. WHITE!! He scrambled, rolling off the table, biting back a yelp as he crashed into the floor with his damaged ribs. There was someone calling his name, reaching out to him with their hands. He slapped them away with a snarl and struggled to stand. He was still too weak and closed his eyes as he prepared to deal with another hard hit with the floor. Maybe this time the floor would let him win. Arms wrapped around him before he could and pulled him into a broad chest. This time, he screamed. The arms shook, tightening as lips pressed themselves to his ear and desperate whispering bounced off his eardrums. He screamed again, collapsing, dragging the other to the floor with him. He was kicking again, his feet flying, screaming; trying to get away.

"I won't let you go. I won't let you go. You're here, you're safe. I won't let you go." He was tiring. A few more kicks and he felt black spots form in his vision.

"What do you want with me?"

"I want you to know you're safe." He felt the hands pushing him gently into a sitting position. He was being picked up. Looking up, he met brown eyes.

"WHY DID YOU BETRAY US?!" Ran through his mind and he gasped.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Brown eyes widened as the lips began to widen. Apparently they were yelling something.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." He let the dark oblivion claim him again. Somehow, somewhere though, he knew the red would be there.

To all my faithful readers,

Hi, this is Inumaru speaking. Thank you to all of you who have reviewed. I'm a review whore so I love reading everything you guys have to say. I'm sorry about the japanese and english and the misspellings but I watch the subbed version and can't get the japanese out of my head. I'm sorry for this short update but more will be coming and fast.

Thank you all again

Inumaru Higurashi